CHAPTER XVII.

CHAPTER XVII.Fatherand Lulie have been gone an hour; father on his way to Havana, Lulie returning to Wilmington. Frank and Ned have gone with them over to town. I am lying on a lounge in the hall, and mother and Carlotta are sitting near me, arranging flowers for the parlor vases. Lulie got off without much trouble with the assistance of mother’s tact;Ned expressing great surprise, while Frank was almost rude in his solicitations to her to remain. Dear little darling, how tenderly she bade me farewell, whispering as she pressed my hand, “Don’t be hurt at my leaving, John, ‘tis for your sake as much as mine!”My eyes are closed, and mother and Carlotta think I am asleep, but through a scarcely lifted lid I am watching Carlotta, feasting my eyes on her beautiful face and form. She is sitting just inside the hall door, with a lap full of flowers, and though I cannot see her face, I gaze on an arm and hand that Phidias might dream of, but never carve.Her muslin sleeve was turned up to her shoulder, to be out of the way, and the flesh, soft and snowy, swelled out from the richly worked undersleeve, and almost imperceptibly tapered to the elbow, with here and there a tiny thread of blue, winding its way under the transparent skin. At the elbow two dimples showed where the liquid flesh eddied round the curve, and a slope of perfect grace carried it to the wrist; here no knots disfigured, no roughness marred it, but, smooth and delicate, the wrist became a fitting bridge between such a hand and arm. Her hair, caught back by a crimson velvet band, fell in a dark shower over her shoulders; not the wiry ringlets, nor the hard straight locks that all are familiar with, but in soft undulating waves it fell, as if fairies were trembling the silken strands. Her profile was exquisite, and the beautiful proportion of each feature, and the delicate tints that overspread them, formed altogether a picture that has rarely been surpassed for loveliness. The peculiar witchery of the face, as I gazed upon it, was enhanced by an occasional frown and arch of the pencilled brow, as she endeavored to draw a refractory thread through the stems of the flowers.Mother, at last speaking, broke the spell that bound me.“Carlotta, darling, Col. Smith told you of the letter he received from your father’s agent in Havana, did he not?”“He told me of it, and also showed me the letter. Papa always thought his agent very trusty, and I suppose Col. Smith will find everything arranged properly.”After another pause, mother asked again:“Who is this cousin who claims the estate?”“He is mother’s half nephew. He was always a great favorite with papa, and staid almost half his time with us, though his home was on the other side of the island. Papa used to promise him, when I was a very little girl, that I should be his wife, but he was so much older than I, I could never love him.”Though my fealty to Lulie was unchanged, I could not help thinking what a splendid thing it would be to have the promise of such a love as hers.“But,” continued mother, shaking the dew from a flower as she placed it with the others, “would you not marry him when you are grown, to get back so much wealth and riches. Remember, he has your father’s will, making him the sole heir in case of your death, and he has also the affidavit of the captain of the vessel in which you sailed, that yourself and father were both lost, and could not possibly have been saved.”“I would despise him,” she said, scornfully, snapping a stem as she spoke, “if he tried to get anything wrongfully. But Col. Smith has all papa’s papers with him, and Cousin Herrara is too noble, I know, to do anything mean or sordid!”She brushed the rose leaves from her lap, and placed the bouquet she had arranged in the basket of a Parian marble porter on the mantel; then coming back to mother, she kneeled down by her side, and laying her cheek sideways on mother’s knee, with that peculiar winning way of her’s, said softly:“I hope Col. Smith will be able to save me something to repay you all for your goodness to me, for I cannot stayunder your roof as a charity outcast, and it would kill me to leave you now, I have learned to love you so.”“My dear child,” said mother, laying her hand on her soft, dark hair, “the very idea of compensating us for the greatest pleasure of our lives! Colonel Smith has gone to Havana solely on your account. Thank heaven we have as much as we want, and you may feel that you have a daughter’s place in our household, and will never, never be a burden. Who knows,” she added, playfully patting her head and glancing toward my couch, “but what you may be a daughter, indeed, to us one of these days.”“Oh, Mrs. Smith,” said Carlotta so earnestly, that I opened my eyes in time to see the scarlet tinge of her cheeks, “you do not know how you hurt me when you say that. ‘Twould make me hate the very thought of your son, whom I now esteem so much, to think that I was taken into your family to please him; that I was being raised to suit his fancy; that my character was being moulded after his model of a woman; that it was being constantly said of me, as I have heard it said: ‘Mrs. Smith is training her up for her son.’ Will I not shrink from his very presence when I feel that he looks upon me as his to love or not, just as he likes?”“My dear child,” said mother, looking surprised, “my words were almost without meaning. Forgive me, and I will endeavor to prevent any allusion, in this house at least, that may wound your feelings.”I here turned over, and moving my arms about showed signs of waking. This put an end to the conversation. Mother coming to the couch found me with considerable fever, and becoming alarmed sent Reuben off after the doctor. In truth I did feel a little badly, though I had been so interested in the conversation that I had not thought of my feelings. My eyeballs were hot and red, and felt as if they were full of sand; my breath burnt my nostrils as it came out, and my tongue was dry and coated. An hour of feverishrestlessness elapsed before we heard the doctor’s horse plodding up the avenue in a slow jog-trot, the fastest speed known to the medical fraternity. The doctor himself was equally deliberate in tying him to the rack, crossing the stirrups over the back of the saddle with the utmost care, and finally marching up the steps as if he was a pall-bearer at a funeral. He laid his hat on the seat in the porch, put his gloves in the crown, and laid his riding switch across them, as if it was to guard them. He at length advanced into the house and met mother.“How d’ye do, madam; a very warm day, madam,” he said, shaking her hand with one of his, and rubbing the bald place on his head with the other, as if all the heat of the day had centred there.“It is very sultry indeed, sir,” replied mother, as he released her hand. “Reuben, hand a glass of water, or perhaps, sir, you would prefer wine?”“Much obliged, madam, but water will do. Best for this weather, madam.”While the water was being brought he sat down near the door and waited patiently, without deigning to notice me, as if anything connected with his profession was farthest from his thoughts.“Who is sick, madam?” he inquired, when he had replaced the empty goblet on Reuben’s waiter.“My son, sir,” said mother, conducting him to my lounge. “I don’t know that he is sick much, but he is feverish, and fever always frightens me.”“And very properly, madam, for it is a sure sign that something is wrong in the system. Should always be taken in hand at once.”He felt my pulse a long time, slipping his fingers up and down my wrist, as if he were playing the violin; then felt my forehead, touching it as he would a loaf of bread, to see if it were warm, and bade me put out my tongue. He puton his specs and bent over it, as if he were looking for a splinter, requesting mother to stand just a little out of the light, madam, and rubbing it with the end of his little finger, took off his spectacles triumphantly, and turning to mother said:“There is no danger, madam; very slight fever; only a trifling disorder of the system. A good sized blue pill is all that I would recommend at present. If you have any blue mass in the house I will make it for you before I leave.”The box ofpil hydrargwas accordingly brought, and a cup of flour, from which he soon produced a pellet the size of a robin’s egg, which I was to swallow. There might be almost said to be only two medicines known to the physicians of eastern Carolina, so constantly are they required in their practice, and they are as certain to administer mercury or quinine as Dr. Sangrado, of Valladolid, was to let blood or give warm water. I certainly did not bless their mercurial predilections that morning, and saw the old doctor ride off with an earnest wish that he had a pill, as large as the conventional brick, to roll around his hat on his head.He had hardly gotten out of sight when mother came to the couch with the pill in the hollow of one hand and a glass of water in the other.“Here, son, try to swallow this. The doctor thinks it best that you should take it.”I sat upon the side of the bed, asked for a bucket, in case of accidents, and took the pill in my hand. I found it soft, and sticky as putty, but with reckless desperation I laid it far back on my tongue, and took a great gulp of water. With a toss of my head I made a tremendous swallow, but a wad of air, many times larger than my mouth, got before the water and barred its progress down. Most of it got into my windpipe; the pill, with the flour coating washed off, and its nauseous taste revealed, rolled down against my front teeth and stuck there. Shades of Epicurus! how I heaved!Tearing it away from my teeth with my fingers I dashed it down, and vowed that no doctor’s authority could ever compel me to the attempt again.Whether the very taste of the pill had a good effect or not, that evening I was much better, and next morning felt perfectly well.As it was the Sabbath, I was anxious to go to church with mother, Frank and Ned, but mother feared for me to take the sultry ride, and so I was to stay at home. To my surprise Carlotta asked leave to stay at home also, though she removed the flattering unction I had laid to my heart, that she staid to be with me, by telling mother she wished to spend the morning in her room. After breakfast the carriage came round, and mother, Ned and Frank, left for the church, which was a little country appointment, about four miles distant.As soon as they were gone Carlotta went to her room, and, taking a book, I went out doors and lay down on the grass, beneath a large cedar at one end of the house.There are four kinds of days in the year, coming one in each season, on which I feel an unaccountable, though not unpleasant melancholy. Days when I want to get far away to myself, and muse in undisturbed loneliness. Days when Memory, not Fancy, holds her court, and scenes and faces long forgotten spring up from her dusty sepulchres, and throng her shrine and ask for tears. Days that make a prison of the Present, a worthless bauble of the Future, and lift only to our heart’s embrace the golden Past, gone from life forever! Brighter than it ever really was, its pains forgotten, only its joys remembered! Like a dead friend, it is dearer now than ever, and we weep because we cannot turn life’s current back.One of these days comes in winter, when, after a cloudy morning and noon, the sun sets cold and clear; when the wind with a hollow moan sweeps over the bare fields; whenthe long lines of wild ducks, clearly defined against the red sky, wind their way up the bends of the river, along whose banks the naked trees stretch their arms like the masts and yards of weird ships; when the blue birds, with their plaintive notes, huddle in the clumps of withered leaves on the oaks in the grove, and the very cows, plodding homeward, low mournfully, as if in response to Nature’s dreariness.Another day is in Autumn, when Nature, wrapping herself in a hazy robe, seems to lift her hand and say, “Hush, do not break my slumber,” as she dozes into dreaminess. The sun himself half closes his glaring eye, and looks upon the world with a drowsy smile, and the purple sky droops upon the horizon as if Atlas were weary of his load. When the zephyrs are asleep, and the leaves on the trees are wan for want of exercise; when the crowing of the cock sounds like a yawn, and the little fly-catcher, perched, as is its custom, on a dead and leafless limb, breathes its one little song as if it was its last sigh. Such a day as Buchanan Read describes in his “Closing Scene;” the most exquisite verses ever penned by an American:“All sights seemed mellowed and all sounds subdued,The hills seemed farther, and the streams sang low,As in a dream the distant woodman hewedHis winter log, with many a muffled blow.******“On slumbrous wings the vulture held his flight,The dove scarce heard its sighing mate’s complaint;And like a star, slow drowning in the light,The village church vane seemed to pale and faint.*******“Alone from out the stubble piped the quail,And croaked the crow through all the dreary gloom;Alone the pheasant, drumming in the vale,Made echo to the distant cottage loom.”*****Another day for reverie is such a day as this—a summer Sabbath in the country. Sabbath is stamped on the entirepremises. The negroes, bedecked in all the finery of ribbons and beads, have just trooped in long droves through the gate and gone to preaching. Down at the quarters there is one old negro sitting at the door of her cabin, with her head bowed down to her knees as she ties around it her broad yellow kerchief. Her slight motion as she does this, and the faint monotonous wail of an infant left in her care, are all the evidences of life in the long row of tenements.The horses and mules all walk solemnly about in the clover lot, and the sheep graze under the trees in the orchard, without a bleat to disturb the serene quiet of the morning. Tiger, the great bull-dog, is lying stretched out at the door of his kennel, watching with his small bleared eyes a hen and brood that are scratching fearlessly almost in his jaws. A mocking bird, down at the old graveyard, is alone forgetful of the day, and, perched upon the very topmost bough of the willow, is burdening the air with the joyous trills of his melody.Overhead the great blue ocean of the sky is dotted here and there with fantastic white clouds, melting into various shapes as they grandly sail across its depths.Propping my head with my hand, I lay and gazed up at the sky and around at the beauty of the day, and gave myself up to musing. Of course my mind turned to Lulie, and the terrible blight she had given my hopes, and, as the romance of my youthful mind intensified a thousand fold the nature of my disappointment, and my feelings were already made tender by the influences of the day, my heart could only find relief in tears, and turning my face over in the long cool grass I wept till I fell asleep. I had lain thus perhaps an hour, when a little bird, hopping in the branches overhead, rained down a shower of cedar balls upon me, and I raised up to find Carlotta standing by me. She started as I looked up, and said, without any embarrassment:“I came out to the porch a few moments since, and saw you lying so still I was afraid you might be sick. Is there anything I can do for you?”“No, thanks for your kindness, I do not need anything at all,” I replied, raising myself from the grass; “but sit down here with me, I want to talk with you.”She hesitated a moment, then sat down near me.“Day before yesterday, when you and mother were talking together in the hall, you thought me asleep,” I said, after a pause of some seconds—a pause that is always awkward when you are expected to say something, and do not know what to say—”but I was not, and am now glad that I heard every word you both said.”Her face burned for a second, then became paler than before, as she exclaimed:“Oh! why did you not speak, and stop my unkind and hasty words. Glad, did you say? how could you be glad to know that I had purposely shunned your presence, and shrunk from your most casual approach?”“I was glad, because I had found the key to your conduct, and then knew why you had acted so coldly towards me, and refused so persistently the friendship I longed to offer. I was glad, because I knew then that the distance between us was not caused by enmity, but your sensitive nature.”Looking at me pleadingly with her eloquent eyes, and with a tremor in her soft voice, she said:“Will you not appreciate my feelings, then, and forgive me?”“I do appreciate your feelings,” I said, with warmth, “and, appreciating them, have nothing to forgive. I have been pained that you seemed to mistrust me; that the love and devotion my brother’s heart would fain have offered, was put aside, and that you wrapped yourself in such a robe of icy reserve; but I understand it all now, and you may trust meto use all my efforts to prevent the recurrence of any occasion that would cause you mortification or regret.”“Thank you, my kind brother, for your consideration of my feelings,” she returned, warmly; “but let me add a word before we leave the subject: My annoyance has not been caused by the fact that your name,as yours, was coupled with mine, but that the very kindness of your family in taking me under their roof, is made, in the estimation of others, an obligation that places me at your disposal;” and the pride of her high-born soul burned in her glorious eyes, as she spoke.“Well, we understand each other now,” I said, soothingly, “and let us make this agreement—that whenever we are unobserved we will be trustful and confiding, as brother and sister should be, but when occasion demands we will be reserved and distant, without offence.”“I agree most cordially,” she said, “and will henceforth place an implicit confidence in you as my truest friend.”She motioned as if to go, but it was so pleasant—something so new—to converse with her, to watch the play of her beautiful features, to catch the light of her great dark eyes, as she looked into my face as if to see my words, that I strove to detain her.“Do not leave me yet, Carlotta. My heart is very sad today. Will you let me unburden it to you? It seems silly, I know, but I do so long to have some one to confide in; some one I can trust as I can you.”“You may trust me, John,” she said, hesitating as she called my name for the first time.After a pause, I said, biting a blade of grass with my lips—“I had been weeping, Carlotta, when you came to me—weeping because the beautiful day made me sad.”“You sad? you weeping? you, who are so full of life and gaiety!” she said, looking at me with surprise; then adding,in a tone of deep sadness, as she thought of herself, “alas! what cause canyouhave for tears, in such a happy home, surrounded by those you hold most dear.”“What better cause for tears than disappointed love? Carlotta, I have loved Lulie since I could remember, and if ever one life can be bound in another mine has been in her’s, and yet she does not love me. From her own lips I have learned this bitter truth. I could bear up had I one gleam of hope; but all is dark, and far worse than the extinction of hope is the knowledge that she loves another. Oh, heaven! how it grinds me to the earth to feel that he, who is most unworthy, should receive her smiles; that a love I would give my life for is wasted on one who regards it as the trifle of a day.”I paused and looked gloomily up at the bright blue sky, where a fleecy Delos floated.“I, too, think her love is wasted on Frank Paning,” said Carlotta, as I looked again at her face. “He may admire her beauty, and no doubt feels flattered by her preference, but he does not love her as she thinks he does. It will be a sad day with her when she learns the truth.”“Yes,” I replied, savagely; “she will then know what I feel.”“Do not speak harshly of her, John, for while she loves Frank Paning, yet I believe she esteems you more.”“But how can you speak for her feelings?” I asked, with a faint touch of a sneer in my tone.“Because she has told me all,” she replied coolly.“A perjured little——”“Hush!” she exclaimed, looking at me reprovingly. “Do not judge her too hastily. She only told me part; I inferred the rest. Her heart seemed as if it would break the night after you went fishing together, and, when I sought to know the cause of her grief, she would only say she had made you unhappy. Hers is a fond, true heart, and I only wish it were given away more worthily.”“But what do you know of Paning’s sentiments?” I asked with some surprise. “Perhaps he may be very devoted to her.”“I have very good reasons for knowing,” she said, with a peculiar smile; “but yonder are some of the negroes returning from church. I must go in and have dinner arranged before the carriage returns.”She went into the house and left me wondering what she could mean. Can she love him, too, I thought, and is it because she herself has his heart that she knows Lulie has it not?I began to grow desperate with the thought of my rival’s second conquest, when the sound of the carriage diverted my attention, and mother, Frank and Ned came into the house.“Oh, you needn’t have dinner for us,” said Frank to Carlotta, as he drew a glass of ice-water for himself, and drank it. “We have already dined sumptuously.”Mother nodded her head as Carlotta looked at her inquiringly. “Yes, my dear, we’ve had dinner. Mrs. Bemby invited us to her table, and of course we could not refuse.”“How did you like the sermon, Ned, and what kind of people were there?” I asked. “Tell me all about it.”“The sermon was very good in its way,” said Ned, “and the people somewhat amusing; but you must get Frank to give you full details. I could not do the subject justice.”I could do nothing else but ask Frank for the narration, though I was not particularly anxious to hear his voice.“Well,” replied Frank, nothing loth to do the talking, “long before we got to the church we began to pass crowds of people who were walking thither; the men dressed in long sack coats of homespun, with immensely loose pants and dusty shoes, most of them carrying in their arms bare-legged, white-headed babies, who were employed in looking backwards over their fathers’ shoulders, and mostly gnawingvery large fat biscuits; the women were arrayed in bright flowered calico robes, which they kicked up behind at every step. They all had stick tooth brushes in their mouths, and long-tailed fly bonnets, which they carried in their hands. Then we passed others who, a little better off, were riding in red painted wagons, drawn by rope-harnessed mules, which trotted along so briskly, under the kindly influences of overgrown boys and hickory sticks, that the folks in the body were jolted from side to side of their split bottomed chairs. Then we overtook the cumbrous carriages of the well-to-do farmers, with heavy-headed, clumsy-footed horses, the low boots full of fodder, and large trunks full of dinner, strapped on behind. As many of these and other vehicles as we passed, yet when we got to the church we found the grove full of horses, buggies, carriages and wagons, and so many people out doors that I began to fear the preacher would have no congregation.“At the foot of every tree in sight was a group of men engaged in the solemn occupation of whittling twigs and spitting. When we got to the door of the church, which was a large barn-looking structure, we found it full, and with difficulty got seats near the door. Such a mixture of people I never saw before. Here a silk by the side of cotton check, a broadcloth coat touching a copperas striped one, and a silk hat resting in the window with one of wheat straw, bound with green ribbon. As I could see very little but the backs of the people’s heads, I cannot tell much about the congregation, except that the men for the most part had very long and very dry hair, which they wore bushy, while the women had theirs plaited in two strings and crossed like wicker-basket handles. The girls wore straw hats trimmed with ribbons, whose colors were of the rainbow that we may imagine would appear on a cloudy day. The elderly ladies wore bonnets that looked as if Noah’s wife had made them for pastime while she was in the ark, and had fittedthem on the goat’s head for the want of a better block. The preacher himself was queer looking, and had a monotonous drawling tone.” (Here Frank got up in the floor to imitate his style.) “Ah! my brethren and sistern-er, where are we to-day? ‘Ere we are in the narrer road.”“Tut, tut, Frank,” said mother, quickly, “that will never do. Jest about the people if you want to, but remember the sanctity of the pulpit.”“But it does not matter, Mrs. Smith, if we have a little fun at their expense; they don’t belong to our church, and he wasn’t preaching to us.”“It makes no difference,” said mother, rising to go down to the dining room; “he was preaching the Gospel of Christ, and, however defective his sermon, we should not ridicule it.”“I’ll show some other time,” said Frank, as mother left the room. “But where was I? Oh, the preacher. Well, when the sermon was finished we all went out, and Mrs. Ben or Bem something soon found us, and insisted that we should eat with her.