GOLD DUSTI."MyLord!"exclaimed once a devout soul,"give me every day a little work to occupy my mind; a little suffering to sanctify my spirit; a little good to do to comfort my heart."II.If by our deeds we become saints, true it is, that by our deeds also we shall be condemned.Yes, it is little by little that we press onward, either towards salvation or eternal ruin; and when at last[pg 016]we reach the gate of glory, or that of perdition, the cry escapes our lips,"Already!"The first backward step is almost imperceptible; it was those tiny flakes of snow, seeming to melt as they touch the earth, but falling one upon another, that have formed that immense mass which seems ready to fall and crush us.Ah! if I tried to trace back to what first led to that act of sin, the thought that produced the desire, the circumstance that gave rise to the thought, I should find something almost imperceptible; perhaps a word with adouble entendreI had heard, and at which I had smiled; a useless explanation, sought out of mere curiosity; a hasty look, cast I knew not wherefore, and which conscience prompted me to check; a prayer neglected, because it wearied me; work left undone, while I indulged in some day-dream that flitted before my fancy....[pg 017]A week later the same things occur, but this time more prolonged; the stifled voice of conscience is hushed.Yet another week.... Alas! let us stop there; each can complete the sad story for himself, and it is easy to draw the practical conclusion.III.A young girl, in one of those moments when the heart seems to overflow with devotion, wrote thus in her journal:"If I dared, I would askGodwhy I am placed in the world; what have I to do? I know not; my days are idly spent, and I do not even regret them.... If I might but do some good to myself or another, if only for the short space of a minute in each day!."A few days later, when in a calmer mood she re-read these lines, she added,"Why, nothing is easier! I have but to give a cup of cold water to one ofChrist'slittle ones."[pg 018]Evenlessthan that: a word of advice; something lent to another; a little vexation patiently borne; a prayer for a friend offered toGod; the fault or thoughtlessness of another repaired without his knowledge—Godwill recompense it all a thousand-fold!IV.Alms given in secret; that is the charity which brings a blessing.What sweet enjoyment to be able to shed a little happiness around us!What an easy and agreeable task is that of trying to render others happy.Father! if I try to please and imitate Thee thus, wilt Thou indeed bless me? Thanks! thanks! be unto Thee.[pg 019]V.Is it fair always to forget all the good or kindness shown to us by those with whom we live, for the sake ofonelittle pain they may have caused us, and which, most likely, was quite unintentional on their part?VI.When you sometimes find in books advice or example that you think may be of service, you take care to copy and consult it as an oracle. Do as much for the good of your soul. Engrave in your memory, and even write down, the counsels and precepts that you hear or read; ... then, from time to time, study this little collection, which you will not prize the less that you have made it all yourself.Books written by others in time become wearisome to us, but of those we[pg 020]write ourselves we never tire. And itwillbe yours, this collection of thoughts chosen because you liked them; counsels you have given yourself; moral receipts you have discovered, and of which, perhaps, you have proved the efficacy.Happy soul! that each day reaps its harvest.VII.Do you wish to live at peace with all the world? Then practise the maxims of an influential man, who, when asked, after the Revolution, how he managed to escape the executioner's axe, replied,"I made myself of no reputation and kept silence."Would you live peaceably with the members of your family, above all with those who exercise a certain control of you? Use the means employed by a pious woman, who had to live with one of a trying temper, and which[pg 021]she summed up in the following words:—"I do everything to please her."I fulfil all my duties with a smiling face, never revealing the trouble it causes me."I bear patiently everything that displeases me."I consult her on many subjects of which, perhaps, I may be the better judge."Would you be at peace with your conscience? Let your Guardian Angel find you at each moment of the day doing one of these four things which once formed the rule of a saintly life: (1.) praying; (2.) laboring; (3.) striving after holiness; (4.) practising patience.Would you become holy? Try to add to the above actions the following virtues: method, faith, spiritual combat, perseverance.Finally, if you would live in an[pg 022]atmosphere of benevolence, make it your study to be always rendering others service, and never hesitate to ask the same of them.In offering help, you make a step towards gaining a friend; in asking it, you please by this mark of your confidence. The result of this will be a constant habit of mutual forbearance, and a fear to be disobliging in matters of greater importance.VIII.When teaching or working with others, never laugh or make fun of their awkwardness. If it is caused by stupidity, your laughter is uncharitable; if from ignorance, your mockery is, to say the least, unjust.Teach the unskilful with gentleness; show him the right way to work; and God, Who sees all your efforts, will smile on your patience, and send you help in all your difficulties.[pg 023]IX.When the heart is heavy, and we suffer from depression or disappointment, how thankful we should be that we still have work and prayer left to comfort us. Occupation forcibly diverts the mind; prayer sweetly soothes the soul."Then,"writes one who had been sorely tried,"I tell my griefs to God, as a child tells its troubles to its mother; and when I have told all I am comforted, and repeat with a lightened heart the prayer of S. Françoise de Chantal (who certainly suffered more than I), 'Thy will be done for ever and ever, OLord, withoutiforbut;' ... and then, for fear a murmur may arise in my heart, I return immediately to my work, and become absorbed in occupation."[pg 024]X.He who is never satisfied with anything, satisfies no one.XI.Are there many who try to be of some little help or comfort to the souls with whom they are brought in contact through life?Poor souls, that, perhaps, have no longer strength or will to manifest the longing they experience, and who languish for want of help, without being aware that they are perishing. Oh, mingle sometimes with your earthly help the blessed Name ofGod; and if there remain one little spark of life in the soul, that Name will rekindle it, and carry comfort and resignation; even as air breathed into the mouth of any one apparently dead, rushes into the lungs, and revives the sufferer, if but one breath of life remains.[pg 025]Souls! Souls! I yearn for Souls!—This is the cry of theSaviour; and for their sakes He died upon the Cross, and remains until eternity their Intercessor.Souls! Souls! I must win Souls!—It is the cry of Satan; and to obtain them he scatters gold to tempt them, multiplies their pleasures and vanities, and gives the praise that only infatuates.Souls! Souls! we long for Souls!—Let this be our aim, readers and writers of these our "Paillettes;" and for the sake of evenonesoul, let not fatigue, expense, or the criticism of the world, deter us....XII.How few there are who would thus dare to addressGodeach night: "Lord, deal with me to-morrow as I have this day dealt with others; ...[pg 026]those to whom I was harsh, and from malice, or to show my own superiority, exposed their failings; others, to whom, from pride or dislike, I refused to speak,—one I have avoided, another I cannot like because she displeases me; I will not forgive,—to whom I will not show any kindness."...And yet let us never forget that, sooner or later, God will do unto us even as we have done unto them.XIII."Grant me, OLord," said a humble soul, "that I may pass unnoticed through the world."This should be the wish, or rather the aim, of all true devotion.Small virtues require the praise of man to sustain them, just as little children require encouragement to walk or stand alone.But true virtue goes quietly through[pg 027]the world, scattering good around, and performing noble deeds, without even the knowledge that what it does is heroic.XIV.S. Chantal one day was excusing herself to S. François de Sales for having spoken hastily to some one, on the plea that it was in the cause of justice. The Saint replied,"You have been more just than righteous; but we should be more righteous than just."XV.A devout woman once wrote thus:"In my own family I try to be as little in the way as possible, satisfied with everything, and never to believe for a moment that any one means unkindly towards me."If people are friendly and kind to me, I enjoy it; if they neglect me, or[pg 028]leave me, I am always happy alone. It all tends to my one aim, forgetfulness of self in order to pleaseGod."XVI.Learning is not without its effect upon the soul; it either lends it wings to bear it up toGod, or leaves behind it tiny sparks, which little by little consume the whole being.If you would ascertain all the good or ill you have derived from all those hours devoted to historians, poets, novelists, or philosophers, put to yourself these questions: Since acquiring this knowledge, am I wiser? am I better? am I happier?Wiser?—That is to say, more self-controlled, less the slave of my passions, less irritated by small vexations, braver in bearing misfortunes, more careful to live for eternity?Better?—More forbearing towards[pg 029]others, more forgiving, less uncharitable, more reticent in opposing the faults of others, more solicitous for the happiness of those around me?Happier?—That would mean more contented with my station in life, striving to derive all possible benefits from it, to beautify rather than to alter it?Have I more faith inGod, and more calmness and resignation in all the events of life?If you cannot reply in the affirmative, then examine your heart thoroughly, and you will find there, stifling the good thatGodhas implanted, these three tyrants that have obtained dominion over, you: (1.) Pride; (2.) Ambition; (3.) Self-conceit.From them have sprung: dissatisfaction and contempt of your life and its surroundings, restlessness, a longing for power and dominion over others, malice, habitual discontent, and incessant murmurings. Have you any[pg 030]further doubts? Then inquire of those with whom you live.Ah! if this be indeed the sad result, then, whatever may be your age, close, oh! close those books, and seek once more those two elements of happiness you ought never to have forsaken, and which, had you made them the companions of your study, would have kept you pure and good.I refer to prayer and manual labor.XVII.Listen to the story of a simple shepherd, given in his own words:"I forget now who it was that once said to me, 'Jean Baptiste, you are very poor?'—True.—'If you fell ill, your wife and children would be destitute?'—True. And then I felt anxious and uneasy for the rest of the day.""At Evensong wiser thoughts came[pg 031]to me, and I said to myself: Jean Baptiste, for more than thirty years you have lived in the world, you have never possessed anything, yet still you live on, and have been provided each day with nourishment, each night with repose. Of troubleGodhas never sent you more than your share. Of help the means have never failed you. To whom do you owe all this? ToGod. Jean Baptiste, be no longer ungrateful, and banish those anxious thoughts; for what could ever induce you to think that the Hand from which you have already received so much, would close against you when you grow old, and have greater need of help? I finished my prayer, and felt at peace."XVIII.The work of the Sower is given to each of us in this world, and we fall short of our duty when we let[pg 032]those with whom we are brought in contact leave us without having given them a kind thought or pious impression.Nothing is so sad as the cry, "I am useless!" Happily none need everbeso.A kind word, a gentle act, a modest demeanor, a loving smile, are as so many seeds that we can scatter every moment of our lives, and which will always spring up and bear fruit.Happy are those who have many around them ... they are rich in opportunities, and may sow plenteously.XIX.Few positions in life are so full of importunities as that of the mother of a family, or mistress of a house. She may have a dozen interruptions while writingoneletter, or settling an account. What holiness,[pg 033]what self-control, is needed to be always calm and unruffled amid these little vexations, and never to manifest the slightest impatience!Leaving the work without apparent annoyance, replying with a smile upon the lips, awaiting patiently the end of a long conversation, and finally returning calmly to the yet unfinished work—all this is the sign of a recollected soul, and one that waits uponGod.Oh! what blessings are shed around them by such patient souls ... but, alas! how rarely they are to be met with!XX.There are times in one's life when all the world seems to turn against us. Our motives are misunderstood, our words misconstrued, a malicious smile or an unkind word reveals to us the unfriendly feelings of others. Our advances are repulsed, or[pg 034]met with icy coldness; a dry refusal arrests on our lips the offer of help....Oh, how hard it all seems, and the more so that we cannot divine the cause!Courage, patience, poor disconsolate one!Godis making a furrow in your heart, where He will surely sow His grace.It is rare when injustice, or slights patiently borne, do not leave the heart at the close of the day filled with marvellous joy and peace.It is the seedGodhas sown, springing up and bearing fruit.XXI.That which costs little is of little worth. This thought should make us tremble. In our self-examination we may experience at times a certain satisfaction in noticing the[pg 035]little virtues we may possess, above all, those that render us pleasing in the eyes of others.For instance, we may like to pray at a certain place, with certain sentiments, and we think ourselves devout; we are gentle, polite, and smiling towards one person in particular; patient with those we fear, or in whose good opinion we would stand; we are devoted, charitable, generous, because the heart experiences an unspeakable pleasure in spending and being spent for others; we suffer willingly at the hands of some one we love, and then say we are patient; we are silent, because we have no inclination to speak; shunning society because we fail to shine there, and then fancy that we love retirement.Take these virtues that give you such self-satisfaction, one by one, and ask yourself at what sacrifice, labor, or cost, above all, with what care you[pg 036]have managed to acquire them.... Alas! you will find that all that patience, affability, generosity, and piety are but as naught, springing from a heart puffed up with pride. It costs nothing, and it is worthless.As self-sacrifice, says De Maistre, is the basis and essence of virtue, so those virtues are the most meritorious that have cost the greatest effort to attain.Do not look with so much pride on this collection of virtues, but rather bring yourself to account for your faults. Take just one, the first that comes, impatience, sloth, gossip, uncharitableness, sulkiness, whatever it may be, and attack it bravely.It will take at least a month, calculating upon three victories every day, not indeed to eradicate it,—a fault is not so short-lived,—but to prevent its attaining dominion over you.That one subdued, then take[pg 037]another. It is the work of a lifetime; and truly to our faults may we apply the saying, "Quand il n'y en a plus, il y en a encore.""Happy should I think myself,"said S. Francis de Sales,"if I could rid myself of my imperfections butone-quarter of an hour previous to my death."XXII.Before Holy CommunionJesusMy child, it is not wisdomIrequire of thee, it sufficeth if thou lovest Me well.Speak to Me as thou wouldst talk to thy mother if she were here, pressing thee to her heart.Hast thou none for whom thou wouldst intercede?Tell Me the names[pg 038]of thy kindred and thy friends; and at the mention of each name add what thou wouldst have Me do for them. Ask much fervently; the generous hearts that forget themselves for others are very dear unto Me.Tell Me of the poor thou wouldst succor, the sick thou hast seen suffering, the sinful thou wouldst reclaim, the estranged thou wouldst receive to thy heart again.Pray fervently for all mankind.Remind Me of My promise to hear all prayers that proceed from the heart; and the prayer offered for one who loves us, and is dear to us, is sure to be heartfelt and fervent.Hast thou no favors to ask of Me?Give Me, if thou wilt, a list of all thy desires, all the wants of thy soul. Tell Me, simply, of all thy pride, sensuality, self-love, sloth; and ask for My[pg 039]help in thy struggles to overcome them.Poor child! be not abashed; many that had the same faults to contend against are now saints in heaven.They cried to Me for help, and by degrees they conquered.Do not hesitate to ask for temporal blessings,—health, intellect, success. I can bestow them, and never fail to do so, where they tend to make the soul more holy. What wouldst thou this day, My child?... If thou didst but know how I long to bless thee!...Hast thou no interests which occupy thy mind?Tell Me of them all.... Of thy vocation. What dost thou think? What dost thou desire? Wouldst thou give pleasure to thy mother, thy family, those in authority over thee? what wouldst thou do for them?