THE UNSPOKEN WORD
THE MAN'S SIDE
Two years I have lived in a dreamAnd have dared not to end it—Owned wealth in a measure supremeAnd been fearful to spend it.You, woman of beauty and loveIn such noble wise fashioned,Are my dreams and my rich treasure-trove.I am shamed that, impassioned,In secret I levy demandsUpon more than you've given—Crave yourself, heart and soul, eyes and hands,Which in sum make up heaven.Unconscious of aught, through these daysYou have let me be near you,Knowing not how your thousand sweet waysOnly serve to endear youTo all in your orbit who move,In such innocence wrongingAs friendship what really is loveAnd unsatisfied longing.Yet, your friendship—to be just your friend—So caps love in another,That I would my love, burned to its end,In its own smoke might smother,Lest I in an outbreak one dayAsk of friendship aught stronger—When you may forbid me to sayEven "friend" any longer.So I come in the old way and go,While my heart's quickened beatingsAre hidden, and you never knowWhat I glean from our meetings;How a word, a look even, which seemsSo unconsciously meted,Builds new dreams on the wreckage of dreamsThat were never completed.You once dropped a flower—did not seeThat I hid in my bosomWhat was more than Golconda to me,And to you a bruised blossom.Ten seconds I once held your handWhile you pulled from the riverA lily. Could you understandWhy my own hand should quiver?Small matters these things you accountWho so lightly diffuse them,But to all my life's joy they amount—And my fear is, to lose them.One day, when your eyes are still kindAnd your voice is still tender,I shall slip the control of my mind,All my future surrender,Obeying the primal desireTo fall down and adore you,And outpour in one instant of fireAll the love I have for you.'Twill be death, and far worse, at your feetWhen my lips cease to blunderAnd I look up your dear eyes to meetOverrunning with wonder.Thereafter—what? Nothing, I fear—Even dreams will have vanishedWhen I by my act from your sphereShall for ever be banished.Dear, that is the moment I dread—When you hear my confession,When the word I withhold has been saidAnd my love finds expression;But till then (and God knows how I seekTo postpone and postpone it),Till my love grows too strong, lips too weakTo much longer disown it,I shall come, if I may, day by day,My small gleanings to gather,While you think of me—how shall we say?As a brother or father;And you never will guess, till you learnFrom a heart brimming over,That I've met you at every turnAs a passionate lover.
Two years I have lived in a dreamAnd have dared not to end it—Owned wealth in a measure supremeAnd been fearful to spend it.You, woman of beauty and loveIn such noble wise fashioned,Are my dreams and my rich treasure-trove.I am shamed that, impassioned,In secret I levy demandsUpon more than you've given—Crave yourself, heart and soul, eyes and hands,Which in sum make up heaven.Unconscious of aught, through these daysYou have let me be near you,Knowing not how your thousand sweet waysOnly serve to endear youTo all in your orbit who move,In such innocence wrongingAs friendship what really is loveAnd unsatisfied longing.Yet, your friendship—to be just your friend—So caps love in another,That I would my love, burned to its end,In its own smoke might smother,Lest I in an outbreak one dayAsk of friendship aught stronger—When you may forbid me to sayEven "friend" any longer.So I come in the old way and go,While my heart's quickened beatingsAre hidden, and you never knowWhat I glean from our meetings;How a word, a look even, which seemsSo unconsciously meted,Builds new dreams on the wreckage of dreamsThat were never completed.You once dropped a flower—did not seeThat I hid in my bosomWhat was more than Golconda to me,And to you a bruised blossom.Ten seconds I once held your handWhile you pulled from the riverA lily. Could you understandWhy my own hand should quiver?Small matters these things you accountWho so lightly diffuse them,But to all my life's joy they amount—And my fear is, to lose them.One day, when your eyes are still kindAnd your voice is still tender,I shall slip the control of my mind,All my future surrender,Obeying the primal desireTo fall down and adore you,And outpour in one instant of fireAll the love I have for you.'Twill be death, and far worse, at your feetWhen my lips cease to blunderAnd I look up your dear eyes to meetOverrunning with wonder.Thereafter—what? Nothing, I fear—Even dreams will have vanishedWhen I by my act from your sphereShall for ever be banished.Dear, that is the moment I dread—When you hear my confession,When the word I withhold has been saidAnd my love finds expression;But till then (and God knows how I seekTo postpone and postpone it),Till my love grows too strong, lips too weakTo much longer disown it,I shall come, if I may, day by day,My small gleanings to gather,While you think of me—how shall we say?As a brother or father;And you never will guess, till you learnFrom a heart brimming over,That I've met you at every turnAs a passionate lover.
