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CHAPTER XI.
Thegrey sky and the dim trees, the black hedges and the absolute stillness; all these proved excellent comforters to Florence. They made her philosophical and almost smiling again. It was only when an empty waggonette of Steggall’s passed her that she remembered the vexations of the morning. “Poor old lady,” she said to herself with almost a laugh, “in future she must not be trusted with money, that is all. If she only would not scold me and treat me like a child, I should not mind it so much. Of course when Walter does it, I like it; but I don’t like it from Aunt Anne.”
She had walked a long way. She was getting tired. The messengers of night were abroad, the stray breezes, the dark flecked clouds, the shadows loitering by the trees, the strange little sounds among the hedges by the wayside. Far off, beyond the wood, she heard a clock belonging to a big house strike six. It was time to hurry home. If she walked the two miles between herself and the cottage quickly, she would be in by half-past six. At seven, after the children had gone to bed, she and Aunt Anne were to sit down to a little evening meal they called supper. They would be very cosy that night; they would linger over their food, and Aunt Anne should talk of bygone days, and the quaint old world that always seemed to be just behind her.
It was rather dull in the country, Florence thought. In the summer, of course, the outdoor life made it delightful, but now there was so little to fill the days, only the children and the housekeeping, wonderings about Walter, and the writing of the bit of diary on very thin paper which she had promised to post out to him every week. She was not a woman who made an intellectual atmosphere for herself. She lived her life through her husband, read the same books, and drew her conclusions by the light of his. Now that he had gone the world seemed half empty, and very dull and tame. There was no glamour over anything. Perhaps it was this that had helped to make her a little unkind to Aunt Anne, for gradually she was persuading herself that she had been unkind. She wished Aunt Anne had an income of her own, and the home for which she had said she longed. It would be so much better for everybody.
When she was nearly home, a sudden dread seized her lest Mr. Wimple should be there, but this, she reflected, was not likely. It was long past calling-time, and Aunt Anne was too great a stickler for etiquette to allow him to take a liberty, as she would call it. So Florence quickened her steps, and entered her home bravely to the sound of the children’s voices upstairs singing as they went to bed. A fire was blazing in the dining-room, and everything looked comfortable, just as it had the night before. But there was no sign of Aunt Anne. Probably she was upstairs “getting ready,” for a lace cap and bit of white at her throat and an extra formal, though not less affectionate, manner than usual Aunt Anne seemed to think a fitting accompaniment to the evening meal. Florence looked round the dining-room with a little pride of ownership. She was fond of the cottage, it was their very own, hers and Walter’s; and how wise they had been to do up that particular room, it made every meal they ate in it a pleasure. That buttery-hatch too, it was absurd that it should be so, but really it was a secret joy to her. Suddenly her eye caught a package that had evidently come in her absence. A parcel of any sort was always exciting. This could not be another present from Aunt Anne? and she drew a short breath. Oh no, it had come by rail. Books. She knew what it was—some novels from Mr. Fisher. “How kind he is,” she said gratefully; “he says so few words, but he does so many things. I really don’t see why Ethel should not love him. I don’t think she would find it difficult to do so,” she thought, with the forgetfulness of womanhood for the days of girlish fancy.
“Mrs. Baines has not yet returned,” the servant said, entering to arrange the table.
“Not returned. Is she out, then?”
“Yes, ma’am, she started half an hour after you did. Steggall’s waggonette came for her.”
Florence groaned inwardly.
“Do you know where she has gone?”
“I think she has gone to Guildford, ma’am, shopping; she often did while you were away. I heard her tell the driver to drive quickly to the station, as she feared she was late.”
“Oh. Did any one call, Jane?”
“No, ma’am.”
Then, once more, Florence delivered herself over to despair. Aunt Anne must have gone to buy more surprises, and if she had only ten shillings in the world it was quite clear she would have to get them on credit. Something would have to be done. The tradespeople would have to be warned. Walter must be written to, and, if necessary, asked to cable over advice. Perhaps Sir William Rammage would interfere. In the midst of all her perturbation seven o’clock struck, and there was no Aunt Anne.
Florence was a healthy young woman, and she had had a long walk. The pangs of hunger assailed her vigorously, so, after resisting them till half-past seven, she sat down to her little supper alone. Food has a soothing effect on an agitated mind, and a quarter of an hour later, though Aunt Anne had not appeared, Florence had come to the conclusion that she could not get very deeply into debt, because it was not likely that the tradespeople would trust her. Perhaps, too, after all, she had not gone to Guildford. Still, what could keep her out so late? The roads were dark and lonely, she knew no one in the neighbourhood. It was to be hoped that nothing had happened to her, and, at this thought, Florence began to reproach herself again for all her unkindness of the morning. But while she was still reviewing her own conduct with much severity there was a soft patter, patter, along the gravel path outside, and a feeble ring at the bell. “That dissipated old lady!” laughed Florence to herself, only too delighted to think that she had returned safely at last.
A moment later Aunt Anne entered. She was a little breathless, her left eye winked more frequently than usual, there was an air of happy excitement in her manner. She entered the room quickly, and seated herself in the easy-chair with a sigh of relief.
“My darling,” she said, looking fondly at Florence, “I trust you did not wait for me, and that I have not caused you any inconvenience. But if I have,” she added in an almost cooing voice, “you will forgive me when you know all.”
“Oh yes, dear Aunt Anne, I will forgive you,” and Florence signed to Jane to bring a plate. “You must be shockingly hungry,” she laughed. “Where have you been, may I know?”