“All over the grove the white cloths were being spread like gigantic snow flakes, and almost as numerous. Scores of negroes and ladies were unpacking great boxes, containing biscuit, rolls, cakes, ham, fowls, pickles, apples and peaches, and everybody was asking everybody else to dine with them. There was a good sized crowd at Mrs. Bemby’s table when we went up. They were not introduced, but they all made us room, and bowed confusedly. Mrs. Smith knew and spoke to several of them while we took our part out in staring.“Mrs. Bemby begged us to help ourselves, and every one acted on her kind suggestion with quite a zest. Country belles, pulling off their cotton gloves, alternated the bites at chicken and bread so rapidly and successfully that they were soon sucking the bones like candy, while the beaux cut symmetricalsquares out of corn bread sandwiches, and played the flute on long ears of roasted corn, with unctuous smiles and impeded attempts at conversation with chewed words. Mr. and Mrs. B—— did not eat anything, but served the table, with cordial entreaties to all to spare not; Mrs. B—— distributing the bread and sweetmeats with a lavish hand, and Mr. B—— cutting the meats—his mode of dealing with a ham being very unique as well as effective. Standing it up on one end, and holding the hock in one hand, he sawed the knife across it like an Italian playing the fiddle, producing far more satisfactory results, however, than all the army of diminutive violinists Italy has sent forth. That great gawk of a Ben, instead of helping was perched on a wagon, idly kicking the wheels with his feet as he munched on an apple, and gravely winking at Ned and myself, in acknowledgment of acquaintance. Altogether the dinner was excellent, and, after our ride to the church, and our boredom in it, was particularly relished. There, I have talked enough; get Ned to tell you the balance.”“There is no more to tell,” said Ned, as mother called to us from the basement to come down and eat watermelons. “I can corroborate all that Frank has told, except his account of the sermon. That was very good, and much to the point, though it was plain and without ornament.”I went down with the rest, but was afraid, for my fever’s sake, to indulge in melons. If you would know whether it was any temptation to me or not, imagine a sultry afternoon, a cool breezy basement, four or five large melons, just from the ice house, like a row of victims with a knife in each pink frozen heart!I felt tired of hearing them talk and seeing them eat, so I took my hat and strolled down to Mr. Bemby’s to find Ben, and enjoy a talk with him. He was nowhere in sight, and I tapped at the door. At Mrs. Bemby’s “Come in!” I opened the door, and instead of Ben found three strange ladies, whowere discussing with profound interest the events of the day.“Come in, honey; you look mighty feeble yet; how do you feel to-day?” said Mrs. Bemby, kindly, as she met me. “This is Col. Smith’s son, Mrs. Bailey and Miss Viney Dodge; Col. Smith’s son! Mrs. Dodge,” she shouted in the ear of the oldest and most withered of the three ladies, who was armed with an orchestra looking instrument in the shape of an immense ear trumpet. Mrs. Bemby had to put her mouth right down to the opening, and shout my name out twice before she and I became acquainted. I shook hands with the old and bowed to the young lady, who gave me a curtesy in return that shoved her chair back almost out of range of her reseating figure. Her figure was very stumpy; her complexion very sallow; her hair very sandy, and her skin very freckled. Her hands were covered with half fingered blue gloves, and were employed, one in lying in her lap, the fingers folded and the thumb stiffly erect, as a sentinel over their repose; the other in holding, in as compressed a ball as possible, a dingy cotton handkerchief, which she constantly used, after a premonitory snuffle, by rubbing her nose very hard upwards, as if she wished to elevate its depressed point.Mrs. B—— informed me that Ben would be in shortly, and I took the chair she offered and looked at the visitors; they looked at each other, and then there was a silence of some seconds.“You beedn sorter poorly, haidn’t you?” said Mrs. Dodge, adjusting her trumpet and leaning towards me.“Yes, ma’am!” I shouted, making my reply more affirmative by a number of up and down motions of my head.“Umphum! Haidn’t had the summer complaint, is you? You look a little thidn.”I transversed the motion of my head very rapidly, and signed the negative many times.“A leetle lodomy, drapped in ellum bark tea’s mighty good for it;” and the old lady, satisfied with her catechism, turned her trumpet and her interrogative features toward the others.Mrs. Bemby remarked having seen mother and the others at church that morning. Mrs. Bailey then took up the thread of the discourse where I had broken it off by entering.“As I was a saying, sister Bemby,” she resumed, “it does me a sight of good to listen to Brother Weekly’s preaching. He is so searchin’ to the sinners and comfortin’ to the saints. His sermins are well pinted, too, and not writ, neither. I jist know in my soul, d’liver me from a writ sermin.”“Umph?” said Mrs. Dodge, in a prolonged note of inquiry, levelling her dread instrument on the speaker. Mrs. Bailey very kindly screamed the words into her ear.“Ah, yes, I knowed ‘twas good this mordn-ing, tho’ I couldn’t hear, for I sorter felt it. Brother Weekly is always powerful in his lastly, and whedn I see old Udncle Jacob Sawney slap Sister Brewer in the back, and old Miss Parkidns twiss her cheer roudn to the wall, and git my Viney here to untie her specks, so she could rub her eyes, I knowed he was a having great freedobm; and thedn he got a leetle louder, and I thought I heerd him say: ‘He’ll meet us at the gate, Hisself;’ and somethidng told me in my heart he meadnt the Lord, and I wadnted to go just thedn, for ‘pears to me I’d be more welcome like ef He told me to come in.”“Yes,” resumed Mrs. Bailey, without noticing her interruption; “and did you notice, Sister Bemby, how he brought it out about the tares and the wheat. Seems to me, if I was a sinner I couldn’t bear the thought of being sifted out and throwed away like a no ‘count cockle grain.”“That was uncommon clear, Sister Bailey,” returned Mrs. Bemby, “about putting in the sickle and reaping all together, then sortin’ out the good and bad.”“That it was, Sister Bemby,” agreed Mrs. Bailey, makinga spade out of her tooth brush, and spading up half an ounce of snuff into her mouth.There was another pause, and I looked uneasily out of the window, to see if I could discover anything of Ben, while Miss Viney rubbed her nose up again, and shot invisible marbles with the idle thumb in her lap.Deaf old Mrs. Dodge again spoke:“It’s a mighty cobmfort, Sister Bemby, to have odne’s chilldn a growin’ up right. There’s my Viney, she’s been a perfesser nigh upodn five year, and haidn’t backslid yit. Why dodn’t you talk to Ben, Sister Bemby? He’s a clever ‘nough boy, but he’s so mischeevous. Sednce I lost my hearidn I look ’round some in church, and no longer’n this mordning I see Ben holding up a streaked lizzard by the tail, fixing to put him on old Miss Judy Yates, who’s the feardest of ’em in the world. Brother Bemby seed him jist in time to stop him.”“I know it, Sister Dodge,” shouted Mrs. Bemby in the trumpet’s mouth, “and I have talked to him a heap of times, but Ben says he ain’t a going to die soon, and that he’ll be a preacher yet, and he makes me laugh so I have to let him alone.”“Is you a lover of the Lord, sir?” Mrs. Dodge inquired, pointedly addressing me.“I am afraid not as I ought to be,” I said, confusedly, shaking my head.“Well, you ought to love Him with all your heart whedn you think what He’s dodne fur you.”I bowed an acknowledgment of the truth of her remark, and told Mrs. Bemby I would go out and look for Ben.Not finding him anywhere I turned homeward, thinking on the glorious Gospel of the Son of God—a Gospel that, with the same words, can comfort sister Bailey’s simple heart, and bind up one bruised beneath a velvet robe—a Gospel for all the world! deep enough to baffle the sage—simpleenough to save a child. God alone can be its Author!Go to the rustic church, with its rude unpainted seats, its plain deal pulpit, with a pitcher of water and a cloth covered Bible on the unvarnished slab. Sit with the simple, illiterate congregation, and listen to the unpolished man in the pulpit as, with an effort, he slowly reads his text: “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”Hear the story of the Cross told without rhetoric, and mark the faces around you, how they glow with faith and shine with tears.Then let us stand on the broad stone steps beneath the clanging chimes and gilded spire. See the white-gloved drivers curb the prancing steeds—the liveried footmen hold the blazoned door, while silken trains sweep down the carriage step and rustle up the aisle. Let us go in and stand in the purpled gloom of the soft stained light. The golden legend over the chancel is illegible in the darkness, and only the bright figures on the windows up in the vaulted roof show that the glorious sunlight is over the earth. The tufted aisles make no echo to the footsteps, and the only sound is the occasional closing of a pew door by the silent ushers. The cushioned seats are filled, the gas jets around the preacher’s stand are lit, and all is so hushed we almost expect the sermon to be whispered, when, with a trembling sob, as if its very pipes were sinful, the organ’s wail of penitence is heard. Moaning and groaning at the very bottom of its voice, it grows louder and higher, till its weird minor strains peal through the church, as if its windy heart will burst, and still higher and higher it screams and shrieks, in its agony of remorse, then, with a galop down the scale, it breaks out into a lively polka of forgiveness, and is as happy as an organ can be, till its jig-and-break-downrepertoireis exhausted, when it stands on one leg of a note and waits for the singing. A low, soft trill, like a mocking bird’s song at night, breaks forth from we know not where, and its quivering melody fills the vast edifice; but ere we have discovered its source or meaning it is joined by another sound—a high zooning tone—like a bee far up in the air. This follows the first through all its wonderful manœuvres, and a faint conception begins to dawn on us that perhaps a song is intended. This idea is entertained for a few seconds, when it is forever put to flight by the sudden, sonorous bellowing of a bull over its slaughtered kindred, and while its terrible tones are thundering from the floor to the roof, we find that it, too, is following the others, and adding its powerful roar to their melody. But surprises are not over yet, for just as the three get fairly under way, they are quickly joined by a bronchial cat, unusually hoarse, that also takes after the others, though on a lower key and in strange fuzzy tones. This zoologicalvocaleis persevered in by the four till, at last, they approximate a tune. We have some light thrown on the subject from the remark of a gentleman with an eye-glass to a lady with diamonds sitting just in front of us:“Trilla’s soprano is better to-day inTe Deumthan ‘twas last evening inTrovatore, but Catta’s contralto is horrid.” “Taurini’s bass is magnificent, though, isn’t it?” the young fop adds in a whisper, as, with a long orchestral flourish, the organ ceases to play and the services commence. Worshipping God by proxy! Because Taurini has a richer, better voice, and can say “We praise Thee, oh! God” in a deeper tone than we, we pay him to say it in our most holy place, careless whether an oath were last on his lips, or an early bar-room his only preparation for the Sabbath. But all is so different from the little wooden church, that we almost feel that they are serving another God with a different religion.We feel out of place and disappointed, and are about to leave, when the preacher ascends the pulpit and announces his text:“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”We are at home now; the same verse that has brought tears from the simple minded, carries conviction to the heart of the rich and the wise. Though the service in its appointments may be fanciful—though the sermon be burdened with rhetorical roses, or ridiculous in rustic exposition, or flagrant misconstruction—Christ’s words stand forth with the same grandeur of simplicity and force as they did when the trembling, conscience-convicted Sanhedrimite sought Him in the darkness, and received the light of God.CHAPTER XVIII.Thefirst of October found us all again in Wilmington. Father returned from Havana the latter part of September, having completed all the necessary arrangements in reference to Carlotta’s property. He found the agent reliable, and having proved the death and identity of Mr. Rurleston, he administered on the estate, and qualified as guardian for Carlotta under the Spanish law.Ned and I began the winter in hard study, as our last session in a preparatory school. Frank, however, declared his intention of going to Chapel Hill, the seat of the University of North Carolina, in January, and joining the Freshman Class, half advanced, getting the advantage of a year’s start by the half session.Sure enough, in January he left for the Hill, and we soonreceived letters from him telling of the wonderful charms of college life, and of the rapid progress he was making in his studies.The spring passed and Frank came home a Sophomore. Ned and I felt quite tame before him, though his foppish ways and overbearing air only added to the dislike I entertained for him.Lulie, poor thing, was as proud of him as if he had been her son, and whenever we met was continually quoting what Frank said, and telling what Frank did. In the kindness of her dear little heart she ever tried to consider my feelings, and it was the inadvertence of these remarks in my presence that made them doubly painful.Between Carlotta and myself there had sprung up a strong, confidential friendship. She was so beautiful in person and character, so pure, so trusting, that had it not have been for our daily intimacy, I could have loved her even to the effacing of Lulie’s image. As it was, she was only my best friend, and Lulie my hopeless idol.A trip to Smithville closed our vacation, and we began to get ready for college. All the arrangements were made, and the day before our departure came round. Ned, who, of course, was to be my chum, had come into town with his baggage, and was to stay all night with me, to be ready for the early morning train. That night, after tea, he ran over to Dr. Mayland’s to tell Lulie good-bye, and Carlotta and I took our seat on the stoop. Neither of us spoke for some time, for I felt really sad now that the time had come for parting.“You will write to me while I am gone, Carlotta?” I said, at length. “I will enjoy a letter from you more than from any one else I know.”“Yes,” she said, smiling. “I will write if you will promise to reply faithfully, and not to make fun of my letters.”“That would be impossible, even if I were not too anxiousto hear from home and from you. I will miss your bright face and sunny smiles sadly while I am away,” I continued, looking up at the stars slowly coming out, “for no matter where I am, or whom I am with, I never feel so well satisfied and happy as when I am with you.”“It is I, indeed, who will miss you,” she said, with the least possible sigh, “for you have been so kind and attentive, so considerate of all my wishes, yet so unobtrusive in your attentions, that I can never get another to fill your place.”“You will not forget me, then?” I said, drawing a little nearer to her.“Never!”She looked so beautiful in the soft twilight, as she gazed at me earnestly and said this “Never!” that I did more than I intended—I took her hand and pressed it in mine, though I tried to do it in a brotherly way. But there was a thrill in her touch, nevertheless. I could see her face flush, even in the twilight, as she drew her hand once or twice, as if she would take it away.“Carlotta,” I said, still holding her hand, “I have told you how I once loved Lulie——”“And there she is now,” she said, quickly withdrawing her hand, then putting it back in mine, as if it was nothing to be ashamed of.Sure enough, Lulie, Frank and Ned crossed over from Dr. Mayland’s and approached our stoop.“John, I have come over to say good-bye, as you would not come to see me,” said Lulie, seating herself at Carlotta’s feet.“‘Twas because I thought you would, of course, be engaged for to-night, not because I did not want to,” I replied, in a tone divided between a sneer and a smile.“You know I am always glad to see you, John,” she said, rising again to her feet; “but we have not long to stay,Frank, and had better go now, as he is so ungracious, even on the eve of parting.”“Pardon me, Lulie,” I said, her words recalling me to a sense of propriety. “Do not let us part in bad humor.”“Certainly not,” she replied; “but,” changing the subject, “do you not dread the ordeal of initiation? Frank says, though, he will not let the fellows, as he calls them, trouble you much.”“We are obliged to Frank for his kind intentions, but hope to be able to take care of ourselves,” I replied, my ungracious feelings returning reinforced.“I’ve a great notion to let you fellows alone, and let our class have its own way with you,” said Frank, tapping the railing with a little gold headed switch he called a cane.I had it on my tongue to tell him that I wished he would, but I restrained myself, and only said that I hoped we could stand it.Lulie gave me her hand most cordially, and bade us both farewell, and she and Frank walked away—she looking up at him and talking to him as if her life was his, and he walking on as if only a toy hung upon his arm.Father returned from down town, and, requesting my presence in the library, I left Ned with Carlotta and went in the house. Father was seated at hisescritoireand motioned me to a chair near him. “As you leave very early in the morning,” he said, through his teeth, holding between them one end of a tape he was tying around a bundle of papers he had assorted, “I thought we had best arrange our money matters to-night.”He took a roll of bank bills from a drawer, and, counting out a goodly heap, pushed it towards me, saying, “That will be enough for all your expenses till late in the session. Whenever you find you need more, write and I will remit. I do not want you to be extravagant, my son, neither do I want you to be a niggard; I will, however, trust to your own good sense to regulate your expenditure.”I folded the money up, and, putting it in my purse, was about to leave, when he closed the desk, and, jingling the keys into his pockets, said:“Sit down a moment, John, I want to say a few words to you in reference to your conduct while you are away. I am sure your mother has instructed you thoroughly in your Christian duty, and, therefore, I do not fear that I shall ever be mortified by a letter confessing debauch and dissipation. I trust that your early training, with your own sense of propriety, will deter you from anything so ruinous; but I have a word or two of advice in regard to your deportment towards your fellow students and to your instructors. I have been at college myself and know something of what I say. You will, of course, be teased, or ‘devilled,’ as they term it, unmercifully. Every conceivable effort will be made to mortify you, and to present you in most ridiculous attitudes, and every one in the class above you will try his wits at your expense. You will be made the victim of many a practical joke, and will suffer frequent inconvenience from the temporary abstraction of your books or the derangement of your furniture. Bear every thing with quiet dignity, do not attempt to reply to anything that is said, and, if possible, keep from showing in the slightest way that you are teased. If their efforts are without success they will soon desist, and you will be unmolested. It is a most contemptible and barbarous practice, this striving to wound and crush the feelings of another, simply because he is a stranger, as if that fact alone did not entitle him to more consideration. I hope, John, that when you join this privileged class of persecutors you will never indulge in anything so unfeeling.“To recommend care in the selection of your associates is a piece of advice as important as it is trite. Associates will be forced upon you by the location of your room, by your class and your boarding house. Look well to a student’s moral and social status before you take him as a companion.Do not feel flattered into any concessions of your principles by an intimacy with a member of a higher class. While a Fresh, you would feel quite honored by an invitation to the room of a Senior, and you would find it very hard to refuse a drink with him, lest you should appear squeamish in his eyes. But remember that advancement is only a question of time and study, and possess independence enough to refuse all solicitations to evil, however flattering to your vanity they be. Ned, I am glad to learn, will room with you, and he and your books will be society enough for you, if you study asyounow think, andIhope you will.“In regard to your deportment towards your tutors I have a word to say, and then I have done my rather tedious exhortation. Be polite and dignified in their presence, be attentive in the lecture room, but not ostentatiously so, making a pretence of continually gazing at the professor, being the first to answer fly questions, or selecting a seat very near his desk, as there is nothing more displeasing to him than the endeavor of a student to make up for lack of merit by sycophantic fawning. While it is well to establish a personal acquaintance and good understanding with all those under whose instruction you are placed, yet do not make a display of intimacy with them, as the reputation of a ‘boot-lick’ is easily earned, and is exceedingly odious. The most disagreeable temptation to which you will be exposed is to join rebellion against college authority. You will be continually solicited to aid in schemes to break the laws of the institution, to annoy the professors, and to deface and misplace college property. Every conceivable plan for the defeat of the very objects of the institution will be set on foot, and you will be scoffed at and ridiculed if you refuse to join. Will you have the moral courage to refuse in the face of a jeering class? I hope so, my son. You will find it easy after the first time or two, and you will be respected all the more for your firmness. Write to your mother andmyself often, and write freely. Tell us of your trials and difficulties, and express all your feelings without hesitation. But, lest my much advice may seem to evince a doubt of your strength of character, I will cease. Let’s go to Carlotta and Ned.”He lowered the gas, and as we walked out of the library laid his arm on my shoulder in a tender way, that I have never forgotten—for a caress was a novelty from him.That night, as Ned and I were about to go up to our rooms, I kissed mother good night, and said to her:“Have you no parting advice for me, mother? I believe everybody has had some kind of valedictory for me.”She drew me to her and said, smiling, as she parted my hair with one hand:“I have nothing special to say, John, even though you are going away from me for the first time. I have endeavored from your infancy to instruct you in your duty to your fellow man, as well as to God. It now only remains with you to perform that duty. The one great thing I have always striven to impress upon your mind is to act from principle. Whatever you propose to do, consider carefully whether it be in itself right—not whether the time or occasion renders it so. I have placed your Bible in your trunk; read it without fail once every day, and, as you have always done, seek counsel of Heaven; and if my poor prayers will avail anything, you will ever be fortified with grace and courage from on high.”In my room, as I undressed, I could not help looking around at the familiar articles of furniture, in order to remember exactly how the room looked after I was gone. Everything had a farewell for me.The very bureau seemed to sigh as I took my toilet articles from its slab; and the chairs, with their worn rounds and knife-notched backs, seemed to creak an humble good-bye; the rug that I had scorched so often making squibs;the pitcher, whose lip I had broken by jerking it against a table, when a cat with a fit, on whose head I was pouring water, suddenly revived and sprang up under my hand; the book-case, through whose glass doors peeped the familiar faces of Swiss Family Robinson, Sandford and Merton, Tom Brown at Rugby, and the portentous covers of Latin Grammar, Greek Reader, Cæsar, Virgil and Sallust; the closet, with my gun and sporting furniture, and the bed, with its flowered coverlid, all looked as if they would be sad after I was gone, and as I went to sleep I felt prematurely homesick.