Two years I have lived in a dreamAnd have dared not to end it—Owned wealth in a measure supremeAnd been fearful to spend it.
Two years I have lived in a dream
And have dared not to end it—
Owned wealth in a measure supreme
And been fearful to spend it.
You, woman of beauty and loveIn such noble wise fashioned,Are my dreams and my rich treasure-trove.I am shamed that, impassioned,
You, woman of beauty and love
In such noble wise fashioned,
Are my dreams and my rich treasure-trove.
I am shamed that, impassioned,
In secret I levy demandsUpon more than you've given—Crave yourself, heart and soul, eyes and hands,Which in sum make up heaven.
In secret I levy demands
Upon more than you've given—
Crave yourself, heart and soul, eyes and hands,
Which in sum make up heaven.
Unconscious of aught, through these daysYou have let me be near you,Knowing not how your thousand sweet waysOnly serve to endear you
Unconscious of aught, through these days
You have let me be near you,
Knowing not how your thousand sweet ways
Only serve to endear you
To all in your orbit who move,In such innocence wrongingAs friendship what really is loveAnd unsatisfied longing.
To all in your orbit who move,
In such innocence wronging
As friendship what really is love
And unsatisfied longing.
Yet, your friendship—to be just your friend—So caps love in another,That I would my love, burned to its end,In its own smoke might smother,
Yet, your friendship—to be just your friend—
So caps love in another,
That I would my love, burned to its end,
In its own smoke might smother,
Lest I in an outbreak one dayAsk of friendship aught stronger—When you may forbid me to sayEven "friend" any longer.
Lest I in an outbreak one day
Ask of friendship aught stronger—
When you may forbid me to say
Even "friend" any longer.
So I come in the old way and go,While my heart's quickened beatingsAre hidden, and you never knowWhat I glean from our meetings;
So I come in the old way and go,
While my heart's quickened beatings
Are hidden, and you never know
What I glean from our meetings;
How a word, a look even, which seemsSo unconsciously meted,Builds new dreams on the wreckage of dreamsThat were never completed.
How a word, a look even, which seems
So unconsciously meted,
Builds new dreams on the wreckage of dreams
That were never completed.
You once dropped a flower—did not seeThat I hid in my bosomWhat was more than Golconda to me,And to you a bruised blossom.
You once dropped a flower—did not see
That I hid in my bosom
What was more than Golconda to me,
And to you a bruised blossom.
Ten seconds I once held your handWhile you pulled from the riverA lily. Could you understandWhy my own hand should quiver?
Ten seconds I once held your hand
While you pulled from the river
A lily. Could you understand
Why my own hand should quiver?
Small matters these things you accountWho so lightly diffuse them,But to all my life's joy they amount—And my fear is, to lose them.
Small matters these things you account
Who so lightly diffuse them,
But to all my life's joy they amount—
And my fear is, to lose them.
One day, when your eyes are still kindAnd your voice is still tender,I shall slip the control of my mind,All my future surrender,
One day, when your eyes are still kind
And your voice is still tender,
I shall slip the control of my mind,
All my future surrender,
Obeying the primal desireTo fall down and adore you,And outpour in one instant of fireAll the love I have for you.
Obeying the primal desire
To fall down and adore you,
And outpour in one instant of fire
All the love I have for you.
'Twill be death, and far worse, at your feetWhen my lips cease to blunderAnd I look up your dear eyes to meetOverrunning with wonder.
'Twill be death, and far worse, at your feet
When my lips cease to blunder
And I look up your dear eyes to meet
Overrunning with wonder.
Thereafter—what? Nothing, I fear—Even dreams will have vanishedWhen I by my act from your sphereShall for ever be banished.