[pg 040]And for Me hast thou no ardor? Dost thou not desire to do some good to the souls of those thou lovest, but who are forgetful of Me?Tell Me of one in whom thou hast interest; the motive that actuates; the means thou wouldst employ.Lay before Me thy failures, andIwill teach thee the cause.Whom wouldst thou have to help thee? The hearts of all are in My keeping, andIlead them gently wheresoeverIwill. Rest assured, all who are needful to thee,Iwill place around thee.Oh! My child, tell Me of all thy weariness: who has grieved thee? treated thee with contempt? wounded thy self-love?Tell Me all, and thou wilt end by saying, all is forgiven, all forgotten ... andI, surelyIwill bless thee!...Art thou fearful of the future?Is[pg 041]there in thy heart that vague dread that thou canst not define, but which nevertheless torments thee?Trust in My Providence....Iam present with thee,Iknow all, andIwill never leave thee nor forsake thee.Are there around thee those seemingly less devout than formerly, whose coldness or indifference have estranged thee from them without real cause?...Pray for them.Ican draw them back to thee if they are necessary to the sanctification of thy soul.What are the joys of which thou hast to tell Me?Let Me share thy pleasures; tell Me of all that has occurred since yesterday to comfort thee, please thee, to give thee joy!That fear suddenly dispelled, that unexpected success, that token of[pg 042]affection, the trial that proved thee stronger than thou thoughtest....My child,Isent it all; why not show some gratitude, and simply thank thyLord?Gratitude draws down a blessing, and the Great Benefactor likes His children to remind Him of His Goodness.Hast thou no promises to make to Me?I can read thy heart; thou knowest it; thou mayst deceive man, but thou canst never deceive God. Be sincere.Art thou resolved to avoid all occasions of sin?To renounce that which tempts thee; never again to open the book that excites thine imagination? Not to bestow thine affection on one who is not devout, and whose presence steals the peace from thy soul?Wilt thou go now and be loving and forbearing towards one who has vexed thee?...[pg 043]Good, My child!... Go, then, return to thy daily toil; be silent, humble, resigned, charitable; then return to Me with a heart yet more loving and devoted, andIshall have for thee fresh blessings.XXIII."There will soon be none left,"said S. Francis de Sales,"who will love poor sinners butGodand myself."Oh! why do we fail in love towards those poor sinful ones! Are they not very much to be pitied?When they are prosperous, pray for them; but when misfortune comes (and trouble weighs heavily upon the wicked), death depriving them of the only beings they did not hate, afflicting them with a loathsome disease, delivering them up to scorn and misery—oh! then, when all this comes upon them, love them freely. It is by[pg 044]affection alone that we can reach the worst characters, and the souls that are steeped in sin.How many have died impenitent, who, if only some one had cared for them and shown them love, might have become at last saints in heaven! Oh! the sins that are committed, oh! the souls we suffer to wander fromGod, and all because we are so wanting in love towards them.XXIV.Let us always be on our guard againstPrejudice.Some women have a way (of which they themselves are unconscious) of turning the cold shoulder to some one member of their family.For what reason? They cannot say, simply because the cause is never very clearly defined and in this lies all the mischief.[pg 045]Perhaps an air of indifference they may have fancied, and which arose merely from fatigue, or trouble that could not be confided to them.A word misinterpreted, because heard at a time when they felt discontented, and their morbid imagination made everything appear in a false light.Some scandal to which they ought never to have listened, or, at least, should have endeavored to fathom, going direct to the person concerned and seeking an explanation.And behold the result: they in their turn become cold, reserved, and suspicious, misinterpreting the slightest gesture ... in a few days arises a coldness, from the feeling they are no longer beloved; then follow contempt and mistrust, finally, a hatred that gnaws and rends the very heart.It all springs up imperceptibly, till[pg 046]at last the family life is one of bitterness and misery.They console, or better still, excuse themselves, with the thought of their suffering, never considering how much pain they give to others, nor where the fault lies.XXV.Let it rest! Ah! how many hearts on the brink of anxiety and disquietude by this simple sentence have been made calm and happy!Some proceeding has wounded us by its want of tact;let it rest; no one will think of it again.A harsh or unjust sentence irritates us;let it rest; whoever may have given vent to it will be pleased to see it is forgotten.A painful scandal is about to estrange us from an old friend;let it rest, and thus preserve our charity and peace of mind.[pg 047]A suspicious look is on the point of cooling our affection;let it rest, and our look of trust will restore confidence....Fancy! we who are so careful to remove the briers from our pathway for fear they should wound, yet take pleasure in collecting and piercing our hearts with the thorns that meet us in our daily intercourse with one another. How childish and unreasonable we are!
GOLD DUSTI."MyLord!"exclaimed once a devout soul,"give me every day a little work to occupy my mind; a little suffering to sanctify my spirit; a little good to do to comfort my heart."II.If by our deeds we become saints, true it is, that by our deeds also we shall be condemned.Yes, it is little by little that we press onward, either towards salvation or eternal ruin; and when at last[pg 016]we reach the gate of glory, or that of perdition, the cry escapes our lips,"Already!"The first backward step is almost imperceptible; it was those tiny flakes of snow, seeming to melt as they touch the earth, but falling one upon another, that have formed that immense mass which seems ready to fall and crush us.Ah! if I tried to trace back to what first led to that act of sin, the thought that produced the desire, the circumstance that gave rise to the thought, I should find something almost imperceptible; perhaps a word with adouble entendreI had heard, and at which I had smiled; a useless explanation, sought out of mere curiosity; a hasty look, cast I knew not wherefore, and which conscience prompted me to check; a prayer neglected, because it wearied me; work left undone, while I indulged in some day-dream that flitted before my fancy....[pg 017]A week later the same things occur, but this time more prolonged; the stifled voice of conscience is hushed.Yet another week.... Alas! let us stop there; each can complete the sad story for himself, and it is easy to draw the practical conclusion.III.A young girl, in one of those moments when the heart seems to overflow with devotion, wrote thus in her journal:"If I dared, I would askGodwhy I am placed in the world; what have I to do? I know not; my days are idly spent, and I do not even regret them.... If I might but do some good to myself or another, if only for the short space of a minute in each day!."A few days later, when in a calmer mood she re-read these lines, she added,"Why, nothing is easier! I have but to give a cup of cold water to one ofChrist'slittle ones."[pg 018]Evenlessthan that: a word of advice; something lent to another; a little vexation patiently borne; a prayer for a friend offered toGod; the fault or thoughtlessness of another repaired without his knowledge—Godwill recompense it all a thousand-fold!IV.Alms given in secret; that is the charity which brings a blessing.What sweet enjoyment to be able to shed a little happiness around us!What an easy and agreeable task is that of trying to render others happy.Father! if I try to please and imitate Thee thus, wilt Thou indeed bless me? Thanks! thanks! be unto Thee.[pg 019]V.Is it fair always to forget all the good or kindness shown to us by those with whom we live, for the sake ofonelittle pain they may have caused us, and which, most likely, was quite unintentional on their part?VI.When you sometimes find in books advice or example that you think may be of service, you take care to copy and consult it as an oracle. Do as much for the good of your soul. Engrave in your memory, and even write down, the counsels and precepts that you hear or read; ... then, from time to time, study this little collection, which you will not prize the less that you have made it all yourself.Books written by others in time become wearisome to us, but of those we[pg 020]write ourselves we never tire. And itwillbe yours, this collection of thoughts chosen because you liked them; counsels you have given yourself; moral receipts you have discovered, and of which, perhaps, you have proved the efficacy.Happy soul! that each day reaps its harvest.VII.Do you wish to live at peace with all the world? Then practise the maxims of an influential man, who, when asked, after the Revolution, how he managed to escape the executioner's axe, replied,"I made myself of no reputation and kept silence."Would you live peaceably with the members of your family, above all with those who exercise a certain control of you? Use the means employed by a pious woman, who had to live with one of a trying temper, and which[pg 021]she summed up in the following words:—"I do everything to please her."I fulfil all my duties with a smiling face, never revealing the trouble it causes me."I bear patiently everything that displeases me."I consult her on many subjects of which, perhaps, I may be the better judge."Would you be at peace with your conscience? Let your Guardian Angel find you at each moment of the day doing one of these four things which once formed the rule of a saintly life: (1.) praying; (2.) laboring; (3.) striving after holiness; (4.) practising patience.Would you become holy? Try to add to the above actions the following virtues: method, faith, spiritual combat, perseverance.Finally, if you would live in an[pg 022]atmosphere of benevolence, make it your study to be always rendering others service, and never hesitate to ask the same of them.In offering help, you make a step towards gaining a friend; in asking it, you please by this mark of your confidence. The result of this will be a constant habit of mutual forbearance, and a fear to be disobliging in matters of greater importance.VIII.When teaching or working with others, never laugh or make fun of their awkwardness. If it is caused by stupidity, your laughter is uncharitable; if from ignorance, your mockery is, to say the least, unjust.Teach the unskilful with gentleness; show him the right way to work; and God, Who sees all your efforts, will smile on your patience, and send you help in all your difficulties.[pg 023]IX.When the heart is heavy, and we suffer from depression or disappointment, how thankful we should be that we still have work and prayer left to comfort us. Occupation forcibly diverts the mind; prayer sweetly soothes the soul."Then,"writes one who had been sorely tried,"I tell my griefs to God, as a child tells its troubles to its mother; and when I have told all I am comforted, and repeat with a lightened heart the prayer of S. Françoise de Chantal (who certainly suffered more than I), 'Thy will be done for ever and ever, OLord, withoutiforbut;' ... and then, for fear a murmur may arise in my heart, I return immediately to my work, and become absorbed in occupation."[pg 024]X.He who is never satisfied with anything, satisfies no one.XI.Are there many who try to be of some little help or comfort to the souls with whom they are brought in contact through life?Poor souls, that, perhaps, have no longer strength or will to manifest the longing they experience, and who languish for want of help, without being aware that they are perishing. Oh, mingle sometimes with your earthly help the blessed Name ofGod; and if there remain one little spark of life in the soul, that Name will rekindle it, and carry comfort and resignation; even as air breathed into the mouth of any one apparently dead, rushes into the lungs, and revives the sufferer, if but one breath of life remains.[pg 025]Souls! Souls! I yearn for Souls!—This is the cry of theSaviour; and for their sakes He died upon the Cross, and remains until eternity their Intercessor.Souls! Souls! I must win Souls!—It is the cry of Satan; and to obtain them he scatters gold to tempt them, multiplies their pleasures and vanities, and gives the praise that only infatuates.Souls! Souls! we long for Souls!—Let this be our aim, readers and writers of these our "Paillettes;" and for the sake of evenonesoul, let not fatigue, expense, or the criticism of the world, deter us....XII.How few there are who would thus dare to addressGodeach night: "Lord, deal with me to-morrow as I have this day dealt with others; ...[pg 026]those to whom I was harsh, and from malice, or to show my own superiority, exposed their failings; others, to whom, from pride or dislike, I refused to speak,—one I have avoided, another I cannot like because she displeases me; I will not forgive,—to whom I will not show any kindness."