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Title: PoemsAuthor: Marietta HolleyRelease date: November 1, 2003 [eBook #10216]Most recently updated: December 19, 2020Language: EnglishCredits: Produced by Mardi Desjardins
Title: Poems
Author: Marietta Holley
Author: Marietta Holley
Release date: November 1, 2003 [eBook #10216]Most recently updated: December 19, 2020
Language: English
Credits: Produced by Mardi Desjardins
*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK POEMS ***
Produced by Mardi Desjardins
by
"Josiah Allen's Wife,"(Marietta Holley)
When I wrote many of these verses I was much younger than I am now, and the "sweetest eyes in the world" would brighten over them, through the reader's love for me. I dedicate them to her memory —the memory of MY MOTHER.
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All through my busy years of prose writing I have occasionally jotted down idle thoughts in rhyme. Imagining ideal scenes, ideal characters, and then, as is the way, I suppose, with more ambitious poets, trying to put myself inside the personalities I have invoked, trying to feel as they would be likely to, speak the words I fancied they would say.
The many faults of my verses I can see only too well; their merits, if they have any, I leave with the public—which has always been so kind to me—to discover.
And half-hopefully, half-fearfully, I send out the little craft on the wide sea strewn with so many wrecks. But thinking it must be safer from adverse winds because it carries so low a sail, and will cruise along so close to the shore and not try to sail out in the deep waters.
And so I bid the dear little wanderer (dear to me), God-speed, and bon voyage.
Marietta Holley.
New York, June, 1887.
It is not the lark's clear toneCleaving the morning air with a soaring cry,Nor the nightingale's dulcet melody all the balmy night—Not these aloneMake the sweet sounds of summer;But the drone of beetle and bee, the murmurous hum of the flyAnd the chirp of the cricket hidden out of sight—These help to make the summer.
Not roses redly blown,Nor golden lilies, lighting the dusky meads,Nor proud imperial pansies, nor queen-cups quaint and rare—Not these aloneMake the sweet sights of summerBut the countless forest leaves, the myriad wayside weedsAnd slender grasses, springing up everywhere—These help to make the summer.
One heaven bends above;The lowliest head ofttimes has sweetest rest;O'er song-bird in the pine, and bee in the ivy low,Is the same love, it is all God's summer;Well pleased is He if we patiently do our best,So hum little bee, and low green grasses grow,You help to make the summer.
High on a rocky cliff did once a gray old castle stand,From whence rough-bearded chieftains led their vassals—ruledthe land.For centuries had dwelt here sire and son, till it befell,Last of their ancient line, two brothers here alone did dwell.
The eldest was stern-visaged, but the youngest smooth and fairOf countenance; both zealous, men who bent the knee in prayerTo God alone; loved much, read much His holy word,And prayed above all gifts desired, that they might seetheir Lord.
For this the elder brother carved a silent cell of stone,And in its deep and dreary depths he entered, dwelt alone,And strove with scourgings, vigils, fasts, to purify his gaze,And sought amidst these shadows to behold the Master's face.
And from the love of God that smiles on us from brightlipped flowers,And from the smile of God that falls in sunlight's golden showers,That thrills earth's slumbering heart so, where its warm rays fallThat it laughs out in beauty, turned he as from tempters all.
From bird-song running morn's sweet-scented chalice o'erwith cheer,The child's light laughter, lifting lowliest souls heaven near,From tears and glad smiles, linked light and gloom ofthe golden day,He counting these temptations all, austerely turned away.
And thus he lived alone, unblest, and died unblest, alone,Save for a brother monk, who held the carved cross of stoneIn his cold, rigid clasp, the while his dying eyes did wearA look of mortal striving, mortal agony, and prayer.
Though at the very last, as his stiff fingers dropped the cross,A gleam as from some distant city swept his face across,The clay lips settled into calm—thus did the monk attest,A look of one who through much peril enters into rest.
Not thus did he, the younger brother, seek the Master's face;But in earth's lowly places did he strive his steps to trace,Wherever want and grief besought with clamorous complaint,There he beheld his Lord—naked, athirst, and faint.
And when his hand was wet with tears, wrung with a grateful grasp,He lightly felt upon his palm the Elder Brother's clasp;And when above the loathsome couch of woe and want bent he,A low voice thrilled his soul, "So have ye done it unto Me."
Despised he not the mystic ties of blood, yet did he claimThe broader, wider brotherhood, with every race and name;To his own kin he kind and loyal was in truth, yet still,His mother and his brethren were all who did God's will
All little ones were dear to him, for light from ParadiseSeemed falling on him through their pure and innocent eyes;The very flowers that fringed cool streams, and gemmedthe dewy sod,To his rapt vision seemed like the visible smiles of God.
The deep's full heart that throbs unceasing against the silentships,The waves together murmuring with weird, mysterious lipsTo hear their untranslated psalm, drew down his anointed ear,And listening, lo! he heard God's voice, to Him was he so near.
The happy hum of bees to him made summer silence sweet,Not lightly did he view the very grass beneath his feet,It paved His presence-chamber, where he walked a happy guest,Ah! slight the veil between, in very truth his life was blest.
And when on a still twilight passed he to the summer land,Those whom he had befriended, weeping, clinging to his hand,The west gleamed with a sudden glory, and from out the glowTrembled the semblance of a crown, and rested on his brow.
And with wide, eager eyes he smiled, and stretched his handsabroad,As if his dearest friend were welcoming him to his abode;Eternal silence sealed that wondrous smile as he cried—"Thy face! Thy face, dear Lord!" and, saying this, he died.
But legends tell that on his grave fell such a strange, purelight,That wine-red roses planted thereupon would spring up white,Holding such mystic healing in their cool snow bloom, that lainOn aching brows or sorrowful hearts, they would ease their pain.