CHAPTER XVII.Fatherand Lulie have been gone an hour; father on his way to Havana, Lulie returning to Wilmington. Frank and Ned have gone with them over to town. I am lying on a lounge in the hall, and mother and Carlotta are sitting near me, arranging flowers for the parlor vases. Lulie got off without much trouble with the assistance of mother’s tact;Ned expressing great surprise, while Frank was almost rude in his solicitations to her to remain. Dear little darling, how tenderly she bade me farewell, whispering as she pressed my hand, “Don’t be hurt at my leaving, John, ‘tis for your sake as much as mine!”My eyes are closed, and mother and Carlotta think I am asleep, but through a scarcely lifted lid I am watching Carlotta, feasting my eyes on her beautiful face and form. She is sitting just inside the hall door, with a lap full of flowers, and though I cannot see her face, I gaze on an arm and hand that Phidias might dream of, but never carve.Her muslin sleeve was turned up to her shoulder, to be out of the way, and the flesh, soft and snowy, swelled out from the richly worked undersleeve, and almost imperceptibly tapered to the elbow, with here and there a tiny thread of blue, winding its way under the transparent skin. At the elbow two dimples showed where the liquid flesh eddied round the curve, and a slope of perfect grace carried it to the wrist; here no knots disfigured, no roughness marred it, but, smooth and delicate, the wrist became a fitting bridge between such a hand and arm. Her hair, caught back by a crimson velvet band, fell in a dark shower over her shoulders; not the wiry ringlets, nor the hard straight locks that all are familiar with, but in soft undulating waves it fell, as if fairies were trembling the silken strands. Her profile was exquisite, and the beautiful proportion of each feature, and the delicate tints that overspread them, formed altogether a picture that has rarely been surpassed for loveliness. The peculiar witchery of the face, as I gazed upon it, was enhanced by an occasional frown and arch of the pencilled brow, as she endeavored to draw a refractory thread through the stems of the flowers.Mother, at last speaking, broke the spell that bound me.“Carlotta, darling, Col. Smith told you of the letter he received from your father’s agent in Havana, did he not?”“He told me of it, and also showed me the letter. Papa always thought his agent very trusty, and I suppose Col. Smith will find everything arranged properly.”After another pause, mother asked again:“Who is this cousin who claims the estate?”“He is mother’s half nephew. He was always a great favorite with papa, and staid almost half his time with us, though his home was on the other side of the island. Papa used to promise him, when I was a very little girl, that I should be his wife, but he was so much older than I, I could never love him.”Though my fealty to Lulie was unchanged, I could not help thinking what a splendid thing it would be to have the promise of such a love as hers.“But,” continued mother, shaking the dew from a flower as she placed it with the others, “would you not marry him when you are grown, to get back so much wealth and riches. Remember, he has your father’s will, making him the sole heir in case of your death, and he has also the affidavit of the captain of the vessel in which you sailed, that yourself and father were both lost, and could not possibly have been saved.”“I would despise him,” she said, scornfully, snapping a stem as she spoke, “if he tried to get anything wrongfully. But Col. Smith has all papa’s papers with him, and Cousin Herrara is too noble, I know, to do anything mean or sordid!”She brushed the rose leaves from her lap, and placed the bouquet she had arranged in the basket of a Parian marble porter on the mantel; then coming back to mother, she kneeled down by her side, and laying her cheek sideways on mother’s knee, with that peculiar winning way of her’s, said softly:“I hope Col. Smith will be able to save me something to repay you all for your goodness to me, for I cannot stayunder your roof as a charity outcast, and it would kill me to leave you now, I have learned to love you so.”“My dear child,” said mother, laying her hand on her soft, dark hair, “the very idea of compensating us for the greatest pleasure of our lives! Colonel Smith has gone to Havana solely on your account. Thank heaven we have as much as we want, and you may feel that you have a daughter’s place in our household, and will never, never be a burden. Who knows,” she added, playfully patting her head and glancing toward my couch, “but what you may be a daughter, indeed, to us one of these days.”“Oh, Mrs. Smith,” said Carlotta so earnestly, that I opened my eyes in time to see the scarlet tinge of her cheeks, “you do not know how you hurt me when you say that. ‘Twould make me hate the very thought of your son, whom I now esteem so much, to think that I was taken into your family to please him; that I was being raised to suit his fancy; that my character was being moulded after his model of a woman; that it was being constantly said of me, as I have heard it said: ‘Mrs. Smith is training her up for her son.’ Will I not shrink from his very presence when I feel that he looks upon me as his to love or not, just as he likes?”“My dear child,” said mother, looking surprised, “my words were almost without meaning. Forgive me, and I will endeavor to prevent any allusion, in this house at least, that may wound your feelings.”I here turned over, and moving my arms about showed signs of waking. This put an end to the conversation. Mother coming to the couch found me with considerable fever, and becoming alarmed sent Reuben off after the doctor. In truth I did feel a little badly, though I had been so interested in the conversation that I had not thought of my feelings. My eyeballs were hot and red, and felt as if they were full of sand; my breath burnt my nostrils as it came out, and my tongue was dry and coated. An hour of feverishrestlessness elapsed before we heard the doctor’s horse plodding up the avenue in a slow jog-trot, the fastest speed known to the medical fraternity. The doctor himself was equally deliberate in tying him to the rack, crossing the stirrups over the back of the saddle with the utmost care, and finally marching up the steps as if he was a pall-bearer at a funeral. He laid his hat on the seat in the porch, put his gloves in the crown, and laid his riding switch across them, as if it was to guard them. He at length advanced into the house and met mother.“How d’ye do, madam; a very warm day, madam,” he said, shaking her hand with one of his, and rubbing the bald place on his head with the other, as if all the heat of the day had centred there.“It is very sultry indeed, sir,” replied mother, as he released her hand. “Reuben, hand a glass of water, or perhaps, sir, you would prefer wine?”“Much obliged, madam, but water will do. Best for this weather, madam.”While the water was being brought he sat down near the door and waited patiently, without deigning to notice me, as if anything connected with his profession was farthest from his thoughts.“Who is sick, madam?” he inquired, when he had replaced the empty goblet on Reuben’s waiter.“My son, sir,” said mother, conducting him to my lounge. “I don’t know that he is sick much, but he is feverish, and fever always frightens me.”“And very properly, madam, for it is a sure sign that something is wrong in the system. Should always be taken in hand at once.”He felt my pulse a long time, slipping his fingers up and down my wrist, as if he were playing the violin; then felt my forehead, touching it as he would a loaf of bread, to see if it were warm, and bade me put out my tongue. He puton his specs and bent over it, as if he were looking for a splinter, requesting mother to stand just a little out of the light, madam, and rubbing it with the end of his little finger, took off his spectacles triumphantly, and turning to mother said:“There is no danger, madam; very slight fever; only a trifling disorder of the system. A good sized blue pill is all that I would recommend at present. If you have any blue mass in the house I will make it for you before I leave.”The box ofpil hydrargwas accordingly brought, and a cup of flour, from which he soon produced a pellet the size of a robin’s egg, which I was to swallow. There might be almost said to be only two medicines known to the physicians of eastern Carolina, so constantly are they required in their practice, and they are as certain to administer mercury or quinine as Dr. Sangrado, of Valladolid, was to let blood or give warm water. I certainly did not bless their mercurial predilections that morning, and saw the old doctor ride off with an earnest wish that he had a pill, as large as the conventional brick, to roll around his hat on his head.He had hardly gotten out of sight when mother came to the couch with the pill in the hollow of one hand and a glass of water in the other.“Here, son, try to swallow this. The doctor thinks it best that you should take it.”I sat upon the side of the bed, asked for a bucket, in case of accidents, and took the pill in my hand. I found it soft, and sticky as putty, but with reckless desperation I laid it far back on my tongue, and took a great gulp of water. With a toss of my head I made a tremendous swallow, but a wad of air, many times larger than my mouth, got before the water and barred its progress down. Most of it got into my windpipe; the pill, with the flour coating washed off, and its nauseous taste revealed, rolled down against my front teeth and stuck there. Shades of Epicurus! how I heaved!Tearing it away from my teeth with my fingers I dashed it down, and vowed that no doctor’s authority could ever compel me to the attempt again.Whether the very taste of the pill had a good effect or not, that evening I was much better, and next morning felt perfectly well.As it was the Sabbath, I was anxious to go to church with mother, Frank and Ned, but mother feared for me to take the sultry ride, and so I was to stay at home. To my surprise Carlotta asked leave to stay at home also, though she removed the flattering unction I had laid to my heart, that she staid to be with me, by telling mother she wished to spend the morning in her room. After breakfast the carriage came round, and mother, Ned and Frank, left for the church, which was a little country appointment, about four miles distant.As soon as they were gone Carlotta went to her room, and, taking a book, I went out doors and lay down on the grass, beneath a large cedar at one end of the house.There are four kinds of days in the year, coming one in each season, on which I feel an unaccountable, though not unpleasant melancholy. Days when I want to get far away to myself, and muse in undisturbed loneliness. Days when Memory, not Fancy, holds her court, and scenes and faces long forgotten spring up from her dusty sepulchres, and throng her shrine and ask for tears. Days that make a prison of the Present, a worthless bauble of the Future, and lift only to our heart’s embrace the golden Past, gone from life forever! Brighter than it ever really was, its pains forgotten, only its joys remembered! Like a dead friend, it is dearer now than ever, and we weep because we cannot turn life’s current back.One of these days comes in winter, when, after a cloudy morning and noon, the sun sets cold and clear; when the wind with a hollow moan sweeps over the bare fields; whenthe long lines of wild ducks, clearly defined against the red sky, wind their way up the bends of the river, along whose banks the naked trees stretch their arms like the masts and yards of weird ships; when the blue birds, with their plaintive notes, huddle in the clumps of withered leaves on the oaks in the grove, and the very cows, plodding homeward, low mournfully, as if in response to Nature’s dreariness.Another day is in Autumn, when Nature, wrapping herself in a hazy robe, seems to lift her hand and say, “Hush, do not break my slumber,” as she dozes into dreaminess. The sun himself half closes his glaring eye, and looks upon the world with a drowsy smile, and the purple sky droops upon the horizon as if Atlas were weary of his load. When the zephyrs are asleep, and the leaves on the trees are wan for want of exercise; when the crowing of the cock sounds like a yawn, and the little fly-catcher, perched, as is its custom, on a dead and leafless limb, breathes its one little song as if it was its last sigh. Such a day as Buchanan Read describes in his “Closing Scene;” the most exquisite verses ever penned by an American:“All sights seemed mellowed and all sounds subdued,The hills seemed farther, and the streams sang low,As in a dream the distant woodman hewedHis winter log, with many a muffled blow.******“On slumbrous wings the vulture held his flight,The dove scarce heard its sighing mate’s complaint;And like a star, slow drowning in the light,The village church vane seemed to pale and faint.*******“Alone from out the stubble piped the quail,And croaked the crow through all the dreary gloom;Alone the pheasant, drumming in the vale,Made echo to the distant cottage loom.”*****Another day for reverie is such a day as this—a summer Sabbath in the country. Sabbath is stamped on the entirepremises. The negroes, bedecked in all the finery of ribbons and beads, have just trooped in long droves through the gate and gone to preaching. Down at the quarters there is one old negro sitting at the door of her cabin, with her head bowed down to her knees as she ties around it her broad yellow kerchief. Her slight motion as she does this, and the faint monotonous wail of an infant left in her care, are all the evidences of life in the long row of tenements.The horses and mules all walk solemnly about in the clover lot, and the sheep graze under the trees in the orchard, without a bleat to disturb the serene quiet of the morning. Tiger, the great bull-dog, is lying stretched out at the door of his kennel, watching with his small bleared eyes a hen and brood that are scratching fearlessly almost in his jaws. A mocking bird, down at the old graveyard, is alone forgetful of the day, and, perched upon the very topmost bough of the willow, is burdening the air with the joyous trills of his melody.Overhead the great blue ocean of the sky is dotted here and there with fantastic white clouds, melting into various shapes as they grandly sail across its depths.Propping my head with my hand, I lay and gazed up at the sky and around at the beauty of the day, and gave myself up to musing. Of course my mind turned to Lulie, and the terrible blight she had given my hopes, and, as the romance of my youthful mind intensified a thousand fold the nature of my disappointment, and my feelings were already made tender by the influences of the day, my heart could only find relief in tears, and turning my face over in the long cool grass I wept till I fell asleep. I had lain thus perhaps an hour, when a little bird, hopping in the branches overhead, rained down a shower of cedar balls upon me, and I raised up to find Carlotta standing by me. She started as I looked up, and said, without any embarrassment:“I came out to the porch a few moments since, and saw you lying so still I was afraid you might be sick. Is there anything I can do for you?”“No, thanks for your kindness, I do not need anything at all,” I replied, raising myself from the grass; “but sit down here with me, I want to talk with you.”She hesitated a moment, then sat down near me.“Day before yesterday, when you and mother were talking together in the hall, you thought me asleep,” I said, after a pause of some seconds—a pause that is always awkward when you are expected to say something, and do not know what to say—”but I was not, and am now glad that I heard every word you both said.”Her face burned for a second, then became paler than before, as she exclaimed:“Oh! why did you not speak, and stop my unkind and hasty words. Glad, did you say? how could you be glad to know that I had purposely shunned your presence, and shrunk from your most casual approach?”“I was glad, because I had found the key to your conduct, and then knew why you had acted so coldly towards me, and refused so persistently the friendship I longed to offer. I was glad, because I knew then that the distance between us was not caused by enmity, but your sensitive nature.”Looking at me pleadingly with her eloquent eyes, and with a tremor in her soft voice, she said:“Will you not appreciate my feelings, then, and forgive me?”“I do appreciate your feelings,” I said, with warmth, “and, appreciating them, have nothing to forgive. I have been pained that you seemed to mistrust me; that the love and devotion my brother’s heart would fain have offered, was put aside, and that you wrapped yourself in such a robe of icy reserve; but I understand it all now, and you may trust meto use all my efforts to prevent the recurrence of any occasion that would cause you mortification or regret.”“Thank you, my kind brother, for your consideration of my feelings,” she returned, warmly; “but let me add a word before we leave the subject: My annoyance has not been caused by the fact that your name,as yours, was coupled with mine, but that the very kindness of your family in taking me under their roof, is made, in the estimation of others, an obligation that places me at your disposal;” and the pride of her high-born soul burned in her glorious eyes, as she spoke.“Well, we understand each other now,” I said, soothingly, “and let us make this agreement—that whenever we are unobserved we will be trustful and confiding, as brother and sister should be, but when occasion demands we will be reserved and distant, without offence.”“I agree most cordially,” she said, “and will henceforth place an implicit confidence in you as my truest friend.”She motioned as if to go, but it was so pleasant—something so new—to converse with her, to watch the play of her beautiful features, to catch the light of her great dark eyes, as she looked into my face as if to see my words, that I strove to detain her.“Do not leave me yet, Carlotta. My heart is very sad today. Will you let me unburden it to you? It seems silly, I know, but I do so long to have some one to confide in; some one I can trust as I can you.”“You may trust me, John,” she said, hesitating as she called my name for the first time.After a pause, I said, biting a blade of grass with my lips—“I had been weeping, Carlotta, when you came to me—weeping because the beautiful day made me sad.”“You sad? you weeping? you, who are so full of life and gaiety!” she said, looking at me with surprise; then adding,in a tone of deep sadness, as she thought of herself, “alas! what cause canyouhave for tears, in such a happy home, surrounded by those you hold most dear.”