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BUT Wilmot did not come back. As Nellie had told her father, it was all over; there would be no change.
Christmas had passed, and New Year's Day dawned, bringing a second letter from Hope—a surprised, rather hurt, letter.
"I always thought men extraordinary, Nellie, but never believed it could come so 'home' to me as this."I told you about Wilmot's wish to go abroad. When he arrived, to our dismay, he brought all his belongings with him from London, and he and mother were closeted together for hours that night."I heard all this from Maude, for I could not go down to the cottage on Christmas Eve, as I was to spend the next day there, and I had little things to do, besides not wishing to leave dear Mrs. Arundel for so long."On Christmas day Wilmot seemed much as usual, but mamma looked pale and worried; and in the evening she told us Wilmot had decided to go to New Zealand, and had made arrangements for George to be in the same office and lodgings, and everything that he had been in, and to begin life in London in his place."Mamma did not explain his reasons; simply said she had given her consent, and she believed it would be very advantageous for George."I cannot write it all, Nellie, for I am busy, and besides my eyes ache with crying. Wilmot begged us not to make a fuss; that he should send for us in a year or two, and pictured to us what he should do, and what we should do."We did not pass an unhappy evening after all, though I do not consider Wilmot seemed quite like himself."The next day he came up and asked dear Mrs. Arundel if I might come home for a few days to help get his things ready, and she willingly assented."To make a long story short, we worked away night and day almost, and he is gone."He sailed this morning, and that is why my eyes are swollen with crying."Mamma feels it very much; but she makes no complaint."I cannot think what it has been that made him decide to go; but he always has been rather fond of travelling, and nothing but his wish to help mamma with us all, has kept him in England so long."I heard her say to him once, 'My dear boy, remember God is with you wherever you go. You can never be where He is not.'"'I know, mother,' he answered; 'I do not forget it. I am thankful to know it. But for that—'"He left the sentence unfinished, and it is the only time I heard him break down in any way."You will see, Nellie, that this was a good deal for mamma to say; but I do believe she is happier in that way than she was."
Nellie announced the news of Hope's letter at once, feeling it would be easier to have it over than to be dreading it all day.
Her father gave a quick glance at her face; but after that, he took it in a matter-of-fact way, for which she felt thankful.
Walter's plans, and with them Christina's, were now the chief thought amongst them.
He had waited for the week to look round upon it all, and then told his father that he should like to settle down with them at No. 8 till the next autumn.
"Christina wishes it," he added; "and I quite agree with her. It will be the best thing, if you will have me."
"Have you?" said Dr. Arundel, looking with one of his rare smiles into his son's face. "My boy, my heart has been much lighter since it has got you back."
Walter thoroughly appreciated the tone of these words; and when afterwards Nellie told him that the week had seen a wonderful change for the better in their father, he was truly relieved and thankful to know that his affection and presence could lighten the gloom which had fallen on the house since he left it, only a little more than a year ago.
So the winter passed away.
One day in early spring, Nellie came into the nursery with a letter in her hand.
"Whom is this for, do you think?" she said, holding it up, and looking across the room to Tom's couch.
"Not for me, is it?" he asked, while a flush of pleasure came over his face. "I never get letters."
"Yes it is, Tom," said Nellie, advancing and putting it in his hand.
Netta and Isabel, who were fast getting out of "nursery children," happened to be there, and came close to see what it could be.
It was a delicately-folded note, and inside Tom read aloud, with some dismay:
"The pleasure of Master Tom Arundel's society is desired at Sunnyside for a fortnight, accompanied by his sister Ada."
"What does it mean?" asked Tom, looking rather anxiously at Nellie.
"I should think it means you are to go and stay at Hampstead."
"Oh!" said Tom. "But I don't think I can stay anywhere."
"Here is another letter in the same writing," said Nellie, smiling; "but as Ada is not home yet, we must wait."
Nellie sat down by Tom, and took up her work, while she listened to his plans and projects; but suddenly, he hid his face in his hands and burst into tears.
"Tom, dear?" she asked tenderly. "What is it? Do tell me; what is the matter?"