“I will tell you presently, my darling; you shall know all. But I cannot eat anything,” Aunt Anne answered quickly. Even the thought of food seemed to make her impatient. “Jane,” she said, with the little air of pride that Jane resented, “you need not bring a plate for me. I do not require anything.” Then, speaking to Florence again, she went on with half-beaming, half-condescending gentleness, “Finish your repast, my darling; pray don’t let my intrusion—for it is an intrusion when I am not able to join in your meal—hurry you. When you have finished, but not till then, I have a communication to make to you. It is one I feel to be due to you before any one else; and it will prove to you how much I depend on your sympathy and love.” She spoke with earnestness, unfastening her cloak and nervously fastening it the while. Florence looked at her with a little pity. Poor old lady, she thought, how easily she worked herself into a state of excitement.
“Tell me what it is now, dear Aunt Anne,” she said. “Has anything occurred to worry you? Where have you been—to Guildford?”
“To Guildford? No, my dear. Something has occurred, but not to worry me. It is something that will make me very happy, and I trust that it will make you very happy to hear it. I rely on your sympathy and Walter’s to support me.” Florence was not very curious. Aunt Anne had always so much earnestness at her command, and was very prodigal of it. Besides, it did not seem likely that anything important had happened; some trifling pleasure or vexation, probably; nothing more.
At last the little meal was finished, the things pushed through the buttery-hatch, the crumbs swept off the cloth by Jane, who seemed to linger in a manner that Mrs. Baines in her own mind felt to be wholly reprehensible and wanting in respect towards her superiors. But the cloth was folded and put away at last, the buttery-hatch closed, the fire adjusted, and the door shut. Aunt Anne gave a sigh of relief, then throwing her cloak back over the chair, she rose and stood irresolute on the hearth-rug. Florence went towards her.
“Have you been anywhere by train?” she asked.
“No, my love. I went to the station to meet some one.” She trembled with excitement while she spoke. Florence noticed it with wonder.
“What is it, Aunt Anne?” she asked gently.
The old lady stretched out her two thin hands, and suddenly dropped her head for a moment on Florence’s shoulder; but she raised it quickly, and evidently struggled to be calm.
“My darling,” she said, “I know you will sympathize with me, I know your loving heart. I knew it the first day I saw you, when you were at Rottingdean, and stood under the pear-tree with your dear Walter——”
“Yes, oh yes, dear——” Florence had so often heard of that pear-tree. But what could it have to do with the present situation?
—“I shall never forget the picture you two made,” the old lady went on, not heeding the interruption; “I knew all that was in your dear heart then, just as I feel that you will understand all that is in mine now.” Her face was flushed, her eyes were almost bright, and there were tears in them; the left one winked tremulously.
Florence looked at her in amazement. “What is it, Aunt Anne? Do tell me; tell me at once, dear?” she said entreatingly. “And where you have been, so late and in the dark.” For a moment Aunt Anne hesitated, then, with a gasp and a strong effort to be calm and dignified, she raised her head and spoke.
“My dear—my dear, all this time I have been with Alfred Wimple. He loves me.”
“He loves you,” Florence repeated, her eyes full of wonder; “he loves you. Yes, of course he loves you, we all do,” she said soothingly, too much surprised to speculate farther.
“Yes, he loves me,” Aunt Anne said again, in an almost solemn voice, “and I have promised to be his wife.”
“Aunt Anne!—to marry him!”
“Yes, dear, to marry him,” and she waited as if for congratulations.
“But, Aunt Anne, dear——” Florence began in astonishment, and then she stopped; for though she had had some idea of the old lady’s infatuation, she had never dreamt of its ending in matrimony. Mrs. Baines was excited and strange; it might be some delusion, some joke that had been played on her, for Mr. Wimple could not have seriously asked her to marry him. She waited, not knowing what to say. But Aunt Anne’s excitement seemed to be passing, and with a tender, pitiful expression on her face, she waited for her niece to speak. “But, Aunt Anne, dear,” was all Florence could say again in her bewilderment.
“But what, Florence?” Mrs. Baines spoke with a surprised, half-resentful manner. “Have you nothing more to say to me, my love?”
“But you are not really going to marry him, are you?” Florence asked, in an incredulous voice.
The old lady answered in a terribly earnest one.
“Yes, Florence, I am; and never shall man have truer, more loving help-meet than I will be to him,” she burst out heroically, holding herself erect and looking her niece in the face. There was something infinitely pathetic about her as she stood there, quivering with feeling and aching for sympathy, yet old, wrinkled, and absurd, her poor scanty hair pushed back and her weak eyes full of tears. For a moment there was silence. Then bewildered Florence broke out with—
“But, Aunt Anne, but, Aunt Anne——”
“Well, my love?” the old lady asked with calm dignity.
“He—he is much younger than you,” she said at last, bringing out her words slowly, and hating herself for saying them.
“Age is not counted by years, my darling; and if he does not feel my age a drawback, why should I count his youth one? He loves me, Florence, I know he loves me,” Aunt Anne broke out in a passionate, tearful voice, “and you would not have me throw away or depreciate a faithful heart that has been given me?”
Then the practical side of Florence’s nature spoke up in despair. “But, Aunt Anne, he—is very poor.”
“I know he is poor, but he is young and strong and hopeful; and he will work. He says he will work like a slave for me; and if he is content to face poverty with me, how can I be afraid to face it with him?”
“But you want comforts, and——”
“Oh no, my love. My tastes are very simple, and I shall be content to do without them for his sake.”