The years go by, but they little seemLike those within our dream;The years that stood in such luring guise,Beckoning us into Paradise,To jailers turn as time goes byGuarding that fair land, By-and-By,Where we thought to blissfully rest,The sound of whose forests' balmy leavesSwaying to dream winds strangely sweet,We heard in our bed 'neath the cottage eaves,Whose towers we saw in the western skiesWhen with eager eyes and tremulous lip,We watched the silent, silver shipOf the crescent moon, sailing out and awayO'er the land we would reach some day, some day.
But years have flown, and our weary feetHave never reached that Isle of the Blest;But care we have felt, and an aching breast,A lifelong struggle, grief, unrest,That had no part in our boyish plans;And yet I have gold, and houses, and lands,And ladened vessels a white-winged fleet,That fly at my bidding across the sea;And hats are doffed by willing handsAs I tread the village street;But wealth and fame are not to meWhat I thought that they would be.
I turn from it all to wander backWith Memory down the dusty trackOf the years that lie between,To the farm-house old and brown,Shaded with poplars dusky green,I pause at its gate, not a bearded man,But a boy with earnest eyes.
I stand at the gate and look aroundAt the fresh, fair world that before me lies.The misty mountain-top aglowWith love of the sun, and the pleasant groundAsleep at its feet, with sunny dreamsOf milk-white flowers in its heart, and clearThe tall church-spire in the distance gleamsPointing up to the tranquil sky'sBlue roof that seems so near.
And up from the woods the morning breezeComes freighted with all the rich perfumeThat from myriad spicy cups distils,Loitering along o'er the locust-trees.Scattering down the plum-trees' bloomIn flakes of crimson snow—Down on the gold of the daffodilsThat border the path below.
And the silver thread of the rivuletTangled and knotted with fern and sedge.And the mill-pond like a diamond setIn the streamlet's emerald edge;And over the stream on the gradual hill,Its headstones glimmering palely white,Is the graveyard quiet and still.I wade through its grasses rank and deep,Past slanting marbles mossy and dim,Carven with lines from some old hymn,To one where my mother used to leanOn Sunday noons and weep.That tall white shape I looked uponWith a mysterious dread,Linking unto the senseless stoneThe image of the dead—The father I never had seen;I remember on dark nights of storm,When our parlor was bright and warm,I would turn away from its glowing light,And look far out in the churchyard dim,And with infinite pity think of himShut out alone in the dismal night.
And the ruined mill by the waterfall,I see again its crumbling wall,And I hear the water's song.It all comes back to me—Its song comes back to me,Floating out like a spirit's callThe drowsy air along;Blending forever with my nameWonderful prophecies, dreamy talk,Of future paths when I should walkCrowned with manhood, and honor, and fame.
I shut my eyes and the rich perfumeOf the tropical lily fills the roomFrom its censer of frosted snow;But it seems to float to me through the nightFrom those apple-blossoms red and whiteThat starred the orchard's fragrant gloom;Those old boughs hanging low,Where my sister's swing swayed to and froThrough the scented aisles of the air;While her merry voice and her laugh rung outLike a bird's, to answer my brother's shout,As he shook the boughs o'er her curly head,Till the blossoms fell in a rosy rainOn her neck and her shining hair.Oh, little Belle!Oh, little sister, I loved so well;It seems to me almost as if she diedIn that lost time so gay and fair,And was buried in childhood's sunny plain;And she who walks the street to-day,Or in gilded carriage sweeps through the townStaring her humbler sisters down,With her jewels gleaming like lucent flame,Proud of her grandeur and fine array,Is only a stranger, who bears her name.
And the little boy who played with me,Hunting birds'-nests in sheltered nooks,Trudging at nightfall after the cows,Exploring the barn-loft, fording the brooks,Ending, in school-time, puzzled browsOver the same small lesson books;Who knelt by my side in the twilight dim,Praying "the Lord our souls to keep,"Then on the same pillow fell asleep,Hushed by our mother's evening hymn;Whose heart and mine kept such perfect time,Such loving cadence, such tender rhyme,Blent in child grief, and perfected in glee—We meet on the street and we clasp the hand,And our names on charitable papers standSide by side, and we go and bowOur two gray heads with prayer and vow,In the same grand church, and hasty wordOf anger, has never our bosoms stirred.Yet a whole wide world is between us now;How broad and deep does the gulf appearBetween the hearts that were so near!
I have pleasure grounds and mansions grand,Low-voiced servants come at my call,From Senate my name sounds over the landIn "ayes" and "nays" so solemnly read;They call me "Honorable," "General," and all,But to-night I am only Charley again,I am Charley, and want to lay my headOn my mother's heart and rest,With her soft hand pressed upon my browCuring its weary pain.But never, nevermore will it be,For mould and marble rises nowBetween my head and that loving breast;And death has a cruel power to part—Forever gone and lost to meThat true and tender heart.
Oh, mother, I've never found love like thine,Never have eyes looked into mineWith such proud love, such perfect trust.Never have hands been so true and kind,To lead me into the path of right—Hands so gentle, and soft, and white,That on my head like a blessing lay,And led me a child and guided my youth;To-night 'tis a dreary thought, in truth,That those gentle hands are dust.That I may be blamed, and you not be sad,That I may be praised, and you not be glad;'Tis a dreary thought to your boy to-night,That over your sweet smile, over your brow,The clay-cold turf is pressing now,That never again as the twilight fallsYou will welcome your boy to the old brown wallsOf the homestead far away.
The homestead is ruined—gone to decay,But we read of a house not made with hands,Whose firm foundation forever stands;And there is a twilight soft and sweet.Will she not stand with outstretched handsMy homesick eyes to meet—To welcome her boy as in days before,To home, and to rest, forevermore?
But the years come and the years go,And they lay on her grave as they silently pass,Red summer buds and wreaths of snow,And springing and fading grass.And far away in an English town,In the secluded, tranquil shadeOf an old Cathedral quaint and brown,Another grave is made—A small grave, yet so highIt shadowed all the world to me,And darkened earth and sky.But only for a time; it passed,The unreasoning agony,Like a cloud that drops its rain;And light shone into our hearts at last.And patience born of pain.And now like a breath of healing balmThe sweet thought comes to me,That my child has reached the Isle of Calm,Over the silent sea—That my pure little Blanche is safe in truth,Safe in immortal beauty and youth.