...And yet let us never forget that, sooner or later, God will do unto us even as we have done unto them.XIII."Grant me, OLord," said a humble soul, "that I may pass unnoticed through the world."This should be the wish, or rather the aim, of all true devotion.Small virtues require the praise of man to sustain them, just as little children require encouragement to walk or stand alone.But true virtue goes quietly through[pg 027]the world, scattering good around, and performing noble deeds, without even the knowledge that what it does is heroic.XIV.S. Chantal one day was excusing herself to S. François de Sales for having spoken hastily to some one, on the plea that it was in the cause of justice. The Saint replied,"You have been more just than righteous; but we should be more righteous than just."XV.A devout woman once wrote thus:"In my own family I try to be as little in the way as possible, satisfied with everything, and never to believe for a moment that any one means unkindly towards me."If people are friendly and kind to me, I enjoy it; if they neglect me, or[pg 028]leave me, I am always happy alone. It all tends to my one aim, forgetfulness of self in order to pleaseGod."XVI.Learning is not without its effect upon the soul; it either lends it wings to bear it up toGod, or leaves behind it tiny sparks, which little by little consume the whole being.If you would ascertain all the good or ill you have derived from all those hours devoted to historians, poets, novelists, or philosophers, put to yourself these questions: Since acquiring this knowledge, am I wiser? am I better? am I happier?Wiser?—That is to say, more self-controlled, less the slave of my passions, less irritated by small vexations, braver in bearing misfortunes, more careful to live for eternity?Better?—More forbearing towards[pg 029]others, more forgiving, less uncharitable, more reticent in opposing the faults of others, more solicitous for the happiness of those around me?Happier?—That would mean more contented with my station in life, striving to derive all possible benefits from it, to beautify rather than to alter it?Have I more faith inGod, and more calmness and resignation in all the events of life?If you cannot reply in the affirmative, then examine your heart thoroughly, and you will find there, stifling the good thatGodhas implanted, these three tyrants that have obtained dominion over, you: (1.) Pride; (2.) Ambition; (3.) Self-conceit.From them have sprung: dissatisfaction and contempt of your life and its surroundings, restlessness, a longing for power and dominion over others, malice, habitual discontent, and incessant murmurings. Have you any[pg 030]further doubts? Then inquire of those with whom you live.Ah! if this be indeed the sad result, then, whatever may be your age, close, oh! close those books, and seek once more those two elements of happiness you ought never to have forsaken, and which, had you made them the companions of your study, would have kept you pure and good.I refer to prayer and manual labor.XVII.Listen to the story of a simple shepherd, given in his own words:"I forget now who it was that once said to me, 'Jean Baptiste, you are very poor?'—True.—'If you fell ill, your wife and children would be destitute?'—True. And then I felt anxious and uneasy for the rest of the day.""At Evensong wiser thoughts came[pg 031]to me, and I said to myself: Jean Baptiste, for more than thirty years you have lived in the world, you have never possessed anything, yet still you live on, and have been provided each day with nourishment, each night with repose. Of troubleGodhas never sent you more than your share. Of help the means have never failed you. To whom do you owe all this? ToGod. Jean Baptiste, be no longer ungrateful, and banish those anxious thoughts; for what could ever induce you to think that the Hand from which you have already received so much, would close against you when you grow old, and have greater need of help? I finished my prayer, and felt at peace."XVIII.The work of the Sower is given to each of us in this world, and we fall short of our duty when we let[pg 032]those with whom we are brought in contact leave us without having given them a kind thought or pious impression.Nothing is so sad as the cry, "I am useless!" Happily none need everbeso.A kind word, a gentle act, a modest demeanor, a loving smile, are as so many seeds that we can scatter every moment of our lives, and which will always spring up and bear fruit.Happy are those who have many around them ... they are rich in opportunities, and may sow plenteously.XIX.Few positions in life are so full of importunities as that of the mother of a family, or mistress of a house. She may have a dozen interruptions while writingoneletter, or settling an account. What holiness,[pg 033]what self-control, is needed to be always calm and unruffled amid these little vexations, and never to manifest the slightest impatience!Leaving the work without apparent annoyance, replying with a smile upon the lips, awaiting patiently the end of a long conversation, and finally returning calmly to the yet unfinished work—all this is the sign of a recollected soul, and one that waits uponGod.Oh! what blessings are shed around them by such patient souls ... but, alas! how rarely they are to be met with!XX.There are times in one's life when all the world seems to turn against us. Our motives are misunderstood, our words misconstrued, a malicious smile or an unkind word reveals to us the unfriendly feelings of others. Our advances are repulsed, or[pg 034]met with icy coldness; a dry refusal arrests on our lips the offer of help....Oh, how hard it all seems, and the more so that we cannot divine the cause!Courage, patience, poor disconsolate one!Godis making a furrow in your heart, where He will surely sow His grace.It is rare when injustice, or slights patiently borne, do not leave the heart at the close of the day filled with marvellous joy and peace.It is the seedGodhas sown, springing up and bearing fruit.XXI.That which costs little is of little worth. This thought should make us tremble. In our self-examination we may experience at times a certain satisfaction in noticing the[pg 035]little virtues we may possess, above all, those that render us pleasing in the eyes of others.For instance, we may like to pray at a certain place, with certain sentiments, and we think ourselves devout; we are gentle, polite, and smiling towards one person in particular; patient with those we fear, or in whose good opinion we would stand; we are devoted, charitable, generous, because the heart experiences an unspeakable pleasure in spending and being spent for others; we suffer willingly at the hands of some one we love, and then say we are patient; we are silent, because we have no inclination to speak; shunning society because we fail to shine there, and then fancy that we love retirement.Take these virtues that give you such self-satisfaction, one by one, and ask yourself at what sacrifice, labor, or cost, above all, with what care you[pg 036]have managed to acquire them.... Alas! you will find that all that patience, affability, generosity, and piety are but as naught, springing from a heart puffed up with pride. It costs nothing, and it is worthless.As self-sacrifice, says De Maistre, is the basis and essence of virtue, so those virtues are the most meritorious that have cost the greatest effort to attain.Do not look with so much pride on this collection of virtues, but rather bring yourself to account for your faults. Take just one, the first that comes, impatience, sloth, gossip, uncharitableness, sulkiness, whatever it may be, and attack it bravely.It will take at least a month, calculating upon three victories every day, not indeed to eradicate it,—a fault is not so short-lived,—but to prevent its attaining dominion over you.That one subdued, then take[pg 037]another. It is the work of a lifetime; and truly to our faults may we apply the saying, "Quand il n'y en a plus, il y en a encore.""Happy should I think myself,"said S. Francis de Sales,"if I could rid myself of my imperfections butone-quarter of an hour previous to my death."XXII.Before Holy CommunionJesusMy child, it is not wisdomIrequire of thee, it sufficeth if thou lovest Me well.Speak to Me as thou wouldst talk to thy mother if she were here, pressing thee to her heart.Hast thou none for whom thou wouldst intercede?Tell Me the names[pg 038]of thy kindred and thy friends; and at the mention of each name add what thou wouldst have Me do for them. Ask much fervently; the generous hearts that forget themselves for others are very dear unto Me.Tell Me of the poor thou wouldst succor, the sick thou hast seen suffering, the sinful thou wouldst reclaim, the estranged thou wouldst receive to thy heart again.Pray fervently for all mankind.Remind Me of My promise to hear all prayers that proceed from the heart; and the prayer offered for one who loves us, and is dear to us, is sure to be heartfelt and fervent.Hast thou no favors to ask of Me?Give Me, if thou wilt, a list of all thy desires, all the wants of thy soul. Tell Me, simply, of all thy pride, sensuality, self-love, sloth; and ask for My[pg 039]help in thy struggles to overcome them.Poor child! be not abashed; many that had the same faults to contend against are now saints in heaven.They cried to Me for help, and by degrees they conquered.Do not hesitate to ask for temporal blessings,—health, intellect, success. I can bestow them, and never fail to do so, where they tend to make the soul more holy. What wouldst thou this day, My child?... If thou didst but know how I long to bless thee!...Hast thou no interests which occupy thy mind?Tell Me of them all.... Of thy vocation. What dost thou think? What dost thou desire? Wouldst thou give pleasure to thy mother, thy family, those in authority over thee? what wouldst thou do for them?[pg 040]And for Me hast thou no ardor? Dost thou not desire to do some good to the souls of those thou lovest, but who are forgetful of Me?Tell Me of one in whom thou hast interest; the motive that actuates; the means thou wouldst employ.Lay before Me thy failures, andIwill teach thee the cause.Whom wouldst thou have to help thee? The hearts of all are in My keeping, andIlead them gently wheresoeverIwill. Rest assured, all who are needful to thee,Iwill place around thee.Oh! My child, tell Me of all thy weariness: who has grieved thee? treated thee with contempt? wounded thy self-love?Tell Me all, and thou wilt end by saying, all is forgiven, all forgotten ... andI, surelyIwill bless thee!...Art thou fearful of the future?Is[pg 041]there in thy heart that vague dread that thou canst not define, but which nevertheless torments thee?Trust in My Providence....Iam present with thee,Iknow all, andIwill never leave thee nor forsake thee.Are there around thee those seemingly less devout than formerly, whose coldness or indifference have estranged thee from them without real cause?...Pray for them.Ican draw them back to thee if they are necessary to the sanctification of thy soul.What are the joys of which thou hast to tell Me?Let Me share thy pleasures; tell Me of all that has occurred since yesterday to comfort thee, please thee, to give thee joy!That fear suddenly dispelled, that unexpected success, that token of[pg 042]affection, the trial that proved thee stronger than thou thoughtest....My child,Isent it all; why not show some gratitude, and simply thank thyLord?Gratitude draws down a blessing, and the Great Benefactor likes His children to remind Him of His Goodness.Hast thou no promises to make to Me?I can read thy heart; thou knowest it; thou mayst deceive man, but thou canst never deceive God. Be sincere.Art thou resolved to avoid all occasions of sin?To renounce that which tempts thee; never again to open the book that excites thine imagination? Not to bestow thine affection on one who is not devout, and whose presence steals the peace from thy soul?Wilt thou go now and be loving and forbearing towards one who has vexed thee?...[pg 043]Good, My child!... Go, then, return to thy daily toil; be silent, humble, resigned, charitable; then return to Me with a heart yet more loving and devoted, andIshall have for thee fresh blessings.XXIII."There will soon be none left,"said S. Francis de Sales,"who will love poor sinners butGodand myself."Oh! why do we fail in love towards those poor sinful ones! Are they not very much to be pitied?When they are prosperous, pray for them; but when misfortune comes (and trouble weighs heavily upon the wicked), death depriving them of the only beings they did not hate, afflicting them with a loathsome disease, delivering them up to scorn and misery—oh! then, when all this comes upon them, love them freely. It is by[pg 044]affection alone that we can reach the worst characters, and the souls that are steeped in sin.How many have died impenitent, who, if only some one had cared for them and shown them love, might have become at last saints in heaven! Oh! the sins that are committed, oh! the souls we suffer to wander fromGod, and all because we are so wanting in love towards them.XXIV.Let us always be on our guard againstPrejudice.Some women have a way (of which they themselves are unconscious) of turning the cold shoulder to some one member of their family.For what reason? They cannot say, simply because the cause is never very clearly defined and in this lies all the mischief.[pg 045]Perhaps an air of indifference they may have fancied, and which arose merely from fatigue, or trouble that could not be confided to them.A word misinterpreted, because heard at a time when they felt discontented, and their morbid imagination made everything appear in a false light.Some scandal to which they ought never to have listened, or, at least, should have endeavored to fathom, going direct to the person concerned and seeking an explanation.And behold the result: they in their turn become cold, reserved, and suspicious, misinterpreting the slightest gesture ... in a few days arises a coldness, from the feeling they are no longer beloved; then follow contempt and mistrust, finally, a hatred that gnaws and rends the very heart.It all springs up imperceptibly, till[pg 046]at last the family life is one of bitterness and misery.They console, or better still, excuse themselves, with the thought of their suffering, never considering how much pain they give to others, nor where the fault lies.XXV.Let it rest! Ah! how many hearts on the brink of anxiety and disquietude by this simple sentence have been made calm and happy!Some proceeding has wounded us by its want of tact;let it rest; no one will think of it again.A harsh or unjust sentence irritates us;let it rest; whoever may have given vent to it will be pleased to see it is forgotten.A painful scandal is about to estrange us from an old friend;let it rest, and thus preserve our charity and peace of mind.[pg 047]A suspicious look is on the point of cooling our affection;let it rest, and our look of trust will restore confidence....Fancy! we who are so careful to remove the briers from our pathway for fear they should wound, yet take pleasure in collecting and piercing our hearts with the thorns that meet us in our daily intercourse with one another. How childish and unreasonable we are!
