CHAPTER XXXV.A latebreakfast found Mr. and Mrs. Marshman and myself at the table, Finnock and the two young ladies having gone for an ante-gestacular walk.After a smoke I hurried over to Congress Hall and found Carlotta and Herrara Lola in the parlor. She was looking perfectly lovely in a morning dress of India muslin, and with her hair flowing loose through a band of gold. For the first time now I felt the abashment I had dreaded, and realized the disadvantage at which I appeared, in person and manners, after my long residence among books and boys, as I met the glance of Herrara’s dark eyes, and imagined I could detect a smile at my discomfiture beneath the jetty fringe on his lip.“Cousin Herrara!” said Carlotta, “this is John, my brother; you almost know him, I have spoken to you so much of him.”I bowed low over his hand, which was soft, and small as a woman’s, as he said, with just enough Spanish in his accent to soften the English:“I am glad to meet you, Mr. Smith. Lola has made us acquainted ere this occasion.”His manners were those of a courteous iceberg, and I endeavored to adjust mine to a reciprocal degree of frigidity. I had just commenced a stereotyped reply when the same horses and carriage I had seen at the railway drove up, and he remarked to Carlotta:“I ordered the carriage for our usual drive, but I presume you now prefer renewing old times and terms with your friend.”“Certainly, Cousin Herrara, I will stay with John, as I have not seen him for years, and am with you every day.”“I resign her then to you, Mr. Smith,” he said, turning off, while I thanked him with an attempt at one of his bows. He approached a group of gentlemen outside the door and asked two of them to ride with him. The three got into the carriage, a few plunges of the noble animals and the spokes in the wheels became almost invisible as they whirled up the street.“A superb equipage!” I said, as we took our seats near the window.“Yes, Cousin Herrara purchased the turnout from a Cuban acquaintance here a few days since. He is going to send it to Havana.”“You are very fond of Cousin Herrara, are you not?” I asked, with something of petulance in my tone.“Indeed I am,” she said, frankly; “he is as kind and loving as he can be, and is always attentive without being obtrusive. I am indebted to him for almost all the pleasure I have seen since I left Wilmington. But, come, tell me all the news about the dear old place,” she said, laying her cheek on the downy tips of her fan. “What of Lulie and your Chapel Hill love?”“Lulie is still Frank’s slave, and a remorseless cruel master he is,” I said.“Then you and she have never renewed your old feeling?”“And never will,” I said, solemnly. “The other lady to whom you refer, DeVare’s fiancée, is here now as the Hon. Mrs. Marshman. Her old Congressman is, however, too jealous for her to receive attentions from gentlemen.”“Really, you seem to be unfortunate in your loves.”“Indeed I am. I even fear that——” I found that the sentence might prove too pointed for the occasion, and I would not complete it.Without asking for the remainder, she changed the subject into inquiries about all her acquaintances, and put me through a regular examination. When she had concluded, I told her I would now put her on the witness stand.“Do you love Herrara, Lola?” I first asked.She looked at me steadily, as if to read my motives, and then, as the smile came back to her face, said, “That is too pointed and abrupt; try circumlocution and I will be more communicative.”She was so quiet and self-possessed in her evasion that Ifelt more than ever convinced that she loved her cousin, and said, with an attempt at ironical pleasantry:“You are engaged to him, and can’t deny it. Invite me to the wedding, please.”She laughed carelessly, as she looked out the window and replied:“Your method of extorting information is so ingenious that I would dread its inquisition, were I not happily relieved by seeing yonder the object of your inquiries.”As she spoke Lola’s phæton rolled to the door, and he and his companions got out. He came in, drew a chair to Carlotta’s side, and taking her fan from her hand fanned his face vigorously, turning it from side to side to catch the wind, and lifting the dark, curling hair from his high, handsome forehead. As soon as he approached I again felt that shrinking in his presence, that consciousness of a consciousness in him of superiority, though my own pride would not acknowledge it. He was such an Apollo in face and form, so elegant andrecherchein style, that I was sure Carlotta could not help regarding me as plain and unsophisticated; and, feeling desirous of escaping the consequent awkwardness of my situation, I was about to go to my hotel, when Carlotta spoke:“Herra, you ought to have remained with us. I am sure you would have enjoyed our conversation more than you did your ride.”“If you conversed at all I would,” he said, folding her fan and returning it. “The road was so dusty we could not open our mouths. But you are fortunate, Mr. Smith, if you can entertain Carlotta for half an hour. Ten minutes is her maximum time of interest in what I say.”“Now, Herra,” said Carlotta, “You know I was with you a whole hour yesterday; but you would have been as much interested in Mr. Smith’s conversation as I was, as it was about yourself.”I only heard his nonchalant “Ah! indeed!” when, with a hot flush on my cheek, and an angry resentment in my heart, I rose, and without a word of adieu left them, and walked across the street to the Union. I knew they could see me from the window, and I fancied them laughing at my discomfiture. I was just debating whether I would leave the Springs and continue my tour of travel alone, or stay there and make love to Miss Finnock, when I saw the little flat face and wide eyes of the lady in question peeping out the parlor door. As I approached she smiled a froggy little smile, and said:“Have you seen my brother or Mr. Marshman? I have been expecting them some time.”“No, indeed,” I replied, offering my arm; “shall we go in search of them, or wait here in the parlor?”“We had best wait, perhaps,” she said, glancing toward two chairs in a shaded corner.We took our seats, and her ceaseless little tongue began:“Oh! Mr. Smith, you should have been with us this morning.”“Why and where?” I said, affecting Laconicism.“Mrs. Marshman and I walked out to the Indian encampment near here, and we saw there such an interesting old woman. She claims to be of the royal line of chiefs, and, in her broken way, talks very prettily of the encroachments of the whites upon the hunting grounds of her fathers.”“To one of your poetic temperament, Miss Finnock,” I replied, “she must indeed be an object of interest. What a romantic sadness attaches itself to a contemplation of the destiny of these forest children! Poor, fading race! A few squalid beggars are all that are left of the legions of feather-decked warriors who once fought their battles here. Ever receding before the resistless march of civilization, the last tribe will soon chant their death-song on the shores of the Pacific, and sink with the setting sun in its waves.”It roused her, and I saw by the spread of her nostrils that her soul was on fire. My remarks were part of an old speech at school, which I happened to remember, but they served very well for a match to the powder of her romance. She gazed at me as if in raptures while I was speaking, and when I ended she clasped her hands, with tears, or water, in her eyes, and exclaimed:“Yes, indeed, Mr. Smith, there is a romantic interest that clings to the memory of these Nature’s lords. Their mysterious origin, their nobility of soul, their mute adoration of the Great Spirit, the wild poetry of their legends, all have combined to make me admire them with all the fervor of my nature. Oh! what indeed must be the agony of their bursting hearts, as they stand on some lone mountain, and read in the smoke of the steamer their certain doom. Ah! when we think of their wrongs, the tomahawk becomes the battle-axe of freedom, and the scalping-knife as sacred as the dagger of a Corday.”Fearing, if I encouraged her, she might pack up and go West, to become the Florence Nightingale of the Comanches, I begged pardon for changing the subject, and asked her if she had seen my sister.“Your sister!” she exclaimed, in her surprise, “I thought you were travelling alone, and expected to meet your family at Niagara.”“So I did, but it seems they telegraphed of the change in their plans after I had left the University; and so I was very greatly surprised to find them here.”“She is not your sister, except by adoption, is she? I have heard Mrs. Marshman speak of you in connection with her. You are expected to love and marry her, are you not?”“No, I cannot love on compulsion,” I replied, looking very steadily at her; “the emotion must be spontaneous, and unaffected by circumstances.”“You express my sentiments perfectly,” she said, looking at me with a glance that was meant to be searching.“Have you ever loved, Miss Finnock?” I asked, artlessly. Her eyes fell to her lap, and her fingers twitched each other as nervously as if she were a mute and were spelling.“I cannot say that I have,” she replied, after a pause. “I may, as a child, have felt heart throbs and bashfulness as the little boy over the way came to trundle hoops with me, but I have never felt that fervid and deep emotion which accords with my idea of love.”“May I ask, then, Miss Finnock, if you have given nothing in return for the many hearts laid at your feet?”“There have been no——;” she commenced the truth but caught herself, and said:“I have never had an offer of love I believed sincere, nor, indeed, one that I could reciprocate.”I knew that I ought not to say anything more, but Carlotta had offended me, and I was reckless.“But did you believe a love sincere, would you return it?” I asked, deepening my tone of voice to the dramatic.Her eyes came timidly up to mine, and then fell again as she said softly:“That depends on whose the love was.”“Miss Finnock!” I said, drawing hearer, “If I——.”“Hush! hush! here comes Lil,” she said, raising her hands in warning. “Oh, how provoking!” she added, with a look that was intended to be sweet.As I looked up, Mrs. Marshman entered the room, and little knowing howde tropshe was, took a seat near us and commenced some ordinary topic of conversation. I felt relieved, and was therefore quite affable, but Miss Finnock seemed put out about something, and was scarcely civil in her replies to her. She soon excused herself, and leaving Mrs. M. and myself in the parlor, ran up stairs. She was gone about ten minutes, and returning, brought with her abark-and-bead cigar case, which, after a moment’s hesitation, she gave me, with the remark: “I purchased that from the old Indian, Mr. Smith, and I beg that you will accept and preserve it as asouvenirof this morning, and of our mutual admiration of the red man.”“Why, Saph!” said Mrs. Marshman, while I was bowing my acknowledgments, “you do not know Mr. Smith well enough to make him a present.”“Mr. Smith appreciates the gift, and will not misconstrue my motives. I dare say he will remember our conversation,” she added, glancing archly at me.I assured her that I would, and would eternally treasure the case, with pleasant memories of the fair donor, and of our delightful converse, and even ventured on the hackneyed rhapsody about death alone being competent to part the said case and myself. She bowed and blushed, and I toyed with the case in the momentary silence that ensued, and opening saw that there was a crumpled note deep down in it. Just as I was inserting two fingers to reach it a waiter approached, and presented his salver, on which lay two cards. I looked up in surprise as I read the names, “Herrara Lola” and “Lola Rurlestone,” and asked where they were.“In the lower parlor, sir,” he said, bowing as I rose to follow him. I excused myself to the two ladies, and thoughtlessly left the cigar case on an ottoman where I had laid it when I took up the cards.In the lower parlor I found Carlotta and her cousin waiting for me. Carlotta was standing near the piano, looking expectantly towards the door, while Herrara was leaning carelessly against the instrument, turning over the leaves of a music portfolio.“John, what on earth did you mean by leaving us so abruptly,” said Carlotta, making a feint of striking me with her glove. “I would have thought you offended if I could have imagined any cause.”“You ought to have known me better,” was all I could think of for a reply.“Well, it makes no difference now, but you must go back with us. Mrs. Smith sent us over after you. She says she has scarcely spoken to you since we found you.”“I am at your service,” I said, and Herrara rose up from the piano languidly and said:“Mr. Smith will escort you back, Lola; I’ll go to the billiard room.”“May I tell him, Herra?” asked Carlotta, as he walked off; “it’s such a short time.”“I don’t care,” he replied, as he lifted his hat gracefully and left the parlor.“May I ask what it is you wish to tell?” I said, feeling an interest in all secrets between them.