When she left us in the twilight gloom,When she left her empty nest,And the aching hearts below;Full well, full well I know,What tender-eyed angel bentDown for my brown-eyed little bird,From the shining battlement.I know with what fond caressing,And loving smile and word,And look of tender blessing,She took her to her breast,And led her into some quiet room,In the mansions of the blest.Oh, mother, beloved, oh, child so dear,Not by a wish, would I lure you here.
My son is a bright, brave boy, with a graceOf beauty caught from his mother's face,And his mother and he in truth are dear,Full tenderly, and fond, and nearMy heart is bound to my wife and child;But the summer of life is not its May,And dreams and hopes that our youth beguiled,Are but pallid forms of clay.
There's the boy's first love and passionate dream,A face like a morning star, a gleamOf hair the hue of a robin's wing—Brown hair aglow with a golden sheen,And eyes the sweetest that ever were seen.
Mary, we have been parted long,You were proud, and we both were wrong,But 'tis over and past, no living gleamCan come again to the dear, dead dream.It is dead, so let it lie,But nothing, nothing can ever beLike that old dream to you or to me.
I think we shall know, shall know at last,All that was strange in all the past,Shall one day know, and shall haply seeThat the sorrows and ills, that with tears and sighs,We vainly endeavored to flee,Were angels who, veiled in sorrow's guiseCame to us only to bless.Maybe we shall kneel and kiss their feet,With grateful tears, when we shall meetTheir unveiled faces, pure and sweet,Their eyes' deep tenderness.We shall know, perchance, had these angels comeLike mendicants unto a kingly gateWhen we sat in joy's royal state,We had barred them from our home.But when in our doorway one appearsClothed in the purple of sorrow's power,He will enter in, no prayers or tearsAvail us in that hour.So what we call our pains and lossesWe may not always count aright,The rough bars of our heavy crossesMay change to living light.
Gayly a knight set forth against the foe,For a fair face had shone on him in dreams;A voice had stirred the silence of his sleep,"Go win the battle, and I will be thine."
So, for the love of those appealing eyes,Led by low accents of fair Gloria's voice,He wound the bugle down his castle's steep,And gayly rode to battle in the morn.
And none were braver in the tented field,Like lightning heralding the doomful bolt;The enemy beheld his snowy plume,And death-lights flashed along his glancing spear.
But in the lonesome watches of the night,An angel came and warned him with clear voice,Against high God his rash right arm was raised,Was rashly raised against the true, the right.
He strove to drown the angel voice with songAnd merry laughter with his princely peers;But still the angel bade him with clear voice,"Go join the ranks you rashly have opposed."
"Oh, Angel!" cried he, "they are few and weak,They may not stand before the press of knights;"But still the angel bade him with clear voice,"Go help the weak against the mighty wrong."
At last the words sunk deep within his heart,With god-like courage cried he out at last,"Oh, Gloria, beautiful, I can lose thee,Lose life and thee, to battle for the right."
And when he joined the brave and stalwart ranks,Like Saul amid his brethren he stood,Braver and seemlier than all his peers,And nobly did he battle for the right.
Gentlest unto the weak, and in the fray,So dauntless, none—no fear of man had he;He wrought dismay in Error's blackened ranksSo nobly did he battle for the right.
But at the last he lay on a lost field;Couched on a broken spear, he pallid lay;With dying lips he murmured Gloria's name,"The field is lost, and thou art lost to me."
When lo! she stood beside him, pure and fair,With tender eyes that blessed him as he lay;And lo! she knelt and clasped his dying hands,And murmured, "I am thine, am thine at last."
With wondering eyes, he moaned, "All—all is lost,And I am dying." "Ah, not so," she cried,"Nothing is lost to him who dare be true;Who gives his life shall find it evermore."
"Methought I saw the spears beat down like grain,And the ranks reel before the press of knights;The level ground ran gory with our wounds;Methought the field was lost, and then I fell."
"Be calm," she cried, "the right is never lost,Though spear, and shield, and cross may shattered be,Out of their dust shall spring avenging bladesThat yet shall rid us of some giant wrong.
"And all the blood that falls in righteous cause,Each crimson drop shall nourish snowy flowersAnd quicken golden grain, bright sheaves of good,That under happier skies shall yet be reaped.
"When right opposes wrong, shall evil win?Nay, never—but the year of God is long,And you are weary, rest ye now in peace,For so He giveth His beloved sleep."
He smiled, and murmured low, "I am content,"With blissful tears that hid the battle's loss;So, held to her true heart he closed his eyes,In quietest rest that ever he had known.
The spare-room windows wide were raised,And you could look that summer dayOn pastures green, and sunny hills,And low rills wandering away.Near by, the square front yard was sweetWith rose and caraway.
Upon a couch drawn near the light,The Deacon's only daughter lay,Bending upon the distant hillsHer eyes of dark and thoughtful gray;The blue veins on her forehead shone'Twas wasted so away.
She moved, and from her slender handFell off her mother's wedding-ring;She smiled into her father's face—"So drops from me each earthly thing;My hands are free to hold the flowersOf the eternal spring."
She had ever walked in quiet ways,Not over beds of flowery ease,But Sundays in the village choirShe sweetly sang of "ways of peace,"Of "ways of peace and pleasantness,"She trod such paths as these.
No sweeter voice in all the choirPraised God in innocence and truth,The Deacon in his straight-backed pewHad dreams of her he lost in youth,And thought of fair-faced Hebrew maids—Of Rachel, and of Ruth.
But she had faded, day by day,Growing more mild, and pure, and sweet,As nearer to her ear there cameA distant sea's mysterious beat,Till now this summer afternoon,Its waters touched her feet.