“What better cause for tears than disappointed love? Carlotta, I have loved Lulie since I could remember, and if ever one life can be bound in another mine has been in her’s, and yet she does not love me. From her own lips I have learned this bitter truth. I could bear up had I one gleam of hope; but all is dark, and far worse than the extinction of hope is the knowledge that she loves another. Oh, heaven! how it grinds me to the earth to feel that he, who is most unworthy, should receive her smiles; that a love I would give my life for is wasted on one who regards it as the trifle of a day.”I paused and looked gloomily up at the bright blue sky, where a fleecy Delos floated.“I, too, think her love is wasted on Frank Paning,” said Carlotta, as I looked again at her face. “He may admire her beauty, and no doubt feels flattered by her preference, but he does not love her as she thinks he does. It will be a sad day with her when she learns the truth.”“Yes,” I replied, savagely; “she will then know what I feel.”“Do not speak harshly of her, John, for while she loves Frank Paning, yet I believe she esteems you more.”“But how can you speak for her feelings?” I asked, with a faint touch of a sneer in my tone.“Because she has told me all,” she replied coolly.“A perjured little——”“Hush!” she exclaimed, looking at me reprovingly. “Do not judge her too hastily. She only told me part; I inferred the rest. Her heart seemed as if it would break the night after you went fishing together, and, when I sought to know the cause of her grief, she would only say she had made you unhappy. Hers is a fond, true heart, and I only wish it were given away more worthily.”“But what do you know of Paning’s sentiments?” I asked with some surprise. “Perhaps he may be very devoted to her.”“I have very good reasons for knowing,” she said, with a peculiar smile; “but yonder are some of the negroes returning from church. I must go in and have dinner arranged before the carriage returns.”She went into the house and left me wondering what she could mean. Can she love him, too, I thought, and is it because she herself has his heart that she knows Lulie has it not?I began to grow desperate with the thought of my rival’s second conquest, when the sound of the carriage diverted my attention, and mother, Frank and Ned came into the house.“Oh, you needn’t have dinner for us,” said Frank to Carlotta, as he drew a glass of ice-water for himself, and drank it. “We have already dined sumptuously.”Mother nodded her head as Carlotta looked at her inquiringly. “Yes, my dear, we’ve had dinner. Mrs. Bemby invited us to her table, and of course we could not refuse.”“How did you like the sermon, Ned, and what kind of people were there?” I asked. “Tell me all about it.”“The sermon was very good in its way,” said Ned, “and the people somewhat amusing; but you must get Frank to give you full details. I could not do the subject justice.”I could do nothing else but ask Frank for the narration, though I was not particularly anxious to hear his voice.“Well,” replied Frank, nothing loth to do the talking, “long before we got to the church we began to pass crowds of people who were walking thither; the men dressed in long sack coats of homespun, with immensely loose pants and dusty shoes, most of them carrying in their arms bare-legged, white-headed babies, who were employed in looking backwards over their fathers’ shoulders, and mostly gnawingvery large fat biscuits; the women were arrayed in bright flowered calico robes, which they kicked up behind at every step. They all had stick tooth brushes in their mouths, and long-tailed fly bonnets, which they carried in their hands. Then we passed others who, a little better off, were riding in red painted wagons, drawn by rope-harnessed mules, which trotted along so briskly, under the kindly influences of overgrown boys and hickory sticks, that the folks in the body were jolted from side to side of their split bottomed chairs. Then we overtook the cumbrous carriages of the well-to-do farmers, with heavy-headed, clumsy-footed horses, the low boots full of fodder, and large trunks full of dinner, strapped on behind. As many of these and other vehicles as we passed, yet when we got to the church we found the grove full of horses, buggies, carriages and wagons, and so many people out doors that I began to fear the preacher would have no congregation.“At the foot of every tree in sight was a group of men engaged in the solemn occupation of whittling twigs and spitting. When we got to the door of the church, which was a large barn-looking structure, we found it full, and with difficulty got seats near the door. Such a mixture of people I never saw before. Here a silk by the side of cotton check, a broadcloth coat touching a copperas striped one, and a silk hat resting in the window with one of wheat straw, bound with green ribbon. As I could see very little but the backs of the people’s heads, I cannot tell much about the congregation, except that the men for the most part had very long and very dry hair, which they wore bushy, while the women had theirs plaited in two strings and crossed like wicker-basket handles. The girls wore straw hats trimmed with ribbons, whose colors were of the rainbow that we may imagine would appear on a cloudy day. The elderly ladies wore bonnets that looked as if Noah’s wife had made them for pastime while she was in the ark, and had fittedthem on the goat’s head for the want of a better block. The preacher himself was queer looking, and had a monotonous drawling tone.” (Here Frank got up in the floor to imitate his style.) “Ah! my brethren and sistern-er, where are we to-day? ‘Ere we are in the narrer road.”“Tut, tut, Frank,” said mother, quickly, “that will never do. Jest about the people if you want to, but remember the sanctity of the pulpit.”“But it does not matter, Mrs. Smith, if we have a little fun at their expense; they don’t belong to our church, and he wasn’t preaching to us.”“It makes no difference,” said mother, rising to go down to the dining room; “he was preaching the Gospel of Christ, and, however defective his sermon, we should not ridicule it.”“I’ll show some other time,” said Frank, as mother left the room. “But where was I? Oh, the preacher. Well, when the sermon was finished we all went out, and Mrs. Ben or Bem something soon found us, and insisted that we should eat with her.“All over the grove the white cloths were being spread like gigantic snow flakes, and almost as numerous. Scores of negroes and ladies were unpacking great boxes, containing biscuit, rolls, cakes, ham, fowls, pickles, apples and peaches, and everybody was asking everybody else to dine with them. There was a good sized crowd at Mrs. Bemby’s table when we went up. They were not introduced, but they all made us room, and bowed confusedly. Mrs. Smith knew and spoke to several of them while we took our part out in staring.“Mrs. Bemby begged us to help ourselves, and every one acted on her kind suggestion with quite a zest. Country belles, pulling off their cotton gloves, alternated the bites at chicken and bread so rapidly and successfully that they were soon sucking the bones like candy, while the beaux cut symmetricalsquares out of corn bread sandwiches, and played the flute on long ears of roasted corn, with unctuous smiles and impeded attempts at conversation with chewed words. Mr. and Mrs. B—— did not eat anything, but served the table, with cordial entreaties to all to spare not; Mrs. B—— distributing the bread and sweetmeats with a lavish hand, and Mr. B—— cutting the meats—his mode of dealing with a ham being very unique as well as effective. Standing it up on one end, and holding the hock in one hand, he sawed the knife across it like an Italian playing the fiddle, producing far more satisfactory results, however, than all the army of diminutive violinists Italy has sent forth. That great gawk of a Ben, instead of helping was perched on a wagon, idly kicking the wheels with his feet as he munched on an apple, and gravely winking at Ned and myself, in acknowledgment of acquaintance. Altogether the dinner was excellent, and, after our ride to the church, and our boredom in it, was particularly relished. There, I have talked enough; get Ned to tell you the balance.”“There is no more to tell,” said Ned, as mother called to us from the basement to come down and eat watermelons. “I can corroborate all that Frank has told, except his account of the sermon. That was very good, and much to the point, though it was plain and without ornament.”I went down with the rest, but was afraid, for my fever’s sake, to indulge in melons. If you would know whether it was any temptation to me or not, imagine a sultry afternoon, a cool breezy basement, four or five large melons, just from the ice house, like a row of victims with a knife in each pink frozen heart!I felt tired of hearing them talk and seeing them eat, so I took my hat and strolled down to Mr. Bemby’s to find Ben, and enjoy a talk with him. He was nowhere in sight, and I tapped at the door. At Mrs. Bemby’s “Come in!” I opened the door, and instead of Ben found three strange ladies, whowere discussing with profound interest the events of the day.“Come in, honey; you look mighty feeble yet; how do you feel to-day?” said Mrs. Bemby, kindly, as she met me. “This is Col. Smith’s son, Mrs. Bailey and Miss Viney Dodge; Col. Smith’s son! Mrs. Dodge,” she shouted in the ear of the oldest and most withered of the three ladies, who was armed with an orchestra looking instrument in the shape of an immense ear trumpet. Mrs. Bemby had to put her mouth right down to the opening, and shout my name out twice before she and I became acquainted. I shook hands with the old and bowed to the young lady, who gave me a curtesy in return that shoved her chair back almost out of range of her reseating figure. Her figure was very stumpy; her complexion very sallow; her hair very sandy, and her skin very freckled. Her hands were covered with half fingered blue gloves, and were employed, one in lying in her lap, the fingers folded and the thumb stiffly erect, as a sentinel over their repose; the other in holding, in as compressed a ball as possible, a dingy cotton handkerchief, which she constantly used, after a premonitory snuffle, by rubbing her nose very hard upwards, as if she wished to elevate its depressed point.Mrs. B—— informed me that Ben would be in shortly, and I took the chair she offered and looked at the visitors; they looked at each other, and then there was a silence of some seconds.“You beedn sorter poorly, haidn’t you?” said Mrs. Dodge, adjusting her trumpet and leaning towards me.“Yes, ma’am!” I shouted, making my reply more affirmative by a number of up and down motions of my head.“Umphum! Haidn’t had the summer complaint, is you? You look a little thidn.”I transversed the motion of my head very rapidly, and signed the negative many times.“A leetle lodomy, drapped in ellum bark tea’s mighty good for it;” and the old lady, satisfied with her catechism, turned her trumpet and her interrogative features toward the others.Mrs. Bemby remarked having seen mother and the others at church that morning. Mrs. Bailey then took up the thread of the discourse where I had broken it off by entering.“As I was a saying, sister Bemby,” she resumed, “it does me a sight of good to listen to Brother Weekly’s preaching. He is so searchin’ to the sinners and comfortin’ to the saints. His sermins are well pinted, too, and not writ, neither. I jist know in my soul, d’liver me from a writ sermin.”“Umph?” said Mrs. Dodge, in a prolonged note of inquiry, levelling her dread instrument on the speaker. Mrs. Bailey very kindly screamed the words into her ear.“Ah, yes, I knowed ‘twas good this mordn-ing, tho’ I couldn’t hear, for I sorter felt it. Brother Weekly is always powerful in his lastly, and whedn I see old Udncle Jacob Sawney slap Sister Brewer in the back, and old Miss Parkidns twiss her cheer roudn to the wall, and git my Viney here to untie her specks, so she could rub her eyes, I knowed he was a having great freedobm; and thedn he got a leetle louder, and I thought I heerd him say: ‘He’ll meet us at the gate, Hisself;’ and somethidng told me in my heart he meadnt the Lord, and I wadnted to go just thedn, for ‘pears to me I’d be more welcome like ef He told me to come in.”“Yes,” resumed Mrs. Bailey, without noticing her interruption; “and did you notice, Sister Bemby, how he brought it out about the tares and the wheat. Seems to me, if I was a sinner I couldn’t bear the thought of being sifted out and throwed away like a no ‘count cockle grain.”“That was uncommon clear, Sister Bailey,” returned Mrs. Bemby, “about putting in the sickle and reaping all together, then sortin’ out the good and bad.”“That it was, Sister Bemby,” agreed Mrs. Bailey, makinga spade out of her tooth brush, and spading up half an ounce of snuff into her mouth.There was another pause, and I looked uneasily out of the window, to see if I could discover anything of Ben, while Miss Viney rubbed her nose up again, and shot invisible marbles with the idle thumb in her lap.Deaf old Mrs. Dodge again spoke:“It’s a mighty cobmfort, Sister Bemby, to have odne’s chilldn a growin’ up right. There’s my Viney, she’s been a perfesser nigh upodn five year, and haidn’t backslid yit. Why dodn’t you talk to Ben, Sister Bemby? He’s a clever ‘nough boy, but he’s so mischeevous. Sednce I lost my hearidn I look ’round some in church, and no longer’n this mordning I see Ben holding up a streaked lizzard by the tail, fixing to put him on old Miss Judy Yates, who’s the feardest of ’em in the world. Brother Bemby seed him jist in time to stop him.”“I know it, Sister Dodge,” shouted Mrs. Bemby in the trumpet’s mouth, “and I have talked to him a heap of times, but Ben says he ain’t a going to die soon, and that he’ll be a preacher yet, and he makes me laugh so I have to let him alone.”“Is you a lover of the Lord, sir?” Mrs. Dodge inquired, pointedly addressing me.“I am afraid not as I ought to be,” I said, confusedly, shaking my head.“Well, you ought to love Him with all your heart whedn you think what He’s dodne fur you.”I bowed an acknowledgment of the truth of her remark, and told Mrs. Bemby I would go out and look for Ben.Not finding him anywhere I turned homeward, thinking on the glorious Gospel of the Son of God—a Gospel that, with the same words, can comfort sister Bailey’s simple heart, and bind up one bruised beneath a velvet robe—a Gospel for all the world! deep enough to baffle the sage—simpleenough to save a child. God alone can be its Author!Go to the rustic church, with its rude unpainted seats, its plain deal pulpit, with a pitcher of water and a cloth covered Bible on the unvarnished slab. Sit with the simple, illiterate congregation, and listen to the unpolished man in the pulpit as, with an effort, he slowly reads his text: “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”Hear the story of the Cross told without rhetoric, and mark the faces around you, how they glow with faith and shine with tears.Then let us stand on the broad stone steps beneath the clanging chimes and gilded spire. See the white-gloved drivers curb the prancing steeds—the liveried footmen hold the blazoned door, while silken trains sweep down the carriage step and rustle up the aisle. Let us go in and stand in the purpled gloom of the soft stained light. The golden legend over the chancel is illegible in the darkness, and only the bright figures on the windows up in the vaulted roof show that the glorious sunlight is over the earth. The tufted aisles make no echo to the footsteps, and the only sound is the occasional closing of a pew door by the silent ushers. The cushioned seats are filled, the gas jets around the preacher’s stand are lit, and all is so hushed we almost expect the sermon to be whispered, when, with a trembling sob, as if its very pipes were sinful, the organ’s wail of penitence is heard. Moaning and groaning at the very bottom of its voice, it grows louder and higher, till its weird minor strains peal through the church, as if its windy heart will burst, and still higher and higher it screams and shrieks, in its agony of remorse, then, with a galop down the scale, it breaks out into a lively polka of forgiveness, and is as happy as an organ can be, till its jig-and-break-downrepertoireis exhausted, when it stands on one leg of a note and waits for the singing. A low, soft trill, like a mocking bird’s song at night, breaks forth from we know not where, and its quivering melody fills the vast edifice; but ere we have discovered its source or meaning it is joined by another sound—a high zooning tone—like a bee far up in the air. This follows the first through all its wonderful manœuvres, and a faint conception begins to dawn on us that perhaps a song is intended. This idea is entertained for a few seconds, when it is forever put to flight by the sudden, sonorous bellowing of a bull over its slaughtered kindred, and while its terrible tones are thundering from the floor to the roof, we find that it, too, is following the others, and adding its powerful roar to their melody. But surprises are not over yet, for just as the three get fairly under way, they are quickly joined by a bronchial cat, unusually hoarse, that also takes after the others, though on a lower key and in strange fuzzy tones. This zoologicalvocaleis persevered in by the four till, at last, they approximate a tune. We have some light thrown on the subject from the remark of a gentleman with an eye-glass to a lady with diamonds sitting just in front of us:“Trilla’s soprano is better to-day inTe Deumthan ‘twas last evening inTrovatore, but Catta’s contralto is horrid.” “Taurini’s bass is magnificent, though, isn’t it?” the young fop adds in a whisper, as, with a long orchestral flourish, the organ ceases to play and the services commence. Worshipping God by proxy! Because Taurini has a richer, better voice, and can say “We praise Thee, oh! God” in a deeper tone than we, we pay him to say it in our most holy place, careless whether an oath were last on his lips, or an early bar-room his only preparation for the Sabbath. But all is so different from the little wooden church, that we almost feel that they are serving another God with a different religion.We feel out of place and disappointed, and are about to leave, when the preacher ascends the pulpit and announces his text:“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”We are at home now; the same verse that has brought tears from the simple minded, carries conviction to the heart of the rich and the wise. Though the service in its appointments may be fanciful—though the sermon be burdened with rhetorical roses, or ridiculous in rustic exposition, or flagrant misconstruction—Christ’s words stand forth with the same grandeur of simplicity and force as they did when the trembling, conscience-convicted Sanhedrimite sought Him in the darkness, and received the light of God.