“Everybody believes here that Cousin Herrara and I are engaged, and I assure you it is very inconvenient, for it deprives me of a quantity of attention which you know I would receive, and I believe from your conduct you have fallen into the same error.”“I have had sufficient reason for such a belief,” I replied.“Well, it’s no such thing. He is engaged to a lady in Madrid. He returns to Cuba next month, and then sails to Spain for his beautiful bride.”“Then you are still in the market?” I said, with an unaccountable feeling of relief at my heart.“Of course I am,” she replied, as we ran across the street to Congress Hall.We had hardly joined father and mother in the parlor before a servant appeared with cards for Carlotta, and soon Monte and two others entered.As she received them across the room I was left to a quiet talk with my parents. We had not told each other a tithe of what we had to tell when I saw the gentlemen rise and accompany Carlotta to the piano. As she seated herselfgracefully at the instrument, and gave the warbling keys the petting of a prelude, there was a hush round the room, and I listened eagerly for the first note. She sang a soft Italian air, as full of mellow, rich trillings as a nightingale’s song, and her splendid voice, perfect in its culture, rose and fell with exquisite melody and wondrous expression through the difficult measures. Its floods of glorious music so filled the room that we could not have told where the notes came from but for the throbbing of her Parian throat. When the last sound had died away, like the sobbing of a silver bell, every one gave the rapt applause of silence, till Monte, with his affected drawl, asked for a half dozen screeching arias. When she had sung enough the gentlemen left, and I was hoping that I would have her to myself, when another waiter appeared with more cards, and I found I would only have to play spectator at her levee.I intended to move over to their hotel, but found, on application at the office, that it was too much crowded, and kept my rooms at the Union. That evening at tea I found Mr. Marshman and lady present, but Miss Finnock had finished and gone to her room. Underneath my plate I found the cigar case and a note. I looked up in some confusion, and found Mrs. Marshman smiling at me, as if she thought our love was a foregone conclusion.“Sappho is a dear little girl, isn’t she?” she said, as I unfolded the note.“Very,” I replied laconically, finding, without surprise, that the note was a string of verses, as follows:“Forgotten the gift, the giver, alas!Cannot claim the least thought in the day.With me all the moments and seconds that passBear an image of thee on their way.This morning, suspenseful, I hung on thy speech,And Time, oh, too swiftly did fly;The cup is dashed down before my lips reachIt, and bliss is cut off with ‘If I——’And oh! what a vista of happiness opesAt the touch of the Sesame ‘if;’What a sun-colored life, what a Canaan of hopesDo I glimpse through the unclosing rift.”There was no signature, but a holly leaf was pinned at the bottom of the verses. The emblem of holly I knew to be “Forgotten;” but if I had picked the verses up in Bessarabia I would have known Miss Finnock wrote them. I folded them up carefully and put the cigar case in my pocket, and finished my tea in silence, Mrs. Marshman having risen from the table while I was reading. I was really annoyed at the turn things had taken. If Miss Finnock had been an experienced flirt I should have regarded the affair as capital fun, but I felt sure Miss F. was in earnest; for, though she was old enough, she had never had much experience, and I had not attained that very desirable point of social education when I could knowingly trifle with a young lady’s feelings. I resolved once not to see her again, but remembered that I had an engagement to visit the encampment with her next morning.“Well,” I said, resignedly, as I lit my cigar on the lawn, “I will certainly not commit myself farther. No word or hint of love will I give to-morrow.”CHAPTER XXXVI.Thewaiter’s reveille was very unwelcome next morning, but I rose and dressed and found Miss Finnock already in the parlor.“Oh, the morning air is so bracing, is it not?” she said, as we left the hotel; “it buoys one up so; I feel so light-hearted and free early in the morning; I am as airy as afeather,” and she almost skipped in her youthful exuberance of spirits.“You had better weigh,” I said, somewhat morosely, as we passed the old lame man and his scales.I confess I was out of humor. Can you blame me? To be roused at such an hour, to parade over to see tiresome Indians, with a fidgety little woman, who was trying to captivate me, and whom I hated now. Would not her very flow of spirits be provoking?“See yon dew-drops how they sparkle,” she exclaimed, pointing with a finger on which shone a diamond ring over her glove. “Nature, unlike the ladies, wears her jewels at morn.”“Then the ladies are not natural,” I said emptily.“Oh! I confess we are quite artificial in many respects, though not artful—at least I am not.”“Really, Miss Finnock, do you confess to artificial aid in your beauty?”“If I had any beauty it would be artificial, of course. You admire beauty, do you not—your lady love is so beautiful?”“To whom do you refer as my lady love, Miss Finnock?”“Why, the lady who called you away from me yesterday. Please tell me if you love her. Now, confide in me, won’t you?” and she looked up at me with an affected squint in her broad little eyes.“I would trust you, Miss Finnock, but there is nothing to confide.”“Then, of course, there is no love, as that is something of great importance.”“Do you think so?” I said, vacantly, as we entered the camp ground. We spent half an hour strolling about, and after I had given five dollars for an old bead basket, that was said to have some Indian legend connected with it, and presented it to the little enthusiast, we turned back to our hotel. I was unusually dull, for I felt that it would be inconsistentwith previous attentions and her expectations to introduce commonplace topics, and I had determined not even to hint at love. She seemed to notice my reticence, and tried to rally me.“You do not seem as cheerful as usual, Mr. Smith. Can I have offended you in any way?”“Thank you, Miss Finnock, for the hint that I am not entertaining,” I said, glad of anything to take up; “let us hasten our steps that you may be the sooner relieved of my presence.”“Oh, how cruelly you misinterpret my meaning. The pleasure of your company is as great—I mean that——” she feigned confusion, “I like to be with you, but there is such a change in your manner since yesterday.”“Is there?” I said, mechanically, and thoughtlessly continued: “I was hardly aware of it. I am sure my feelings have not changed.”“Have they not?” she exclaimed eagerly; “neither have mine.”‘Twas too far gone to correct, and so I said nothing. After another pause she tried to look roguish and said, “Did you not chastise the waiter for his interruption yesterday?”What could I say but that I feared she had already rewarded him for so opportune an entrance.“I regretted it as much as you possibly could,” she said, softly looking down at the beaten path.It was abrupt, perhaps unkind, but I inquired if she would take a glass of water, as we were just then near the springs. She assented with a slightly reproachful look, and we approached the circular railing, which was surrounded by a throng of health-seeking drinkers, all eagerly waiting for the glasses from the long whirling dippers.It was the same crowd that is always there. The stylish young lady, who puts her glass down after the third sip; the pale young man with the large Adam’s apple, which goesup and down his throat like the piston of a pump, carrying down whole gills of water at every gulp; the tall school girl, with her hair plaited in ribbons, leaning over to the glass and holding her dress back with one hand from its drippings; the fat bad child, his mother holding a glass to his mouth, and resting her hand on his head as if it was the faucet she had to hold open for the water to run down; and the delicate, meek boy, who has been brought to the springs by his father, who is now standing by, watching with deep interest and a notch stick the glasses he takes. Poor little fellow! standing with a Hogarth’s curve in his shoulders, both hands grasping the glass, he swigs away, while the veins and leaders in his neck swell and tighten, and the dark lines under his eyes grow deeper, and his eyelids redder, as they disappear behind the rising edge of the tumbler. He takes it down and blows out: “How many’s that, pa?” and receiving the plaudit, “Five, my dear boy,” is led away to the hotel, to spend the day in his room, instead of playing himself into health with other children.When Miss Finnock and I had left the pagoda, and were walking up the hill towards the hotel, she made a pretence of pondering over something, and suddenly said:“Mr. Smith, will you tell me something if I ask you?”“Most assuredly, Miss Finnock, if it is in my power to do so.”“Well, I want to know—no, I can’t ask you now, I’ll wait till we part at the hotel.”When we ascended the steps I begged to know her question.“Oh! I cannot tell, it sounds so silly,” she said, twirling the Indian basket with assumed bashfulness.“I must bid you good morning, then,” I said, turning to leave.“No, I will tell you; I don’t mind; I only wanted to know the remainder of the sentence you left unfinished yesterday.”“I will tell you soon,” I replied, bowing and leaving her, for I knew not what else to say. Now I am in for it, I said to myself, as I walked across the street to Congress Hall, to breakfast with our family. I will consult Carlotta upon it and take her advice.As unpleasant as my walk had been in some respects, it had imparted an appetite that made porterhouse steaks andomelettes souffledisappear with a celerity alarming to the proprietors. As we rose from the table Carlotta told me that she and Lola were going over to the lake, and insisted that I should join them. As I now felt no delicacy about obtruding, since she had informed me of the relation she sustained to him, I consented. Lola and I had scarcely finished our cigars when his carriage was announced, and, going up to our parlors we found Carlotta waiting, the picture of perfect loveliness, beneath a broad sun hat. The road was already filled with vehicles, and the dust was floating in clouds about our faces; Lola leaned forward and spoke to the driver; “Go ahead, Michael,” and with dizzy speed his splendid horses whirled us past every team, and we were breathing again the pure fresh air.When we reached the lake house, and had refreshed with some ices, I went down and secured a boat for a sail. Lola said he preferred the bowling alley, and Carlotta and I took our places in the graceful little craft I had chosen. My experience on the Sound at home had made me a good sailor, and I dismissed the boatman.Running up the sail and getting before the wind, so that there was no danger of a gybe, I lashed the rudder so as to direct our course across the lake, and took my seat by Carlotta under the awning. The scene and situation were enchanting. The purple hills held the crystal lake in their bosom, like an immense dew drop, while soft fleecy clouds floated off from their hazy tops like smoke from an altar. The glittering surface of the lake was crimped by the breezeinto myriad ruffles, that rustled their little foam against our vessel’s side. Other boats were sailing far off, and with their glistening canvas looked like white herons flying hither and thither with a slow, objectless flight. Behind us was the lake-house, its verandahs thronged with people, its carriage way crowded with constantly arriving and departing vehicles, and at the water’s edge, a long walk-way extending out into the lake—all receding farther and farther from us. By my side was Carlotta, a bright glow on her cheeks, her beautiful eyes beaming with pleasure, and her magnificent hair caught up in an immense coil, that seemed oppressive in its weight as it was bewitching in its negligée. One glove was withdrawn and her sleeve pushed high up the swelling arm, while the dimpled hand dangled in the rippling waters, that reflected the smooth white fingers in crooked, dancing outlines. Out on the lake alone, and Heaven only knows how I loved her! yet I did not dare to disclose it. The very intimacy of our childhood, the relations we bore to each other in our family, the brilliancy of her career in society, and the constant adulation she received, all made me feel that she could regard my tame proposal of love with nothing less than ridicule. So, while my heart fluttered with its restrained emotion, I spoke carelessly and lightly, admiring the view with her, and quoting Wordsworth and Tupper with pedantic inaptitude. Leaving scenery we became more personal, and, after asking her secrecy, I told her of my affair with Miss Finnock and asked her advice.“And you promised to finish the sentence soon?” she said, laughing, and flipping the water from her fingers’ ends as she drew on her glove; “what was its intended conclusion?”“I was about to ask her that, if I were to offer my hand and heart, would she accept?” feeling a little ashamed of the commonplace phrases.