“But at your time of life, dear Aunt Anne, you do want them—you are not young—as he is.” Then Mrs. Baines burst into tears, tears that were evidently a blessed relief, and had been pent up in her poor old heart, waiting for an excuse to come forth.
“Florence, I did not think you would tell me of my age. If I do not feel it, and he does not, why should you remind me of it? And why should you tell me that he is poor? Do you suppose that I am so selfish or—or so depraved that I would sell myself for comfort and luxury? If he can face poverty with me, I can face it with him.”
“Yes, yes, but——” The old lady did not heed her, and went on breathlessly—
“I did think, Florence, that you would have been kind to me, and understood and sympathized. I told him that on your heart and Walter’s I could rely. You know how lonely I have been, how desolate and how miserable. But for your bounty and goodness I should have died——”
“Oh no——”
“And now, in this great crisis—now, when a young, brave, beautiful life is laid at my feet, now that I am loved as truly as ever woman was loved in this world, as tenderly as Walter loves you, Florence, you fail me, as—as if”—she put her hand to her throat to steady her quivering voice—“as if you would not let me taste the cup of happiness of which you drink every day.”
“But, Aunt Anne, it isn’t that indeed,” Florence answered, thinking despairingly of Walter, and wishing that she could begin writing that very minute, asking him what on earth she ought to say or do. “It is that—that—it is so unexpected, so strange. I knew, of course, that you liked him, that you were good friends; but I never dreamt that he was in love with you.” Aunt Anne’s tears seemed to vanish as if by magic, her left eye winked almost fiercely, her lips opened, but no sound came. With a great effort she recovered her voice at last, and with some of her old dignity, dashed with severe surprise, she asked—
“My darling, is there any reason why he should not love me?”
She stood gravely waiting for a reply, while Florence felt that she was managing badly, that she was somehow hurting and insulting Aunt Anne. After all, the old lady had a right to do as she liked; it was evident that she was incapable of taking in the absurdity of the situation.
“But, Aunt Anne——” she began and stopped.
“My dear Florence,” Mrs. Baines repeated still more severely, “will you tell me if there is any very obvious reason why he should not love me? I am not an ogress, my darling—I am not an ogress,” she cried, suddenly breaking down and bursting into floods of tears, while her head dropped on to her black merino dress.
She looked so old and worn, so wretched and lonely as she stood there weeping bitterly, that Florence could stand it no longer, and going forward she put her arms round the poor old soul, and kissed her fondly.
“No, dear Aunt Anne,” she said, “you are not an ogress; you are a sweet old dear, and I love you. Don’t cry—don’t cry, you dear.”
“My love, you are cruel to me,” Aunt Anne sobbed.
“Oh no, I am not, and you shall marry any one you like. It was a little surprising, you know, and of course I didn’t—I didn’t think that marrying was in your thoughts,” she added feebly, for she didn’t know what to say.
“Bless you, my darling, bless you,” the old lady gasped, grateful for even that straw of comfort; “I knew you would be staunch to me when you had recovered from the surprise of my communication, but——” and she gently disengaged herself from Florence’s embrace and spoke in the nervous quivering voice that always came to her in moments of excitement—“but, Florence, since the first moment we met, Alfred Wimple and I have felt that we were ordained for each other.”
“Yes, dear,” Florence said soothingly.
“He says he shall never forget the moments we sat together on your balcony that night when your dear Walter fetched the white shawl—of yours, Florence—to put round my shoulders,” the old lady went on earnestly. “And the sympathy between us is so great that we do not feel the difference of years; besides, he says he has never liked very young women, he has always felt that the power to love accumulated with time, as my power to love has done. Few of the women who have been loved by great men have been very young, my darling.”
“I didn’t know,” Florence began, for Aunt Anne had paused, almost as if she were repeating something she had learned by heart.
“He asked me to-night,” she went on with another little gasp, “if I remembered—if I remembered—I forget——but all the great passions of history have been concentrated on women in their prime. Petrarch’s Laura had eight children when the poet fell in love with her, and Helen of Troy was sixty when—when—I forget,” she said again, shaking her head; “but he remembers; he went through them all to-night. Besides, I may be old in years, but I am not old at heart; you cannot say that I am, Florence.”
She was getting excited again. Almost without her knowledge Florence led her to the easy-chair, and gently pushing her on to it, undid the strings and tried to take off her bonnet; but the old lady resisted.
“No, my dear, don’t take off my bonnet,” she said, “unless you will permit me to ring,” she added, getting back to her old-fashioned ways, “and request Jane to bring me my cap from upstairs.”
But Florence felt that Jane might look curiously at the wrinkled face that still showed signs of recent agitation, so she put her hand softly on the one that Aunt Anne had stretched out to touch the bell.
“I will get it for you, dear,” she said, and in a moment she had flown upstairs and brought down the soft lace cap put ready on the bed, and the cashmere slippers edged with fur and lined with red flannel, in which Aunt Anne liked to encase her feet in the evening. “There, now, you will feel better, you poor dear,” she said when they were put on and the old lady sat silent and composed, looking as if she were contemplating her future, and the new life before her. Florence stood by her silently for a moment, thinking over the past weeks in which Aunt Anne, with her poverty and dignity, her generosity and recklessness, had formed so striking a figure. Then she thought of the lonely life the poor old lady had led in the Kilburn lodging.