GOLD DUSTI."MyLord!"exclaimed once a devout soul,"give me every day a little work to occupy my mind; a little suffering to sanctify my spirit; a little good to do to comfort my heart."II.If by our deeds we become saints, true it is, that by our deeds also we shall be condemned.Yes, it is little by little that we press onward, either towards salvation or eternal ruin; and when at last[pg 016]we reach the gate of glory, or that of perdition, the cry escapes our lips,"Already!"The first backward step is almost imperceptible; it was those tiny flakes of snow, seeming to melt as they touch the earth, but falling one upon another, that have formed that immense mass which seems ready to fall and crush us.Ah! if I tried to trace back to what first led to that act of sin, the thought that produced the desire, the circumstance that gave rise to the thought, I should find something almost imperceptible; perhaps a word with adouble entendreI had heard, and at which I had smiled; a useless explanation, sought out of mere curiosity; a hasty look, cast I knew not wherefore, and which conscience prompted me to check; a prayer neglected, because it wearied me; work left undone, while I indulged in some day-dream that flitted before my fancy....[pg 017]A week later the same things occur, but this time more prolonged; the stifled voice of conscience is hushed.Yet another week.... Alas! let us stop there; each can complete the sad story for himself, and it is easy to draw the practical conclusion.III.A young girl, in one of those moments when the heart seems to overflow with devotion, wrote thus in her journal:"If I dared, I would askGodwhy I am placed in the world; what have I to do? I know not; my days are idly spent, and I do not even regret them.... If I might but do some good to myself or another, if only for the short space of a minute in each day!."A few days later, when in a calmer mood she re-read these lines, she added,"Why, nothing is easier! I have but to give a cup of cold water to one ofChrist'slittle ones."[pg 018]Evenlessthan that: a word of advice; something lent to another; a little vexation patiently borne; a prayer for a friend offered toGod; the fault or thoughtlessness of another repaired without his knowledge—Godwill recompense it all a thousand-fold!IV.Alms given in secret; that is the charity which brings a blessing.What sweet enjoyment to be able to shed a little happiness around us!What an easy and agreeable task is that of trying to render others happy.Father! if I try to please and imitate Thee thus, wilt Thou indeed bless me? Thanks! thanks! be unto Thee.[pg 019]V.Is it fair always to forget all the good or kindness shown to us by those with whom we live, for the sake ofonelittle pain they may have caused us, and which, most likely, was quite unintentional on their part?VI.When you sometimes find in books advice or example that you think may be of service, you take care to copy and consult it as an oracle. Do as much for the good of your soul. Engrave in your memory, and even write down, the counsels and precepts that you hear or read; ... then, from time to time, study this little collection, which you will not prize the less that you have made it all yourself.Books written by others in time become wearisome to us, but of those we[pg 020]write ourselves we never tire. And itwillbe yours, this collection of thoughts chosen because you liked them; counsels you have given yourself; moral receipts you have discovered, and of which, perhaps, you have proved the efficacy.Happy soul! that each day reaps its harvest.VII.Do you wish to live at peace with all the world? Then practise the maxims of an influential man, who, when asked, after the Revolution, how he managed to escape the executioner's axe, replied,"I made myself of no reputation and kept silence."Would you live peaceably with the members of your family, above all with those who exercise a certain control of you? Use the means employed by a pious woman, who had to live with one of a trying temper, and which[pg 021]she summed up in the following words:—"I do everything to please her."I fulfil all my duties with a smiling face, never revealing the trouble it causes me."I bear patiently everything that displeases me."I consult her on many subjects of which, perhaps, I may be the better judge."Would you be at peace with your conscience? Let your Guardian Angel find you at each moment of the day doing one of these four things which once formed the rule of a saintly life: (1.) praying; (2.) laboring; (3.) striving after holiness; (4.) practising patience.Would you become holy? Try to add to the above actions the following virtues: method, faith, spiritual combat, perseverance.Finally, if you would live in an[pg 022]atmosphere of benevolence, make it your study to be always rendering others service, and never hesitate to ask the same of them.In offering help, you make a step towards gaining a friend; in asking it, you please by this mark of your confidence. The result of this will be a constant habit of mutual forbearance, and a fear to be disobliging in matters of greater importance.VIII.When teaching or working with others, never laugh or make fun of their awkwardness. If it is caused by stupidity, your laughter is uncharitable; if from ignorance, your mockery is, to say the least, unjust.Teach the unskilful with gentleness; show him the right way to work; and God, Who sees all your efforts, will smile on your patience, and send you help in all your difficulties.[pg 023]IX.When the heart is heavy, and we suffer from depression or disappointment, how thankful we should be that we still have work and prayer left to comfort us. Occupation forcibly diverts the mind; prayer sweetly soothes the soul."Then,"writes one who had been sorely tried,"I tell my griefs to God, as a child tells its troubles to its mother; and when I have told all I am comforted, and repeat with a lightened heart the prayer of S. Françoise de Chantal (who certainly suffered more than I), 'Thy will be done for ever and ever, OLord, withoutiforbut;' ... and then, for fear a murmur may arise in my heart, I return immediately to my work, and become absorbed in occupation."[pg 024]X.He who is never satisfied with anything, satisfies no one.XI.Are there many who try to be of some little help or comfort to the souls with whom they are brought in contact through life?Poor souls, that, perhaps, have no longer strength or will to manifest the longing they experience, and who languish for want of help, without being aware that they are perishing. Oh, mingle sometimes with your earthly help the blessed Name ofGod; and if there remain one little spark of life in the soul, that Name will rekindle it, and carry comfort and resignation; even as air breathed into the mouth of any one apparently dead, rushes into the lungs, and revives the sufferer, if but one breath of life remains.[pg 025]Souls! Souls! I yearn for Souls!—This is the cry of theSaviour; and for their sakes He died upon the Cross, and remains until eternity their Intercessor.Souls! Souls! I must win Souls!—It is the cry of Satan; and to obtain them he scatters gold to tempt them, multiplies their pleasures and vanities, and gives the praise that only infatuates.Souls! Souls! we long for Souls!—Let this be our aim, readers and writers of these our "Paillettes;" and for the sake of evenonesoul, let not fatigue, expense, or the criticism of the world, deter us....XII.How few there are who would thus dare to addressGodeach night: "Lord, deal with me to-morrow as I have this day dealt with others; ...[pg 026]those to whom I was harsh, and from malice, or to show my own superiority, exposed their failings; others, to whom, from pride or dislike, I refused to speak,—one I have avoided, another I cannot like because she displeases me; I will not forgive,—to whom I will not show any kindness."...And yet let us never forget that, sooner or later, God will do unto us even as we have done unto them.XIII."Grant me, OLord," said a humble soul, "that I may pass unnoticed through the world."This should be the wish, or rather the aim, of all true devotion.Small virtues require the praise of man to sustain them, just as little children require encouragement to walk or stand alone.But true virtue goes quietly through[pg 027]the world, scattering good around, and performing noble deeds, without even the knowledge that what it does is heroic.XIV.S. Chantal one day was excusing herself to S. François de Sales for having spoken hastily to some one, on the plea that it was in the cause of justice. The Saint replied,"You have been more just than righteous; but we should be more righteous than just."XV.A devout woman once wrote thus:"In my own family I try to be as little in the way as possible, satisfied with everything, and never to believe for a moment that any one means unkindly towards me."If people are friendly and kind to me, I enjoy it; if they neglect me, or[pg 028]leave me, I am always happy alone. It all tends to my one aim, forgetfulness of self in order to pleaseGod."XVI.Learning is not without its effect upon the soul; it either lends it wings to bear it up toGod, or leaves behind it tiny sparks, which little by little consume the whole being.If you would ascertain all the good or ill you have derived from all those hours devoted to historians, poets, novelists, or philosophers, put to yourself these questions: Since acquiring this knowledge, am I wiser? am I better? am I happier?Wiser?—That is to say, more self-controlled, less the slave of my passions, less irritated by small vexations, braver in bearing misfortunes, more careful to live for eternity?Better?—More forbearing towards[pg 029]others, more forgiving, less uncharitable, more reticent in opposing the faults of others, more solicitous for the happiness of those around me?Happier?—That would mean more contented with my station in life, striving to derive all possible benefits from it, to beautify rather than to alter it?Have I more faith inGod, and more calmness and resignation in all the events of life?If you cannot reply in the affirmative, then examine your heart thoroughly, and you will find there, stifling the good thatGodhas implanted, these three tyrants that have obtained dominion over, you: (1.) Pride; (2.) Ambition; (3.) Self-conceit.From them have sprung: dissatisfaction and contempt of your life and its surroundings, restlessness, a longing for power and dominion over others, malice, habitual discontent, and incessant murmurings. Have you any[pg 030]further doubts? Then inquire of those with whom you live.Ah! if this be indeed the sad result, then, whatever may be your age, close, oh! close those books, and seek once more those two elements of happiness you ought never to have forsaken, and which, had you made them the companions of your study, would have kept you pure and good.I refer to prayer and manual labor.XVII.Listen to the story of a simple shepherd, given in his own words:"I forget now who it was that once said to me, 'Jean Baptiste, you are very poor?'—True.—'If you fell ill, your wife and children would be destitute?'