Upon the painted porch withoutTwo women stood, and whispered low,They thought "she'd go out with the day,"They said, "the Deacon's wife went so."And then they gently pitied him—"It was a dreadful blow."
"But she was good, she was prepared,She would be better off than here,"And then they thought "'twas strange that he,Her father, had not shed a tear,"And then they talked of news, and allThe promise of the year.
Her father sat beside the bed,Holding her cold hands tenderly,And to the everlasting hillsHe mutely turned his eyes away:"My God, my Shelter, and my Rock,Oh shadow me to-day!"
He knew not when she crossed the stream,And passed into the land unseen,So gently did she go from himInto its pastures still and green;Into the land of pure delight,And Jordan rolled between.
Then knelt he down beside his dead,His white locks lit with sunset's flame:"My God! oh leave me not alone—But blessed be Thy holy name."The golden gates were lifted upThe King of Glory came.
The sides of the hill were brown, but violet buds had startedIn gray and hidden nooks o'erhung by feathery ferns and heather,And a bird in an April morn was never lighter-heartedThan the pilot swallow we saw convoying sunny weather,And sunshine golden, and gay-voiced singing-birds into the land;And this was the song—the clear, shrill song of the swallow,That it carolled back to the southern sun, and his brownwinged band,Clear it arose, "Oh, follow me—come and follow—and follow."
A tender story was in his eyes, he wished to tell me I knew,As he stood in the happy morn by my side at the garden-gate;But I fancy the tall rose branches that bent and touched his brow,Were whispering to him, "Wait, impatient heart, oh, wait,Before the bloom of the rose is the tender green of the leaf;Not rash is he who wisely followeth patient Nature's ways,The lily-bud of love should be swathed in a silken sheaf,Unfolding at will to summer bloom in the warm and perfect days."
So silently sailed the early sun, through clouds of fleecy white;So stood we in dreamy silence, enwrapped in a tender spell;But the pulses of soft Spring air were quickened to fresh delight,For I read in his eye the story sweet, he longed, yet fearedto tell;It spoke from his heart to mine, and needed no word from his mouth,And high o'er our heads rang out the happy song of the swallow;It cried to the sunshine and beauty and bloom of the South,Exultingly carolling clear, "Oh, follow me—oh, follow."
Oh, the days are growing longer;So rang the jubilant song of the swallow;I come a-bringing beauty into the land,The sky of the West grows warm and yellow,Oh, gladness comes with my light-winged band,And the days are growing longer.
Oh, the days are growing longer,The wavy gleam of fluttering wings,Touching the silent earth so lightly,Will wake all the sleeping, beautiful things,The world will glow so brightly—brightly;And the days are growing longer.
Oh, the days are growing longer,All the rivulets dumb will laugh, and runOver the meadows with dancing feet;Following the silvery plough of the sun,Will be furrows filled with wild flowers sweet:And the days are growing longer.
Oh, the days are growing longer;Over whispering streams will rushes lean,To answer the waves' soft murmurous call;The lily will bend from its watch-tower green,To list to the lark's low madrigal,And the days are growing longer.
Oh, the days are growing longer;When they lengthen to ripe and perfect prime,Then, oh, then, I will build my happy nest;And all in that pleasant and balmy time,There never will be a bird so blest;And the days are growing longer.
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Now sinks the Summer sun into the sea;Sure never such a sunset shone as this,That on its golden wing has borne such bliss;Dear Love to thee and me.
Ah, life was drear and lonely, missing thee,Though what my loss I did not then divine;But all is past—the sweet words, thou art mine,Make bliss for thee and me.
How swells the light breeze o'er the blossoming lea,Sure never winds swept past so sweet and low,No lonely, unblest future waiteth now;Dear Love for thee and me.
Look upward o'er the glowing West, and see,Surely the star of evening never shoneWith such a holy radiance—oh, my own,Heaven smiles on thee and me.
You will journey many a weary day and long,Ere you will see so restful and sweet a place,As this, my home, my nest so downy and warm,The labor of many happy and hopeful days;But its low brown walls are laid and softly lined,And oh, full happily now my rest I take,And care not I when it lightly rocks in the wind,For the branch above though it bends will never break;And close by my side rings out the voice of my mate—my lover;Oh, the days are long, and the days are bright—andSummer will last forever.
Now the stream that divides us from perfect blissSeems floating past so narrow—so narrow,You could span its wave such a morn as this,With a moment winged like a golden arrow,And the sweet wind waves all the tasselled broom,And over the hill does it loitering come,Oh, the perfect light—oh, the perfect bloom,And the silence is thrilled with the murmurous humOf the bees a-kissing the red-lipped clover;Oh, the days are long, and the days are bright—andSummer will last forever.
When the West is a golden glow, and lowerThe sun is sinking large and round,Like a golden goblet spilling o'er,Glittering drops that drip to the ground—Then I spread my lustrous wings and cleave the airSailing high with a motion calm and slow,Far down the green earth lies like a picture fair,Then with rapid wing I sink in the shining glow;A-chasing the glinting, gleaming drops; oh, a diverAm I in a clear and golden sea, and Summer will last forever.
The leaves with a pleasant rustling sound are stirredOf a night, and the stars are calm and bright;And I know, although I am only a little bird,One large serious star is watching me all the night,For when the dewy leaves are waved by the breeze,I see it forever smiling down on me.So I cover my head with my wing, and sleep in peace,As blessed as ever a little bird can be;And the silver moonlight falls over land and sea and river,And the nights are cool, and the nights are still, andSummer will last forever.
I think you would journey many and many a day,Ere you so contented and blest a bird would see;Not all the wealth of the world could lure my love away,For my brown little nest is all the world to me;And care not I if brighter bowers there areLying close to the sun—where tall palms pierce the sky;Oh, you would journey a weary way and a far,Ere you would behold a bird so blest as I;And singing close to my side is my mate—my kin—my lover;Oh, the days are long, and the days are bright—andSummer will last forever.