After all, if she only had even a very little happiness with that horrid Mr. Wimple, it would be something; and of course, if he didn’t behave properly, Walter could take her away. The worst of it was she had understood that Mr. Wimple had no money. She had heard that he lived on a small allowance from an uncle, and the uncle might stop that allowance when he heard that his nephew had married an old woman who had not a penny.
“Aunt Anne,” she asked gently, “does he know that you are not rich?”
“Florence, I told him plainly that I had no fortune,” the old lady answered, with a pathetic half-hunted look on her face that made Florence hate herself for her lack of sympathy. But she felt that she ought to ask some questions. Walter would be so angry if she allowed her to go into misery and fresh poverty without making a single effort to save her.
“And has he money, dear—enough to keep you both, at any rate?”
The tears trickled down Aunt Anne’s face again while she answered—
“If I did not ask him that question, Florence, it is not for you to ask it me. I neither know nor care what he has. If he is willing to take me for myself only, so am I willing to take him, loving him for himself only too. I am too old to marry for money, and he is too noble to do so. We are grown-up man and woman, Florence, and know our own hearts; we will brook no interference, my darling, not even from you.” She got up tremblingly. “I must retire; you must allow me to retire, and in the privacy of my own room I shall be able to reflect.”
The long words were coming back; they were a sign that Aunt Anne was herself again.
“Yes, dear Aunt Anne; I am sure you must want to be alone, and to think,” Florence said gently.
The old lady was not appeased.
“You know—you remember what you felt yourself when your Walter first loved you, Florence,” she said distantly. “Yes, I must be alone; my heart is full—I must be alone.”
Florence led her upstairs to her room. Mrs. Baines stood formally in the doorway.
“Good-night, my love,” she said, with cold disappointment in her voice.
“May not I help you, Aunt Anne?” Florence asked, almost entreatingly.
“No, my love, I must be alone,” Mrs. Baines repeated firmly, and shut the door.
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CHAPTER XII.
Thenext morning Aunt Anne did not appear. She sent word that she would like her breakfast carried up, a fire lighted in her room, and to be left alone for a couple of hours.
Florence was distracted. She had written to Walter, but as the mail did not go out till three days later, nothing was gained by her haste. She had considered things all round, and the more she did so the more amazing did Mr. Wimple’s proposal seem. It was all nonsense to suppose, as Aunt Anne evidently believed, that he was in love with a woman more than twice his age. Florence mentally reviewed Aunt Anne’s charms. She was not even a round, plump old lady with rosy cheeks, and a stray dimple that seemed to have found her company so good it was loath to vanish altogether. She was wrinkled, and thin, and feeble-looking. Her eyes were small and weak, the left one had the nervous affection that so often provided an almost droll accompaniment to her talk. Her skin was withered and sallow. Florence tried to feel like a young man about to marry Aunt Anne, and the idea was not pleasant. She felt that it was almost a duty to prevent the marriage if possible—that Aunt Anne owed it to her past years, to her own dignity, to her relations, to every one and everything not to make a fool of herself.
The children went out at ten o’clock. Florence listened to their shouts of joy as they drove off in the donkey-cart. Then, hurrying through her domestic affairs, she sat down on one of the gaunt easy-chairs by the drawing-room fire to think matters over again. It somehow seemed fitting to sit in the old-world little room while she considered Aunt Anne’s romance. She could hear the old lady moving about overhead, but was afraid to go up, for she had been refused admittance two hours ago. Jane, who was overwhelmed with curiosity, had managed to go in and out once or twice, and reported that Mrs. Baines was dressed and looking through the contents of her trunks “just as if she was packing up.” Florence wondered what it meant, and a dim suspicion of the truth crossed her mind. She felt too as if in the little cottage by the lonely roadside a tragedy was beginning in which Aunt Anne would play the central figure. She shut her eyes for a moment, and, as if in a dream, could see the old lady wringing her thin hands, and stretching them out almost imploringly. “Oh, dear Aunt Anne,” she cried, “something must be done. No good can come of this wild nonsense.”
Suddenly on the gravel footpath outside she heard a footstep, just as she had heard Aunt Anne’s footstep the night before. She got up quickly and looked out. It was Mr. Wimple. He must have come up from the dip at the end of the garden, the short way from Hindhead and the Liphook Road. He was going round the house. Florence darted out and opened the front door before he had time to ring. All in a moment it had struck her that if she could get a talk with him, some explanation, perhaps some good, might come of it. Yet her heart ached, she felt cruel and treacherous, as if she were trying to cheat Aunt Anne of a promise—even though it was a ridiculous promise—of happiness. She thought of the poor old lady’s tears, of her pleading, of her piteous, “as if you grudged me the cup of happiness of which you taste every day.” After all, she had a right to do as she pleased; but that was a foolish argument. She had a right to put herself on the kitchen fire if she pleased, but it would be distinctly the duty of the nearest person to pull her off and prevent her from being burnt.
Mr. Wimple stared at Florence. “How do you do, Mrs. Hibbert?” he said with extreme gravity. He did not hold out his hand or look as if he expected to enter, but stood still on the door-step.
“I saw you coming and wanted to speak to you, Mr. Wimple,” she said almost breathlessly. “Won’t you come in?” Without a word he entered. She led the way to the drawing-room and shut the door. She pointed to one of the chairs beside the screen with a peacock on it, and he sat down, still without a word, and waited for her to speak. She took the other chair and faced him. The light was full upon him, but there was no expression in his eyes, not even one of inquiry.