“A subjunctive courtship, truly,” she said, smiling, as she took off her hat and threw back her hair from her white forehead to catch the fresh breeze. “Well, you have, indeed, committed yourself. You have attached too much importance to the matter, by deferring it, to give it some trivial conclusion, such as, ‘were I to raise the piano would you play?’ or, if I call this evening, will you ride with me? You have promised, and her heart is beating high with expectation.”“It will beat a long time before it is satisfied, then,” I said, somewhat morosely.“Suppose you write her a note, and candidly inform her that your feelings have undergone a change,” she suggested archly.“That would wound her feelings,” I said, “and I cannot do that.”“But are you sure the lady loves you? That is a matter of some importance.”“I have every reason to believe it.”“I see nothing that you can do but wait the issue of events. Wouldn’t it be funny if you had to marry her, or be sued for a breach of promise?”“Pardon me for not seeing the fun in either case,” I replied, shuddering at the bare idea of marrying her; “but see, here comes another boat!”The large boat at the lake house had been manned, and was rapidly catching up with us, under the pressure of sails, and oars to which a couple of stout Irishmen were bending. As they drew nearer we saw that the occupants were Mr. Marshman and party. Miss Finnock was sitting in the prow of the boat, armed with an opera glass, which she now lowered from the hills to our boat. I fancied her eyes grew wider apart as she saw who my companion was. Their boat came swiftly on, foaming at her prow, and bearing down upon us like a pirate on a prize.They were near enough now to bow, and I raised myself from my reclining position to touch my hat. Mr. Finnock was steering, and I saw he knew nothing about it.As I had tied my rudder I did not unloose it, as I thought of course they would pass by. Such was Finnock’s intention, but attempting to bear to one side, he gave the rudder too strong a turn, and to correct that turned too much the other way, and their boat, at full speed, ran obliquely against us. Carlotta and Miss Finnock both had risen to their feet as they saw the impending collision, and were both precipitated into the water, between the boats, which separated as soon as they struck.Carlotta had scarcely touched the water before I was by her side.Did you ever see waves close over one you love? then you know the horror that stamped the whole scene upon my memory, indelible in its distinctness, and perfectly vivid in its minutest detail. Her frightened look, as the boats came together, her agonizing cry for help as she fell, the dull splash of the water, the eddies that curled above the place she sank, all are present still. I remember now how clear the water was, and how, as with one stroke of my hands, I reached the spot, I saw her dress floating scarce beneath the surface, and then her face, distorted in her convulsive struggles for life, slowly rising upward. To draw her head above the surface was the work of a second, and as soon as she had cleared the water from her eyes and mouth sufficiently to become conscious, I bade her take my hand, and with the other commenced to swim to the nearest boat. As soon as she realized the situation she regained her presence of mind, and clung to me tenderly, though not so as to impede my movements. The large boat was not more than a dozen feet from us, and the occupants, as is usual in such cases, were in a frenzy of salvation, throwing overboard for our assistance, everything that would float. One of theirintended life-buoys—a heavy oar—struck me on the head, almost stunning me, but I shook the water from my eyes and struggled on. The next moment my feet became entangled in a web of garments, a bubbling shriek burst forth close at my ear, and my arms were pinioned by the frantic Miss Finnock, who rose near me.“B-r-r-sh ok—ok—Oh! chtl-Mr. Smith k-k—tl save your-k—d-arling, tlsave me k-ok—Oh! tlsave-k-me. D-ts-earest tsave me;” and, sputtering and choking, she clung to my neck, dragging me down irresistibly. As soon as Carlotta saw my danger, she let go my hand, and said, in her trembling voice, “Save yourself, John!”But all this occurred in half the time I have taken to write it, and the people in the boat had now recovered their senses. The two Irishmen were in the water, and Mr. Marshman and Finnock stood ready with ropes to aid them. Carlotta was first drawn on board, then Miss Finnock and myself. Mr. Marshman fortunately happened to have a flask of brandy along, so the ladies went to work on the ladies, the gentlemen on me, while the boat hands overhauled our little boat, took down the sail, and lashed it fast to the large one. At first I felt weak and dizzy, but after a while I was able to sit up, though I could not render much help to the others. Carlotta was very pale, and her loosened hair, rendered still more glossy by the water, hung in jetty masses around her marble features. She was conscious, though faint, and lay helplessly in Mrs. Marshman’s lap, occasionally raising her soft eyes to mine with an expression so full of grateful meaning that it thrilled me into life and activity. Miss Finnock had fainted, of course, and lay like one dead in Miss Stelway’s lap.The pallor on her face did not tend to increase her beauty, and a large roll of wet hair was hanging to her own knot by a single hair-pin.Finnock and Miss Stelway were chafing her hands, andtrying to get some of the brandy between her lips. Mrs. Marshman suggested unfastening her clothing, but after Miss Stelway had stolen a hand under her bodice, she withdrew it hopelessly, as if there was rather too much to undo and cut.Very soon Miss F. commenced gasping, like a fish on a sand bank, and opening and closing her eyes in the most approved stage-faint style. Miss Stelway kissed her forehead, and called her “dear Saph,” with a fine resuscitating effect, for little Sappho began to utter broken sentences in faint but nervous sudden tones, jerking the words out, as if she could not control them.“Oh where—where—is he?” she said, looking straight up into Miss Stelway’s face. “She sunk—him—I know she—did. I saw—her cling-ing to him.”With Miss Stelway’s assistance she sat up, and her eyes met mine. When, with an affected scream, she buried her face in Miss Stelway’s bosom, and sobbed.“There, darling,” said Miss S., “compose yourself; we all are safe, and are nearly at the shore.”“Oh, Nellie,” said Miss Finnock, between her sobs, “did—they—all—see my—feet?”Those at the Lake House had seen the accident, and Herrara met us at the shore with his carriage. We drove rapidly back to the town, and were met by mother, with uplifted hands and a face full of horror. Afraid of forming a scene, I bade them good morning, and went over to my room to change my clothes. A strange happiness was at my heart, for Carlotta had pressed my hand, when we parted, with grateful fervor.CHAPTER XXXVII.Ouraccident formed quite a subject of sensation in Saratoga, and, in a small way, I found myself the hero of the occasion, and scores of the “fellows” echoed Monte’s sentiments, when he said:“Smith, I vow I would like to have been in your place. ‘Twas jolly, I know, saving that angelic Lola. The devil take your good luck! did she hold on tight?”The afternoon following the day of the disaster I went over to Congress Hall, and sent up my card, and inquiries after Carlotta’s health. The servant returned with a card from mother, saying Carlotta was almost well enough to go out, but that she was now sleeping under the influence of an opiate, and must remain quiet all the evening. They were in their parlor, and insisted that I should join them. I immediately went up stairs, and was met at the door by mother, with her bonnet on. She invited me in, in a whisper, and explained that she had just gotten ready to do some shopping that was necessary. She pointed to the centre table, on which were some new books, and begged me to amuse myself for a quarter of an hour, when she would be back, or Carlotta would awaken.I accordingly took my seat, nothing loth to watch over such a beautiful charge, and picking upBeulah, which was the sensation just then, began to read. The room was very quiet, and the shaded light from the soft green curtains was very pleasant, but I could not become interested in the book, and, laying it down, I moved a chair noiselessly near Carlotta, and sat silently looking and loving. She was reclining on a folding lounge of pink damask, that reflected a faint tint on her face, which was white as marble. Her hair was parted simply over her forehead, and fell in voluminous waves over the pillow, while her lashes lay in deep blackcrescents on her cheeks. One soft hand rested under her face, while the other lay at her side, its tapering fingers half closed. No quivers of the lids, no slightest motion, told of life, save the rise and fall of the snowy frill at her throat. Oh, hopeless love! the saddest of all earth’s sadness, the deepest of all earth’s gloom!She could not, did not love me, I knew from all the past and the present. To tell her of my love would only distress her and make home unhappy. Mine alone must be the struggle and the victory. I would kneel by her side, touch her cheek but once with my lips, and henceforth only be her brother. I rose softly and knelt by the sofa, and my face bent over hers. That kiss was to be the seal of my silence, and I was, from that moment, to bury the love of my life in my own heart, and trust to Time to build its tomb. I steadied myself with one hand on the back of the sofa, leaned down, and whispering only that one word, “Darling!” kissed her cheek. As gentle as was my touch her eyes unclosed and she looked in my face. Overwhelmed with shame and confusion, I could not move or speak, but kneeled motionless with our faces almost touching, and my eyes fixed on hers. The next instant her soft arm was laid timidly around my neck, and, with a look that thrilled my very soul, she said, in a tone of wondrous tenderness, “John!” It was only one word, but it told me all; and the next instant, in a delirium of surprise and joy, I had clasped her in my arms, kissing her brow, and cheeks, and mouth, and murmuring, “Darling, do you love me?”And when Reason had returned, what a Heaven on earth ‘twas to sit by her side, to hold her hand in mine, to feel the glorious resurrection of hope and love from the grave to which I was about to consign them, to know that the very truth and sincerity of her nature assured the certainty and earnestness of her love for me! Then it was such a delightful surprise, so different from what I expected, that I fearedit could not be true—that it was all a dream. “Carlotta,” I said, looking at her fondly, “is this real, do you love me? Is it possible that, after all my fears, all my despair, you will be mine, my own darling—mine to love, cherish and honor, with a devotion man never knew before?” She looked up into my face with a depth of truth in her dark eyes that dispelled every doubt, as she said:“I have always loved you, John.”“Always, Lottie? What hours of unhappiness ‘twould have saved me had I known it; for, though I have loved you constantly during these long years of our separation, yet I have felt that my love was hopeless, and while I treasured that dear curl, the pledge of your remembrance, I somehow felt that you would remember me only as the friend, perhaps the brother of your childhood. As I received letters telling me of your growth into beautiful womanhood, and of the attention and devotion that were lavished upon you everywhere, I felt that the gulf between us was widening—that you would return proud and supercilious, inflated with your success, and contemptuous of my quiet student life. Almost fearing to meet you, I delayed along my trip, hoping that when I reached Niagara I would find our party gone; hence I stopped at the Springs, intending, after a week’s stay, to run across to the Falls. You know the rest; how cordially you met me, and how the thraldom of my life was sealed. The love that had glowed so steadily during your absence burst into a resistless flame before your superb beauty and lovely character. Yet O, darling, the anguish of the thought that you would never love me—that another would soon claim the hand that held in its grasp my soul! I could have borne it better had I found you haughty and vain, for then resentment would have aided me; but I found that you were still the same sweet Carlotta that had told me farewell in Raleigh; that the brilliant belle of every occasion was as guileless and pure aswhen I found her on the beach; that she was unspoilt by the caresses of society. How I worshipped you none can ever know, and I longed to fall at your feet and tell you all, but I felt sure you would laugh at the idea of ‘John’s loving,’ and this evening I was going to kiss your cheek, and bid farewell forever to my love, when you awoke—and thank Heaven for it! And now, darling, tell me again that you love me, for your voice, talking of love, is the sweetest music in the world to me.”She smiled such a tender, loving smile, and, nestling up close to me, said:“I have loved you, John, ever since we met. When I clasped your hand first after the shipwreck there was a thrill in my heart that ever came back when you were near me. So fearful was I that you might detect this feeling, that I tried to be reserved and silent in your presence, and even avoided you as much as possible. Conscious of my own love, I felt, child as I was, that every one else knew it, and hence my extreme sensitiveness at any connection of our names together. You doubtless remember the scene with Mrs. Smith, when you were asleep in the hall, or pretending to be. That explained the nature of my feelings. I shrank from the position I seemed to occupy—that of awaiting your love, and of being trained to suit that love if you pleased to confer it. While I saw you so full of Lulie and Lillian I buried my feelings in my own heart, and strove strenuously to crush them out of existence; but there were times when you were tender and loving to me, and then they came resistlessly. Do you remember one night, years ago, when we were out on the stoop, and you took my hand and held it awhile? No words can ever tell how I have treasured up that little scene. When you told me farewell, the night of our departure for Europe, and I gave you the curl, it was an earnest pledge of what I faithfully performed.”