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Yes! yes! I dare say it is so,And you should be pitied, but how could I know,Watching alone by the moon-lit bay;But that is past for many a day,For the woman that loved, died years ago,Years ago.
She had loving eyes, with a wistful lookIn their depths that day, and I know you tookHer face in your hands and read it o'er,As if you should never see it more;You were right, for she died long years ago,Years ago.
Had I trusted you—for trust, you knowWill keep love's fire forever aglow;Then what would have mattered storm or sun,But the watching—the waiting, all is done;For the woman that loved, died years ago,Years ago.
Yes; I think you are constant, true and good,I am tired, and would love you if I could;I am tired, oh, friend, tired out; and yet,Can we make sweet morn of the dim sunset?The woman that loved, died years ago,Years ago.
Not a pulse of my heart is stirred by you,No; even your tears cannot move me now;So leave me alone, what is said is said,What boots your prayers, she is dead! is dead!The woman you loved, long years ago,Years ago.
The sky is dark and the air is full of snow,I go to a warmer clime afar and away;Though my heart is so tired I do not care for it now,But here in my empty nest I cannot stay;Thus cried the swallow,I go from the falling snow, oh, follow me—oh, follow.
One night my mate came home with a broken wing,So he died; and my brood went long ago;And I am alone, and I have no heart to sing,With no one to hear my song, and I must go;Thus cried the swallow,Away from dust and decay, oh, follow me—oh, follow.
But I think I will never find so warm and safe a nest,As my home, in the pleasant days gone by, gone by,I think I shall never fold my wings in such happy rest,Never again—oh, never again till I die;Thus cried the swallow,But I go from the falling snow, oh, follow me—oh, follow.
How can I be to blame?Is it my fault I am fair?I did not fashion my features,Or brush the gold in my hair;Because my eyes are so blue and bright,Must I never look up from the ground,But put out with my eyelids' snow their light,Lest some foolish heart they should wound?
How can I be in fault?I am sure where hearts are so few,It is difficult to discernThe diamonds of paste from the true;I thought him like all the rest,Skilful in playing his part;As careful at cards or at chess,As winning a woman's heart.
I am sure it is nothing wrong,Nothing to think of—and yetI know I lured him with glance and song,Into my shining net;Provokingly cold at first he seemed,Like crystal to smiles and sighs,But at last he felt the magic that gleamedIn my dreamy violet eyes.
And I led him on and on,Farther, in truth, than I strove,For he frightened me with the earnestnessAnd violence of his love;These calm-eyed men deceive—Had I known the man had a heart,I would have paused, I would, I believe,Have acted a different part.
In his royal indignationHe uttered some wholesome truth—He almost roused the emotionThat died in my innocent youth;Emotion that lived when life was new,Ere that man my pathway crossed,Who played me a game untrue,When I staked all my love, and lost.
Oh for a saintly beauty,What efforts my soul did make;I thought all goodness and purityWere possible for his sake;The world seemed born anew, my lifeSuch holy meaning wore,I fancy so fair and fond a dreamNever fell into ruins before.
He toyed with my fresh affectionAs he breathed the country air,To refresh him after a seasonOf fashion, and falsehood, and glare;Had he not slain my tenderness,Had my life been more sweet,I might have known nobler happinessThan to humble men to my feet.
But now I love to lure them on,To make them slaves to my gaze,Like serfs to a conqueror's chariot,Like moths to a candle-blaze.I melt most royally time, the pearl,And quaff the cup like a queen,And forget in the dizzy tumult and whirl,The woman I might have been.
Clasp your arms round her neck to-night,Little Nell,Arms so delicate, soft and white,And yet so strong in love's strange might;Clasp them around the kneeling form,Fold them tenderly close and warm,And who can tellBut such slight links may draw her back,Away from the fatal, fatal track;Who can tell,Little Nell?
Press your lips to the lips of snow,Little Nell;Oh baby heart, may you never knowThe anguish that makes them quiver so;But now in her weakness and mortal pain,Let your kisses fall like a dewy rain,And who can tellBut your innocent love, your childish kissMay lure her back from the dread abyss;Who can tell,Little Nell.
Lay your cheek on her aching breast,Little Nell;To you 'tis a refuge of holy rest,But a dying bird never drooped its crestWith a deadlier pain in its wounded heart;Ah! love's sweet links may be torn apart,Little Nell;The altar may flame with gems and gold,And splendor be bought, and peace be sold,But is it well,Little Nell?
Veil her face with your tresses bright,Little Nell;Hide that vision out of her sight—Those dark dark eyes with their tender light—Uplift your pure face, can it beShe will bid farewell to heaven and thee,Little Nell?No; your mute lips plead with eloquent power,Her tears fall like a tropic shower;All is well,Little Nell.
Close your blue eyes now in sleep,Little Nell;Her angel smiles to see her weep;At morn a ship will cleave the deep,And one alone will be borne away,And one will clasp thee close, and pray;Oh Little Nell,Never, never beneath the sun,Will you dream what you this night have done,Done so well,Little Nell.