Fatherand Lulie have been gone an hour; father on his way to Havana, Lulie returning to Wilmington. Frank and Ned have gone with them over to town. I am lying on a lounge in the hall, and mother and Carlotta are sitting near me, arranging flowers for the parlor vases. Lulie got off without much trouble with the assistance of mother’s tact;Ned expressing great surprise, while Frank was almost rude in his solicitations to her to remain. Dear little darling, how tenderly she bade me farewell, whispering as she pressed my hand, “Don’t be hurt at my leaving, John, ‘tis for your sake as much as mine!”

My eyes are closed, and mother and Carlotta think I am asleep, but through a scarcely lifted lid I am watching Carlotta, feasting my eyes on her beautiful face and form. She is sitting just inside the hall door, with a lap full of flowers, and though I cannot see her face, I gaze on an arm and hand that Phidias might dream of, but never carve.

Her muslin sleeve was turned up to her shoulder, to be out of the way, and the flesh, soft and snowy, swelled out from the richly worked undersleeve, and almost imperceptibly tapered to the elbow, with here and there a tiny thread of blue, winding its way under the transparent skin. At the elbow two dimples showed where the liquid flesh eddied round the curve, and a slope of perfect grace carried it to the wrist; here no knots disfigured, no roughness marred it, but, smooth and delicate, the wrist became a fitting bridge between such a hand and arm. Her hair, caught back by a crimson velvet band, fell in a dark shower over her shoulders; not the wiry ringlets, nor the hard straight locks that all are familiar with, but in soft undulating waves it fell, as if fairies were trembling the silken strands. Her profile was exquisite, and the beautiful proportion of each feature, and the delicate tints that overspread them, formed altogether a picture that has rarely been surpassed for loveliness. The peculiar witchery of the face, as I gazed upon it, was enhanced by an occasional frown and arch of the pencilled brow, as she endeavored to draw a refractory thread through the stems of the flowers.

Mother, at last speaking, broke the spell that bound me.

“Carlotta, darling, Col. Smith told you of the letter he received from your father’s agent in Havana, did he not?”

“He told me of it, and also showed me the letter. Papa always thought his agent very trusty, and I suppose Col. Smith will find everything arranged properly.”

After another pause, mother asked again:

“Who is this cousin who claims the estate?”

“He is mother’s half nephew. He was always a great favorite with papa, and staid almost half his time with us, though his home was on the other side of the island. Papa used to promise him, when I was a very little girl, that I should be his wife, but he was so much older than I, I could never love him.”

Though my fealty to Lulie was unchanged, I could not help thinking what a splendid thing it would be to have the promise of such a love as hers.

“But,” continued mother, shaking the dew from a flower as she placed it with the others, “would you not marry him when you are grown, to get back so much wealth and riches. Remember, he has your father’s will, making him the sole heir in case of your death, and he has also the affidavit of the captain of the vessel in which you sailed, that yourself and father were both lost, and could not possibly have been saved.”

“I would despise him,” she said, scornfully, snapping a stem as she spoke, “if he tried to get anything wrongfully. But Col. Smith has all papa’s papers with him, and Cousin Herrara is too noble, I know, to do anything mean or sordid!”

She brushed the rose leaves from her lap, and placed the bouquet she had arranged in the basket of a Parian marble porter on the mantel; then coming back to mother, she kneeled down by her side, and laying her cheek sideways on mother’s knee, with that peculiar winning way of her’s, said softly:

“I hope Col. Smith will be able to save me something to repay you all for your goodness to me, for I cannot stayunder your roof as a charity outcast, and it would kill me to leave you now, I have learned to love you so.”

“My dear child,” said mother, laying her hand on her soft, dark hair, “the very idea of compensating us for the greatest pleasure of our lives! Colonel Smith has gone to Havana solely on your account. Thank heaven we have as much as we want, and you may feel that you have a daughter’s place in our household, and will never, never be a burden. Who knows,” she added, playfully patting her head and glancing toward my couch, “but what you may be a daughter, indeed, to us one of these days.”

“Oh, Mrs. Smith,” said Carlotta so earnestly, that I opened my eyes in time to see the scarlet tinge of her cheeks, “you do not know how you hurt me when you say that. ‘Twould make me hate the very thought of your son, whom I now esteem so much, to think that I was taken into your family to please him; that I was being raised to suit his fancy; that my character was being moulded after his model of a woman; that it was being constantly said of me, as I have heard it said: ‘Mrs. Smith is training her up for her son.’ Will I not shrink from his very presence when I feel that he looks upon me as his to love or not, just as he likes?”

“My dear child,” said mother, looking surprised, “my words were almost without meaning. Forgive me, and I will endeavor to prevent any allusion, in this house at least, that may wound your feelings.”