"She would have told me whether I could go or not," sobbed Tom. "Oh, Nellie, I cannot live without her!"
He sobbed violently, and Nellie knelt down by his side and put her arm under his head, but without her love seeming to make any impression on his grief.
So patiently had he borne his sorrow, that they had almost begun to think it was wearing off; but just now a tender chord had been touched, and it would vibrate.
Sensitive and shrinking, the poor child always depended on his mother's judgment for all he was to do; and now suddenly, when the occasion arose, there was no one to appeal to. It came upon him with a freshness of despair, and at first, he was too overwhelmed to listen to Nellie's assurances of its being possible, or to consider his usual source of comfort.
"Leave me, Nellie," he whispered at last; "I must have time to think."
When his sister came again to see him, peace reigned on his pale little face. He looked up into her eyes, and held out a tiny note. It ran—
"Dear Christina,—At first I thought I could not; but now, if you will excuse such a helpless visitor, I should like to come."Your affectionate little Tom."
"You have found your rest again, darling," said Nellie, very low, to him.
"Yes, Nellie. I find if ever I run from under the covert of His wings, I get frightened. But I'm so sorry I grieved you about mamma; you do all you can, Nellie, all that is possible for me, and I do love you and thank you; but sometimes—"
"Yes, dearest Tom; we all feel it so, and then, as you say, we find our only consolation is under the covert of His wings—
"'He shall cover thee with His feathers; and under His wings shalt thou trust.'"
"School's over for three weeks!" exclaimed Ada, bursting in, and throwing a bag of books on the table.
"What a noise, Ada," said Isabel.
Ada turned round sharply, and told Isabel—"It did not matter to her."
Isabel said, "It did; we were having a talk, and did not want to be interrupted."
"All right," said Ada, "I'll make myself scarce." With which sharp words, she hastened from the room.
"Isabel, dear!" said Nellie. "I wish you would not vex Ada."
"Well, Nellie; she is so hasty. I only made the remark that she did make a noise."
"Quite true," said Nellie; "but the truth is not always pleasant, and you are younger than she."
Nellie went into their room and sought Ada. "Here is a letter for you, Ada," she said.
"I wish, Nellie," said Ada in return, "that you would make those children mind their own business. They are always keeping me in order."
"You should try not to mind a little remark, dear; it is difficult to repress everything, isn't it?"
"I should, if I had the management," said Ada.
"Would you?" said Nellie, smiling a little; "but here's your letter, Ada."
"Who's it from?" asked Ada ungraciously, holding out her hand, however, for it.
"From Christina."
"I declare!" said Ada, reading and brightening up. "She has asked me for a fortnight to Sunnyside, and Tom, too. Can he go, Nellie?"
"I think so, if papa says he can; but it will be a great charge for you."
"But then there will be Christina, and she understands Tom so well."
"She does; but you will have to be very patient with him, Ada. It will do him a great deal of good, or it might be harm. He misses mamma more than you think."
"We none of us know what each other feel," said Ada; "that's the way with people living in the same house."
"But love and sympathy help us to understand, Ada," answered Nellie.
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CONCLUSION.
FOUR years after the events recorded in the last chapter, two young ladies were sitting in a sunny room at Shanklin, looking out on to the sea.
On the knees of the elder of the two lay an infant, and over it bent a fond, lovely face, not altered but improved by its motherliness.
By the side of the other, stood a little roundabout of two years old, gazing up in her face, as she told her a history of a brightly coloured picture.
Her mother glanced at the group with a sweet, tender look. "Kind Auntie Nellie," she observed.
"Tind auntie!" responded the little creature, patting Nellie's hand.
"How she gets on, Christina," said Auntie Nellie, looking up; "I never heard a child talk so plainly."
"That is because I always speak to her so distinctly."
"I believe it is," answered Nellie, smiling. Then, turning to a little maiden of about six years old, who stood looking out of the window, she added:
"Come, Alice, would you not like to see these pictures too?"
The child turned and came close, putting her arm affectionately round little Eleanor.