A long, low waste of yellow sandLay shining northward far as eye could reach,Southward a rocky bluff rose highBroken in wild, fantastic shapes.Near by, one jagged rock towered high,And o'er the waters leaned, like giant grim,Striving to peer into the mysteriesThe ocean whispers of continually,And covers with her soft, treacherous face.For the rest, the sun was sinking lowLike a great golden globe, into the sea;Above the rock a bird was flyingIn dizzy circles, with shrill cries,And on a plank floated from some wreck,With shreds of musty seaweedClinging to it yet, a woman satHolding a child within her arms;A sweet-faced woman—looking out to seaWith dark, patient eyes, and singing to the child,And this the song she in the sunset sang:
Thine eyes are brown, my beauty, brown and bright,Drowned deep in languor now, the angel SleepIs clasping thee within her arms so white,Bearing thee up the dreamland's sunny steep.Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
Thy father's boat, I see its swaying shroudLike a white sea-gull, swinging to and froAgainst the ledges of a crimson cloud,A tiny bird with flutt'ring wing of snow.Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
Thy father toils beyond the harbor bar,And, singing at his toil, he thinks of thee;Lit by the red lamp of the evening starHome will he come, will come to thee and me,Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
His cabin shall be bright with flowers sweet,The table shall be set, the fire shall glow,We'll wait within the door, his coming steps to greet,And if my eye be sad, he will not know—Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
He will not pause to ponder things so slight,He is not one a smile to prize or miss;Yet he would shield us with a strong arm's might,And he will meet us with a loving kiss—Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
But would I could forget those other daysWhen if with gayer gleam mine eyes had shone,Or shade of sorrow, gentlest eyes would gazeWith tender questioning into my own.Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
Thine eyes are brown—thou hast thy father's eyes,But those, my darling, those were clear and blue,Ah, me! how sorrowfully that sea-bird cries,Cries for its mate, oh, tender bird and true;My, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
Oh, of my truest love well worthy he,And near was I, ah, nearest to his heart;But ships are parted on the dreary seaSwept by the waves, forever swept apart—Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
And sometimes sad-eyed women sighing say,Sweet love is lost, all that remains is rest,So in their weakness they are lured to layTheir head upon some strong and loving breast.Oh, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
Our cabin stands upon the dreary sands,And it is sad to be alone, alone.But on my bosom thou hast lain thy hands,Near to me art thou, near, my precious one—My, baby, sleep, my baby, sleep.
The red light faded as she sung,A chill breeze rose and swept across the sea,She drew her cloak still closer round the child,And turned toward the cabin;As she went a faint glow glimmeredIn the east, and slowly rose—The silver crescent of the moon.Another, paler light, than the warm sunset glow,But clear enough to guide her home.
Now while the crimson light fades in the west,And twilight drops her purple shadows low—We stand with Memory on the mountain's crest,That overlooks the land of Long Ago.
Unmoved and still the form beside us stands,While mournful tears our heavy eyes o'erflow,As silently he lifts his shadowy hands,And points us to the land of Long Ago.
It lies in beauty 'neath our sad eyes' range,Bathed in a richer light, a warmer glow;For fairer moons, and sunsets rare and strange,Illume the landscape of the Long Ago.
We see its vales of peace, its hills of lightShine in the rosy air, ah! well we know—That nevermore will bless our yearning sight,So fair and dear a land as Long Ago.
We see the gleaming spires of those high hallsWe garnished with bright gems and precious show;No foot within the gilded doorway falls,Empty the rooms within the Long Ago.
Troops of white doves still haunt the shining towers,And fold in blissful calm, their wings of snow;We bade them build their nests in brighter bowers,But still they linger in the Long Ago.
There in its sunny bay stand stately ships,We freighted for fair lands where we would go;Still gleams our gold within their secret crypts,Becalmed beside the shore of Long Ago.
Between that land and this of dread and doubt,The silent years have drifted trackless snow;Hiding the pathway where we wandered out,Forever from the land of Long Ago.
In the unquiet night,With all her beauty bright,She walketh my silent chamber to and fro;Not twice of the same mind,Sometimes unkind—unkind,And again no cooing dove hath a voice so sweet and low.
Such madness of mirth liesIn the haunting hazel eyes,When the melody of her laugh charms the listening night;Its glamour as of oldMy charmed senses hold,Forget I earth and heaven in the pleasures of sense and sight.
With sudden gay capriceQuaint sonnets doth she seize,Wedding them unto sweetness, falling from crimson lips;Holding the broidered flowersOf those enchanted hours,When she wound my will with her silk round her white finger-tips.
Then doth she silent stand,Lifting her slender hand,On which gleams the ring I tore from his hand at Baywood;The tiny opal heartsAre broken in two parts,And where the ruby burned there hangeth a drop of blood.
Then with my burning cheek,Raising my head, I speak,"Lemoine, Lemoine, my lost! Oh, speak to me once, I pray!"But no word will she deign,Adown the shining lane,The long and lustrous lane of the moonlight she glides away.
I fancy oft a stir,Of wings seem following her,Trailing a terrible gloom along the oaken floor,As she walks to and fro;Louder the strange sounds growTo a nameless, dreadful horror, that floods the chamber o'er.
And then I raise my headFrom terror-haunted bed,And hush my breath, and my very pulses hush and hark;But as I glance around,The stir, the murmuring sound,Dies away in the moonlight, lying there stiff and stark.
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And thus you ever flee,Elude and baffle me,My lady you will not always so lightly glide away;Though on the swiftest breeze,You sail o'er farthest seas,Remember, side by side we two will stand one day.
Though my dust feed the wind,Yours be with prayer consignedTo the keeping of churchyard seraphs and marble saints;Lemoine, we two shall meet,And not then at my feetWill you fetter a late repentance with wiles and tearful plaints.
Repentance and strong,That would have found a tongue,And shrieked the truth to heaven with madd'ning din;The truth of that dread hour,That black accursed hour,When to free you from hated fetters, I plunged my soul in sin.
Whatever wise man thinks,Sin forges strongest links,You can break them never, although for a time you may hideBuried in flowers and wine;This chain of thine and mine,At the last dread day of doom will draw us side by side.
If one, then both are cursed,And come the best, the worst,Forever and ever your fate and mine are entwined;And though it be mad—mad,Heaven knows the thought is glad,I do not breed my thoughts, how can I help my mind.
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So silent doth she come,Standing here pale and dumb,With her finger laid on her lips in a warning way;Her dark eyes looking back,As if upon her trackAnd mine, some phantom shape of impending evil lay.
But when I strive to see,Of what she's warning me,Cruelly calm, no sign will she deign to love or fears;Unheeding vow or prayer,As noiseless as the air,She glideth into the pallid moonlight and disappears.