“Darling, do not speak of Lulie and Lillian. One was onlythe passing object of boyish affection, and the other a heartless though brilliant woman, who flattered me by her notice into an admiration that was as vain as it was transient. Dearest Lottie, your heart believes me, I know, when I vow that the purest, fondest love of my nature is yours, that without it all life is void and blank. Darling, have you loved me always, have you never wavered in your love, as affections more worthy, but none more devoted than mine, have been laid at your feet?”“Never, John. No faintest shadow of love for another has ever passed across my mind, and the only pleasure I took in the attention I may have received has been the thought that, if others see aught in me to love, perhaps, when we meet,hewill.”“He being myself?” I asked, looking at her with a smile.“He being yourself. There, I have made enough unladylike confessions for one afternoon; but ‘tis all a proof of my trust and confidence in you.”“As God shall help me it is not misplaced,” and I lifted her hand tenderly to my lips. “Never was man as proud of as beautiful and pure a love as I am of yours, and never was a love guarded and cherished as I will yours, and I will seek no higher happiness on earth than to keep that dear brow as bright and beautiful as now. Darling, look into my eyes and read the truth of love.”She looked, and would have read, perhaps, had not the door opened just then, and mother entered from her shopping excursion. As she saw us sitting lovingly together, Carlotta’s hand in mine, she was so utterly astounded that she stood without moving, her hands full of bundles, which kept dropping on the floor.To prevent further embarrassment, I rose from my seat, and taking mother’s hand, led her to Carlotta.“She is going to be my wife, mother,” I said, and without waiting to hear her reply, left the room.How bright and beautiful all nature seemed. The cloudless sky, the rich green foliage, and the fragrant roses scenting the evening air—all were in unison with my heart. The very birds in the lawn seemed to twitter congratulations. Nothing could have ruffled my temper; a bootblack might have thrown his brush in my face, and I would have picked it up for him with a smile. I felt that I could even be kind and courteous to Miss Finnock.In this pleasant frame of mind I went in to tea, and found the two gentlemen and Mrs. Marshman at our table, Mrs. M., after inquiries about Carlotta, and some compliments to her beauty, thought of a note for me, from Miss Finnock; and, as she gave it to me, said that Sappho had been quite indisposed all day, and had suffered severely from her fright, and the shock of the cold water.Excusing myself, I opened the little three cornered note, and read:“Will the generous and unselfish preserver of my life do me the favor to call this evening at our parlor, No.—, that I may unburden my heart of its gratitude, and offer a hecatomb of thanks to his self-sacrificing spirit. Call at eight.Waiting.”In much smaller writing, just beneath this, were some verses, as usual, across which she had drawn her pen, as if to erase them, taking care, however, to leave them sufficiently legible—“But for thy hand I might have sleptDeep in the bosom of yon lake,And no one for me would have wept,And none have wished that I might wake.”That’s the first sensible poetry you ever wrote, I muttered, as I read it. But there was more:“I would not shun the wild waves’ wrath,Could we sink clasping hand in hand,To walk together pearly pathsOf mermaids, down the coral strand.”You ought to have said “path,” Saph; you’ve spoiled your rhyme; and “mermaids” and a “coral strand,” out in this little lake, are very much strained, but so are the verses. I was, as I have stated, in a pleasant frame of mind, and thus jested to myself with the verses as I read them. The next verse, however, put the case a little more strongly:“I fain would seek a watery grave,To dwell with thee in grottoes bright,Or roam through halls where the sea-weeds wave,And love would make the darkness light.”To think of marrying her anywhere! much less down in a grotto, with sea-weeds and bad colds, and coral, etc. No, I could not “fain,” as she did; but I glanced at my watch as I rose from the table, and found that it wanted a quarter of eight. Fifteen minutes with a Partaga, and I tapped at the door of her parlor. Miss Finnock after Carlotta! ‘Twas like a dessert of nutgalls after Hymettean honey; but I felt that the necessary exercise of my ingenuity would be rather pleasant than otherwise, and looked forward to our interview, with anticipated pride in my skilful retrogression.When I entered I found Miss Finnock reclining in an easy chair, and looking as little like her Lesbian nomenclatress as scant strings of hair, an unmade, stiff figure, and pale blue eyes, in a sallow face, could make her. She smiled a faint little welcome, and pointed me to a seat in front of her.“Please lower the gas,” she said, shading her eyes with her hand; “you must excuse me, Mr. Smith, for seeing you in suchdeshabille, but I felt sure you would appreciate this liberty, and feel more free and unrestrained than if I had prepared formally to see you.”“I do appreciate and thank you for your consideration,” I said, feeling assured that if she had known how different was the effect of herdeshabillefrom what she intended it should be, she would not have been so considerate.“I sent for you, Mr. Smith,” she continued, in a whispering kind of voice, “that I might express my gratitude for your heroic efforts to save me yesterday.”I would have suspected any one else of irony, but I knew she was in earnest.“Really, Miss Finnock, you overestimate my conduct,” I said; “I must be candid with you, and tell you that I was doing all I could to save myself, which was almost impossible with yourself and Miss Rurlestone on my arms.”She looked at me with a queer little smile, and said: “What a trying ordeal for you! If no boat had been near us, ‘twould have been an effectual test of your love, indeed. Would you have found it difficult to have made a choice, if you had seen you could not save but one?”“Not at all,” I replied, hoping she would construe the preference as intended for herself, and let the subject rest.She played with the tassel of her wrapper, and said softly, “Which would you have chosen?”I pretended not to have heard, and asked if she had suffered any serious inconvenience from the accident?“Not much,” she said, with something of a sigh in her tone. “I have been feeble to-day, but hope to gain strength rapidly. I expect to take a stroll every morning before breakfast, and to ride with brother in the afternoons.”It was a very fine opening for engagements; but I had had enough of strolls, and so I said nothing. There was a pause of some length, during which I saw a scrap of paper lying on the table, and as my name was on it, I looked at it more closely. The light in the room was very dim, and Miss Finnock was all the while stealing quick glances at me; besides, I knew ‘twas highly improper to read it, yet under all these difficulties I managed to make out its purport. It was a note from Miss Belle Monte, Miss Finnock’s dearest friend and adviser, to her “precious Saph,” telling her that I was only trifling with her, that her brother had certaininformation that I was engaged to Miss Rurlestone; that my attentions to Miss F. were all insincere; that the best thing to do was to secure an interview with me, and, on my first committal, discard me promptly and finally.I now saw that I had been invited to her parlor that she might have the credit of dismissing me, and I resolved that say what she would, I would not, by any reply, give her an opportunity of so doing.“When do you think of leaving?” she asked, at length, lifting her head wearily from her hand.“We will leave to-morrow or next day for Newport, where we will spend some weeks before going home.”“Oh, that is too soon,” she said; “you have not seen enough of the Springs.”“As I have not seen my parents in several years, and came on here to meet them, I must regulate my movements by theirs. Besides,” I continued, “they were here some time before I came, and desire a change—at least, Miss Rurlestone does, I am sure—as she has captured every heart here, and perhaps pines for more.” This I said a little maliciously.“Miss Rurlestone can probably account for your filial devotion—at least gossip says so.”“Gossip knows very little about such matters,” I replied, cautiously.“But is gossip wrong in this instance?”“Oh, I must not commit myself,” I said, with a forced smile.“You are so tantalizing,” she said, throwing her tassel at me, “and that reminds me that you promised to complete that unfinished sentence soon.”“What unfinished sentence?” I asked, with pretended ignorance.“You must be forgetful, indeed; do you not remember your promise when we parted yesterday morning?”“Pardon me; I do remember now,” and instantly thethought flashed on me that I would candidly inform her of my intended flirtation, confess my sin, ask her forgiveness, and thus prevent her acting on Miss Belle Monte’s advice. “I recollect now distinctly the sentence to which you refer, and its intended termination. My remarks were made in the same light style in which we were conversing, and I had no idea you would attach sufficient importance to anything I said to think of it at all afterwards. I was about to ask, ifIloved you—if I offered my heart—would you reject it? I——”“That’s what I suspected, sir,” she cut in before I could finish, and with a deprecatory wave of her hand dismissing what I had said as painful, “and while the suspicion flattered it pained me.”“But, Miss Finnock,” I said, hurriedly, “you certainly misun——”“Flattered, indeed, I was,” she went on, without allowing my interruption, “because one so noble and gifted as yourself had conferred on me the honor of his love, and pained that I must refuse it.”I was too much astonished to reply, while she went on:“But, Mr. Smith, while a calm review of my own feelings forces me to discard you, or if that is too harsh a word, to ask you to beonlymy friend, I can assure you that our brief intercourse has been exceedingly pleasant to me. It will ever be an oasis in the desert of my past, and I trust that the rainbow of mutual regard and esteem will ever arch brightly o’er our pathways, however diverse they may be. And when Time’s fingers have plastered over the scars I regret to inflict, and you have found another love, whose voice may be sweeter, and eye brighter, and heart dearer than mine, I hope you will not think of this evening with anger, but with the pleasure of forgiveness.”“With pleasure, certainly,” I managed to edge in, as she drew her breath.“And at your life’s close,” she went on, in her peculiar strain, “may your barque furl its sails in a peaceful harbor, and having bosomed” (Sapphic for breasted) “every wave, anchor safely there.”As she paused, I broke in——“Miss Finnock, you have wofully misinterpreted my meaning. I was only jesting, as I thought you were; and my words had no more serious import than the verses in abon-bon.”“I hardly expected that you would thus try to evade the subject, Mr. Smith. But I have too much consideration for your feelings to place your name on my list of rejected ones. The result of our interview shall be strictlyentre nous.”“Your list must be immensely long, if you put every name down with as little reason as you have mine. I will leave you, Miss Finnock; for I can gain nothing in a contest with a lady who makes half the addresses she rejects.” This I said without thought, being thrown off my guard by her treatment; and the moment after I had closed the door I felt like going back to ask her pardon. Pride, however, suggested that she had overstepped the bounds of womanly delicacy in her conduct towards me, and that she must take outside treatment.