I here turned over, and moving my arms about showed signs of waking. This put an end to the conversation. Mother coming to the couch found me with considerable fever, and becoming alarmed sent Reuben off after the doctor. In truth I did feel a little badly, though I had been so interested in the conversation that I had not thought of my feelings. My eyeballs were hot and red, and felt as if they were full of sand; my breath burnt my nostrils as it came out, and my tongue was dry and coated. An hour of feverishrestlessness elapsed before we heard the doctor’s horse plodding up the avenue in a slow jog-trot, the fastest speed known to the medical fraternity. The doctor himself was equally deliberate in tying him to the rack, crossing the stirrups over the back of the saddle with the utmost care, and finally marching up the steps as if he was a pall-bearer at a funeral. He laid his hat on the seat in the porch, put his gloves in the crown, and laid his riding switch across them, as if it was to guard them. He at length advanced into the house and met mother.

“How d’ye do, madam; a very warm day, madam,” he said, shaking her hand with one of his, and rubbing the bald place on his head with the other, as if all the heat of the day had centred there.

“It is very sultry indeed, sir,” replied mother, as he released her hand. “Reuben, hand a glass of water, or perhaps, sir, you would prefer wine?”

“Much obliged, madam, but water will do. Best for this weather, madam.”

While the water was being brought he sat down near the door and waited patiently, without deigning to notice me, as if anything connected with his profession was farthest from his thoughts.

“Who is sick, madam?” he inquired, when he had replaced the empty goblet on Reuben’s waiter.

“My son, sir,” said mother, conducting him to my lounge. “I don’t know that he is sick much, but he is feverish, and fever always frightens me.”

“And very properly, madam, for it is a sure sign that something is wrong in the system. Should always be taken in hand at once.”

He felt my pulse a long time, slipping his fingers up and down my wrist, as if he were playing the violin; then felt my forehead, touching it as he would a loaf of bread, to see if it were warm, and bade me put out my tongue. He puton his specs and bent over it, as if he were looking for a splinter, requesting mother to stand just a little out of the light, madam, and rubbing it with the end of his little finger, took off his spectacles triumphantly, and turning to mother said:

“There is no danger, madam; very slight fever; only a trifling disorder of the system. A good sized blue pill is all that I would recommend at present. If you have any blue mass in the house I will make it for you before I leave.”

The box ofpil hydrargwas accordingly brought, and a cup of flour, from which he soon produced a pellet the size of a robin’s egg, which I was to swallow. There might be almost said to be only two medicines known to the physicians of eastern Carolina, so constantly are they required in their practice, and they are as certain to administer mercury or quinine as Dr. Sangrado, of Valladolid, was to let blood or give warm water. I certainly did not bless their mercurial predilections that morning, and saw the old doctor ride off with an earnest wish that he had a pill, as large as the conventional brick, to roll around his hat on his head.

He had hardly gotten out of sight when mother came to the couch with the pill in the hollow of one hand and a glass of water in the other.

“Here, son, try to swallow this. The doctor thinks it best that you should take it.”

I sat upon the side of the bed, asked for a bucket, in case of accidents, and took the pill in my hand. I found it soft, and sticky as putty, but with reckless desperation I laid it far back on my tongue, and took a great gulp of water. With a toss of my head I made a tremendous swallow, but a wad of air, many times larger than my mouth, got before the water and barred its progress down. Most of it got into my windpipe; the pill, with the flour coating washed off, and its nauseous taste revealed, rolled down against my front teeth and stuck there. Shades of Epicurus! how I heaved!Tearing it away from my teeth with my fingers I dashed it down, and vowed that no doctor’s authority could ever compel me to the attempt again.

Whether the very taste of the pill had a good effect or not, that evening I was much better, and next morning felt perfectly well.

As it was the Sabbath, I was anxious to go to church with mother, Frank and Ned, but mother feared for me to take the sultry ride, and so I was to stay at home. To my surprise Carlotta asked leave to stay at home also, though she removed the flattering unction I had laid to my heart, that she staid to be with me, by telling mother she wished to spend the morning in her room. After breakfast the carriage came round, and mother, Ned and Frank, left for the church, which was a little country appointment, about four miles distant.

As soon as they were gone Carlotta went to her room, and, taking a book, I went out doors and lay down on the grass, beneath a large cedar at one end of the house.

There are four kinds of days in the year, coming one in each season, on which I feel an unaccountable, though not unpleasant melancholy. Days when I want to get far away to myself, and muse in undisturbed loneliness. Days when Memory, not Fancy, holds her court, and scenes and faces long forgotten spring up from her dusty sepulchres, and throng her shrine and ask for tears. Days that make a prison of the Present, a worthless bauble of the Future, and lift only to our heart’s embrace the golden Past, gone from life forever! Brighter than it ever really was, its pains forgotten, only its joys remembered! Like a dead friend, it is dearer now than ever, and we weep because we cannot turn life’s current back.

One of these days comes in winter, when, after a cloudy morning and noon, the sun sets cold and clear; when the wind with a hollow moan sweeps over the bare fields; whenthe long lines of wild ducks, clearly defined against the red sky, wind their way up the bends of the river, along whose banks the naked trees stretch their arms like the masts and yards of weird ships; when the blue birds, with their plaintive notes, huddle in the clumps of withered leaves on the oaks in the grove, and the very cows, plodding homeward, low mournfully, as if in response to Nature’s dreariness.

Another day is in Autumn, when Nature, wrapping herself in a hazy robe, seems to lift her hand and say, “Hush, do not break my slumber,” as she dozes into dreaminess. The sun himself half closes his glaring eye, and looks upon the world with a drowsy smile, and the purple sky droops upon the horizon as if Atlas were weary of his load. When the zephyrs are asleep, and the leaves on the trees are wan for want of exercise; when the crowing of the cock sounds like a yawn, and the little fly-catcher, perched, as is its custom, on a dead and leafless limb, breathes its one little song as if it was its last sigh. Such a day as Buchanan Read describes in his “Closing Scene;” the most exquisite verses ever penned by an American:

“All sights seemed mellowed and all sounds subdued,

The hills seemed farther, and the streams sang low,

As in a dream the distant woodman hewed

His winter log, with many a muffled blow.

******

“On slumbrous wings the vulture held his flight,

The dove scarce heard its sighing mate’s complaint;

And like a star, slow drowning in the light,

The village church vane seemed to pale and faint.

*******

“Alone from out the stubble piped the quail,

And croaked the crow through all the dreary gloom;

Alone the pheasant, drumming in the vale,

Made echo to the distant cottage loom.”

*****

Another day for reverie is such a day as this—a summer Sabbath in the country. Sabbath is stamped on the entirepremises. The negroes, bedecked in all the finery of ribbons and beads, have just trooped in long droves through the gate and gone to preaching. Down at the quarters there is one old negro sitting at the door of her cabin, with her head bowed down to her knees as she ties around it her broad yellow kerchief. Her slight motion as she does this, and the faint monotonous wail of an infant left in her care, are all the evidences of life in the long row of tenements.

The horses and mules all walk solemnly about in the clover lot, and the sheep graze under the trees in the orchard, without a bleat to disturb the serene quiet of the morning. Tiger, the great bull-dog, is lying stretched out at the door of his kennel, watching with his small bleared eyes a hen and brood that are scratching fearlessly almost in his jaws. A mocking bird, down at the old graveyard, is alone forgetful of the day, and, perched upon the very topmost bough of the willow, is burdening the air with the joyous trills of his melody.

Overhead the great blue ocean of the sky is dotted here and there with fantastic white clouds, melting into various shapes as they grandly sail across its depths.

Propping my head with my hand, I lay and gazed up at the sky and around at the beauty of the day, and gave myself up to musing. Of course my mind turned to Lulie, and the terrible blight she had given my hopes, and, as the romance of my youthful mind intensified a thousand fold the nature of my disappointment, and my feelings were already made tender by the influences of the day, my heart could only find relief in tears, and turning my face over in the long cool grass I wept till I fell asleep. I had lain thus perhaps an hour, when a little bird, hopping in the branches overhead, rained down a shower of cedar balls upon me, and I raised up to find Carlotta standing by me. She started as I looked up, and said, without any embarrassment:

“I came out to the porch a few moments since, and saw you lying so still I was afraid you might be sick. Is there anything I can do for you?”

“No, thanks for your kindness, I do not need anything at all,” I replied, raising myself from the grass; “but sit down here with me, I want to talk with you.”

She hesitated a moment, then sat down near me.

“Day before yesterday, when you and mother were talking together in the hall, you thought me asleep,” I said, after a pause of some seconds—a pause that is always awkward when you are expected to say something, and do not know what to say—”but I was not, and am now glad that I heard every word you both said.”

Her face burned for a second, then became paler than before, as she exclaimed:

“Oh! why did you not speak, and stop my unkind and hasty words. Glad, did you say? how could you be glad to know that I had purposely shunned your presence, and shrunk from your most casual approach?”

“I was glad, because I had found the key to your conduct, and then knew why you had acted so coldly towards me, and refused so persistently the friendship I longed to offer. I was glad, because I knew then that the distance between us was not caused by enmity, but your sensitive nature.”

Looking at me pleadingly with her eloquent eyes, and with a tremor in her soft voice, she said:

“Will you not appreciate my feelings, then, and forgive me?”

“I do appreciate your feelings,” I said, with warmth, “and, appreciating them, have nothing to forgive. I have been pained that you seemed to mistrust me; that the love and devotion my brother’s heart would fain have offered, was put aside, and that you wrapped yourself in such a robe of icy reserve; but I understand it all now, and you may trust meto use all my efforts to prevent the recurrence of any occasion that would cause you mortification or regret.”

“Thank you, my kind brother, for your consideration of my feelings,” she returned, warmly; “but let me add a word before we leave the subject: My annoyance has not been caused by the fact that your name,as yours, was coupled with mine, but that the very kindness of your family in taking me under their roof, is made, in the estimation of others, an obligation that places me at your disposal;” and the pride of her high-born soul burned in her glorious eyes, as she spoke.

“Well, we understand each other now,” I said, soothingly, “and let us make this agreement—that whenever we are unobserved we will be trustful and confiding, as brother and sister should be, but when occasion demands we will be reserved and distant, without offence.”

“I agree most cordially,” she said, “and will henceforth place an implicit confidence in you as my truest friend.”

She motioned as if to go, but it was so pleasant—something so new—to converse with her, to watch the play of her beautiful features, to catch the light of her great dark eyes, as she looked into my face as if to see my words, that I strove to detain her.

“Do not leave me yet, Carlotta. My heart is very sad today. Will you let me unburden it to you? It seems silly, I know, but I do so long to have some one to confide in; some one I can trust as I can you.”

“You may trust me, John,” she said, hesitating as she called my name for the first time.

After a pause, I said, biting a blade of grass with my lips—

“I had been weeping, Carlotta, when you came to me—weeping because the beautiful day made me sad.”

“You sad? you weeping? you, who are so full of life and gaiety!” she said, looking at me with surprise; then adding,in a tone of deep sadness, as she thought of herself, “alas! what cause canyouhave for tears, in such a happy home, surrounded by those you hold most dear.”

“What better cause for tears than disappointed love? Carlotta, I have loved Lulie since I could remember, and if ever one life can be bound in another mine has been in her’s, and yet she does not love me. From her own lips I have learned this bitter truth. I could bear up had I one gleam of hope; but all is dark, and far worse than the extinction of hope is the knowledge that she loves another. Oh, heaven! how it grinds me to the earth to feel that he, who is most unworthy, should receive her smiles; that a love I would give my life for is wasted on one who regards it as the trifle of a day.”

I paused and looked gloomily up at the bright blue sky, where a fleecy Delos floated.

“I, too, think her love is wasted on Frank Paning,” said Carlotta, as I looked again at her face. “He may admire her beauty, and no doubt feels flattered by her preference, but he does not love her as she thinks he does. It will be a sad day with her when she learns the truth.”

“Yes,” I replied, savagely; “she will then know what I feel.”

“Do not speak harshly of her, John, for while she loves Frank Paning, yet I believe she esteems you more.”

“But how can you speak for her feelings?” I asked, with a faint touch of a sneer in my tone.

“Because she has told me all,” she replied coolly.

“A perjured little——”

“Hush!” she exclaimed, looking at me reprovingly. “Do not judge her too hastily. She only told me part; I inferred the rest. Her heart seemed as if it would break the night after you went fishing together, and, when I sought to know the cause of her grief, she would only say she had made you unhappy. Hers is a fond, true heart, and I only wish it were given away more worthily.”

“But what do you know of Paning’s sentiments?” I asked with some surprise. “Perhaps he may be very devoted to her.”

“I have very good reasons for knowing,” she said, with a peculiar smile; “but yonder are some of the negroes returning from church. I must go in and have dinner arranged before the carriage returns.”

She went into the house and left me wondering what she could mean. Can she love him, too, I thought, and is it because she herself has his heart that she knows Lulie has it not?

I began to grow desperate with the thought of my rival’s second conquest, when the sound of the carriage diverted my attention, and mother, Frank and Ned came into the house.

“Oh, you needn’t have dinner for us,” said Frank to Carlotta, as he drew a glass of ice-water for himself, and drank it. “We have already dined sumptuously.”

Mother nodded her head as Carlotta looked at her inquiringly. “Yes, my dear, we’ve had dinner. Mrs. Bemby invited us to her table, and of course we could not refuse.”

“How did you like the sermon, Ned, and what kind of people were there?” I asked. “Tell me all about it.”

“The sermon was very good in its way,” said Ned, “and the people somewhat amusing; but you must get Frank to give you full details. I could not do the subject justice.”

I could do nothing else but ask Frank for the narration, though I was not particularly anxious to hear his voice.

“Well,” replied Frank, nothing loth to do the talking, “long before we got to the church we began to pass crowds of people who were walking thither; the men dressed in long sack coats of homespun, with immensely loose pants and dusty shoes, most of them carrying in their arms bare-legged, white-headed babies, who were employed in looking backwards over their fathers’ shoulders, and mostly gnawingvery large fat biscuits; the women were arrayed in bright flowered calico robes, which they kicked up behind at every step. They all had stick tooth brushes in their mouths, and long-tailed fly bonnets, which they carried in their hands. Then we passed others who, a little better off, were riding in red painted wagons, drawn by rope-harnessed mules, which trotted along so briskly, under the kindly influences of overgrown boys and hickory sticks, that the folks in the body were jolted from side to side of their split bottomed chairs. Then we overtook the cumbrous carriages of the well-to-do farmers, with heavy-headed, clumsy-footed horses, the low boots full of fodder, and large trunks full of dinner, strapped on behind. As many of these and other vehicles as we passed, yet when we got to the church we found the grove full of horses, buggies, carriages and wagons, and so many people out doors that I began to fear the preacher would have no congregation.

“At the foot of every tree in sight was a group of men engaged in the solemn occupation of whittling twigs and spitting. When we got to the door of the church, which was a large barn-looking structure, we found it full, and with difficulty got seats near the door. Such a mixture of people I never saw before. Here a silk by the side of cotton check, a broadcloth coat touching a copperas striped one, and a silk hat resting in the window with one of wheat straw, bound with green ribbon. As I could see very little but the backs of the people’s heads, I cannot tell much about the congregation, except that the men for the most part had very long and very dry hair, which they wore bushy, while the women had theirs plaited in two strings and crossed like wicker-basket handles. The girls wore straw hats trimmed with ribbons, whose colors were of the rainbow that we may imagine would appear on a cloudy day. The elderly ladies wore bonnets that looked as if Noah’s wife had made them for pastime while she was in the ark, and had fittedthem on the goat’s head for the want of a better block. The preacher himself was queer looking, and had a monotonous drawling tone.” (Here Frank got up in the floor to imitate his style.) “Ah! my brethren and sistern-er, where are we to-day? ‘Ere we are in the narrer road.”

“Tut, tut, Frank,” said mother, quickly, “that will never do. Jest about the people if you want to, but remember the sanctity of the pulpit.”

“But it does not matter, Mrs. Smith, if we have a little fun at their expense; they don’t belong to our church, and he wasn’t preaching to us.”