"And so," said Nellie, continuing her story, "God gives us just what He sees the very best for us. See, that man is handing his little child a great heavy stone; and that one, in contrast, is giving his child a nice piece of bread."
"Yes," said Alice; "but I don't like that other father; he doesn't look kind."
"No; it is just to teach us the lesson how unkind we should think it in our father; and God is better than any earthly father."
"And He's always thinking about being kind," said Alice, with kindling eyes. "Don't you remember last week, when I was poorly, and couldn't eat any nice things or fruit for ever so long, how He sent me—told someone to send me—that tiny, tiny little text-book?"
"Yes, darling; I thought so when it came."
"So did I," said Alice, nodding, "because He's so kind."
Eleanor looked on wonderingly, only half comprehending, but still taking in part of the picture into her little mind, and carrying away with her into the garden, whither the children now ran, an impression that "God was kind."
Just outside the verandah—the same old verandah where Nellie used to sit and dream and pray—Tom, little no longer, reclined in an invalid chair. His face was altered from the delicate child's face, but it had the same sweet trustful expression, though he was now a boy of fourteen.
He had been allowed by his physicians to sit up a little every day; but his slight form was even thinner than it had been, and those round him knew that he was slowly but surely preparing to leave them.
He knew it himself, and talked of it peacefully and happily, not as a thing to be dreaded, but as a change from tender love here, to even better beyond.
His patience, as the years rolled slowly on, increased rather than diminished, and the absence of fretfulness, which had once been obtained with great inward struggle, now was habitual.
He and Nellie were the firmest friends and dearest companions; and if anything lightened her cares, it was to have "a talk" with little Tom.
When she was burdened or weary, she would sit silently by him, leaning her head on his cushion, content to be quiet; and often if they did not speak a word, comfort would steal over her. So, peaceful and still, she would remember the patiently-borne suffering of her young brother—the hopelessness of his earthly prospects, the hopefulness with which he regarded his heavenly prospects; and any repining would be rebuked when she thought of how much more enjoyment she had after all, than he.
Just now he was lying with closed eyes listening to the song of the waves, occasionally catching the low talk of the two sisters.
"Ada gets a handsome girl, doesn't she?" said Nellie.
"Yes; but she thinks nothing about it, but just goes on her sensible way as nicely as possible."
"I have much to thank her for since dear mamma's death," responded Nellie. "She has been a dear sister to me."
"I am sure she has. There was one time that I was rather afraid, but your love and patience tided over the difficulty."
"It was very hard for her to have to yield to me, if there was a difference of opinion; and yet sometimes you know I was forced to carry out what I thought right. It was about the children generally that we had trouble; but, after all, she acted so beautifully."
"Dear Ada! And now she does so much credit to your love and care."
"Not mine; I do not feel I can take any credit. I was always helped over every difficulty. At first I used to think I could never succeed in managing it all; and then I learnt gradually that every time I got perplexed, I had nothing to do but to ask for wisdom. Sometimes I felt as if the wisdom had hardly been given, as if things had not quite gone right after all; but I learned gradually to believe in the answer to my prayer being sent, and the more I trusted, the more I found I might trust."
Nellie smiled brightly when she got to the end of this long sentence, and Christina looked with soft appreciating glance back at her.
At this moment, a sound of merry voices came nearer and nearer. The gate creaked on its hinges, and a number of young people came quickly up the path, and entered the sitting-room.
"We have had such a lovely ramble," exclaimed Ada, holding in her hand her pet brother, a sturdy little fellow of six years old.
"I'm not a bit tired," said he, stumping along bravely; "and Ada says we've been six miles."
"Yes, that we have," answered Arthur, "and I think Cecil has done well. So your wee birdie is asleep, Christina?"
"Yes; and I must go and lay her in her cot. Ada, bring Eleanor with you."
Eleanor climbed up into Auntie Ada's arms, and was carried off smiling to her nurse; while Nellie went out to Tom, and asked him if he were ready to come in.
He turned his face up to hers. What a look of affection was in his eyes! "I like being here, Nellie," he said; "and now I have this, I can come in when I like, you know."
He referred to his invalid chair, with its large, easy wheels, which he could move with a touch of his hand.