“Mr. Wimple,” she said, in a low voice, for she was afraid of Aunt Anne above hearing the hum of conversation, “I wanted to speak to you about Aunt Anne—Mrs. Baines.” He looked at her then, but still he said nothing. “I am very fond of her,” she added, as if in excuse for her interference.
“I am sure you are,” he answered, and waited. Florence was forced to go on.
“She came home last night, and she surprised me so—she told me—oh, Mr. Wimple, it can’t be true?”
“What cannot be true, Mrs. Hibbert?” he asked, speaking like an automaton.
“That—that—you had asked her to marry you?”
“It is quite true,” he said, and looked at her unflinchingly; his face wore an expression of slight surprise.
“But it is so strange and unsuitable; she is so much older than you.”
“I know she is much older.” He seemed to unlock his lips every time he spoke.
“She is quite old and feeble,” Florence said compassionately.
“Yes, she is quite old and feeble,” he repeated.
“And, Mr. Wimple, do you know that she is not rich, that—that she has no money, nothing. She is poor.”
“I know she is poor, Mrs. Hibbert.” He seemed to be afflicted with an utter destitution of language, an incapacity to say anything but the shortest, most cut-and-dried sentence. It affected Florence. But again she struggled on; though she felt her words come with difficulty.
“And you—forgive me, but I am fond of her—and you, I believe, are not rich. Walter told me that you were not, and—and——” She was beginning to despair of making any way with Mr. Wimple, his eyes were dull and uninterested, he seemed insensible to everything except the burden of his own gravity.
“I am not rich, Mrs. Hibbert,” he said. The manner in which he repeated her name at the end of every sentence irritated Florence.
“And oh, Mr. Wimple,” she went on, “it is so—so absurd.” But he said nothing, though she waited. “It is so strange, and Walter will be very angry.”
“It is not Walters affair, Mrs. Hibbert, it is mine,” he said.
“And hers, and Aunt Anne’s too.”
“And hers,” he repeated.
“And she is old, she wants comforts and luxury; and oh, I cannot bear to think of it. It seems cruel.”
“We have talked it all over, Mrs. Hibbert; she knows best herself what she wants,” he answered, without the slightest change in his manner.
“But are you really in love with her?”
“I am very fond of her,” he said blankly.
Florence put her hand to her throat to steady her utterance.
“But you are not in love with her? You can’t be; she is old enough to be your mother. She is a dear, sweet old lady, but you can’t be in love with her.”
“I don’t see the necessity of our discussing this,” he said, still with extreme gravity.
“But she is my aunt, at least she is Walter’s, which is all the same.” He gave a little dry cough.
“Mrs. Baines and I have settled our affairs, Mrs. Hibbert,” he said. “There is no necessity to go over them.”
“But it is so ridiculous.”
“Then we will not talk about it.” Suddenly he looked at her; there was no change in his tone, but he opened his eyes a little wider as if to impress upon her the importance of his next words. “We don’t wish our private affairs made known to the world,” he said. “There is no necessity to talk of them at all; they are of no importance except to ourselves. We don’t wish to talk about them or to hear of their being talked about. Will you remember this, Mrs. Hibbert?” It was quite a relief to get three consecutive sentences out of him.
“But, Mr. Wimple, do tell me that, if you persist in marrying her, you will make her happy, you will be good to her, and—that you can keep her in some sort of comfort,” Florence said in despair.
“I will talk to her about this, Mrs. Hibbert. It is her affair,” he said solemnly; and Florence felt altogether worsted, left out in the cold, put back, and powerless. She sat silently by the fire, not knowing what to do or say. Mr. Wimple made no sign. She looked up at him after a minute or two. What could Aunt Anne see to like in him, in his dull eyes, his thin lips, his straggling sandy hair and whiskers, his pink-and-white, yet unhealthy-looking complexion? He met her gaze steadily. “Is there anything more you wish to say to me?” he asked; “I have not much time.”
“No,” she answered, chokingly, “there is nothing—if you would only be a son to her, a friend, anything, rather than marry her. Oh, Mr. Wimple, if you really do care for her, don’t make her ridiculous in her old age, don’t make her unhappy. Happiness cannot come of an absurd marriage like this. You ought to marry a girl, a young woman. One day Walter and I saw you at Waterloo——”
He fixed his eyes upon her, and there was a slight look of curiosity in them now, but he was absolutely calm.
“Well, Mrs. Hibbert?” he said.
“We thought that perhaps she was—was some one you liked; she was young, it would have been much more suitable.”
“I must know what I desire, and what is most suitable for myself, Mrs. Hibbert,” he answered, without a shade of vexation, but with quiet determination in his voice. Then Jane, evidently to her own satisfaction, entered.
“If you please, ma’am, Mrs. Baines says she would like to speak to Mr. Wimple when you have quite finished with him.”
“Tell Mrs. Baines I will go up to her in a moment; I want to see her.” She turned to Mr. Wimple again when Jane had gone. He rose as if to signify that he considered their conversation at an end. “I fear there is nothing more to say,” she said lamely, for this man, with his silence and utter lack of response, had made every word that suggested itself seem weak and hopeless.
“I think not, Mrs. Hibbert.”
“But for your own happiness, Mr. Wimple,” she said suddenly, struck with a new way of putting it, “you surely can’t want to marry Mrs. Baines for the sake of your own happiness.”
“I want to marry Mrs. Baines as much for my own sake as for hers,” and he looked at her in a manner that was almost a dismissal. It had an influence over her she could not help; almost against her will she rose, feeling that there was no excuse for prolonging the interview.