Come to me soft-eyed sleep,With your ermine sandalled feet;Press the pain from my troubled browWith your kisses cool and sweet;Lull me with slumbrous song,Song of your clime, the blest,While on my heavy eyelidsYour dewy fingers rest.
Come with your native flowers,Heartsease and lotus bloom,Enwrap my weary sensesWith the cloud of their perfume;For the whispers of thought tire me,Their constant, dull repeat,Like low waves throbbing, sobbing,With endless, endless beat.
I sit in the cloud and the darknessWhere I lost you, peerless one;Your bright face shines upon fairer lands,Like the dawning of the sun,And what to you is the rustic youth,You sometimes smiled upon.
You have roamed through mighty cities,By the Orient's gleaming sea,Down the glittering streets of Venice,And soft-skied Araby:Life to you has been an anthem,But a solemn dirge to me.
For everywhere, by Rome's bright hills,Or by the silvery Rhine,You win all hearts to you, where'erYour glancing tresses shine;But, darling, the love of the many,Is not a love like mine.
Last night I heard your voice in my dreams,I woke with a joyous thrillTo hear but the half-awakened birds,For the dark dawn lingered still,And the lonesome sound of the waters,At the foot of Carey's hill.
Oh the pines are dark on Carey's hill,And the waters are black below,But they shone like waves of jasperUpon one day I know,The day I bore you out of the stream,With your face as white as snow.
You lay like a little lamb in my arms,So frail a thing, so weak,And my coward lips said burning wordsThey never had dared to speakIf they had not felt the chill of your brow,And the marble of your cheek.
Life had been but a bitter gift,That I fain would have thrown away,But I could have thanked my God on my knees,For giving me life that day,As I took you, lying so helpless,From the gates of death away.
How your noble kinsmen laughed and weptO'er their treasure snatched from the flood,And your white-faced brother brought me gold—You loved him, or I couldHave obeyed the fiend that told meTo curse him where he stood.
Gold! Oh, darling, they had no needSuch insults to repeat;I knew the Heaven was above the earth,I knew, I knew, my sweet,I was not worthy to touch the shoesThat covered your dainty feet.
I knew as you laid your hand in mine,So kind as I turned away,That we were severed as wide apart,That hour, as we are to-day,And you in your stately English home,So far, so far away.
That soft white hand you laid in mineWith a smile as I turned to go,Oh, Lady Maud, I marvelIf you ever stoop so low,As to wonder what those tears meant,That glittered on its snow.
But I know if you had dreamed the truthYour beautiful dark brown eyesWould only have grown more gentle,With a sorrowful surprise;For a nobler and a kinder heartNe'er beat beneath the skies.
You never meant to give me pain,But oh, 'twas a cruel good,I so low in the world's esteem,You of such noble blood,That you stooped to as gentle words and deeds,As ever an angel could.
I blessed you for your brightnessWhen you came unto our shore,For the dull earth caught a beautyIt never had before;But you left a lonesome shadow,That will lie there evermore.
How proud the good ship bore youAdown the golden bay,The sun's last light upon its sails—I stood there mournfully;For I know it left the darkness—Took the sunlight all away.
It stands alone on a haunted shore,With curious words of deathless loreOn its massive gate impearled;And its carefully guarded mystic keyLocks in its silent mysteryFrom the seeking eyes of the world.
Oft do its stately walls repeatEchoes of music wildly sweetSwelling to gladness high—With mournful ballads of ancient time,And funeral hymns—and a nursery rhymeDying away in a sigh.
Pictures out of each haunted room,Up through the ghostly shadows loom,And gleam with a spectral light;Pictures lit with a radiant glow,And some that image such desolate woeThat, weeping, you turn from the sight.
Shining like stars in the twilight gloomBrows as white as a lily's bloomGleam from its lattice and door;And voices soft as a seraph's note,Through its mysterious chambers floatBack from eternity's shore.
In the mournful silence of midnight airYou hear on its stately and winding stairThe echoes of fairy feet.Gentle footsteps that lightly fallThrough the enchanted castle hall,And up in the golden street.
And still in a dark forsaken tower,Crowned with a withered cypress flower,Is a bowed head turned away;A face like carved marble white,Sweet eyes drooping away from the light,Shunning the eye of day.
And oft when the light burns low and dimA haggard form ungainly and grimUnbidden enters the door;With chiding eyes whose burning lightYou fain would bury in darkness and night,Never to meet you more.
Mysteries strange its still walls keep,Strange are the forms that through it sweep—Walking by night and by day.But evermore will the castle hallEcho their footsteps' phantom fall,Till its walls shall crumble away.
"I leave my child to Heaven." And with these wordsUpon her lips, the Lady Mildred passedUnto the rest prepared for her pure soul;Words that meant only this: I cannot trustUnto her earthly parent my young child,So leave her to her heavenly Father's care;And Heaven was gentle to the motherless,And fair and sweet the maiden, Gladys, grew,A pure white rose in the old castle set,The while her father rioted abroad.
But as the day drew near when he should give,By his dead lady's will, his child her own,He having basely squandered all her wealthTo him intrusted, to his land returned,And thrilled her trusting heart with terrors vague,Of peril, of some shame to come to him,Did she not yield unto his prayer—command,That she would to Our Lady's convent go,Forget the world and save him from disgrace.
But hidden as she had been all her lifeFrom tender human ties, she loved the worldWith all her loving heart, the fresh, free worldThat God had made, and this life seemed to herAs but a living death. A living tombThe harsh stone walls that from the convent frownedUpon the peaceful valley sweet with flowers.The beautiful green valley, threaded byBright rivulets that sought the quiet lake,Dear haunts sought daily by her maiden feet.And "wilt thou not, for my sake?" and "thou shaltTo save thy sire from shame!" so wore the days,And still she did not promise, though she weptAt his wild pleadings, trembled at his rage;Then of her mother's dying words he thought—Her dying words—"I leave my child to Heaven."And twisting them with his own wishes, woveA chain therewith that bound her wavering will;A chain made mighty by the golden threadsOf rev'rence and of holy memories.And so with heavy heart she gave her vow,That in the autumn she would leave the world,But first for one free summer did she pray.