Thereafter—what? Nothing, I fear—
Even dreams will have vanished
When I by my act from your sphere
Shall for ever be banished.
Dear, that is the moment I dread—When you hear my confession,When the word I withhold has been saidAnd my love finds expression;
Dear, that is the moment I dread—
When you hear my confession,
When the word I withhold has been said
And my love finds expression;
But till then (and God knows how I seekTo postpone and postpone it),Till my love grows too strong, lips too weakTo much longer disown it,
But till then (and God knows how I seek
To postpone and postpone it),
Till my love grows too strong, lips too weak
To much longer disown it,
I shall come, if I may, day by day,My small gleanings to gather,While you think of me—how shall we say?As a brother or father;
I shall come, if I may, day by day,
My small gleanings to gather,
While you think of me—how shall we say?
As a brother or father;
And you never will guess, till you learnFrom a heart brimming over,That I've met you at every turnAs a passionate lover.
And you never will guess, till you learn
From a heart brimming over,
That I've met you at every turn
As a passionate lover.
THE WOMAN'S SIDE
How long will you hold back, belov'd? How longLeave the supreme, the final word unspoken?The barrier of silence hold unbroken?Men—you, too, being a man—have called you strong,A doer of big deeds, great acts. But they are wrong.You lack in courage. I, being woman, knowHow often woman shapes man's enterprises,Cloaking her work in manifold disguisesLest he should chafe too large a debt to owe—Strikes every blow up to the very hundredth blowThat shall at last resolve, achieve, completeThe foregone nine-and-ninety. This, grown wiser,She leaves with him for fear he should despise her.Hewins the credit for the final feat—Thought ofhistriumph, not hers, made all her toiling sweet.Belov'd, how long before you understand?Why, I have known two years you were my lover,That all my being to yours was given over!The thing your heart most yearns for lies at handAwaiting only this, that you shall make demand.Have I not worked for all betwixt us twoSince first I saw your love spring into being,And you became too faint of heart for seeingThat the one peach you longed to garner grew,Ripened, and mellowed here only for you, for you?You would have drawn abashed from out my lifeHad I permitted; it becamemymissionTo bring the golden moment to fruitionThrough, ah, how many hours of wistful strifeWith you, who guessed not, even, the tender struggle rifeBetween us. When I met you with a smile,"Love's not for me," you thought, "yet while she kindlyStill looks and speaks, I'll stay." And went thus blindlyTaking for innocence what sprang from guileThat I might hold you by me just a little while.The day I dropped a flower upon the path,Did you not know it was the thing I aimed forWhen you behind me loitered (somewhat lamed forA good excuse), secured it free from scathAnd hid it close, to reap therefrom love's aftermathIn hours when I was absent? Why, Imeant,Belov'd, that you should have this one flower-treasure(Stolen, you thought!) out of my heart's full measure—Meant that your solitary nights be spentCheek to its petals pressed where all my love lay pent.And then, the day you helped me from the boat,"It is but chance," you thought, "I hold her fingersIn mine past custom's limit, while she lingersTo cull the waterlily there afloat."It was not chance, belov'd. And still you would not note.I have done all a woman may do, dear,With eyes and hands and tones of voice have spoken,In all but words have given you the tokenAnd seal of love. What is it then you fear?Can you not take one step, the goal being now so near?Just the last word to utter, just the lastStep to be taken—it is very little!Can you believe Love's structure is so brittle?All I have builded in these two years pastFall tottering at one word? It is of stronger cast.You would not have me speak. That part is yours.My share is finished and I wait for you now.The time to act has come—what will you do now?Dear, even I'd say the word that all ensuresBut that were more than love itself of love endures.I had to spend my strength when you were weak,Be guide along the road from its beginningTo the last barrier. Am I worth the winning?Butyoumust turn the key. It will not creak.Beloved, I am waiting still ... will you not speak?