CHAPTER XXXV.A latebreakfast found Mr. and Mrs. Marshman and myself at the table, Finnock and the two young ladies having gone for an ante-gestacular walk.After a smoke I hurried over to Congress Hall and found Carlotta and Herrara Lola in the parlor. She was looking perfectly lovely in a morning dress of India muslin, and with her hair flowing loose through a band of gold. For the first time now I felt the abashment I had dreaded, and realized the disadvantage at which I appeared, in person and manners, after my long residence among books and boys, as I met the glance of Herrara’s dark eyes, and imagined I could detect a smile at my discomfiture beneath the jetty fringe on his lip.“Cousin Herrara!” said Carlotta, “this is John, my brother; you almost know him, I have spoken to you so much of him.”I bowed low over his hand, which was soft, and small as a woman’s, as he said, with just enough Spanish in his accent to soften the English:“I am glad to meet you, Mr. Smith. Lola has made us acquainted ere this occasion.”His manners were those of a courteous iceberg, and I endeavored to adjust mine to a reciprocal degree of frigidity. I had just commenced a stereotyped reply when the same horses and carriage I had seen at the railway drove up, and he remarked to Carlotta:“I ordered the carriage for our usual drive, but I presume you now prefer renewing old times and terms with your friend.”“Certainly, Cousin Herrara, I will stay with John, as I have not seen him for years, and am with you every day.”“I resign her then to you, Mr. Smith,” he said, turning off, while I thanked him with an attempt at one of his bows. He approached a group of gentlemen outside the door and asked two of them to ride with him. The three got into the carriage, a few plunges of the noble animals and the spokes in the wheels became almost invisible as they whirled up the street.“A superb equipage!” I said, as we took our seats near the window.“Yes, Cousin Herrara purchased the turnout from a Cuban acquaintance here a few days since. He is going to send it to Havana.”“You are very fond of Cousin Herrara, are you not?” I asked, with something of petulance in my tone.“Indeed I am,” she said, frankly; “he is as kind and loving as he can be, and is always attentive without being obtrusive. I am indebted to him for almost all the pleasure I have seen since I left Wilmington. But, come, tell me all the news about the dear old place,” she said, laying her cheek on the downy tips of her fan. “What of Lulie and your Chapel Hill love?”“Lulie is still Frank’s slave, and a remorseless cruel master he is,” I said.“Then you and she have never renewed your old feeling?”“And never will,” I said, solemnly. “The other lady to whom you refer, DeVare’s fiancée, is here now as the Hon. Mrs. Marshman. Her old Congressman is, however, too jealous for her to receive attentions from gentlemen.”“Really, you seem to be unfortunate in your loves.”“Indeed I am. I even fear that——” I found that the sentence might prove too pointed for the occasion, and I would not complete it.Without asking for the remainder, she changed the subject into inquiries about all her acquaintances, and put me through a regular examination. When she had concluded, I told her I would now put her on the witness stand.“Do you love Herrara, Lola?” I first asked.She looked at me steadily, as if to read my motives, and then, as the smile came back to her face, said, “That is too pointed and abrupt; try circumlocution and I will be more communicative.”She was so quiet and self-possessed in her evasion that Ifelt more than ever convinced that she loved her cousin, and said, with an attempt at ironical pleasantry:“You are engaged to him, and can’t deny it. Invite me to the wedding, please.”She laughed carelessly, as she looked out the window and replied:“Your method of extorting information is so ingenious that I would dread its inquisition, were I not happily relieved by seeing yonder the object of your inquiries.”As she spoke Lola’s phæton rolled to the door, and he and his companions got out. He came in, drew a chair to Carlotta’s side, and taking her fan from her hand fanned his face vigorously, turning it from side to side to catch the wind, and lifting the dark, curling hair from his high, handsome forehead. As soon as he approached I again felt that shrinking in his presence, that consciousness of a consciousness in him of superiority, though my own pride would not acknowledge it. He was such an Apollo in face and form, so elegant andrecherchein style, that I was sure Carlotta could not help regarding me as plain and unsophisticated; and, feeling desirous of escaping the consequent awkwardness of my situation, I was about to go to my hotel, when Carlotta spoke:“Herra, you ought to have remained with us. I am sure you would have enjoyed our conversation more than you did your ride.”“If you conversed at all I would,” he said, folding her fan and returning it. “The road was so dusty we could not open our mouths. But you are fortunate, Mr. Smith, if you can entertain Carlotta for half an hour. Ten minutes is her maximum time of interest in what I say.”“Now, Herra,” said Carlotta, “You know I was with you a whole hour yesterday; but you would have been as much interested in Mr. Smith’s conversation as I was, as it was about yourself.”I only heard his nonchalant “Ah! indeed!” when, with a hot flush on my cheek, and an angry resentment in my heart, I rose, and without a word of adieu left them, and walked across the street to the Union. I knew they could see me from the window, and I fancied them laughing at my discomfiture. I was just debating whether I would leave the Springs and continue my tour of travel alone, or stay there and make love to Miss Finnock, when I saw the little flat face and wide eyes of the lady in question peeping out the parlor door. As I approached she smiled a froggy little smile, and said:“Have you seen my brother or Mr. Marshman? I have been expecting them some time.”“No, indeed,” I replied, offering my arm; “shall we go in search of them, or wait here in the parlor?”“We had best wait, perhaps,” she said, glancing toward two chairs in a shaded corner.We took our seats, and her ceaseless little tongue began:“Oh! Mr. Smith, you should have been with us this morning.”“Why and where?” I said, affecting Laconicism.“Mrs. Marshman and I walked out to the Indian encampment near here, and we saw there such an interesting old woman. She claims to be of the royal line of chiefs, and, in her broken way, talks very prettily of the encroachments of the whites upon the hunting grounds of her fathers.”“To one of your poetic temperament, Miss Finnock,” I replied, “she must indeed be an object of interest. What a romantic sadness attaches itself to a contemplation of the destiny of these forest children! Poor, fading race! A few squalid beggars are all that are left of the legions of feather-decked warriors who once fought their battles here. Ever receding before the resistless march of civilization, the last tribe will soon chant their death-song on the shores of the Pacific, and sink with the setting sun in its waves.”It roused her, and I saw by the spread of her nostrils that her soul was on fire. My remarks were part of an old speech at school, which I happened to remember, but they served very well for a match to the powder of her romance. She gazed at me as if in raptures while I was speaking, and when I ended she clasped her hands, with tears, or water, in her eyes, and exclaimed:“Yes, indeed, Mr. Smith, there is a romantic interest that clings to the memory of these Nature’s lords. Their mysterious origin, their nobility of soul, their mute adoration of the Great Spirit, the wild poetry of their legends, all have combined to make me admire them with all the fervor of my nature. Oh! what indeed must be the agony of their bursting hearts, as they stand on some lone mountain, and read in the smoke of the steamer their certain doom. Ah! when we think of their wrongs, the tomahawk becomes the battle-axe of freedom, and the scalping-knife as sacred as the dagger of a Corday.”Fearing, if I encouraged her, she might pack up and go West, to become the Florence Nightingale of the Comanches, I begged pardon for changing the subject, and asked her if she had seen my sister.“Your sister!” she exclaimed, in her surprise, “I thought you were travelling alone, and expected to meet your family at Niagara.”“So I did, but it seems they telegraphed of the change in their plans after I had left the University; and so I was very greatly surprised to find them here.”“She is not your sister, except by adoption, is she? I have heard Mrs. Marshman speak of you in connection with her. You are expected to love and marry her, are you not?”“No, I cannot love on compulsion,” I replied, looking very steadily at her; “the emotion must be spontaneous, and unaffected by circumstances.”“You express my sentiments perfectly,” she said, looking at me with a glance that was meant to be searching.“Have you ever loved, Miss Finnock?” I asked, artlessly. Her eyes fell to her lap, and her fingers twitched each other as nervously as if she were a mute and were spelling.“I cannot say that I have,” she replied, after a pause. “I may, as a child, have felt heart throbs and bashfulness as the little boy over the way came to trundle hoops with me, but I have never felt that fervid and deep emotion which accords with my idea of love.”“May I ask, then, Miss Finnock, if you have given nothing in return for the many hearts laid at your feet?”“There have been no——;” she commenced the truth but caught herself, and said:“I have never had an offer of love I believed sincere, nor, indeed, one that I could reciprocate.”I knew that I ought not to say anything more, but Carlotta had offended me, and I was reckless.“But did you believe a love sincere, would you return it?” I asked, deepening my tone of voice to the dramatic.Her eyes came timidly up to mine, and then fell again as she said softly:“That depends on whose the love was.”“Miss Finnock!” I said, drawing hearer, “If I——.”“Hush! hush! here comes Lil,” she said, raising her hands in warning. “Oh, how provoking!” she added, with a look that was intended to be sweet.As I looked up, Mrs. Marshman entered the room, and little knowing howde tropshe was, took a seat near us and commenced some ordinary topic of conversation. I felt relieved, and was therefore quite affable, but Miss Finnock seemed put out about something, and was scarcely civil in her replies to her. She soon excused herself, and leaving Mrs. M. and myself in the parlor, ran up stairs. She was gone about ten minutes, and returning, brought with her abark-and-bead cigar case, which, after a moment’s hesitation, she gave me, with the remark: “I purchased that from the old Indian, Mr. Smith, and I beg that you will accept and preserve it as asouvenirof this morning, and of our mutual admiration of the red man.”