“I will send Mrs. Baines to you,” she said, in despair.
“Thank you, Mrs. Hibbert, if you will,” and he held open the door for her to pass out.
Aunt Anne heard the drawing-room door open and Florence coming up. She waited eagerly on the top of the stairs. She wore her best dress; round her throat there was a white silk handkerchief, in her manner more than the usual nervous agitation. Glancing in at the bedroom Florence could see that she had been packing, and making ready for a journey.
“Oh, Aunt Anne——” she began.
“Yes, my love, I am going to town,” the old lady said, with a cold reserve in her tenderness that showed clearly she was displeased. “I cannot stay longer under your roof. You must not ask me to do so,” she went on. “I was cut to the quick by your want of sympathy last night. I cannot recover from it; I could not expose myself to it again. My luggage is ready, and when I have seen my dear Alfred I shall be able to tell you the time of my departure.”
“Oh, Aunt Anne, it is cruel,” Florence said, dismayed.
“No, my love, it is not cruel; but I must respect myself. I would not hurt you for the world, Florence; but you have hurt me.”
“I wouldn’t hurt you either for the world, but——”
“Where is Mr. Wimple, my love?” the old lady asked, interrupting her niece with a long sigh.
“He is downstairs; I have been talking to him.”
“Yes, my love, I understand. I appreciate all your solicitude for my happiness; but you should allow those who are older and wiser than you to know what is best for themselves. I will see you again when he is gone, Florence,” and almost imperiously Mrs. Baines went downstairs.
She entered the drawing-room and shut the door. Mr. Wimple was standing on the hearth-rug. She looked at him for a moment nervously, and winked solemnly as usual with her left eye.
“My darling,” she said, and putting her arms round his neck she kissed his face on both sides, “my darling Alfred, are you glad to see me?” He submitted to her caress half reluctantly, then drew back a little. His manner was no warmer than it had been to Florence.
“Yes, I am glad to see you,” he said, and looked at her with his eyes wide open, as if to show that he perfectly understood the position.
“My darling, I have suffered terribly. Florence had no sympathy for us; she said it was an unsuitable marriage; that you had no fortune, and that I had none; as if my poverty was not hard enough to bear without being told of it. What did she say to you? Alfred, my dear one, she has not turned your love from me?” She put out her arms again as if to gather him to her, but he looked blindly past her.
“Sit down,” he said, and pushed her gently on to the chair beside the peacock-screen.
“She has not taken your love from me, tell me that,” Mrs. Baines said entreatingly. “A few hours ago you assured me of your devotion. She has not taken it from me?”
“No.”
“I am just the same to you?” she asked. He turned his eyes on her again.
“You are just the same,” he said, with a gulp, but there was no tenderness in his manner. He seemed to be speaking almost under compulsion.
“My darling, my darling,” she said softly, “bless you for those dear words. I will be truer to you, Alfred, than ever woman was to man before. But I cannot stay here; you must take me away. I have already packed my things, I cannot remain another night, not knowing to what treatment I may be subjected. I love Florence most sincerely; she and Walter and their children are very dear to me. But after her coldness to me last night when I came in full of your love and my own happiness, and she denied me her sympathy, I cannot stay. You must not ask me to do that, Alfred.” There was more interest in his manner now, though his gravity never relaxed.
“Where will you go?” he asked.
“I shall go to London, my darling,” she said, stretching out her hands. “But I cannot go alone, after all I have suffered during the last twenty-four hours?” He looked at her questioningly.
“Suffered? What have you suffered?” he asked. “I thought you were happy about it.”
“About you? Yes, my darling; but Florence has tortured me.”
“It does not take much to torture you,” he interrupted. “What did she say?”
“I have told you already; I cannot go over it again. Don’t ask me to do so. You could torture me, Alfred, with a word or a look—if you ceased to love me.”
“We need not discuss that improbability now,” he said solemnly. “What about your going to London?”
“I shall go by the quarter-past one o’clock train this afternoon,” she answered. “You will take me, will you not?”
“I cannot go to-day,” he said firmly. “I must get back to Liphook now.” He pulled out his watch, a dull worn Waterbury one, at which Aunt Anne looked keenly. “But I will go to-morrow; I want to see my uncle.” His thoughts seemed to be intent on business matters. She waited a moment after he had finished speaking, and winked slowly to herself before she answered.
“Alfred,” she asked, “you do truly love me?” He looked at her steadfastly.
“Yes,” he answered, “I told you so last night.” She half rose from her chair again, but he waved her back. “Sit down,” he said, and she obeyed.
“I know you did, and I will never doubt it. In bygone days, my darling, I was foolish and wicked, and played with the truest love ever given to woman. But I am wiser now. You must never doubt me. Promise me that you never will.”
“I promise you,” he said, and closed his lips.
“My dear, my dear,” she said softly to herself, and stopped for a moment before she went on aloud, “I must go to town this afternoon, and you must take me. My courage is not equal to encountering the journey alone. Do take me, my darling.”
“Where will you go when you get to London?” he asked.
“I know of some apartments—two rooms—I saw them the day before I came away. If they are still unlet, I shall rent them. But when we arrive I shall go straight to Sir William Rammage. I have business with him. He is very ill, Alfred, it was in the paper yesterday; but he will see me, and when he knows all——”
“You will tell him nothing about me,” he said, in his slow determined voice. She looked up indignantly.
“Alfred,” she answered, “I must tell him. I shall tell him that you love me; that I have won a true and noble heart, and that we are going through life together.”