How long will you hold back, belov'd? How longLeave the supreme, the final word unspoken?The barrier of silence hold unbroken?Men—you, too, being a man—have called you strong,A doer of big deeds, great acts. But they are wrong.You lack in courage. I, being woman, knowHow often woman shapes man's enterprises,Cloaking her work in manifold disguisesLest he should chafe too large a debt to owe—Strikes every blow up to the very hundredth blowThat shall at last resolve, achieve, completeThe foregone nine-and-ninety. This, grown wiser,She leaves with him for fear he should despise her.Hewins the credit for the final feat—Thought ofhistriumph, not hers, made all her toiling sweet.Belov'd, how long before you understand?Why, I have known two years you were my lover,That all my being to yours was given over!The thing your heart most yearns for lies at handAwaiting only this, that you shall make demand.Have I not worked for all betwixt us twoSince first I saw your love spring into being,And you became too faint of heart for seeingThat the one peach you longed to garner grew,Ripened, and mellowed here only for you, for you?You would have drawn abashed from out my lifeHad I permitted; it becamemymissionTo bring the golden moment to fruitionThrough, ah, how many hours of wistful strifeWith you, who guessed not, even, the tender struggle rifeBetween us. When I met you with a smile,"Love's not for me," you thought, "yet while she kindlyStill looks and speaks, I'll stay." And went thus blindlyTaking for innocence what sprang from guileThat I might hold you by me just a little while.The day I dropped a flower upon the path,Did you not know it was the thing I aimed forWhen you behind me loitered (somewhat lamed forA good excuse), secured it free from scathAnd hid it close, to reap therefrom love's aftermathIn hours when I was absent? Why, Imeant,Belov'd, that you should have this one flower-treasure(Stolen, you thought!) out of my heart's full measure—Meant that your solitary nights be spentCheek to its petals pressed where all my love lay pent.And then, the day you helped me from the boat,"It is but chance," you thought, "I hold her fingersIn mine past custom's limit, while she lingersTo cull the waterlily there afloat."It was not chance, belov'd. And still you would not note.I have done all a woman may do, dear,With eyes and hands and tones of voice have spoken,In all but words have given you the tokenAnd seal of love. What is it then you fear?Can you not take one step, the goal being now so near?Just the last word to utter, just the lastStep to be taken—it is very little!Can you believe Love's structure is so brittle?All I have builded in these two years pastFall tottering at one word? It is of stronger cast.You would not have me speak. That part is yours.My share is finished and I wait for you now.The time to act has come—what will you do now?Dear, even I'd say the word that all ensuresBut that were more than love itself of love endures.I had to spend my strength when you were weak,Be guide along the road from its beginningTo the last barrier. Am I worth the winning?Butyoumust turn the key. It will not creak.Beloved, I am waiting still ... will you not speak?
How long will you hold back, belov'd? How longLeave the supreme, the final word unspoken?The barrier of silence hold unbroken?Men—you, too, being a man—have called you strong,A doer of big deeds, great acts. But they are wrong.
How long will you hold back, belov'd? How long
Leave the supreme, the final word unspoken?
The barrier of silence hold unbroken?
Men—you, too, being a man—have called you strong,
A doer of big deeds, great acts. But they are wrong.
You lack in courage. I, being woman, knowHow often woman shapes man's enterprises,Cloaking her work in manifold disguisesLest he should chafe too large a debt to owe—Strikes every blow up to the very hundredth blow
You lack in courage. I, being woman, know
How often woman shapes man's enterprises,
Cloaking her work in manifold disguises
Lest he should chafe too large a debt to owe—
Strikes every blow up to the very hundredth blow
That shall at last resolve, achieve, completeThe foregone nine-and-ninety. This, grown wiser,She leaves with him for fear he should despise her.Hewins the credit for the final feat—Thought ofhistriumph, not hers, made all her toiling sweet.
That shall at last resolve, achieve, complete
The foregone nine-and-ninety. This, grown wiser,
She leaves with him for fear he should despise her.
Hewins the credit for the final feat—
Thought ofhistriumph, not hers, made all her toiling sweet.
Belov'd, how long before you understand?Why, I have known two years you were my lover,That all my being to yours was given over!The thing your heart most yearns for lies at handAwaiting only this, that you shall make demand.
Belov'd, how long before you understand?
Why, I have known two years you were my lover,
That all my being to yours was given over!