“It makes no difference,” said mother, rising to go down to the dining room; “he was preaching the Gospel of Christ, and, however defective his sermon, we should not ridicule it.”

“I’ll show some other time,” said Frank, as mother left the room. “But where was I? Oh, the preacher. Well, when the sermon was finished we all went out, and Mrs. Ben or Bem something soon found us, and insisted that we should eat with her.

“All over the grove the white cloths were being spread like gigantic snow flakes, and almost as numerous. Scores of negroes and ladies were unpacking great boxes, containing biscuit, rolls, cakes, ham, fowls, pickles, apples and peaches, and everybody was asking everybody else to dine with them. There was a good sized crowd at Mrs. Bemby’s table when we went up. They were not introduced, but they all made us room, and bowed confusedly. Mrs. Smith knew and spoke to several of them while we took our part out in staring.

“Mrs. Bemby begged us to help ourselves, and every one acted on her kind suggestion with quite a zest. Country belles, pulling off their cotton gloves, alternated the bites at chicken and bread so rapidly and successfully that they were soon sucking the bones like candy, while the beaux cut symmetricalsquares out of corn bread sandwiches, and played the flute on long ears of roasted corn, with unctuous smiles and impeded attempts at conversation with chewed words. Mr. and Mrs. B—— did not eat anything, but served the table, with cordial entreaties to all to spare not; Mrs. B—— distributing the bread and sweetmeats with a lavish hand, and Mr. B—— cutting the meats—his mode of dealing with a ham being very unique as well as effective. Standing it up on one end, and holding the hock in one hand, he sawed the knife across it like an Italian playing the fiddle, producing far more satisfactory results, however, than all the army of diminutive violinists Italy has sent forth. That great gawk of a Ben, instead of helping was perched on a wagon, idly kicking the wheels with his feet as he munched on an apple, and gravely winking at Ned and myself, in acknowledgment of acquaintance. Altogether the dinner was excellent, and, after our ride to the church, and our boredom in it, was particularly relished. There, I have talked enough; get Ned to tell you the balance.”

“There is no more to tell,” said Ned, as mother called to us from the basement to come down and eat watermelons. “I can corroborate all that Frank has told, except his account of the sermon. That was very good, and much to the point, though it was plain and without ornament.”

I went down with the rest, but was afraid, for my fever’s sake, to indulge in melons. If you would know whether it was any temptation to me or not, imagine a sultry afternoon, a cool breezy basement, four or five large melons, just from the ice house, like a row of victims with a knife in each pink frozen heart!

I felt tired of hearing them talk and seeing them eat, so I took my hat and strolled down to Mr. Bemby’s to find Ben, and enjoy a talk with him. He was nowhere in sight, and I tapped at the door. At Mrs. Bemby’s “Come in!” I opened the door, and instead of Ben found three strange ladies, whowere discussing with profound interest the events of the day.

“Come in, honey; you look mighty feeble yet; how do you feel to-day?” said Mrs. Bemby, kindly, as she met me. “This is Col. Smith’s son, Mrs. Bailey and Miss Viney Dodge; Col. Smith’s son! Mrs. Dodge,” she shouted in the ear of the oldest and most withered of the three ladies, who was armed with an orchestra looking instrument in the shape of an immense ear trumpet. Mrs. Bemby had to put her mouth right down to the opening, and shout my name out twice before she and I became acquainted. I shook hands with the old and bowed to the young lady, who gave me a curtesy in return that shoved her chair back almost out of range of her reseating figure. Her figure was very stumpy; her complexion very sallow; her hair very sandy, and her skin very freckled. Her hands were covered with half fingered blue gloves, and were employed, one in lying in her lap, the fingers folded and the thumb stiffly erect, as a sentinel over their repose; the other in holding, in as compressed a ball as possible, a dingy cotton handkerchief, which she constantly used, after a premonitory snuffle, by rubbing her nose very hard upwards, as if she wished to elevate its depressed point.

Mrs. B—— informed me that Ben would be in shortly, and I took the chair she offered and looked at the visitors; they looked at each other, and then there was a silence of some seconds.

“You beedn sorter poorly, haidn’t you?” said Mrs. Dodge, adjusting her trumpet and leaning towards me.

“Yes, ma’am!” I shouted, making my reply more affirmative by a number of up and down motions of my head.

“Umphum! Haidn’t had the summer complaint, is you? You look a little thidn.”

I transversed the motion of my head very rapidly, and signed the negative many times.

“A leetle lodomy, drapped in ellum bark tea’s mighty good for it;” and the old lady, satisfied with her catechism, turned her trumpet and her interrogative features toward the others.

Mrs. Bemby remarked having seen mother and the others at church that morning. Mrs. Bailey then took up the thread of the discourse where I had broken it off by entering.

“As I was a saying, sister Bemby,” she resumed, “it does me a sight of good to listen to Brother Weekly’s preaching. He is so searchin’ to the sinners and comfortin’ to the saints. His sermins are well pinted, too, and not writ, neither. I jist know in my soul, d’liver me from a writ sermin.”

“Umph?” said Mrs. Dodge, in a prolonged note of inquiry, levelling her dread instrument on the speaker. Mrs. Bailey very kindly screamed the words into her ear.

“Ah, yes, I knowed ‘twas good this mordn-ing, tho’ I couldn’t hear, for I sorter felt it. Brother Weekly is always powerful in his lastly, and whedn I see old Udncle Jacob Sawney slap Sister Brewer in the back, and old Miss Parkidns twiss her cheer roudn to the wall, and git my Viney here to untie her specks, so she could rub her eyes, I knowed he was a having great freedobm; and thedn he got a leetle louder, and I thought I heerd him say: ‘He’ll meet us at the gate, Hisself;’ and somethidng told me in my heart he meadnt the Lord, and I wadnted to go just thedn, for ‘pears to me I’d be more welcome like ef He told me to come in.”

“Yes,” resumed Mrs. Bailey, without noticing her interruption; “and did you notice, Sister Bemby, how he brought it out about the tares and the wheat. Seems to me, if I was a sinner I couldn’t bear the thought of being sifted out and throwed away like a no ‘count cockle grain.”

“That was uncommon clear, Sister Bailey,” returned Mrs. Bemby, “about putting in the sickle and reaping all together, then sortin’ out the good and bad.”

“That it was, Sister Bemby,” agreed Mrs. Bailey, makinga spade out of her tooth brush, and spading up half an ounce of snuff into her mouth.

There was another pause, and I looked uneasily out of the window, to see if I could discover anything of Ben, while Miss Viney rubbed her nose up again, and shot invisible marbles with the idle thumb in her lap.

Deaf old Mrs. Dodge again spoke:

“It’s a mighty cobmfort, Sister Bemby, to have odne’s chilldn a growin’ up right. There’s my Viney, she’s been a perfesser nigh upodn five year, and haidn’t backslid yit. Why dodn’t you talk to Ben, Sister Bemby? He’s a clever ‘nough boy, but he’s so mischeevous. Sednce I lost my hearidn I look ’round some in church, and no longer’n this mordning I see Ben holding up a streaked lizzard by the tail, fixing to put him on old Miss Judy Yates, who’s the feardest of ’em in the world. Brother Bemby seed him jist in time to stop him.”

“I know it, Sister Dodge,” shouted Mrs. Bemby in the trumpet’s mouth, “and I have talked to him a heap of times, but Ben says he ain’t a going to die soon, and that he’ll be a preacher yet, and he makes me laugh so I have to let him alone.”

“Is you a lover of the Lord, sir?” Mrs. Dodge inquired, pointedly addressing me.

“I am afraid not as I ought to be,” I said, confusedly, shaking my head.

“Well, you ought to love Him with all your heart whedn you think what He’s dodne fur you.”

I bowed an acknowledgment of the truth of her remark, and told Mrs. Bemby I would go out and look for Ben.

Not finding him anywhere I turned homeward, thinking on the glorious Gospel of the Son of God—a Gospel that, with the same words, can comfort sister Bailey’s simple heart, and bind up one bruised beneath a velvet robe—a Gospel for all the world! deep enough to baffle the sage—simpleenough to save a child. God alone can be its Author!

Go to the rustic church, with its rude unpainted seats, its plain deal pulpit, with a pitcher of water and a cloth covered Bible on the unvarnished slab. Sit with the simple, illiterate congregation, and listen to the unpolished man in the pulpit as, with an effort, he slowly reads his text: “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”

Hear the story of the Cross told without rhetoric, and mark the faces around you, how they glow with faith and shine with tears.

Then let us stand on the broad stone steps beneath the clanging chimes and gilded spire. See the white-gloved drivers curb the prancing steeds—the liveried footmen hold the blazoned door, while silken trains sweep down the carriage step and rustle up the aisle. Let us go in and stand in the purpled gloom of the soft stained light. The golden legend over the chancel is illegible in the darkness, and only the bright figures on the windows up in the vaulted roof show that the glorious sunlight is over the earth. The tufted aisles make no echo to the footsteps, and the only sound is the occasional closing of a pew door by the silent ushers. The cushioned seats are filled, the gas jets around the preacher’s stand are lit, and all is so hushed we almost expect the sermon to be whispered, when, with a trembling sob, as if its very pipes were sinful, the organ’s wail of penitence is heard. Moaning and groaning at the very bottom of its voice, it grows louder and higher, till its weird minor strains peal through the church, as if its windy heart will burst, and still higher and higher it screams and shrieks, in its agony of remorse, then, with a galop down the scale, it breaks out into a lively polka of forgiveness, and is as happy as an organ can be, till its jig-and-break-downrepertoireis exhausted, when it stands on one leg of a note and waits for the singing. A low, soft trill, like a mocking bird’s song at night, breaks forth from we know not where, and its quivering melody fills the vast edifice; but ere we have discovered its source or meaning it is joined by another sound—a high zooning tone—like a bee far up in the air. This follows the first through all its wonderful manœuvres, and a faint conception begins to dawn on us that perhaps a song is intended. This idea is entertained for a few seconds, when it is forever put to flight by the sudden, sonorous bellowing of a bull over its slaughtered kindred, and while its terrible tones are thundering from the floor to the roof, we find that it, too, is following the others, and adding its powerful roar to their melody. But surprises are not over yet, for just as the three get fairly under way, they are quickly joined by a bronchial cat, unusually hoarse, that also takes after the others, though on a lower key and in strange fuzzy tones. This zoologicalvocaleis persevered in by the four till, at last, they approximate a tune. We have some light thrown on the subject from the remark of a gentleman with an eye-glass to a lady with diamonds sitting just in front of us:

“Trilla’s soprano is better to-day inTe Deumthan ‘twas last evening inTrovatore, but Catta’s contralto is horrid.” “Taurini’s bass is magnificent, though, isn’t it?” the young fop adds in a whisper, as, with a long orchestral flourish, the organ ceases to play and the services commence. Worshipping God by proxy! Because Taurini has a richer, better voice, and can say “We praise Thee, oh! God” in a deeper tone than we, we pay him to say it in our most holy place, careless whether an oath were last on his lips, or an early bar-room his only preparation for the Sabbath. But all is so different from the little wooden church, that we almost feel that they are serving another God with a different religion.We feel out of place and disappointed, and are about to leave, when the preacher ascends the pulpit and announces his text:

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”

We are at home now; the same verse that has brought tears from the simple minded, carries conviction to the heart of the rich and the wise. Though the service in its appointments may be fanciful—though the sermon be burdened with rhetorical roses, or ridiculous in rustic exposition, or flagrant misconstruction—Christ’s words stand forth with the same grandeur of simplicity and force as they did when the trembling, conscience-convicted Sanhedrimite sought Him in the darkness, and received the light of God.