“Why, Saph!” said Mrs. Marshman, while I was bowing my acknowledgments, “you do not know Mr. Smith well enough to make him a present.”“Mr. Smith appreciates the gift, and will not misconstrue my motives. I dare say he will remember our conversation,” she added, glancing archly at me.I assured her that I would, and would eternally treasure the case, with pleasant memories of the fair donor, and of our delightful converse, and even ventured on the hackneyed rhapsody about death alone being competent to part the said case and myself. She bowed and blushed, and I toyed with the case in the momentary silence that ensued, and opening saw that there was a crumpled note deep down in it. Just as I was inserting two fingers to reach it a waiter approached, and presented his salver, on which lay two cards. I looked up in surprise as I read the names, “Herrara Lola” and “Lola Rurlestone,” and asked where they were.“In the lower parlor, sir,” he said, bowing as I rose to follow him. I excused myself to the two ladies, and thoughtlessly left the cigar case on an ottoman where I had laid it when I took up the cards.In the lower parlor I found Carlotta and her cousin waiting for me. Carlotta was standing near the piano, looking expectantly towards the door, while Herrara was leaning carelessly against the instrument, turning over the leaves of a music portfolio.“John, what on earth did you mean by leaving us so abruptly,” said Carlotta, making a feint of striking me with her glove. “I would have thought you offended if I could have imagined any cause.”“You ought to have known me better,” was all I could think of for a reply.“Well, it makes no difference now, but you must go back with us. Mrs. Smith sent us over after you. She says she has scarcely spoken to you since we found you.”“I am at your service,” I said, and Herrara rose up from the piano languidly and said:“Mr. Smith will escort you back, Lola; I’ll go to the billiard room.”“May I tell him, Herra?” asked Carlotta, as he walked off; “it’s such a short time.”“I don’t care,” he replied, as he lifted his hat gracefully and left the parlor.“May I ask what it is you wish to tell?” I said, feeling an interest in all secrets between them.“Everybody believes here that Cousin Herrara and I are engaged, and I assure you it is very inconvenient, for it deprives me of a quantity of attention which you know I would receive, and I believe from your conduct you have fallen into the same error.”“I have had sufficient reason for such a belief,” I replied.“Well, it’s no such thing. He is engaged to a lady in Madrid. He returns to Cuba next month, and then sails to Spain for his beautiful bride.”“Then you are still in the market?” I said, with an unaccountable feeling of relief at my heart.“Of course I am,” she replied, as we ran across the street to Congress Hall.We had hardly joined father and mother in the parlor before a servant appeared with cards for Carlotta, and soon Monte and two others entered.As she received them across the room I was left to a quiet talk with my parents. We had not told each other a tithe of what we had to tell when I saw the gentlemen rise and accompany Carlotta to the piano. As she seated herselfgracefully at the instrument, and gave the warbling keys the petting of a prelude, there was a hush round the room, and I listened eagerly for the first note. She sang a soft Italian air, as full of mellow, rich trillings as a nightingale’s song, and her splendid voice, perfect in its culture, rose and fell with exquisite melody and wondrous expression through the difficult measures. Its floods of glorious music so filled the room that we could not have told where the notes came from but for the throbbing of her Parian throat. When the last sound had died away, like the sobbing of a silver bell, every one gave the rapt applause of silence, till Monte, with his affected drawl, asked for a half dozen screeching arias. When she had sung enough the gentlemen left, and I was hoping that I would have her to myself, when another waiter appeared with more cards, and I found I would only have to play spectator at her levee.I intended to move over to their hotel, but found, on application at the office, that it was too much crowded, and kept my rooms at the Union. That evening at tea I found Mr. Marshman and lady present, but Miss Finnock had finished and gone to her room. Underneath my plate I found the cigar case and a note. I looked up in some confusion, and found Mrs. Marshman smiling at me, as if she thought our love was a foregone conclusion.“Sappho is a dear little girl, isn’t she?” she said, as I unfolded the note.“Very,” I replied laconically, finding, without surprise, that the note was a string of verses, as follows:“Forgotten the gift, the giver, alas!Cannot claim the least thought in the day.With me all the moments and seconds that passBear an image of thee on their way.This morning, suspenseful, I hung on thy speech,And Time, oh, too swiftly did fly;The cup is dashed down before my lips reachIt, and bliss is cut off with ‘If I——’And oh! what a vista of happiness opesAt the touch of the Sesame ‘if;’What a sun-colored life, what a Canaan of hopesDo I glimpse through the unclosing rift.”There was no signature, but a holly leaf was pinned at the bottom of the verses. The emblem of holly I knew to be “Forgotten;” but if I had picked the verses up in Bessarabia I would have known Miss Finnock wrote them. I folded them up carefully and put the cigar case in my pocket, and finished my tea in silence, Mrs. Marshman having risen from the table while I was reading. I was really annoyed at the turn things had taken. If Miss Finnock had been an experienced flirt I should have regarded the affair as capital fun, but I felt sure Miss F. was in earnest; for, though she was old enough, she had never had much experience, and I had not attained that very desirable point of social education when I could knowingly trifle with a young lady’s feelings. I resolved once not to see her again, but remembered that I had an engagement to visit the encampment with her next morning.“Well,” I said, resignedly, as I lit my cigar on the lawn, “I will certainly not commit myself farther. No word or hint of love will I give to-morrow.”
A latebreakfast found Mr. and Mrs. Marshman and myself at the table, Finnock and the two young ladies having gone for an ante-gestacular walk.
After a smoke I hurried over to Congress Hall and found Carlotta and Herrara Lola in the parlor. She was looking perfectly lovely in a morning dress of India muslin, and with her hair flowing loose through a band of gold. For the first time now I felt the abashment I had dreaded, and realized the disadvantage at which I appeared, in person and manners, after my long residence among books and boys, as I met the glance of Herrara’s dark eyes, and imagined I could detect a smile at my discomfiture beneath the jetty fringe on his lip.
“Cousin Herrara!” said Carlotta, “this is John, my brother; you almost know him, I have spoken to you so much of him.”
I bowed low over his hand, which was soft, and small as a woman’s, as he said, with just enough Spanish in his accent to soften the English:
“I am glad to meet you, Mr. Smith. Lola has made us acquainted ere this occasion.”
His manners were those of a courteous iceberg, and I endeavored to adjust mine to a reciprocal degree of frigidity. I had just commenced a stereotyped reply when the same horses and carriage I had seen at the railway drove up, and he remarked to Carlotta:
“I ordered the carriage for our usual drive, but I presume you now prefer renewing old times and terms with your friend.”
“Certainly, Cousin Herrara, I will stay with John, as I have not seen him for years, and am with you every day.”
“I resign her then to you, Mr. Smith,” he said, turning off, while I thanked him with an attempt at one of his bows. He approached a group of gentlemen outside the door and asked two of them to ride with him. The three got into the carriage, a few plunges of the noble animals and the spokes in the wheels became almost invisible as they whirled up the street.
“A superb equipage!” I said, as we took our seats near the window.
“Yes, Cousin Herrara purchased the turnout from a Cuban acquaintance here a few days since. He is going to send it to Havana.”
“You are very fond of Cousin Herrara, are you not?” I asked, with something of petulance in my tone.
“Indeed I am,” she said, frankly; “he is as kind and loving as he can be, and is always attentive without being obtrusive. I am indebted to him for almost all the pleasure I have seen since I left Wilmington. But, come, tell me all the news about the dear old place,” she said, laying her cheek on the downy tips of her fan. “What of Lulie and your Chapel Hill love?”
“Lulie is still Frank’s slave, and a remorseless cruel master he is,” I said.
“Then you and she have never renewed your old feeling?”
“And never will,” I said, solemnly. “The other lady to whom you refer, DeVare’s fiancée, is here now as the Hon. Mrs. Marshman. Her old Congressman is, however, too jealous for her to receive attentions from gentlemen.”
“Really, you seem to be unfortunate in your loves.”
“Indeed I am. I even fear that——” I found that the sentence might prove too pointed for the occasion, and I would not complete it.
Without asking for the remainder, she changed the subject into inquiries about all her acquaintances, and put me through a regular examination. When she had concluded, I told her I would now put her on the witness stand.
“Do you love Herrara, Lola?” I first asked.
She looked at me steadily, as if to read my motives, and then, as the smile came back to her face, said, “That is too pointed and abrupt; try circumlocution and I will be more communicative.”
She was so quiet and self-possessed in her evasion that Ifelt more than ever convinced that she loved her cousin, and said, with an attempt at ironical pleasantry:
“You are engaged to him, and can’t deny it. Invite me to the wedding, please.”
She laughed carelessly, as she looked out the window and replied:
“Your method of extorting information is so ingenious that I would dread its inquisition, were I not happily relieved by seeing yonder the object of your inquiries.”