“You will tell him nothing,” Mr. Wimple repeated, with something like fright in his dull eyes. “If you did my uncle would hear of it, and would think I was mad.” He added the clause about his uncle as if he thought an explanation due to her.
“Mad to marry me?” she asked.
“Mad to think of marriage at all. He objects to it on principle.”
“But if he knew how tenderly and truly I loved you——”
“You must not say one word about it, to him or to any one,” came the firm hard voice.
“Is it because you are—you are ashamed of loving me, Alfred?” she asked, quivering.
“No. But it is my wish. That should be enough.”
She was silent for a moment.
“It is enough,” she answered slowly, “your wish shall be my law in this as in all things. But you will take me up to town?” she pleaded. “You can go to the Blue Lion, to Steggalls’, and tell them to drive you back to Liphook now.”
“I have no money with me,” he said firmly.
“It will go down to my account, darling,” she continued, as if she had not heard the interruption. “You can take the quarter to one train from Liphook to London; it stops at Witley. I will be on the platform, and we will go on together.” She ventured to stand now, and held out her hands again, almost entreatingly.
“You will say nothing to Sir William?”
“Alfred, you are my lord and master,” and she bowed her head on to her breast. But he was wholly untouched.
“Very well,” he said, “I will drive back at once—there is not too much time—and meet you as you say. Good-bye.” He kissed her forehead, and as before, swiftly drew back again.
“Will you order a waggonette for me too, Alfred?” she asked as she followed him to the door. “I shall want one to take me to the station. Tell them to put it all down to me.” He did not answer till the door was open, and he saw the dark trees against the sky, and the withered leaves beneath lying on the garden pathway. Then a smile crossed his lips, his face wore an air of relief, he looked like a free man. He crossed the threshold with a light step, and stopped and looked over his shoulder at her.
“Good-bye,” he said. “I will order the waggonette. It is lovely weather. We shall enjoy the journey to town.”
“My darling,” she said, with a world of tenderness in her voice, “I shall enjoy anything with you as long as I live.” He looked at her for a minute with the strange dumb expression that was so peculiarly his own, and walked away.
Mrs. Baines went back to the drawing-room, and shut the door with a manner that conveyed to the whole house that she wanted to be alone for a little space. She stood thoughtfully beside the chair on which he had sat. Suddenly she caught sight of her own face in the chimney-glass. She looked at it critically and winked slowly, she pulled the white handkerchief up a little higher round her throat and turned away satisfied. “He loves me,” she said, “I know he loves me, and no power on earth shall separate me from him. I will marry him if I walk to church without my shoes. I was faithless once, but this time I will be true.” She crept softly upstairs, and when she came down an hour later she was dressed and ready to depart. She went to the dining-room, where Florence in despair had had a little luncheon-tray brought in with sandwiches and biscuits on it.
“My love,” she said, “I have finished the preparations for my journey; will you permit your servants to bring down my luggage? Steggalls’ man is coming immediately to drive me to the station. Thank you, but I do not need any refreshment.”
“Aunt Anne, I can’t bear you to go,” poor Florence said in dismay.
“I must go—I cannot stay,” the old lady answered solemnly, “and I beg you not to ask me to do so again.”
“But you will come back?” Florence entreated.
“No, I cannot,” Aunt Anne answered in the same voice. “You did not mean it, but you cut me to the quick last night; I have had no sleep since, my love. I must go away, I want to be alone. Besides, I have private business to transact. Thank you for all your goodness and hospitality to me, yours, and your dear ones. It has been a great privilege to be with you and the dear children since Walter went away, and to come here and see your second home.” She sat down for a moment by the buttery-hatch, turning a quick sharp glance as she did so to see that it was well closed, for one of her firm beliefs was that “servants were always ready to listen to the private speech of their employers.” As she seated herself, she looked as if she were trying to practise some of Mr. Wimple’s firmness.
But Florence knelt lovingly by the old lady’s side, and put her pretty head down on the black merino dress. “I would not be unkind to you for the world,” she said, “you know I would not.”
Mrs. Baines winked sorrowfully, but did not falter.
“You were very unkind. You hurt me more than I can say,” she said coldly.
Florence turned her lips towards the old lady’s hands, and kissed them. “Aunt Anne dear,” she said very softly, “you have no money——” Mrs. Baines stiffened herself, her voice became polite and distant.
“Thank you, my love, but I have sufficient to defray the expenses of my journey; and at the other end I shall be in a position to make arrangements.”
“Let me lend you a little,” her niece said humbly.
“No, my love”—and Mrs. Baines shook her head—“I cannot take it.”
But Florence thought of the ten shillings that constituted all the old lady’s funds, and felt miserable.
“You could pay me back,” she pleaded. “And don’t be angry, dear Aunt Anne, but you told me how poor you were in that lodging last year, and how cold; it makes my heart ache every time I think of it; and the winter and the cold are coming again. Oh, do stay here. You shall do anything in the world that makes you happy. I cannot bear to think of you in London; and it’s unkind of you to go, for we shall miss you so much, the children and I——” and she burst into tears.
Then Aunt Anne melted.
“Florence,” she said tenderly, “that was like your dear self.”
“Then stay with us. You shall do as you like in all ways.”
“Thank you, my love; and bless you for your goodness. But I cannot stay. I do love you, and I will believe that your heart feels for me in this great crisis of my life. You must not think that because I love him I shall love you less; that would be impossible. But you must allow me to terminate my visit now. I want to be alone, to be in retirement for a little while; besides I have, as I said just now, imperative business to transact in town. You must not ask me to prolong my time here, love.”