She smiled in answer, and settling his pillow stood still, looking down upon him.
"You are in pain to-day I fear, dear?" she said softly.
"Only a little."
"Your back?"
"Yes; but I must expect it, Nellie. Don't look sad, darling. 'Neither will there be any more pain there.'"
"No, dear. 'The former things will be passed away;' but I wish—"
"Do not wish anything but what is sent me," he answered. "It is all love."
Nellie kissed his forehead, and turned away. "All love," she repeated to herself, as she went up to her room; "all love.
'All the paths of the Lord are mercy and truth.'"
As she looked from her window over the sea, and thought of all these things, she saw Walter come in from his walk, with Netta and Isabel leaning on him on either side, full of life and spirits.
"There's Nellie at her window," exclaimed Netta, looking up. "Nellie, Walter wants you to come down. He's cut his finger, and Christina is nowhere to be seen."
"I will come," said Nellie, hastening down.
"Is it bad?" she asked, as she rapidly got out rag and calendula, which she always kept handy.
"Oh dear, no; a mere scratch. But where is Christina?"
"Can't do without her for five minutes?" asked Arthur saucily from the sofa, where he lay luxuriously enjoying a delightful book.
"No, not if I can help it; where is she?"
"He will have an answer," said Arthur, going on reading.
"He cannot get one," answered Walter, as he held out his finger to Nellie's soft touch.
"She is with her little ones," said Nellie, "but will be back in a minute. Oh, here she is!"
"Papa is coming down to-night, Walter," said Christina. "I have just had a note from him, so we shall have a happy Sunday. Oh, dear, have you cut your finger?"
"It is nothing serious; I did it sharpening my knife. And so you have heard from my father?"
"Yes; and I have two other letters in which you will be interested."
"Are we to hear them now?"
"If you like. One is from Mrs. Wood, Charlie's mother, you know."
"And the other?"
"From home."
"Are all getting on well?"
"Yes. You shall have Mrs. Fenton's letter first."
"Dear Mistress,—You will be glad to hear that all are well, both at Sunnyside, and at our little Home. Alfy has been a very good boy, and he sends his love to you. So do Georgie and Frank. Alfy's grandfather died the end of last week; and his grandmother is very sadly. I do not think she will last long. Miss Arbuthnot returned from the north safely, yesterday. I hope you, and master, and the dear little ones are quite well, and enjoying yourselves. We miss you all very much."With our respects, in which all unite—"I am, dear Mistress,"Your obedient servant,"Mrs. Fenton."
"Good old creature," said Walter, when the letter was read; "it is a real treat to talk to her. I often go and have a chat with her in her cottage, Nellie."
"Does she like having the three little boys to live with her?" asked Arthur.
"Yes, very well," answered Christina; "she is very good to them, and they go to school, so she does not get quite so much of them."
"The plan acts very nicely," said Walter; "and no one knows what blessing she may bring to those little lads, by her bright faith and cheerful loving service. She said, when we first told her that we thought of building two more rooms to her cottage, and getting her to mind these boys, 'Well, sir, I'll think it over, and if I find it is the work my Father has set me to do, I'll do it.' And she waited a day or two, and talked to 'her Father' about it, and then came to us and accepted."
"I do like her," said Ada; "and now, Christina, let us have your other letter, if we are to hear it."
"My dear Mrs. Arundel,—It is with the greatest pleasure I take up my pen to send you these few lines, for I feel you are the dearest friend to whom I can write. We are getting on so happily, and I am so well, and our business is much improved. All owing to you, dear Mrs. Arundel; and I can never be grateful enough."My husband is coming to London in September, and he promises to bring me and Charlie with him, that we may have a sight of your face, and we are longing for the time to come."We keep the text you gave us on our wall, and read it over very often. I have found it true many a time. You remember it, do you not?"'God is our Refuge and Strength—a very present help in time of trouble.'"We have proved Him that, and daily He is my strength, as He says."You will excuse this long letter; but it is so nice to be allowed to talk to you. I often think of the home above, where I shall, through God's forgiving mercy, meet you; for He has cast all my sins into the depths of the sea."With our very kind respects, and my and Charlie's love—"Yours most gratefully,"Clementina Wood."