As she spoke Lola’s phæton rolled to the door, and he and his companions got out. He came in, drew a chair to Carlotta’s side, and taking her fan from her hand fanned his face vigorously, turning it from side to side to catch the wind, and lifting the dark, curling hair from his high, handsome forehead. As soon as he approached I again felt that shrinking in his presence, that consciousness of a consciousness in him of superiority, though my own pride would not acknowledge it. He was such an Apollo in face and form, so elegant andrecherchein style, that I was sure Carlotta could not help regarding me as plain and unsophisticated; and, feeling desirous of escaping the consequent awkwardness of my situation, I was about to go to my hotel, when Carlotta spoke:
“Herra, you ought to have remained with us. I am sure you would have enjoyed our conversation more than you did your ride.”
“If you conversed at all I would,” he said, folding her fan and returning it. “The road was so dusty we could not open our mouths. But you are fortunate, Mr. Smith, if you can entertain Carlotta for half an hour. Ten minutes is her maximum time of interest in what I say.”
“Now, Herra,” said Carlotta, “You know I was with you a whole hour yesterday; but you would have been as much interested in Mr. Smith’s conversation as I was, as it was about yourself.”
I only heard his nonchalant “Ah! indeed!” when, with a hot flush on my cheek, and an angry resentment in my heart, I rose, and without a word of adieu left them, and walked across the street to the Union. I knew they could see me from the window, and I fancied them laughing at my discomfiture. I was just debating whether I would leave the Springs and continue my tour of travel alone, or stay there and make love to Miss Finnock, when I saw the little flat face and wide eyes of the lady in question peeping out the parlor door. As I approached she smiled a froggy little smile, and said:
“Have you seen my brother or Mr. Marshman? I have been expecting them some time.”
“No, indeed,” I replied, offering my arm; “shall we go in search of them, or wait here in the parlor?”
“We had best wait, perhaps,” she said, glancing toward two chairs in a shaded corner.
We took our seats, and her ceaseless little tongue began:
“Oh! Mr. Smith, you should have been with us this morning.”
“Why and where?” I said, affecting Laconicism.
“Mrs. Marshman and I walked out to the Indian encampment near here, and we saw there such an interesting old woman. She claims to be of the royal line of chiefs, and, in her broken way, talks very prettily of the encroachments of the whites upon the hunting grounds of her fathers.”
“To one of your poetic temperament, Miss Finnock,” I replied, “she must indeed be an object of interest. What a romantic sadness attaches itself to a contemplation of the destiny of these forest children! Poor, fading race! A few squalid beggars are all that are left of the legions of feather-decked warriors who once fought their battles here. Ever receding before the resistless march of civilization, the last tribe will soon chant their death-song on the shores of the Pacific, and sink with the setting sun in its waves.”
It roused her, and I saw by the spread of her nostrils that her soul was on fire. My remarks were part of an old speech at school, which I happened to remember, but they served very well for a match to the powder of her romance. She gazed at me as if in raptures while I was speaking, and when I ended she clasped her hands, with tears, or water, in her eyes, and exclaimed:
“Yes, indeed, Mr. Smith, there is a romantic interest that clings to the memory of these Nature’s lords. Their mysterious origin, their nobility of soul, their mute adoration of the Great Spirit, the wild poetry of their legends, all have combined to make me admire them with all the fervor of my nature. Oh! what indeed must be the agony of their bursting hearts, as they stand on some lone mountain, and read in the smoke of the steamer their certain doom. Ah! when we think of their wrongs, the tomahawk becomes the battle-axe of freedom, and the scalping-knife as sacred as the dagger of a Corday.”
Fearing, if I encouraged her, she might pack up and go West, to become the Florence Nightingale of the Comanches, I begged pardon for changing the subject, and asked her if she had seen my sister.
“Your sister!” she exclaimed, in her surprise, “I thought you were travelling alone, and expected to meet your family at Niagara.”
“So I did, but it seems they telegraphed of the change in their plans after I had left the University; and so I was very greatly surprised to find them here.”
“She is not your sister, except by adoption, is she? I have heard Mrs. Marshman speak of you in connection with her. You are expected to love and marry her, are you not?”
“No, I cannot love on compulsion,” I replied, looking very steadily at her; “the emotion must be spontaneous, and unaffected by circumstances.”
“You express my sentiments perfectly,” she said, looking at me with a glance that was meant to be searching.
“Have you ever loved, Miss Finnock?” I asked, artlessly. Her eyes fell to her lap, and her fingers twitched each other as nervously as if she were a mute and were spelling.
“I cannot say that I have,” she replied, after a pause. “I may, as a child, have felt heart throbs and bashfulness as the little boy over the way came to trundle hoops with me, but I have never felt that fervid and deep emotion which accords with my idea of love.”
“May I ask, then, Miss Finnock, if you have given nothing in return for the many hearts laid at your feet?”
“There have been no——;” she commenced the truth but caught herself, and said:
“I have never had an offer of love I believed sincere, nor, indeed, one that I could reciprocate.”
I knew that I ought not to say anything more, but Carlotta had offended me, and I was reckless.
“But did you believe a love sincere, would you return it?” I asked, deepening my tone of voice to the dramatic.
Her eyes came timidly up to mine, and then fell again as she said softly:
“That depends on whose the love was.”
“Miss Finnock!” I said, drawing hearer, “If I——.”
“Hush! hush! here comes Lil,” she said, raising her hands in warning. “Oh, how provoking!” she added, with a look that was intended to be sweet.
As I looked up, Mrs. Marshman entered the room, and little knowing howde tropshe was, took a seat near us and commenced some ordinary topic of conversation. I felt relieved, and was therefore quite affable, but Miss Finnock seemed put out about something, and was scarcely civil in her replies to her. She soon excused herself, and leaving Mrs. M. and myself in the parlor, ran up stairs. She was gone about ten minutes, and returning, brought with her abark-and-bead cigar case, which, after a moment’s hesitation, she gave me, with the remark: “I purchased that from the old Indian, Mr. Smith, and I beg that you will accept and preserve it as asouvenirof this morning, and of our mutual admiration of the red man.”
“Why, Saph!” said Mrs. Marshman, while I was bowing my acknowledgments, “you do not know Mr. Smith well enough to make him a present.”
“Mr. Smith appreciates the gift, and will not misconstrue my motives. I dare say he will remember our conversation,” she added, glancing archly at me.
I assured her that I would, and would eternally treasure the case, with pleasant memories of the fair donor, and of our delightful converse, and even ventured on the hackneyed rhapsody about death alone being competent to part the said case and myself. She bowed and blushed, and I toyed with the case in the momentary silence that ensued, and opening saw that there was a crumpled note deep down in it. Just as I was inserting two fingers to reach it a waiter approached, and presented his salver, on which lay two cards. I looked up in surprise as I read the names, “Herrara Lola” and “Lola Rurlestone,” and asked where they were.
“In the lower parlor, sir,” he said, bowing as I rose to follow him. I excused myself to the two ladies, and thoughtlessly left the cigar case on an ottoman where I had laid it when I took up the cards.
In the lower parlor I found Carlotta and her cousin waiting for me. Carlotta was standing near the piano, looking expectantly towards the door, while Herrara was leaning carelessly against the instrument, turning over the leaves of a music portfolio.
“John, what on earth did you mean by leaving us so abruptly,” said Carlotta, making a feint of striking me with her glove. “I would have thought you offended if I could have imagined any cause.”
“You ought to have known me better,” was all I could think of for a reply.
“Well, it makes no difference now, but you must go back with us. Mrs. Smith sent us over after you. She says she has scarcely spoken to you since we found you.”
“I am at your service,” I said, and Herrara rose up from the piano languidly and said:
“Mr. Smith will escort you back, Lola; I’ll go to the billiard room.”
“May I tell him, Herra?” asked Carlotta, as he walked off; “it’s such a short time.”
“I don’t care,” he replied, as he lifted his hat gracefully and left the parlor.
“May I ask what it is you wish to tell?” I said, feeling an interest in all secrets between them.
“Everybody believes here that Cousin Herrara and I are engaged, and I assure you it is very inconvenient, for it deprives me of a quantity of attention which you know I would receive, and I believe from your conduct you have fallen into the same error.”
“I have had sufficient reason for such a belief,” I replied.
“Well, it’s no such thing. He is engaged to a lady in Madrid. He returns to Cuba next month, and then sails to Spain for his beautiful bride.”
“Then you are still in the market?” I said, with an unaccountable feeling of relief at my heart.
“Of course I am,” she replied, as we ran across the street to Congress Hall.
We had hardly joined father and mother in the parlor before a servant appeared with cards for Carlotta, and soon Monte and two others entered.
As she received them across the room I was left to a quiet talk with my parents. We had not told each other a tithe of what we had to tell when I saw the gentlemen rise and accompany Carlotta to the piano. As she seated herselfgracefully at the instrument, and gave the warbling keys the petting of a prelude, there was a hush round the room, and I listened eagerly for the first note. She sang a soft Italian air, as full of mellow, rich trillings as a nightingale’s song, and her splendid voice, perfect in its culture, rose and fell with exquisite melody and wondrous expression through the difficult measures. Its floods of glorious music so filled the room that we could not have told where the notes came from but for the throbbing of her Parian throat. When the last sound had died away, like the sobbing of a silver bell, every one gave the rapt applause of silence, till Monte, with his affected drawl, asked for a half dozen screeching arias. When she had sung enough the gentlemen left, and I was hoping that I would have her to myself, when another waiter appeared with more cards, and I found I would only have to play spectator at her levee.
I intended to move over to their hotel, but found, on application at the office, that it was too much crowded, and kept my rooms at the Union. That evening at tea I found Mr. Marshman and lady present, but Miss Finnock had finished and gone to her room. Underneath my plate I found the cigar case and a note. I looked up in some confusion, and found Mrs. Marshman smiling at me, as if she thought our love was a foregone conclusion.
“Sappho is a dear little girl, isn’t she?” she said, as I unfolded the note.
“Very,” I replied laconically, finding, without surprise, that the note was a string of verses, as follows:
“Forgotten the gift, the giver, alas!
Cannot claim the least thought in the day.
With me all the moments and seconds that pass
Bear an image of thee on their way.
This morning, suspenseful, I hung on thy speech,
And Time, oh, too swiftly did fly;
The cup is dashed down before my lips reach
It, and bliss is cut off with ‘If I——’
And oh! what a vista of happiness opes
At the touch of the Sesame ‘if;’
What a sun-colored life, what a Canaan of hopes
Do I glimpse through the unclosing rift.”