—True. And then I felt anxious and uneasy for the rest of the day.""At Evensong wiser thoughts came[pg 031]to me, and I said to myself: Jean Baptiste, for more than thirty years you have lived in the world, you have never possessed anything, yet still you live on, and have been provided each day with nourishment, each night with repose. Of troubleGodhas never sent you more than your share. Of help the means have never failed you. To whom do you owe all this? ToGod. Jean Baptiste, be no longer ungrateful, and banish those anxious thoughts; for what could ever induce you to think that the Hand from which you have already received so much, would close against you when you grow old, and have greater need of help? I finished my prayer, and felt at peace."XVIII.The work of the Sower is given to each of us in this world, and we fall short of our duty when we let[pg 032]those with whom we are brought in contact leave us without having given them a kind thought or pious impression.Nothing is so sad as the cry, "I am useless!" Happily none need everbeso.A kind word, a gentle act, a modest demeanor, a loving smile, are as so many seeds that we can scatter every moment of our lives, and which will always spring up and bear fruit.Happy are those who have many around them ... they are rich in opportunities, and may sow plenteously.XIX.Few positions in life are so full of importunities as that of the mother of a family, or mistress of a house. She may have a dozen interruptions while writingoneletter, or settling an account. What holiness,[pg 033]what self-control, is needed to be always calm and unruffled amid these little vexations, and never to manifest the slightest impatience!Leaving the work without apparent annoyance, replying with a smile upon the lips, awaiting patiently the end of a long conversation, and finally returning calmly to the yet unfinished work—all this is the sign of a recollected soul, and one that waits uponGod.Oh! what blessings are shed around them by such patient souls ... but, alas! how rarely they are to be met with!XX.There are times in one's life when all the world seems to turn against us. Our motives are misunderstood, our words misconstrued, a malicious smile or an unkind word reveals to us the unfriendly feelings of others. Our advances are repulsed, or[pg 034]met with icy coldness; a dry refusal arrests on our lips the offer of help....Oh, how hard it all seems, and the more so that we cannot divine the cause!Courage, patience, poor disconsolate one!Godis making a furrow in your heart, where He will surely sow His grace.It is rare when injustice, or slights patiently borne, do not leave the heart at the close of the day filled with marvellous joy and peace.It is the seedGodhas sown, springing up and bearing fruit.XXI.That which costs little is of little worth. This thought should make us tremble. In our self-examination we may experience at times a certain satisfaction in noticing the[pg 035]little virtues we may possess, above all, those that render us pleasing in the eyes of others.For instance, we may like to pray at a certain place, with certain sentiments, and we think ourselves devout; we are gentle, polite, and smiling towards one person in particular; patient with those we fear, or in whose good opinion we would stand; we are devoted, charitable, generous, because the heart experiences an unspeakable pleasure in spending and being spent for others; we suffer willingly at the hands of some one we love, and then say we are patient; we are silent, because we have no inclination to speak; shunning society because we fail to shine there, and then fancy that we love retirement.Take these virtues that give you such self-satisfaction, one by one, and ask yourself at what sacrifice, labor, or cost, above all, with what care you[pg 036]have managed to acquire them.... Alas! you will find that all that patience, affability, generosity, and piety are but as naught, springing from a heart puffed up with pride. It costs nothing, and it is worthless.As self-sacrifice, says De Maistre, is the basis and essence of virtue, so those virtues are the most meritorious that have cost the greatest effort to attain.Do not look with so much pride on this collection of virtues, but rather bring yourself to account for your faults. Take just one, the first that comes, impatience, sloth, gossip, uncharitableness, sulkiness, whatever it may be, and attack it bravely.It will take at least a month, calculating upon three victories every day, not indeed to eradicate it,—a fault is not so short-lived,—but to prevent its attaining dominion over you.That one subdued, then take[pg 037]another. It is the work of a lifetime; and truly to our faults may we apply the saying, "Quand il n'y en a plus, il y en a encore.""Happy should I think myself,"said S. Francis de Sales,"if I could rid myself of my imperfections butone-quarter of an hour previous to my death."XXII.Before Holy CommunionJesusMy child, it is not wisdomIrequire of thee, it sufficeth if thou lovest Me well.Speak to Me as thou wouldst talk to thy mother if she were here, pressing thee to her heart.Hast thou none for whom thou wouldst intercede?Tell Me the names[pg 038]of thy kindred and thy friends; and at the mention of each name add what thou wouldst have Me do for them. Ask much fervently; the generous hearts that forget themselves for others are very dear unto Me.Tell Me of the poor thou wouldst succor, the sick thou hast seen suffering, the sinful thou wouldst reclaim, the estranged thou wouldst receive to thy heart again.Pray fervently for all mankind.Remind Me of My promise to hear all prayers that proceed from the heart; and the prayer offered for one who loves us, and is dear to us, is sure to be heartfelt and fervent.Hast thou no favors to ask of Me?Give Me, if thou wilt, a list of all thy desires, all the wants of thy soul. Tell Me, simply, of all thy pride, sensuality, self-love, sloth; and ask for My[pg 039]help in thy struggles to overcome them.Poor child! be not abashed; many that had the same faults to contend against are now saints in heaven.They cried to Me for help, and by degrees they conquered.Do not hesitate to ask for temporal blessings,—health, intellect, success. I can bestow them, and never fail to do so, where they tend to make the soul more holy. What wouldst thou this day, My child?... If thou didst but know how I long to bless thee!...Hast thou no interests which occupy thy mind?Tell Me of them all.... Of thy vocation. What dost thou think? What dost thou desire? Wouldst thou give pleasure to thy mother, thy family, those in authority over thee? what wouldst thou do for them?[pg 040]And for Me hast thou no ardor? Dost thou not desire to do some good to the souls of those thou lovest, but who are forgetful of Me?Tell Me of one in whom thou hast interest; the motive that actuates; the means thou wouldst employ.Lay before Me thy failures, andIwill teach thee the cause.Whom wouldst thou have to help thee? The hearts of all are in My keeping, andIlead them gently wheresoeverIwill. Rest assured, all who are needful to thee,Iwill place around thee.Oh! My child, tell Me of all thy weariness: who has grieved thee? treated thee with contempt? wounded thy self-love?Tell Me all, and thou wilt end by saying, all is forgiven, all forgotten ... andI, surelyIwill bless thee!...Art thou fearful of the future?Is[pg 041]there in thy heart that vague dread that thou canst not define, but which nevertheless torments thee?Trust in My Providence....Iam present with thee,Iknow all, andIwill never leave thee nor forsake thee.Are there around thee those seemingly less devout than formerly, whose coldness or indifference have estranged thee from them without real cause?...Pray for them.Ican draw them back to thee if they are necessary to the sanctification of thy soul.What are the joys of which thou hast to tell Me?Let Me share thy pleasures; tell Me of all that has occurred since yesterday to comfort thee, please thee, to give thee joy!That fear suddenly dispelled, that unexpected success, that token of[pg 042]affection, the trial that proved thee stronger than thou thoughtest....My child,Isent it all; why not show some gratitude, and simply thank thyLord?Gratitude draws down a blessing, and the Great Benefactor likes His children to remind Him of His Goodness.Hast thou no promises to make to Me?I can read thy heart; thou knowest it; thou mayst deceive man, but thou canst never deceive God. Be sincere.Art thou resolved to avoid all occasions of sin?To renounce that which tempts thee; never again to open the book that excites thine imagination? Not to bestow thine affection on one who is not devout, and whose presence steals the peace from thy soul?Wilt thou go now and be loving and forbearing towards one who has vexed thee?...[pg 043]Good, My child!... Go, then, return to thy daily toil; be silent, humble, resigned, charitable; then return to Me with a heart yet more loving and devoted, andIshall have for thee fresh blessings.XXIII."There will soon be none left,"said S. Francis de Sales,"who will love poor sinners butGodand myself."Oh! why do we fail in love towards those poor sinful ones! Are they not very much to be pitied?When they are prosperous, pray for them; but when misfortune comes (and trouble weighs heavily upon the wicked), death depriving them of the only beings they did not hate, afflicting them with a loathsome disease, delivering them up to scorn and misery—oh! then, when all this comes upon them, love them freely. It is by[pg 044]affection alone that we can reach the worst characters, and the souls that are steeped in sin.How many have died impenitent, who, if only some one had cared for them and shown them love, might have become at last saints in heaven! Oh! the sins that are committed, oh! the souls we suffer to wander fromGod, and all because we are so wanting in love towards them.XXIV.Let us always be on our guard againstPrejudice.Some women have a way (of which they themselves are unconscious) of turning the cold shoulder to some one member of their family.For what reason? They cannot say, simply because the cause is never very clearly defined and in this lies all the mischief.[pg 045]Perhaps an air of indifference they may have fancied, and which arose merely from fatigue, or trouble that could not be confided to them.A word misinterpreted, because heard at a time when they felt discontented, and their morbid imagination made everything appear in a false light.Some scandal to which they ought never to have listened, or, at least, should have endeavored to fathom, going direct to the person concerned and seeking an explanation.And behold the result: they in their turn become cold, reserved, and suspicious, misinterpreting the slightest gesture ... in a few days arises a coldness, from the feeling they are no longer beloved; then follow contempt and mistrust, finally, a hatred that gnaws and rends the very heart.It all springs up imperceptibly, till[pg 046]at last the family life is one of bitterness and misery.They console, or better still, excuse themselves, with the thought of their suffering, never considering how much pain they give to others, nor where the fault lies.XXV.Let it rest! Ah! how many hearts on the brink of anxiety and disquietude by this simple sentence have been made calm and happy!Some proceeding has wounded us by its want of tact;let it rest; no one will think of it again.A harsh or unjust sentence irritates us;let it rest; whoever may have given vent to it will be pleased to see it is forgotten.A painful scandal is about to estrange us from an old friend;let it rest, and thus preserve our charity and peace of mind.[pg 047]A suspicious look is on the point of cooling our affection;let it rest, and our look of trust will restore confidence....Fancy! we who are so careful to remove the briers from our pathway for fear they should wound, yet take pleasure in collecting and piercing our hearts with the thorns that meet us in our daily intercourse with one another. How childish and unreasonable we are!
I."MyLord!"exclaimed once a devout soul,"give me every day a little work to occupy my mind; a little suffering to sanctify my spirit; a little good to do to comfort my heart."
"MyLord!"exclaimed once a devout soul,"give me every day a little work to occupy my mind; a little suffering to sanctify my spirit; a little good to do to comfort my heart."
II.If by our deeds we become saints, true it is, that by our deeds also we shall be condemned.Yes, it is little by little that we press onward, either towards salvation or eternal ruin; and when at last[pg 016]we reach the gate of glory, or that of perdition, the cry escapes our lips,"Already!"The first backward step is almost imperceptible; it was those tiny flakes of snow, seeming to melt as they touch the earth, but falling one upon another, that have formed that immense mass which seems ready to fall and crush us.Ah! if I tried to trace back to what first led to that act of sin, the thought that produced the desire, the circumstance that gave rise to the thought, I should find something almost imperceptible; perhaps a word with adouble entendreI had heard, and at which I had smiled; a useless explanation, sought out of mere curiosity; a hasty look, cast I knew not wherefore, and which conscience prompted me to check; a prayer neglected, because it wearied me; work left undone, while I indulged in some day-dream that flitted before my fancy....[pg 017]A week later the same things occur, but this time more prolonged; the stifled voice of conscience is hushed.Yet another week.... Alas! let us stop there; each can complete the sad story for himself, and it is easy to draw the practical conclusion.
If by our deeds we become saints, true it is, that by our deeds also we shall be condemned.
Yes, it is little by little that we press onward, either towards salvation or eternal ruin; and when at last[pg 016]we reach the gate of glory, or that of perdition, the cry escapes our lips,"Already!"
The first backward step is almost imperceptible; it was those tiny flakes of snow, seeming to melt as they touch the earth, but falling one upon another, that have formed that immense mass which seems ready to fall and crush us.