“Let me, at any rate, be a little useful to you, Aunt Anne. I know you are not rich.”
For a moment Aunt Anne was silent. Then she winked her left eye very slowly, and looked up.
“Florence,” she said, “I know that you always mean your words, and I should not like to hurt your generous heart. I will prove my affection for you by letting you lend me two sovereigns. Don’t ask me to take more, my love, for it would be impossible. There——” and she gave a long sigh as she put the coins into her glove. “Now I hope you are satisfied. Remember I only take them to prove my affection for you. Let me kiss those dear children;” and quickly opening the door she called them by their names, and laughed in an absent, excited manner, as they came running down the stairs. “Come, my darlings,” she said; “Aunt Anne is going away, and wants to say good-bye.”
“But we don’t want you to go,” said Monty.
“We don’t want you to go at all,” echoed Catty.
“You dear children,” the old lady said, “I must go; but I shall not forget you, and to-night when you look under your pillows you will find some chocolates as usual. I have put them there ready for you, so that some day you might remember that, even in the midst of her own happiness, Aunt Anne thought of you.” She said the last words almost mechanically, while with one eye she watched her trunks being carried out, and with the other looked at the children. Suddenly she turned to Florence. “I should like to wish you good-bye alone; there is something I want to say to you.” She turned quickly and entered the drawing-room. The fire had burnt low, the room had grown chilly, and Florence shivered a little as she stood waiting for Aunt Anne to speak. “My dear,” the old lady said, “will you try not to think me ungrateful for all your care of me, for all your solicitude for my happiness? I know you think that I am in my dotage——”
“Oh no——”
“—That I am doing a foolish thing in marrying a man so much younger than myself, that——”
“You must do as you like, Aunt Anne; it is a free country, and we can all do as we like.”
“Yes, my love,” Mrs. Baines answered with a sudden wink, which showed that this was a new bit of argument to her, and one that she would try to use to her own advantage if she had the opportunity; “we can all do as we like, as you did when you married your dear Walter, as I shall when I marry Alfred Wimple, for, as you say, it is a free country.”
“I only hope that you may be happy,” Florence said earnestly.
“Yes, my love,” Mrs. Baines said, and her eyes filled with tears, “I hope so too, and that I may make him happy.” She was silent for a minute, and then it seemed as if what she said were forced from her. “I wanted to tell you,” she began with a little gasp, “I want you to know something in my past life, so that you may better understand the reason of what I am doing. When I was a girl, Florence, a very true love was given to me. I won it heedlessly, and did not know its value. I played with it and threw it away—a fresh young life like Alfred Wimple’s. It was in my power to make him happy; but I made him miserable. He was taken ill and died. Sometimes I think that I am answerable to God for the loss of that life; had I acted differently it might have been in the world now. I never had a young love offered to me again; I thought that God had denied it to me as a punishment; for Mr. Baines’s youth had gone when I married him; it was the marriage of his middle age. But through all the years I have not grown old, and all things that have youth in them are precious to me. One reason why I love you all—you, and Walter and the children—is that I am young too, at heart. It is only the lines on my face that make me look old, and the years I can count that make me feel so. I am young still in all else.” She stopped for a moment, as if waiting for some response, but Florence could think of nothing to say; she looked at the old lady wonderingly, and put her hand on the nervous ones that rested on the chair-back. “I remember the night of your party,” Mrs. Baines went on. “I thought of the past all the evening while I sat there—your guest, my darling—it came back again and again, it enveloped me, one year after another. I went on to the balcony, and all my dear ones who had gone gathered round me in the darkness. I heard your fresh young voices behind, but the years had set a mark on me that cut me off from you, and death had taken most of those I remembered, but left my heart young and longing for love, longing to live again just as you loved and as you lived. I said to myself, ‘I am old, I am old!’ Alfred Wimple was standing by me, and whispered, ‘You are not old.’ He was like my dead come back, like the one who had loved me when I was young; I felt as if through all the years I had been waiting by a dead man’s side, but that now perhaps out of his life that loved me this other had grown, or else that God had sent him, my dear one, into the world again to love me once more, and to prove I was forgiven. Do you understand, Florence? I could not refuse the beautiful life that was laid at my feet, the love that has come to bless me once more after all the long years. We are young man and young woman to each other, and we love each other with all our hearts. It is like you and your dear Walter. I wanted to say this to you; I thought it would help you to understand, to sympathize with me. You cannot be sorry that I am going to be less lonely, or grudge me the love that will make my life happier. That is all. And now, my darling, I must go; and good-bye once more.”
Florence could not speak—she felt the hot tears filling her eyes again—a lump had come to her throat.
“God bless you, Aunt Anne,” she said at last, with something almost like a sob.
“And God bless you, dearest Florence,” the old lady said, and kissed her niece’s face and stroked her head. “You know I always admire your hair, my love,” she said, and pulling her forward she kissed it. Then she went out to the waggonette. Jane held open the door. “This is for you,” Mrs. Baines said haughtily, and slipped half a crown into the servant’s hand. “There are some old slippers in my bedroom; I don’t know if you will deem them worthy of your acceptance.”
“Thank you, ma’am,” said Jane, unwillingly.
“I trust you will study your mistress’s comfort and interests in every way,” Mrs. Baines continued as she put a shawl over her knees, “and that you will be good to those dear children.” The next moment she was on her way to Witley Station.
END OF VOL. I.