And through those bright spring days she roamed abroad,And poured upon the winds her low complaints;The while her dark soft eyes sought all the earth,The beauteous earth that she too soon must leave;And all her mournful murmurs ended thusWith this sad cry of, "Oh, the happy world!"Ended with these low words as a sigh,I will obey, but, "oh, the happy world!"
Oh, wondrous beauty of the morning skies!Oh, wide green fields with beady dew impearled!The lark soars upward, singing as she flies,Oh, wave of free, swift wings, oh, happy world!
Oh, wordless wonder of the evening sky,Far ivory citadels with flags unfurled;Deep sapphire seas where rosy fleets float byThe golden shores remote; oh, happy world!
Oh, my blue violets by the laughing brook!My shy, sweet darlings, in your green leaves curled,Bright eyes, sometime you will all vainly lookFor me, your lover. Oh, the happy world!
So passed the days of spring, and she must signDull papers to appease the hungry law,And to the castle down a writer came;No graybeard old, and dryer than his tomes,A tall, fair-faced youth, with bright, bold gaze,And blood that leaped afresh like crimson wine,Rash blood that led him to leap o'er a gateFive-barred, within the mossy park, uponThe knight's old stumbling steed that played him falseTo its own harm, for which it lost its life,More fortunate the youth, though bruised he,And bleeding from his many grievous wounds,And Gladys tended him with gentlest careTill love crept in and took the place of pain,And in her heart took Pity's weeping placeAnd dwelt a king. He knew she was the brideOf Heaven, not to be vexed with earthly love,But yet, upon the last night of his stay,As by the lake's low marge he met the maid,And saw her soft eyes fall before his own,He laid an almond blossom in her hand,A blossom that both sweet and bitter is,And said but this, "Say, is dear love a dream?"
"Nay, not a dream," she murmured, looking outTo where the light upon the waters lay,A golden pathway leading to the sun,"Dear love the wakening is, this life we liveIs but a dream." Then with a sudden hopeHe would have caught her hands, but no, she claspedThem o'er the snowy muslin on her breast,And on her heart like drops of crimson blood,There lay the almond blossoms, bitter, sweet;And far away her pure eyes looked adownThat shining path across the summer sea,"Nay, life a long dream is, a sleep that lastsUntil we waken in the land of love."But though thus calmly did she speak to him,When he had gone to hide his breaking heartAs best he might, to bravely bide his time,And do his life work as she bade him do,Then all her lonely haunts echoed this cry,This cry of deeper anguish—"Oh, my heart!"
Why did I pray for one more summer bright,The outward world but held me in time past;Now, life and love have added links of might,A chain that fetters me, that holds me fast;I will, I will obey, but oh, my heart!
My life was like some little mountain springBy slight waves stirred till some deep overflowSwift breaks its peace, then with its risen kingDown to the mighty deep it needs must go;Thus did I follow love, but oh, my heart!
For dear love sought me, claimed me for his own,And called me with his voice so strong, so low,I followed unto bliss, thou hapless one,I did bethink me of my cruel vow,The vow I will obey, but oh, my heart!
And through the long, still nights this cry was hers,As on her couch she lay till dreary dawn,Her large eyes dark with horror looking outUpon the pitchy darkness unafraid.And as the breathings of the new spring breeze,Soft sights of sad complaint, to autumn's stormsThat hold the burdened sorrow of a year,Was this, her sigh of, "oh, the happy world!"To this despairing cry of, "oh, my heart!"And as the year's late winds leave pale and chillThe earth, so did this weary cry of hersSo oft repeated leave her lips like snow.And oft the lonely midnight heard her moanOf hopes foregone, that women hold most dear.
"No little ones to ever cling to meIn closest love, look on me through his eyesAnd call me mother, bless me with his smile."Then low in tearful prayer her voice would soundDespairing, wailing, through the lonely room,The silent turret chamber steep and high,"Thou maiden mother, Mary, knows my heart,Thou who didst love and suffer, look on me,Oh, pity me, sweet mother of the Christ!"
Then would the passion of her woe die outIn dreary calm, and as a chidden childWho cries himself to rest, sobs in his sleep,So pitifully would sound the latest words—"I will, I will be patient, and obey."But all the long days' silent anguish, allThese secret trysts she kept alone with painWore her meek face, till like a spirit's lookedIt, gleaming white from out her shadowy hair,And so the last day came, the day of doom,The dreaded day when she should leave the world.
But He who holdeth little useless birdsIn His protecting care, looked tenderlyUpon this patient soul, so sorely tried.This sweet soul purified by all its pain,For on this day, so fair a morn, it seemedA heavenly peace sunk down to this sad earthFrom gate ajar, the bright and pearly gateSwung widely open for an angel guest.A faithful servant climbed the winding stair,Sent by her eager father with the dawnTo rouse her, tell her that the hour had comeWhen she to save his name should leave the world.And as the woman stood beside the couchShe said, "Sweet soul, she talks out in her sleep."For there she lay with closed eyes murmuring low,With mournful brow and sad lips, "oh, dear love."Then cried out with a sob, "'tis not a dream."Then spake of blood-red blossoms, bitter, sweet,And with her white lips sighing this, she sunkInto what seemed to be a dreamless sleep.
And as the loving servant weeping stood,Loath to awake her to her evil doom,She opened her large violet eyes, and gazedUpon the morning sunlight stealing in;The clear light trembling, growing on the wall,And as she looked, her eyes grew like the eyesOf blessed angels looking on their Lord.And high toward Heaven she lifted up her hands,Then clasped them in content upon her breast,And cried out in a glad voice, "oh, my heart!"And with such glory lighting up her face,As if the flood of joy had filled her heart,And overrun her lips with blissful smilesShe left the world, and saved her sire from shame.