Ah! if I tried to trace back to what first led to that act of sin, the thought that produced the desire, the circumstance that gave rise to the thought, I should find something almost imperceptible; perhaps a word with adouble entendreI had heard, and at which I had smiled; a useless explanation, sought out of mere curiosity; a hasty look, cast I knew not wherefore, and which conscience prompted me to check; a prayer neglected, because it wearied me; work left undone, while I indulged in some day-dream that flitted before my fancy....
A week later the same things occur, but this time more prolonged; the stifled voice of conscience is hushed.
Yet another week.... Alas! let us stop there; each can complete the sad story for himself, and it is easy to draw the practical conclusion.
III.A young girl, in one of those moments when the heart seems to overflow with devotion, wrote thus in her journal:"If I dared, I would askGodwhy I am placed in the world; what have I to do? I know not; my days are idly spent, and I do not even regret them.... If I might but do some good to myself or another, if only for the short space of a minute in each day!."A few days later, when in a calmer mood she re-read these lines, she added,"Why, nothing is easier! I have but to give a cup of cold water to one ofChrist'slittle ones."[pg 018]Evenlessthan that: a word of advice; something lent to another; a little vexation patiently borne; a prayer for a friend offered toGod; the fault or thoughtlessness of another repaired without his knowledge—Godwill recompense it all a thousand-fold!
A young girl, in one of those moments when the heart seems to overflow with devotion, wrote thus in her journal:"If I dared, I would askGodwhy I am placed in the world; what have I to do? I know not; my days are idly spent, and I do not even regret them.... If I might but do some good to myself or another, if only for the short space of a minute in each day!."A few days later, when in a calmer mood she re-read these lines, she added,"Why, nothing is easier! I have but to give a cup of cold water to one ofChrist'slittle ones."
Evenlessthan that: a word of advice; something lent to another; a little vexation patiently borne; a prayer for a friend offered toGod; the fault or thoughtlessness of another repaired without his knowledge—Godwill recompense it all a thousand-fold!
IV.Alms given in secret; that is the charity which brings a blessing.What sweet enjoyment to be able to shed a little happiness around us!What an easy and agreeable task is that of trying to render others happy.Father! if I try to please and imitate Thee thus, wilt Thou indeed bless me? Thanks! thanks! be unto Thee.
Alms given in secret; that is the charity which brings a blessing.
What sweet enjoyment to be able to shed a little happiness around us!
What an easy and agreeable task is that of trying to render others happy.
Father! if I try to please and imitate Thee thus, wilt Thou indeed bless me? Thanks! thanks! be unto Thee.
V.Is it fair always to forget all the good or kindness shown to us by those with whom we live, for the sake ofonelittle pain they may have caused us, and which, most likely, was quite unintentional on their part?
Is it fair always to forget all the good or kindness shown to us by those with whom we live, for the sake ofonelittle pain they may have caused us, and which, most likely, was quite unintentional on their part?
VI.When you sometimes find in books advice or example that you think may be of service, you take care to copy and consult it as an oracle. Do as much for the good of your soul. Engrave in your memory, and even write down, the counsels and precepts that you hear or read; ... then, from time to time, study this little collection, which you will not prize the less that you have made it all yourself.Books written by others in time become wearisome to us, but of those we[pg 020]write ourselves we never tire. And itwillbe yours, this collection of thoughts chosen because you liked them; counsels you have given yourself; moral receipts you have discovered, and of which, perhaps, you have proved the efficacy.Happy soul! that each day reaps its harvest.
When you sometimes find in books advice or example that you think may be of service, you take care to copy and consult it as an oracle. Do as much for the good of your soul. Engrave in your memory, and even write down, the counsels and precepts that you hear or read; ... then, from time to time, study this little collection, which you will not prize the less that you have made it all yourself.
Books written by others in time become wearisome to us, but of those we[pg 020]write ourselves we never tire. And itwillbe yours, this collection of thoughts chosen because you liked them; counsels you have given yourself; moral receipts you have discovered, and of which, perhaps, you have proved the efficacy.
Happy soul! that each day reaps its harvest.
VII.Do you wish to live at peace with all the world? Then practise the maxims of an influential man, who, when asked, after the Revolution, how he managed to escape the executioner's axe, replied,"I made myself of no reputation and kept silence."Would you live peaceably with the members of your family, above all with those who exercise a certain control of you? Use the means employed by a pious woman, who had to live with one of a trying temper, and which[pg 021]she summed up in the following words:—"I do everything to please her."I fulfil all my duties with a smiling face, never revealing the trouble it causes me."I bear patiently everything that displeases me."I consult her on many subjects of which, perhaps, I may be the better judge."Would you be at peace with your conscience? Let your Guardian Angel find you at each moment of the day doing one of these four things which once formed the rule of a saintly life: (1.) praying; (2.) laboring; (3.) striving after holiness; (4.) practising patience.Would you become holy? Try to add to the above actions the following virtues: method, faith, spiritual combat, perseverance.Finally, if you would live in an[pg 022]atmosphere of benevolence, make it your study to be always rendering others service, and never hesitate to ask the same of them.In offering help, you make a step towards gaining a friend; in asking it, you please by this mark of your confidence. The result of this will be a constant habit of mutual forbearance, and a fear to be disobliging in matters of greater importance.
Do you wish to live at peace with all the world? Then practise the maxims of an influential man, who, when asked, after the Revolution, how he managed to escape the executioner's axe, replied,"I made myself of no reputation and kept silence."
Would you live peaceably with the members of your family, above all with those who exercise a certain control of you? Use the means employed by a pious woman, who had to live with one of a trying temper, and which[pg 021]she summed up in the following words:—
"I do everything to please her.
"I fulfil all my duties with a smiling face, never revealing the trouble it causes me.
"I bear patiently everything that displeases me.
"I consult her on many subjects of which, perhaps, I may be the better judge."
Would you be at peace with your conscience? Let your Guardian Angel find you at each moment of the day doing one of these four things which once formed the rule of a saintly life: (1.) praying; (2.) laboring; (3.) striving after holiness; (4.) practising patience.
Would you become holy? Try to add to the above actions the following virtues: method, faith, spiritual combat, perseverance.
Finally, if you would live in an[pg 022]atmosphere of benevolence, make it your study to be always rendering others service, and never hesitate to ask the same of them.
In offering help, you make a step towards gaining a friend; in asking it, you please by this mark of your confidence. The result of this will be a constant habit of mutual forbearance, and a fear to be disobliging in matters of greater importance.
VIII.When teaching or working with others, never laugh or make fun of their awkwardness. If it is caused by stupidity, your laughter is uncharitable; if from ignorance, your mockery is, to say the least, unjust.Teach the unskilful with gentleness; show him the right way to work; and God, Who sees all your efforts, will smile on your patience, and send you help in all your difficulties.
When teaching or working with others, never laugh or make fun of their awkwardness. If it is caused by stupidity, your laughter is uncharitable; if from ignorance, your mockery is, to say the least, unjust.
Teach the unskilful with gentleness; show him the right way to work; and God, Who sees all your efforts, will smile on your patience, and send you help in all your difficulties.
IX.When the heart is heavy, and we suffer from depression or disappointment, how thankful we should be that we still have work and prayer left to comfort us. Occupation forcibly diverts the mind; prayer sweetly soothes the soul."Then,"writes one who had been sorely tried,"I tell my griefs to God, as a child tells its troubles to its mother; and when I have told all I am comforted, and repeat with a lightened heart the prayer of S. Françoise de Chantal (who certainly suffered more than I), 'Thy will be done for ever and ever, OLord, withoutiforbut;' ... and then, for fear a murmur may arise in my heart, I return immediately to my work, and become absorbed in occupation."
When the heart is heavy, and we suffer from depression or disappointment, how thankful we should be that we still have work and prayer left to comfort us. Occupation forcibly diverts the mind; prayer sweetly soothes the soul.
"Then,"writes one who had been sorely tried,"I tell my griefs to God, as a child tells its troubles to its mother; and when I have told all I am comforted, and repeat with a lightened heart the prayer of S. Françoise de Chantal (who certainly suffered more than I), 'Thy will be done for ever and ever, OLord, withoutiforbut;' ... and then, for fear a murmur may arise in my heart, I return immediately to my work, and become absorbed in occupation."
X.He who is never satisfied with anything, satisfies no one.
He who is never satisfied with anything, satisfies no one.
XI.Are there many who try to be of some little help or comfort to the souls with whom they are brought in contact through life?Poor souls, that, perhaps, have no longer strength or will to manifest the longing they experience, and who languish for want of help, without being aware that they are perishing. Oh, mingle sometimes with your earthly help the blessed Name ofGod; and if there remain one little spark of life in the soul, that Name will rekindle it, and carry comfort and resignation; even as air breathed into the mouth of any one apparently dead, rushes into the lungs, and revives the sufferer, if but one breath of life remains.[pg 025]Souls! Souls! I yearn for Souls!—This is the cry of theSaviour; and for their sakes He died upon the Cross, and remains until eternity their Intercessor.Souls! Souls! I must win Souls!—It is the cry of Satan; and to obtain them he scatters gold to tempt them, multiplies their pleasures and vanities, and gives the praise that only infatuates.Souls! Souls! we long for Souls!—Let this be our aim, readers and writers of these our "Paillettes;" and for the sake of evenonesoul, let not fatigue, expense, or the criticism of the world, deter us....
Are there many who try to be of some little help or comfort to the souls with whom they are brought in contact through life?
Poor souls, that, perhaps, have no longer strength or will to manifest the longing they experience, and who languish for want of help, without being aware that they are perishing. Oh, mingle sometimes with your earthly help the blessed Name ofGod; and if there remain one little spark of life in the soul, that Name will rekindle it, and carry comfort and resignation; even as air breathed into the mouth of any one apparently dead, rushes into the lungs, and revives the sufferer, if but one breath of life remains.
Souls! Souls! I yearn for Souls!—This is the cry of theSaviour; and for their sakes He died upon the Cross, and remains until eternity their Intercessor.
Souls! Souls! I must win Souls!—It is the cry of Satan; and to obtain them he scatters gold to tempt them, multiplies their pleasures and vanities, and gives the praise that only infatuates.
Souls! Souls! we long for Souls!—Let this be our aim, readers and writers of these our "Paillettes;" and for the sake of evenonesoul, let not fatigue, expense, or the criticism of the world, deter us....
XII.How few there are who would thus dare to addressGodeach night: "Lord, deal with me to-morrow as I have this day dealt with others; ...[pg 026]those to whom I was harsh, and from malice, or to show my own superiority, exposed their failings; others, to whom, from pride or dislike, I refused to speak,—one I have avoided, another I cannot like because she displeases me; I will not forgive,—to whom I will not show any kindness."...And yet let us never forget that, sooner or later, God will do unto us even as we have done unto them.
How few there are who would thus dare to addressGodeach night: "Lord, deal with me to-morrow as I have this day dealt with others; ...[pg 026]those to whom I was harsh, and from malice, or to show my own superiority, exposed their failings; others, to whom, from pride or dislike, I refused to speak,—one I have avoided, another I cannot like because she displeases me; I will not forgive,—to whom I will not show any kindness."...
And yet let us never forget that, sooner or later, God will do unto us even as we have done unto them.
XIII."Grant me, OLord," said a humble soul, "that I may pass unnoticed through the world."This should be the wish, or rather the aim, of all true devotion.Small virtues require the praise of man to sustain them, just as little children require encouragement to walk or stand alone.But true virtue goes quietly through[pg 027]the world, scattering good around, and performing noble deeds, without even the knowledge that what it does is heroic.
"Grant me, OLord," said a humble soul, "that I may pass unnoticed through the world."
This should be the wish, or rather the aim, of all true devotion.
Small virtues require the praise of man to sustain them, just as little children require encouragement to walk or stand alone.
But true virtue goes quietly through[pg 027]the world, scattering good around, and performing noble deeds, without even the knowledge that what it does is heroic.
XIV.S. Chantal one day was excusing herself to S. François de Sales for having spoken hastily to some one, on the plea that it was in the cause of justice. The Saint replied,"You have been more just than righteous; but we should be more righteous than just."