CHAPTER XVIII.Thefirst of October found us all again in Wilmington. Father returned from Havana the latter part of September, having completed all the necessary arrangements in reference to Carlotta’s property. He found the agent reliable, and having proved the death and identity of Mr. Rurleston, he administered on the estate, and qualified as guardian for Carlotta under the Spanish law.Ned and I began the winter in hard study, as our last session in a preparatory school. Frank, however, declared his intention of going to Chapel Hill, the seat of the University of North Carolina, in January, and joining the Freshman Class, half advanced, getting the advantage of a year’s start by the half session.Sure enough, in January he left for the Hill, and we soonreceived letters from him telling of the wonderful charms of college life, and of the rapid progress he was making in his studies.The spring passed and Frank came home a Sophomore. Ned and I felt quite tame before him, though his foppish ways and overbearing air only added to the dislike I entertained for him.Lulie, poor thing, was as proud of him as if he had been her son, and whenever we met was continually quoting what Frank said, and telling what Frank did. In the kindness of her dear little heart she ever tried to consider my feelings, and it was the inadvertence of these remarks in my presence that made them doubly painful.Between Carlotta and myself there had sprung up a strong, confidential friendship. She was so beautiful in person and character, so pure, so trusting, that had it not have been for our daily intimacy, I could have loved her even to the effacing of Lulie’s image. As it was, she was only my best friend, and Lulie my hopeless idol.A trip to Smithville closed our vacation, and we began to get ready for college. All the arrangements were made, and the day before our departure came round. Ned, who, of course, was to be my chum, had come into town with his baggage, and was to stay all night with me, to be ready for the early morning train. That night, after tea, he ran over to Dr. Mayland’s to tell Lulie good-bye, and Carlotta and I took our seat on the stoop. Neither of us spoke for some time, for I felt really sad now that the time had come for parting.“You will write to me while I am gone, Carlotta?” I said, at length. “I will enjoy a letter from you more than from any one else I know.”“Yes,” she said, smiling. “I will write if you will promise to reply faithfully, and not to make fun of my letters.”“That would be impossible, even if I were not too anxiousto hear from home and from you. I will miss your bright face and sunny smiles sadly while I am away,” I continued, looking up at the stars slowly coming out, “for no matter where I am, or whom I am with, I never feel so well satisfied and happy as when I am with you.”“It is I, indeed, who will miss you,” she said, with the least possible sigh, “for you have been so kind and attentive, so considerate of all my wishes, yet so unobtrusive in your attentions, that I can never get another to fill your place.”“You will not forget me, then?” I said, drawing a little nearer to her.“Never!”She looked so beautiful in the soft twilight, as she gazed at me earnestly and said this “Never!” that I did more than I intended—I took her hand and pressed it in mine, though I tried to do it in a brotherly way. But there was a thrill in her touch, nevertheless. I could see her face flush, even in the twilight, as she drew her hand once or twice, as if she would take it away.“Carlotta,” I said, still holding her hand, “I have told you how I once loved Lulie——”“And there she is now,” she said, quickly withdrawing her hand, then putting it back in mine, as if it was nothing to be ashamed of.Sure enough, Lulie, Frank and Ned crossed over from Dr. Mayland’s and approached our stoop.“John, I have come over to say good-bye, as you would not come to see me,” said Lulie, seating herself at Carlotta’s feet.“‘Twas because I thought you would, of course, be engaged for to-night, not because I did not want to,” I replied, in a tone divided between a sneer and a smile.“You know I am always glad to see you, John,” she said, rising again to her feet; “but we have not long to stay,Frank, and had better go now, as he is so ungracious, even on the eve of parting.”“Pardon me, Lulie,” I said, her words recalling me to a sense of propriety. “Do not let us part in bad humor.”“Certainly not,” she replied; “but,” changing the subject, “do you not dread the ordeal of initiation? Frank says, though, he will not let the fellows, as he calls them, trouble you much.”“We are obliged to Frank for his kind intentions, but hope to be able to take care of ourselves,” I replied, my ungracious feelings returning reinforced.“I’ve a great notion to let you fellows alone, and let our class have its own way with you,” said Frank, tapping the railing with a little gold headed switch he called a cane.I had it on my tongue to tell him that I wished he would, but I restrained myself, and only said that I hoped we could stand it.Lulie gave me her hand most cordially, and bade us both farewell, and she and Frank walked away—she looking up at him and talking to him as if her life was his, and he walking on as if only a toy hung upon his arm.Father returned from down town, and, requesting my presence in the library, I left Ned with Carlotta and went in the house. Father was seated at hisescritoireand motioned me to a chair near him. “As you leave very early in the morning,” he said, through his teeth, holding between them one end of a tape he was tying around a bundle of papers he had assorted, “I thought we had best arrange our money matters to-night.”He took a roll of bank bills from a drawer, and, counting out a goodly heap, pushed it towards me, saying, “That will be enough for all your expenses till late in the session. Whenever you find you need more, write and I will remit. I do not want you to be extravagant, my son, neither do I want you to be a niggard; I will, however, trust to your own good sense to regulate your expenditure.”I folded the money up, and, putting it in my purse, was about to leave, when he closed the desk, and, jingling the keys into his pockets, said:“Sit down a moment, John, I want to say a few words to you in reference to your conduct while you are away. I am sure your mother has instructed you thoroughly in your Christian duty, and, therefore, I do not fear that I shall ever be mortified by a letter confessing debauch and dissipation. I trust that your early training, with your own sense of propriety, will deter you from anything so ruinous; but I have a word or two of advice in regard to your deportment towards your fellow students and to your instructors. I have been at college myself and know something of what I say. You will, of course, be teased, or ‘devilled,’ as they term it, unmercifully. Every conceivable effort will be made to mortify you, and to present you in most ridiculous attitudes, and every one in the class above you will try his wits at your expense. You will be made the victim of many a practical joke, and will suffer frequent inconvenience from the temporary abstraction of your books or the derangement of your furniture. Bear every thing with quiet dignity, do not attempt to reply to anything that is said, and, if possible, keep from showing in the slightest way that you are teased. If their efforts are without success they will soon desist, and you will be unmolested. It is a most contemptible and barbarous practice, this striving to wound and crush the feelings of another, simply because he is a stranger, as if that fact alone did not entitle him to more consideration. I hope, John, that when you join this privileged class of persecutors you will never indulge in anything so unfeeling.“To recommend care in the selection of your associates is a piece of advice as important as it is trite. Associates will be forced upon you by the location of your room, by your class and your boarding house. Look well to a student’s moral and social status before you take him as a companion.Do not feel flattered into any concessions of your principles by an intimacy with a member of a higher class. While a Fresh, you would feel quite honored by an invitation to the room of a Senior, and you would find it very hard to refuse a drink with him, lest you should appear squeamish in his eyes. But remember that advancement is only a question of time and study, and possess independence enough to refuse all solicitations to evil, however flattering to your vanity they be. Ned, I am glad to learn, will room with you, and he and your books will be society enough for you, if you study asyounow think, andIhope you will.“In regard to your deportment towards your tutors I have a word to say, and then I have done my rather tedious exhortation. Be polite and dignified in their presence, be attentive in the lecture room, but not ostentatiously so, making a pretence of continually gazing at the professor, being the first to answer fly questions, or selecting a seat very near his desk, as there is nothing more displeasing to him than the endeavor of a student to make up for lack of merit by sycophantic fawning. While it is well to establish a personal acquaintance and good understanding with all those under whose instruction you are placed, yet do not make a display of intimacy with them, as the reputation of a ‘boot-lick’ is easily earned, and is exceedingly odious. The most disagreeable temptation to which you will be exposed is to join rebellion against college authority. You will be continually solicited to aid in schemes to break the laws of the institution, to annoy the professors, and to deface and misplace college property. Every conceivable plan for the defeat of the very objects of the institution will be set on foot, and you will be scoffed at and ridiculed if you refuse to join. Will you have the moral courage to refuse in the face of a jeering class? I hope so, my son. You will find it easy after the first time or two, and you will be respected all the more for your firmness. Write to your mother andmyself often, and write freely. Tell us of your trials and difficulties, and express all your feelings without hesitation. But, lest my much advice may seem to evince a doubt of your strength of character, I will cease. Let’s go to Carlotta and Ned.”He lowered the gas, and as we walked out of the library laid his arm on my shoulder in a tender way, that I have never forgotten—for a caress was a novelty from him.That night, as Ned and I were about to go up to our rooms, I kissed mother good night, and said to her:“Have you no parting advice for me, mother? I believe everybody has had some kind of valedictory for me.”She drew me to her and said, smiling, as she parted my hair with one hand:“I have nothing special to say, John, even though you are going away from me for the first time. I have endeavored from your infancy to instruct you in your duty to your fellow man, as well as to God. It now only remains with you to perform that duty. The one great thing I have always striven to impress upon your mind is to act from principle. Whatever you propose to do, consider carefully whether it be in itself right—not whether the time or occasion renders it so. I have placed your Bible in your trunk; read it without fail once every day, and, as you have always done, seek counsel of Heaven; and if my poor prayers will avail anything, you will ever be fortified with grace and courage from on high.”In my room, as I undressed, I could not help looking around at the familiar articles of furniture, in order to remember exactly how the room looked after I was gone. Everything had a farewell for me.The very bureau seemed to sigh as I took my toilet articles from its slab; and the chairs, with their worn rounds and knife-notched backs, seemed to creak an humble good-bye; the rug that I had scorched so often making squibs;the pitcher, whose lip I had broken by jerking it against a table, when a cat with a fit, on whose head I was pouring water, suddenly revived and sprang up under my hand; the book-case, through whose glass doors peeped the familiar faces of Swiss Family Robinson, Sandford and Merton, Tom Brown at Rugby, and the portentous covers of Latin Grammar, Greek Reader, Cæsar, Virgil and Sallust; the closet, with my gun and sporting furniture, and the bed, with its flowered coverlid, all looked as if they would be sad after I was gone, and as I went to sleep I felt prematurely homesick.

Thefirst of October found us all again in Wilmington. Father returned from Havana the latter part of September, having completed all the necessary arrangements in reference to Carlotta’s property. He found the agent reliable, and having proved the death and identity of Mr. Rurleston, he administered on the estate, and qualified as guardian for Carlotta under the Spanish law.

Ned and I began the winter in hard study, as our last session in a preparatory school. Frank, however, declared his intention of going to Chapel Hill, the seat of the University of North Carolina, in January, and joining the Freshman Class, half advanced, getting the advantage of a year’s start by the half session.

Sure enough, in January he left for the Hill, and we soonreceived letters from him telling of the wonderful charms of college life, and of the rapid progress he was making in his studies.

The spring passed and Frank came home a Sophomore. Ned and I felt quite tame before him, though his foppish ways and overbearing air only added to the dislike I entertained for him.

Lulie, poor thing, was as proud of him as if he had been her son, and whenever we met was continually quoting what Frank said, and telling what Frank did. In the kindness of her dear little heart she ever tried to consider my feelings, and it was the inadvertence of these remarks in my presence that made them doubly painful.

Between Carlotta and myself there had sprung up a strong, confidential friendship. She was so beautiful in person and character, so pure, so trusting, that had it not have been for our daily intimacy, I could have loved her even to the effacing of Lulie’s image. As it was, she was only my best friend, and Lulie my hopeless idol.

A trip to Smithville closed our vacation, and we began to get ready for college. All the arrangements were made, and the day before our departure came round. Ned, who, of course, was to be my chum, had come into town with his baggage, and was to stay all night with me, to be ready for the early morning train. That night, after tea, he ran over to Dr. Mayland’s to tell Lulie good-bye, and Carlotta and I took our seat on the stoop. Neither of us spoke for some time, for I felt really sad now that the time had come for parting.

“You will write to me while I am gone, Carlotta?” I said, at length. “I will enjoy a letter from you more than from any one else I know.”

“Yes,” she said, smiling. “I will write if you will promise to reply faithfully, and not to make fun of my letters.”

“That would be impossible, even if I were not too anxiousto hear from home and from you. I will miss your bright face and sunny smiles sadly while I am away,” I continued, looking up at the stars slowly coming out, “for no matter where I am, or whom I am with, I never feel so well satisfied and happy as when I am with you.”

“It is I, indeed, who will miss you,” she said, with the least possible sigh, “for you have been so kind and attentive, so considerate of all my wishes, yet so unobtrusive in your attentions, that I can never get another to fill your place.”

“You will not forget me, then?” I said, drawing a little nearer to her.

“Never!”

She looked so beautiful in the soft twilight, as she gazed at me earnestly and said this “Never!” that I did more than I intended—I took her hand and pressed it in mine, though I tried to do it in a brotherly way. But there was a thrill in her touch, nevertheless. I could see her face flush, even in the twilight, as she drew her hand once or twice, as if she would take it away.

“Carlotta,” I said, still holding her hand, “I have told you how I once loved Lulie——”

“And there she is now,” she said, quickly withdrawing her hand, then putting it back in mine, as if it was nothing to be ashamed of.

Sure enough, Lulie, Frank and Ned crossed over from Dr. Mayland’s and approached our stoop.

“John, I have come over to say good-bye, as you would not come to see me,” said Lulie, seating herself at Carlotta’s feet.

“‘Twas because I thought you would, of course, be engaged for to-night, not because I did not want to,” I replied, in a tone divided between a sneer and a smile.

“You know I am always glad to see you, John,” she said, rising again to her feet; “but we have not long to stay,Frank, and had better go now, as he is so ungracious, even on the eve of parting.”

“Pardon me, Lulie,” I said, her words recalling me to a sense of propriety. “Do not let us part in bad humor.”

“Certainly not,” she replied; “but,” changing the subject, “do you not dread the ordeal of initiation? Frank says, though, he will not let the fellows, as he calls them, trouble you much.”

“We are obliged to Frank for his kind intentions, but hope to be able to take care of ourselves,” I replied, my ungracious feelings returning reinforced.

“I’ve a great notion to let you fellows alone, and let our class have its own way with you,” said Frank, tapping the railing with a little gold headed switch he called a cane.

I had it on my tongue to tell him that I wished he would, but I restrained myself, and only said that I hoped we could stand it.

Lulie gave me her hand most cordially, and bade us both farewell, and she and Frank walked away—she looking up at him and talking to him as if her life was his, and he walking on as if only a toy hung upon his arm.

Father returned from down town, and, requesting my presence in the library, I left Ned with Carlotta and went in the house. Father was seated at hisescritoireand motioned me to a chair near him. “As you leave very early in the morning,” he said, through his teeth, holding between them one end of a tape he was tying around a bundle of papers he had assorted, “I thought we had best arrange our money matters to-night.”

He took a roll of bank bills from a drawer, and, counting out a goodly heap, pushed it towards me, saying, “That will be enough for all your expenses till late in the session. Whenever you find you need more, write and I will remit. I do not want you to be extravagant, my son, neither do I want you to be a niggard; I will, however, trust to your own good sense to regulate your expenditure.”

I folded the money up, and, putting it in my purse, was about to leave, when he closed the desk, and, jingling the keys into his pockets, said:

“Sit down a moment, John, I want to say a few words to you in reference to your conduct while you are away. I am sure your mother has instructed you thoroughly in your Christian duty, and, therefore, I do not fear that I shall ever be mortified by a letter confessing debauch and dissipation. I trust that your early training, with your own sense of propriety, will deter you from anything so ruinous; but I have a word or two of advice in regard to your deportment towards your fellow students and to your instructors. I have been at college myself and know something of what I say. You will, of course, be teased, or ‘devilled,’ as they term it, unmercifully. Every conceivable effort will be made to mortify you, and to present you in most ridiculous attitudes, and every one in the class above you will try his wits at your expense. You will be made the victim of many a practical joke, and will suffer frequent inconvenience from the temporary abstraction of your books or the derangement of your furniture. Bear every thing with quiet dignity, do not attempt to reply to anything that is said, and, if possible, keep from showing in the slightest way that you are teased. If their efforts are without success they will soon desist, and you will be unmolested. It is a most contemptible and barbarous practice, this striving to wound and crush the feelings of another, simply because he is a stranger, as if that fact alone did not entitle him to more consideration. I hope, John, that when you join this privileged class of persecutors you will never indulge in anything so unfeeling.

“To recommend care in the selection of your associates is a piece of advice as important as it is trite. Associates will be forced upon you by the location of your room, by your class and your boarding house. Look well to a student’s moral and social status before you take him as a companion.Do not feel flattered into any concessions of your principles by an intimacy with a member of a higher class. While a Fresh, you would feel quite honored by an invitation to the room of a Senior, and you would find it very hard to refuse a drink with him, lest you should appear squeamish in his eyes. But remember that advancement is only a question of time and study, and possess independence enough to refuse all solicitations to evil, however flattering to your vanity they be. Ned, I am glad to learn, will room with you, and he and your books will be society enough for you, if you study asyounow think, andIhope you will.

“In regard to your deportment towards your tutors I have a word to say, and then I have done my rather tedious exhortation. Be polite and dignified in their presence, be attentive in the lecture room, but not ostentatiously so, making a pretence of continually gazing at the professor, being the first to answer fly questions, or selecting a seat very near his desk, as there is nothing more displeasing to him than the endeavor of a student to make up for lack of merit by sycophantic fawning. While it is well to establish a personal acquaintance and good understanding with all those under whose instruction you are placed, yet do not make a display of intimacy with them, as the reputation of a ‘boot-lick’ is easily earned, and is exceedingly odious. The most disagreeable temptation to which you will be exposed is to join rebellion against college authority. You will be continually solicited to aid in schemes to break the laws of the institution, to annoy the professors, and to deface and misplace college property. Every conceivable plan for the defeat of the very objects of the institution will be set on foot, and you will be scoffed at and ridiculed if you refuse to join. Will you have the moral courage to refuse in the face of a jeering class? I hope so, my son. You will find it easy after the first time or two, and you will be respected all the more for your firmness. Write to your mother andmyself often, and write freely. Tell us of your trials and difficulties, and express all your feelings without hesitation. But, lest my much advice may seem to evince a doubt of your strength of character, I will cease. Let’s go to Carlotta and Ned.”

He lowered the gas, and as we walked out of the library laid his arm on my shoulder in a tender way, that I have never forgotten—for a caress was a novelty from him.

That night, as Ned and I were about to go up to our rooms, I kissed mother good night, and said to her:

“Have you no parting advice for me, mother? I believe everybody has had some kind of valedictory for me.”

She drew me to her and said, smiling, as she parted my hair with one hand:

“I have nothing special to say, John, even though you are going away from me for the first time. I have endeavored from your infancy to instruct you in your duty to your fellow man, as well as to God. It now only remains with you to perform that duty. The one great thing I have always striven to impress upon your mind is to act from principle. Whatever you propose to do, consider carefully whether it be in itself right—not whether the time or occasion renders it so. I have placed your Bible in your trunk; read it without fail once every day, and, as you have always done, seek counsel of Heaven; and if my poor prayers will avail anything, you will ever be fortified with grace and courage from on high.”

In my room, as I undressed, I could not help looking around at the familiar articles of furniture, in order to remember exactly how the room looked after I was gone. Everything had a farewell for me.

The very bureau seemed to sigh as I took my toilet articles from its slab; and the chairs, with their worn rounds and knife-notched backs, seemed to creak an humble good-bye; the rug that I had scorched so often making squibs;the pitcher, whose lip I had broken by jerking it against a table, when a cat with a fit, on whose head I was pouring water, suddenly revived and sprang up under my hand; the book-case, through whose glass doors peeped the familiar faces of Swiss Family Robinson, Sandford and Merton, Tom Brown at Rugby, and the portentous covers of Latin Grammar, Greek Reader, Cæsar, Virgil and Sallust; the closet, with my gun and sporting furniture, and the bed, with its flowered coverlid, all looked as if they would be sad after I was gone, and as I went to sleep I felt prematurely homesick.

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