The thing your heart most yearns for lies at hand
Awaiting only this, that you shall make demand.
Have I not worked for all betwixt us twoSince first I saw your love spring into being,And you became too faint of heart for seeingThat the one peach you longed to garner grew,Ripened, and mellowed here only for you, for you?
Have I not worked for all betwixt us two
Since first I saw your love spring into being,
And you became too faint of heart for seeing
That the one peach you longed to garner grew,
Ripened, and mellowed here only for you, for you?
You would have drawn abashed from out my lifeHad I permitted; it becamemymissionTo bring the golden moment to fruitionThrough, ah, how many hours of wistful strifeWith you, who guessed not, even, the tender struggle rife
You would have drawn abashed from out my life
Had I permitted; it becamemymission
To bring the golden moment to fruition
Through, ah, how many hours of wistful strife
With you, who guessed not, even, the tender struggle rife
Between us. When I met you with a smile,"Love's not for me," you thought, "yet while she kindlyStill looks and speaks, I'll stay." And went thus blindlyTaking for innocence what sprang from guileThat I might hold you by me just a little while.
Between us. When I met you with a smile,
"Love's not for me," you thought, "yet while she kindly
Still looks and speaks, I'll stay." And went thus blindly
Taking for innocence what sprang from guile
That I might hold you by me just a little while.
The day I dropped a flower upon the path,Did you not know it was the thing I aimed forWhen you behind me loitered (somewhat lamed forA good excuse), secured it free from scathAnd hid it close, to reap therefrom love's aftermath
The day I dropped a flower upon the path,
Did you not know it was the thing I aimed for
When you behind me loitered (somewhat lamed for
A good excuse), secured it free from scath
And hid it close, to reap therefrom love's aftermath
In hours when I was absent? Why, Imeant,Belov'd, that you should have this one flower-treasure(Stolen, you thought!) out of my heart's full measure—Meant that your solitary nights be spentCheek to its petals pressed where all my love lay pent.
In hours when I was absent? Why, Imeant,
Belov'd, that you should have this one flower-treasure
(Stolen, you thought!) out of my heart's full measure—
Meant that your solitary nights be spent
Cheek to its petals pressed where all my love lay pent.
And then, the day you helped me from the boat,"It is but chance," you thought, "I hold her fingersIn mine past custom's limit, while she lingersTo cull the waterlily there afloat."It was not chance, belov'd. And still you would not note.
And then, the day you helped me from the boat,
"It is but chance," you thought, "I hold her fingers
In mine past custom's limit, while she lingers
To cull the waterlily there afloat."
It was not chance, belov'd. And still you would not note.
I have done all a woman may do, dear,With eyes and hands and tones of voice have spoken,In all but words have given you the tokenAnd seal of love. What is it then you fear?Can you not take one step, the goal being now so near?
I have done all a woman may do, dear,
With eyes and hands and tones of voice have spoken,
In all but words have given you the token
And seal of love. What is it then you fear?
Can you not take one step, the goal being now so near?
Just the last word to utter, just the lastStep to be taken—it is very little!Can you believe Love's structure is so brittle?All I have builded in these two years pastFall tottering at one word? It is of stronger cast.
Just the last word to utter, just the last
Step to be taken—it is very little!
Can you believe Love's structure is so brittle?
All I have builded in these two years past
Fall tottering at one word? It is of stronger cast.
You would not have me speak. That part is yours.My share is finished and I wait for you now.The time to act has come—what will you do now?Dear, even I'd say the word that all ensuresBut that were more than love itself of love endures.
You would not have me speak. That part is yours.
My share is finished and I wait for you now.
The time to act has come—what will you do now?
Dear, even I'd say the word that all ensures
But that were more than love itself of love endures.
I had to spend my strength when you were weak,Be guide along the road from its beginningTo the last barrier. Am I worth the winning?Butyoumust turn the key. It will not creak.Beloved, I am waiting still ... will you not speak?
I had to spend my strength when you were weak,
Be guide along the road from its beginning
To the last barrier. Am I worth the winning?
Butyoumust turn the key. It will not creak.
Beloved, I am waiting still ... will you not speak?