S. Chantal one day was excusing herself to S. François de Sales for having spoken hastily to some one, on the plea that it was in the cause of justice. The Saint replied,"You have been more just than righteous; but we should be more righteous than just."
XV.A devout woman once wrote thus:"In my own family I try to be as little in the way as possible, satisfied with everything, and never to believe for a moment that any one means unkindly towards me."If people are friendly and kind to me, I enjoy it; if they neglect me, or[pg 028]leave me, I am always happy alone. It all tends to my one aim, forgetfulness of self in order to pleaseGod."
A devout woman once wrote thus:"In my own family I try to be as little in the way as possible, satisfied with everything, and never to believe for a moment that any one means unkindly towards me.
XVI.Learning is not without its effect upon the soul; it either lends it wings to bear it up toGod, or leaves behind it tiny sparks, which little by little consume the whole being.If you would ascertain all the good or ill you have derived from all those hours devoted to historians, poets, novelists, or philosophers, put to yourself these questions: Since acquiring this knowledge, am I wiser? am I better? am I happier?Wiser?—That is to say, more self-controlled, less the slave of my passions, less irritated by small vexations, braver in bearing misfortunes, more careful to live for eternity?Better?—More forbearing towards[pg 029]others, more forgiving, less uncharitable, more reticent in opposing the faults of others, more solicitous for the happiness of those around me?Happier?—That would mean more contented with my station in life, striving to derive all possible benefits from it, to beautify rather than to alter it?Have I more faith inGod, and more calmness and resignation in all the events of life?If you cannot reply in the affirmative, then examine your heart thoroughly, and you will find there, stifling the good thatGodhas implanted, these three tyrants that have obtained dominion over, you: (1.) Pride; (2.) Ambition; (3.) Self-conceit.From them have sprung: dissatisfaction and contempt of your life and its surroundings, restlessness, a longing for power and dominion over others, malice, habitual discontent, and incessant murmurings. Have you any[pg 030]further doubts? Then inquire of those with whom you live.Ah! if this be indeed the sad result, then, whatever may be your age, close, oh! close those books, and seek once more those two elements of happiness you ought never to have forsaken, and which, had you made them the companions of your study, would have kept you pure and good.I refer to prayer and manual labor.
Learning is not without its effect upon the soul; it either lends it wings to bear it up toGod, or leaves behind it tiny sparks, which little by little consume the whole being.
If you would ascertain all the good or ill you have derived from all those hours devoted to historians, poets, novelists, or philosophers, put to yourself these questions: Since acquiring this knowledge, am I wiser? am I better? am I happier?
Wiser?—That is to say, more self-controlled, less the slave of my passions, less irritated by small vexations, braver in bearing misfortunes, more careful to live for eternity?
Better?—More forbearing towards[pg 029]others, more forgiving, less uncharitable, more reticent in opposing the faults of others, more solicitous for the happiness of those around me?
Happier?—That would mean more contented with my station in life, striving to derive all possible benefits from it, to beautify rather than to alter it?
Have I more faith inGod, and more calmness and resignation in all the events of life?
If you cannot reply in the affirmative, then examine your heart thoroughly, and you will find there, stifling the good thatGodhas implanted, these three tyrants that have obtained dominion over, you: (1.) Pride; (2.) Ambition; (3.) Self-conceit.
From them have sprung: dissatisfaction and contempt of your life and its surroundings, restlessness, a longing for power and dominion over others, malice, habitual discontent, and incessant murmurings. Have you any[pg 030]further doubts? Then inquire of those with whom you live.
Ah! if this be indeed the sad result, then, whatever may be your age, close, oh! close those books, and seek once more those two elements of happiness you ought never to have forsaken, and which, had you made them the companions of your study, would have kept you pure and good.
I refer to prayer and manual labor.
XVII.Listen to the story of a simple shepherd, given in his own words:"I forget now who it was that once said to me, 'Jean Baptiste, you are very poor?'—True.—'If you fell ill, your wife and children would be destitute?'—True. And then I felt anxious and uneasy for the rest of the day.""At Evensong wiser thoughts came[pg 031]to me, and I said to myself: Jean Baptiste, for more than thirty years you have lived in the world, you have never possessed anything, yet still you live on, and have been provided each day with nourishment, each night with repose. Of troubleGodhas never sent you more than your share. Of help the means have never failed you. To whom do you owe all this? ToGod. Jean Baptiste, be no longer ungrateful, and banish those anxious thoughts; for what could ever induce you to think that the Hand from which you have already received so much, would close against you when you grow old, and have greater need of help? I finished my prayer, and felt at peace."
Listen to the story of a simple shepherd, given in his own words:"I forget now who it was that once said to me, 'Jean Baptiste, you are very poor?'—True.—'If you fell ill, your wife and children would be destitute?'—True. And then I felt anxious and uneasy for the rest of the day."
XVIII.The work of the Sower is given to each of us in this world, and we fall short of our duty when we let[pg 032]those with whom we are brought in contact leave us without having given them a kind thought or pious impression.Nothing is so sad as the cry, "I am useless!" Happily none need everbeso.A kind word, a gentle act, a modest demeanor, a loving smile, are as so many seeds that we can scatter every moment of our lives, and which will always spring up and bear fruit.Happy are those who have many around them ... they are rich in opportunities, and may sow plenteously.
The work of the Sower is given to each of us in this world, and we fall short of our duty when we let[pg 032]those with whom we are brought in contact leave us without having given them a kind thought or pious impression.
Nothing is so sad as the cry, "I am useless!" Happily none need everbeso.
A kind word, a gentle act, a modest demeanor, a loving smile, are as so many seeds that we can scatter every moment of our lives, and which will always spring up and bear fruit.
Happy are those who have many around them ... they are rich in opportunities, and may sow plenteously.
XIX.Few positions in life are so full of importunities as that of the mother of a family, or mistress of a house. She may have a dozen interruptions while writingoneletter, or settling an account. What holiness,[pg 033]what self-control, is needed to be always calm and unruffled amid these little vexations, and never to manifest the slightest impatience!Leaving the work without apparent annoyance, replying with a smile upon the lips, awaiting patiently the end of a long conversation, and finally returning calmly to the yet unfinished work—all this is the sign of a recollected soul, and one that waits uponGod.Oh! what blessings are shed around them by such patient souls ... but, alas! how rarely they are to be met with!
Few positions in life are so full of importunities as that of the mother of a family, or mistress of a house. She may have a dozen interruptions while writingoneletter, or settling an account. What holiness,[pg 033]what self-control, is needed to be always calm and unruffled amid these little vexations, and never to manifest the slightest impatience!
Leaving the work without apparent annoyance, replying with a smile upon the lips, awaiting patiently the end of a long conversation, and finally returning calmly to the yet unfinished work—all this is the sign of a recollected soul, and one that waits uponGod.
Oh! what blessings are shed around them by such patient souls ... but, alas! how rarely they are to be met with!
XX.There are times in one's life when all the world seems to turn against us. Our motives are misunderstood, our words misconstrued, a malicious smile or an unkind word reveals to us the unfriendly feelings of others. Our advances are repulsed, or[pg 034]met with icy coldness; a dry refusal arrests on our lips the offer of help....Oh, how hard it all seems, and the more so that we cannot divine the cause!Courage, patience, poor disconsolate one!Godis making a furrow in your heart, where He will surely sow His grace.It is rare when injustice, or slights patiently borne, do not leave the heart at the close of the day filled with marvellous joy and peace.It is the seedGodhas sown, springing up and bearing fruit.
There are times in one's life when all the world seems to turn against us. Our motives are misunderstood, our words misconstrued, a malicious smile or an unkind word reveals to us the unfriendly feelings of others. Our advances are repulsed, or[pg 034]met with icy coldness; a dry refusal arrests on our lips the offer of help....
Oh, how hard it all seems, and the more so that we cannot divine the cause!
Courage, patience, poor disconsolate one!Godis making a furrow in your heart, where He will surely sow His grace.
It is rare when injustice, or slights patiently borne, do not leave the heart at the close of the day filled with marvellous joy and peace.
It is the seedGodhas sown, springing up and bearing fruit.
XXI.That which costs little is of little worth. This thought should make us tremble. In our self-examination we may experience at times a certain satisfaction in noticing the[pg 035]little virtues we may possess, above all, those that render us pleasing in the eyes of others.For instance, we may like to pray at a certain place, with certain sentiments, and we think ourselves devout; we are gentle, polite, and smiling towards one person in particular; patient with those we fear, or in whose good opinion we would stand; we are devoted, charitable, generous, because the heart experiences an unspeakable pleasure in spending and being spent for others; we suffer willingly at the hands of some one we love, and then say we are patient; we are silent, because we have no inclination to speak; shunning society because we fail to shine there, and then fancy that we love retirement.Take these virtues that give you such self-satisfaction, one by one, and ask yourself at what sacrifice, labor, or cost, above all, with what care you[pg 036]have managed to acquire them.... Alas! you will find that all that patience, affability, generosity, and piety are but as naught, springing from a heart puffed up with pride. It costs nothing, and it is worthless.As self-sacrifice, says De Maistre, is the basis and essence of virtue, so those virtues are the most meritorious that have cost the greatest effort to attain.Do not look with so much pride on this collection of virtues, but rather bring yourself to account for your faults. Take just one, the first that comes, impatience, sloth, gossip, uncharitableness, sulkiness, whatever it may be, and attack it bravely.It will take at least a month, calculating upon three victories every day, not indeed to eradicate it,—a fault is not so short-lived,—but to prevent its attaining dominion over you.That one subdued, then take[pg 037]another. It is the work of a lifetime; and truly to our faults may we apply the saying, "Quand il n'y en a plus, il y en a encore.""Happy should I think myself,"said S. Francis de Sales,"if I could rid myself of my imperfections butone-quarter of an hour previous to my death."
That which costs little is of little worth. This thought should make us tremble. In our self-examination we may experience at times a certain satisfaction in noticing the[pg 035]little virtues we may possess, above all, those that render us pleasing in the eyes of others.
For instance, we may like to pray at a certain place, with certain sentiments, and we think ourselves devout; we are gentle, polite, and smiling towards one person in particular; patient with those we fear, or in whose good opinion we would stand; we are devoted, charitable, generous, because the heart experiences an unspeakable pleasure in spending and being spent for others; we suffer willingly at the hands of some one we love, and then say we are patient; we are silent, because we have no inclination to speak; shunning society because we fail to shine there, and then fancy that we love retirement.
Take these virtues that give you such self-satisfaction, one by one, and ask yourself at what sacrifice, labor, or cost, above all, with what care you[pg 036]have managed to acquire them.... Alas! you will find that all that patience, affability, generosity, and piety are but as naught, springing from a heart puffed up with pride. It costs nothing, and it is worthless.
As self-sacrifice, says De Maistre, is the basis and essence of virtue, so those virtues are the most meritorious that have cost the greatest effort to attain.
Do not look with so much pride on this collection of virtues, but rather bring yourself to account for your faults. Take just one, the first that comes, impatience, sloth, gossip, uncharitableness, sulkiness, whatever it may be, and attack it bravely.
It will take at least a month, calculating upon three victories every day, not indeed to eradicate it,—a fault is not so short-lived,—but to prevent its attaining dominion over you.
That one subdued, then take[pg 037]another. It is the work of a lifetime; and truly to our faults may we apply the saying, "Quand il n'y en a plus, il y en a encore."
"Happy should I think myself,"said S. Francis de Sales,"if I could rid myself of my imperfections butone-quarter of an hour previous to my death."