"Poor thing," said Walter.
"She is happy though, now?" asked Ada.
"Yes; but oh, Ada! It must be dreadful to have such a past to look back upon," said Christina.
"We have all plenty to regret," answered Ada, sighing.
"Heigho!" said Arthur, "I have only a week more holiday, I declare, and then I must grind, grind, again."
"Is 'walking the hospitals,' 'grinding'?" asked Cecil.
"I should say so," said Arthur, "just."
"It isn't my idea of it," said Cecil, and the elders laughed, while Arthur was not sure whether he was being made fun of; but Cecil looked so stolidly at him after his remark, that he concluded to let the matter drop.
"We shall all have to 'grind' soon," said Walter.
"So you will," said Dolly; "for besides your business, you're always going out preaching to children."
"Not always, Dolly, or poor Christina would see nothing at all of me."
He seated himself by his wife, and began playing with her knitting ball.
She removed it from his fidgety fingers smilingly, and said, "Yes, life is busy to us all, isn't it, Nellie?"
"Yes," answered Nellie, "very; but I for one am not quite so busy as I used to be."
"And I am more busy than I ever was," said Christina.
"Of course with those 'blessed infants,'" said Arthur.
"You know you love them dearly, Arthur," said Netta.
"You do?"
"I don't pretend to deny it," she answered.
"Oh, well.—When is tea coming, Nellie?"
"In a few minutes. You are hungry, I suppose."
"Don't you think six miles has earned an early tea?"
"I will ring; but you know the water doesn't boil till five."
She laughed; and when the little maid came, she suggested that all had come back hungry.
"I'll see 'm; I'll tell misses, 'm. The kettle do nearly boil, 'm."
After tea, most of the young party proposed to go to meet Dr. Arundel.
Nellie said she was rather tired, and would sit in the garden instead, and bear Tom company.
Tom, however, felt chilly, and soon wheeled himself into the sitting-room, which was particularly convenient, as the French door opened to the garden without a step of any kind.
He begged Nellie to sit out in the air as long as she felt inclined, as he should be reading to himself; so she sat on, thinking them rather a long time gone. When at last she heard their voices returning, she was surprised to find that they passed the house, and continued their way along the walk by the sea.
But the gate swung to, and Dolly's little feet ran lightly up the path, then through the house and into the garden, and paused by her side.
"They have taken papa a little walk, Nellie, and I've come to tell you so, and to say that there's a friend come down with papa from London, and I was to tell you so."
"A friend? Who, dear?"
"He's coming in; he doesn't want to go for a walk. He's just outside, Nellie."
She hastened away, having discharged Walter's message most faithfully; and only waiting to lead their visitor through the room to the French door, she hurried back after the others, and left him to make his own introduction.
He advanced over the soft little lawn to where Nellie was standing, waiting and wondering.
As he came nearer in the half-light, she failed to recognize the stranger; but something in the sound of his step made her heart give a strange leap.
He came closer and held out his hand.
"Do you not remember me, Miss Arundel?"
"Mr. Elliot!" exclaimed Nellie.
"I have come back," he said, still clasping her hand in both his; "and I want to know if you can forgive me for going away and leaving you all these years?"
"I have nothing to forgive," answered Nellie, trembling violently, and sitting down.
"I am afraid you have. Such hard, bitter thoughts at first. Such a hurry to go and leave you, and try to forget you. But after a while I came to better feelings."
Nellie bent her head lower, but knew not what to say.
"But I have come back, Nellie. I may call you Nellie now, may I not? I have waited a long time, and I have come to ask again. Can you tell me now whether, as I have loved you so long, you can love me?"
"I did not mean to be unkind then," she said softly.
"I am sure you did not. Come, Nellie, it has been such a long weary time; can you not make me happy at last?"
"I will try to," she said, whispering low.
And then Wilmot knew that he had obtained his heart's desire.
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JOHN F. SHAW AND CO., PATERNOSTER ROW.