XXII.Before Holy CommunionJesusMy child, it is not wisdomIrequire of thee, it sufficeth if thou lovest Me well.Speak to Me as thou wouldst talk to thy mother if she were here, pressing thee to her heart.Hast thou none for whom thou wouldst intercede?Tell Me the names[pg 038]of thy kindred and thy friends; and at the mention of each name add what thou wouldst have Me do for them. Ask much fervently; the generous hearts that forget themselves for others are very dear unto Me.Tell Me of the poor thou wouldst succor, the sick thou hast seen suffering, the sinful thou wouldst reclaim, the estranged thou wouldst receive to thy heart again.Pray fervently for all mankind.Remind Me of My promise to hear all prayers that proceed from the heart; and the prayer offered for one who loves us, and is dear to us, is sure to be heartfelt and fervent.Hast thou no favors to ask of Me?Give Me, if thou wilt, a list of all thy desires, all the wants of thy soul. Tell Me, simply, of all thy pride, sensuality, self-love, sloth; and ask for My[pg 039]help in thy struggles to overcome them.Poor child! be not abashed; many that had the same faults to contend against are now saints in heaven.They cried to Me for help, and by degrees they conquered.Do not hesitate to ask for temporal blessings,—health, intellect, success. I can bestow them, and never fail to do so, where they tend to make the soul more holy. What wouldst thou this day, My child?... If thou didst but know how I long to bless thee!...Hast thou no interests which occupy thy mind?Tell Me of them all.... Of thy vocation. What dost thou think? What dost thou desire? Wouldst thou give pleasure to thy mother, thy family, those in authority over thee? what wouldst thou do for them?[pg 040]And for Me hast thou no ardor? Dost thou not desire to do some good to the souls of those thou lovest, but who are forgetful of Me?Tell Me of one in whom thou hast interest; the motive that actuates; the means thou wouldst employ.Lay before Me thy failures, andIwill teach thee the cause.Whom wouldst thou have to help thee? The hearts of all are in My keeping, andIlead them gently wheresoeverIwill. Rest assured, all who are needful to thee,Iwill place around thee.Oh! My child, tell Me of all thy weariness: who has grieved thee? treated thee with contempt? wounded thy self-love?Tell Me all, and thou wilt end by saying, all is forgiven, all forgotten ... andI, surelyIwill bless thee!...Art thou fearful of the future?Is[pg 041]there in thy heart that vague dread that thou canst not define, but which nevertheless torments thee?Trust in My Providence....Iam present with thee,Iknow all, andIwill never leave thee nor forsake thee.Are there around thee those seemingly less devout than formerly, whose coldness or indifference have estranged thee from them without real cause?...Pray for them.Ican draw them back to thee if they are necessary to the sanctification of thy soul.What are the joys of which thou hast to tell Me?Let Me share thy pleasures; tell Me of all that has occurred since yesterday to comfort thee, please thee, to give thee joy!That fear suddenly dispelled, that unexpected success, that token of[pg 042]affection, the trial that proved thee stronger than thou thoughtest....My child,Isent it all; why not show some gratitude, and simply thank thyLord?Gratitude draws down a blessing, and the Great Benefactor likes His children to remind Him of His Goodness.Hast thou no promises to make to Me?I can read thy heart; thou knowest it; thou mayst deceive man, but thou canst never deceive God. Be sincere.Art thou resolved to avoid all occasions of sin?To renounce that which tempts thee; never again to open the book that excites thine imagination? Not to bestow thine affection on one who is not devout, and whose presence steals the peace from thy soul?Wilt thou go now and be loving and forbearing towards one who has vexed thee?...[pg 043]Good, My child!... Go, then, return to thy daily toil; be silent, humble, resigned, charitable; then return to Me with a heart yet more loving and devoted, andIshall have for thee fresh blessings.
My child, it is not wisdomIrequire of thee, it sufficeth if thou lovest Me well.
Speak to Me as thou wouldst talk to thy mother if she were here, pressing thee to her heart.
Hast thou none for whom thou wouldst intercede?Tell Me the names[pg 038]of thy kindred and thy friends; and at the mention of each name add what thou wouldst have Me do for them. Ask much fervently; the generous hearts that forget themselves for others are very dear unto Me.
Tell Me of the poor thou wouldst succor, the sick thou hast seen suffering, the sinful thou wouldst reclaim, the estranged thou wouldst receive to thy heart again.
Pray fervently for all mankind.
Remind Me of My promise to hear all prayers that proceed from the heart; and the prayer offered for one who loves us, and is dear to us, is sure to be heartfelt and fervent.
Hast thou no favors to ask of Me?Give Me, if thou wilt, a list of all thy desires, all the wants of thy soul. Tell Me, simply, of all thy pride, sensuality, self-love, sloth; and ask for My[pg 039]help in thy struggles to overcome them.
Poor child! be not abashed; many that had the same faults to contend against are now saints in heaven.
They cried to Me for help, and by degrees they conquered.
Do not hesitate to ask for temporal blessings,—health, intellect, success. I can bestow them, and never fail to do so, where they tend to make the soul more holy. What wouldst thou this day, My child?... If thou didst but know how I long to bless thee!...
Hast thou no interests which occupy thy mind?
Tell Me of them all.... Of thy vocation. What dost thou think? What dost thou desire? Wouldst thou give pleasure to thy mother, thy family, those in authority over thee? what wouldst thou do for them?
And for Me hast thou no ardor? Dost thou not desire to do some good to the souls of those thou lovest, but who are forgetful of Me?
Tell Me of one in whom thou hast interest; the motive that actuates; the means thou wouldst employ.
Lay before Me thy failures, andIwill teach thee the cause.
Whom wouldst thou have to help thee? The hearts of all are in My keeping, andIlead them gently wheresoeverIwill. Rest assured, all who are needful to thee,Iwill place around thee.
Oh! My child, tell Me of all thy weariness: who has grieved thee? treated thee with contempt? wounded thy self-love?
Tell Me all, and thou wilt end by saying, all is forgiven, all forgotten ... andI, surelyIwill bless thee!...
Art thou fearful of the future?Is[pg 041]there in thy heart that vague dread that thou canst not define, but which nevertheless torments thee?
Trust in My Providence....Iam present with thee,Iknow all, andIwill never leave thee nor forsake thee.
Are there around thee those seemingly less devout than formerly, whose coldness or indifference have estranged thee from them without real cause?...
Pray for them.Ican draw them back to thee if they are necessary to the sanctification of thy soul.
What are the joys of which thou hast to tell Me?
Let Me share thy pleasures; tell Me of all that has occurred since yesterday to comfort thee, please thee, to give thee joy!
That fear suddenly dispelled, that unexpected success, that token of[pg 042]affection, the trial that proved thee stronger than thou thoughtest....
My child,Isent it all; why not show some gratitude, and simply thank thyLord?
Gratitude draws down a blessing, and the Great Benefactor likes His children to remind Him of His Goodness.
Hast thou no promises to make to Me?I can read thy heart; thou knowest it; thou mayst deceive man, but thou canst never deceive God. Be sincere.
Art thou resolved to avoid all occasions of sin?To renounce that which tempts thee; never again to open the book that excites thine imagination? Not to bestow thine affection on one who is not devout, and whose presence steals the peace from thy soul?
Wilt thou go now and be loving and forbearing towards one who has vexed thee?...
Good, My child!... Go, then, return to thy daily toil; be silent, humble, resigned, charitable; then return to Me with a heart yet more loving and devoted, andIshall have for thee fresh blessings.
XXIII."There will soon be none left,"said S. Francis de Sales,"who will love poor sinners butGodand myself."Oh! why do we fail in love towards those poor sinful ones! Are they not very much to be pitied?When they are prosperous, pray for them; but when misfortune comes (and trouble weighs heavily upon the wicked), death depriving them of the only beings they did not hate, afflicting them with a loathsome disease, delivering them up to scorn and misery—oh! then, when all this comes upon them, love them freely. It is by[pg 044]affection alone that we can reach the worst characters, and the souls that are steeped in sin.How many have died impenitent, who, if only some one had cared for them and shown them love, might have become at last saints in heaven! Oh! the sins that are committed, oh! the souls we suffer to wander fromGod, and all because we are so wanting in love towards them.
"There will soon be none left,"said S. Francis de Sales,"who will love poor sinners butGodand myself."
Oh! why do we fail in love towards those poor sinful ones! Are they not very much to be pitied?
When they are prosperous, pray for them; but when misfortune comes (and trouble weighs heavily upon the wicked), death depriving them of the only beings they did not hate, afflicting them with a loathsome disease, delivering them up to scorn and misery—oh! then, when all this comes upon them, love them freely. It is by[pg 044]affection alone that we can reach the worst characters, and the souls that are steeped in sin.
How many have died impenitent, who, if only some one had cared for them and shown them love, might have become at last saints in heaven! Oh! the sins that are committed, oh! the souls we suffer to wander fromGod, and all because we are so wanting in love towards them.
XXIV.Let us always be on our guard againstPrejudice.Some women have a way (of which they themselves are unconscious) of turning the cold shoulder to some one member of their family.For what reason? They cannot say, simply because the cause is never very clearly defined and in this lies all the mischief.[pg 045]Perhaps an air of indifference they may have fancied, and which arose merely from fatigue, or trouble that could not be confided to them.A word misinterpreted, because heard at a time when they felt discontented, and their morbid imagination made everything appear in a false light.Some scandal to which they ought never to have listened, or, at least, should have endeavored to fathom, going direct to the person concerned and seeking an explanation.And behold the result: they in their turn become cold, reserved, and suspicious, misinterpreting the slightest gesture ... in a few days arises a coldness, from the feeling they are no longer beloved; then follow contempt and mistrust, finally, a hatred that gnaws and rends the very heart.It all springs up imperceptibly, till[pg 046]at last the family life is one of bitterness and misery.They console, or better still, excuse themselves, with the thought of their suffering, never considering how much pain they give to others, nor where the fault lies.
Let us always be on our guard againstPrejudice.
Some women have a way (of which they themselves are unconscious) of turning the cold shoulder to some one member of their family.
For what reason? They cannot say, simply because the cause is never very clearly defined and in this lies all the mischief.
Perhaps an air of indifference they may have fancied, and which arose merely from fatigue, or trouble that could not be confided to them.
A word misinterpreted, because heard at a time when they felt discontented, and their morbid imagination made everything appear in a false light.
Some scandal to which they ought never to have listened, or, at least, should have endeavored to fathom, going direct to the person concerned and seeking an explanation.
And behold the result: they in their turn become cold, reserved, and suspicious, misinterpreting the slightest gesture ... in a few days arises a coldness, from the feeling they are no longer beloved; then follow contempt and mistrust, finally, a hatred that gnaws and rends the very heart.
It all springs up imperceptibly, till[pg 046]at last the family life is one of bitterness and misery.
They console, or better still, excuse themselves, with the thought of their suffering, never considering how much pain they give to others, nor where the fault lies.
XXV.Let it rest! Ah! how many hearts on the brink of anxiety and disquietude by this simple sentence have been made calm and happy!Some proceeding has wounded us by its want of tact;let it rest; no one will think of it again.A harsh or unjust sentence irritates us;let it rest; whoever may have given vent to it will be pleased to see it is forgotten.A painful scandal is about to estrange us from an old friend;let it rest, and thus preserve our charity and peace of mind.[pg 047]A suspicious look is on the point of cooling our affection;let it rest, and our look of trust will restore confidence....Fancy! we who are so careful to remove the briers from our pathway for fear they should wound, yet take pleasure in collecting and piercing our hearts with the thorns that meet us in our daily intercourse with one another. How childish and unreasonable we are!
Let it rest! Ah! how many hearts on the brink of anxiety and disquietude by this simple sentence have been made calm and happy!
Some proceeding has wounded us by its want of tact;let it rest; no one will think of it again.
A harsh or unjust sentence irritates us;let it rest; whoever may have given vent to it will be pleased to see it is forgotten.
A painful scandal is about to estrange us from an old friend;let it rest, and thus preserve our charity and peace of mind.
A suspicious look is on the point of cooling our affection;let it rest, and our look of trust will restore confidence....
Fancy! we who are so careful to remove the briers from our pathway for fear they should wound, yet take pleasure in collecting and piercing our hearts with the thorns that meet us in our daily intercourse with one another. How childish and unreasonable we are!