There was no signature, but a holly leaf was pinned at the bottom of the verses. The emblem of holly I knew to be “Forgotten;” but if I had picked the verses up in Bessarabia I would have known Miss Finnock wrote them. I folded them up carefully and put the cigar case in my pocket, and finished my tea in silence, Mrs. Marshman having risen from the table while I was reading. I was really annoyed at the turn things had taken. If Miss Finnock had been an experienced flirt I should have regarded the affair as capital fun, but I felt sure Miss F. was in earnest; for, though she was old enough, she had never had much experience, and I had not attained that very desirable point of social education when I could knowingly trifle with a young lady’s feelings. I resolved once not to see her again, but remembered that I had an engagement to visit the encampment with her next morning.
“Well,” I said, resignedly, as I lit my cigar on the lawn, “I will certainly not commit myself farther. No word or hint of love will I give to-morrow.”
CHAPTER XXXVI.Thewaiter’s reveille was very unwelcome next morning, but I rose and dressed and found Miss Finnock already in the parlor.“Oh, the morning air is so bracing, is it not?” she said, as we left the hotel; “it buoys one up so; I feel so light-hearted and free early in the morning; I am as airy as afeather,” and she almost skipped in her youthful exuberance of spirits.“You had better weigh,” I said, somewhat morosely, as we passed the old lame man and his scales.I confess I was out of humor. Can you blame me? To be roused at such an hour, to parade over to see tiresome Indians, with a fidgety little woman, who was trying to captivate me, and whom I hated now. Would not her very flow of spirits be provoking?“See yon dew-drops how they sparkle,” she exclaimed, pointing with a finger on which shone a diamond ring over her glove. “Nature, unlike the ladies, wears her jewels at morn.”“Then the ladies are not natural,” I said emptily.“Oh! I confess we are quite artificial in many respects, though not artful—at least I am not.”“Really, Miss Finnock, do you confess to artificial aid in your beauty?”“If I had any beauty it would be artificial, of course. You admire beauty, do you not—your lady love is so beautiful?”“To whom do you refer as my lady love, Miss Finnock?”“Why, the lady who called you away from me yesterday. Please tell me if you love her. Now, confide in me, won’t you?” and she looked up at me with an affected squint in her broad little eyes.“I would trust you, Miss Finnock, but there is nothing to confide.”“Then, of course, there is no love, as that is something of great importance.”“Do you think so?” I said, vacantly, as we entered the camp ground. We spent half an hour strolling about, and after I had given five dollars for an old bead basket, that was said to have some Indian legend connected with it, and presented it to the little enthusiast, we turned back to our hotel. I was unusually dull, for I felt that it would be inconsistentwith previous attentions and her expectations to introduce commonplace topics, and I had determined not even to hint at love. She seemed to notice my reticence, and tried to rally me.“You do not seem as cheerful as usual, Mr. Smith. Can I have offended you in any way?”“Thank you, Miss Finnock, for the hint that I am not entertaining,” I said, glad of anything to take up; “let us hasten our steps that you may be the sooner relieved of my presence.”“Oh, how cruelly you misinterpret my meaning. The pleasure of your company is as great—I mean that——” she feigned confusion, “I like to be with you, but there is such a change in your manner since yesterday.”“Is there?” I said, mechanically, and thoughtlessly continued: “I was hardly aware of it. I am sure my feelings have not changed.”“Have they not?” she exclaimed eagerly; “neither have mine.”‘Twas too far gone to correct, and so I said nothing. After another pause she tried to look roguish and said, “Did you not chastise the waiter for his interruption yesterday?”What could I say but that I feared she had already rewarded him for so opportune an entrance.“I regretted it as much as you possibly could,” she said, softly looking down at the beaten path.It was abrupt, perhaps unkind, but I inquired if she would take a glass of water, as we were just then near the springs. She assented with a slightly reproachful look, and we approached the circular railing, which was surrounded by a throng of health-seeking drinkers, all eagerly waiting for the glasses from the long whirling dippers.It was the same crowd that is always there. The stylish young lady, who puts her glass down after the third sip; the pale young man with the large Adam’s apple, which goesup and down his throat like the piston of a pump, carrying down whole gills of water at every gulp; the tall school girl, with her hair plaited in ribbons, leaning over to the glass and holding her dress back with one hand from its drippings; the fat bad child, his mother holding a glass to his mouth, and resting her hand on his head as if it was the faucet she had to hold open for the water to run down; and the delicate, meek boy, who has been brought to the springs by his father, who is now standing by, watching with deep interest and a notch stick the glasses he takes. Poor little fellow! standing with a Hogarth’s curve in his shoulders, both hands grasping the glass, he swigs away, while the veins and leaders in his neck swell and tighten, and the dark lines under his eyes grow deeper, and his eyelids redder, as they disappear behind the rising edge of the tumbler. He takes it down and blows out: “How many’s that, pa?” and receiving the plaudit, “Five, my dear boy,” is led away to the hotel, to spend the day in his room, instead of playing himself into health with other children.When Miss Finnock and I had left the pagoda, and were walking up the hill towards the hotel, she made a pretence of pondering over something, and suddenly said:“Mr. Smith, will you tell me something if I ask you?”“Most assuredly, Miss Finnock, if it is in my power to do so.”“Well, I want to know—no, I can’t ask you now, I’ll wait till we part at the hotel.”When we ascended the steps I begged to know her question.“Oh! I cannot tell, it sounds so silly,” she said, twirling the Indian basket with assumed bashfulness.“I must bid you good morning, then,” I said, turning to leave.“No, I will tell you; I don’t mind; I only wanted to know the remainder of the sentence you left unfinished yesterday.”“I will tell you soon,” I replied, bowing and leaving her, for I knew not what else to say. Now I am in for it, I said to myself, as I walked across the street to Congress Hall, to breakfast with our family. I will consult Carlotta upon it and take her advice.As unpleasant as my walk had been in some respects, it had imparted an appetite that made porterhouse steaks andomelettes souffledisappear with a celerity alarming to the proprietors. As we rose from the table Carlotta told me that she and Lola were going over to the lake, and insisted that I should join them. As I now felt no delicacy about obtruding, since she had informed me of the relation she sustained to him, I consented. Lola and I had scarcely finished our cigars when his carriage was announced, and, going up to our parlors we found Carlotta waiting, the picture of perfect loveliness, beneath a broad sun hat. The road was already filled with vehicles, and the dust was floating in clouds about our faces; Lola leaned forward and spoke to the driver; “Go ahead, Michael,” and with dizzy speed his splendid horses whirled us past every team, and we were breathing again the pure fresh air.When we reached the lake house, and had refreshed with some ices, I went down and secured a boat for a sail. Lola said he preferred the bowling alley, and Carlotta and I took our places in the graceful little craft I had chosen. My experience on the Sound at home had made me a good sailor, and I dismissed the boatman.Running up the sail and getting before the wind, so that there was no danger of a gybe, I lashed the rudder so as to direct our course across the lake, and took my seat by Carlotta under the awning. The scene and situation were enchanting. The purple hills held the crystal lake in their bosom, like an immense dew drop, while soft fleecy clouds floated off from their hazy tops like smoke from an altar. The glittering surface of the lake was crimped by the breezeinto myriad ruffles, that rustled their little foam against our vessel’s side. Other boats were sailing far off, and with their glistening canvas looked like white herons flying hither and thither with a slow, objectless flight. Behind us was the lake-house, its verandahs thronged with people, its carriage way crowded with constantly arriving and departing vehicles, and at the water’s edge, a long walk-way extending out into the lake—all receding farther and farther from us. By my side was Carlotta, a bright glow on her cheeks, her beautiful eyes beaming with pleasure, and her magnificent hair caught up in an immense coil, that seemed oppressive in its weight as it was bewitching in its negligée. One glove was withdrawn and her sleeve pushed high up the swelling arm, while the dimpled hand dangled in the rippling waters, that reflected the smooth white fingers in crooked, dancing outlines. Out on the lake alone, and Heaven only knows how I loved her! yet I did not dare to disclose it. The very intimacy of our childhood, the relations we bore to each other in our family, the brilliancy of her career in society, and the constant adulation she received, all made me feel that she could regard my tame proposal of love with nothing less than ridicule. So, while my heart fluttered with its restrained emotion, I spoke carelessly and lightly, admiring the view with her, and quoting Wordsworth and Tupper with pedantic inaptitude. Leaving scenery we became more personal, and, after asking her secrecy, I told her of my affair with Miss Finnock and asked her advice.“And you promised to finish the sentence soon?” she said, laughing, and flipping the water from her fingers’ ends as she drew on her glove; “what was its intended conclusion?”“I was about to ask her that, if I were to offer my hand and heart, would she accept?” feeling a little ashamed of the commonplace phrases.“A subjunctive courtship, truly,” she said, smiling, as she took off her hat and threw back her hair from her white forehead to catch the fresh breeze. “Well, you have, indeed, committed yourself. You have attached too much importance to the matter, by deferring it, to give it some trivial conclusion, such as, ‘were I to raise the piano would you play?’ or, if I call this evening, will you ride with me? You have promised, and her heart is beating high with expectation.”“It will beat a long time before it is satisfied, then,” I said, somewhat morosely.“Suppose you write her a note, and candidly inform her that your feelings have undergone a change,” she suggested archly.“That would wound her feelings,” I said, “and I cannot do that.”“But are you sure the lady loves you? That is a matter of some importance.”“I have every reason to believe it.”“I see nothing that you can do but wait the issue of events. Wouldn’t it be funny if you had to marry her, or be sued for a breach of promise?”“Pardon me for not seeing the fun in either case,” I replied, shuddering at the bare idea of marrying her; “but see, here comes another boat!”The large boat at the lake house had been manned, and was rapidly catching up with us, under the pressure of sails, and oars to which a couple of stout Irishmen were bending. As they drew nearer we saw that the occupants were Mr. Marshman and party. Miss Finnock was sitting in the prow of the boat, armed with an opera glass, which she now lowered from the hills to our boat. I fancied her eyes grew wider apart as she saw who my companion was. Their boat came swiftly on, foaming at her prow, and bearing down upon us like a pirate on a prize.They were near enough now to bow, and I raised myself from my reclining position to touch my hat. Mr. Finnock was steering, and I saw he knew nothing about it.As I had tied my rudder I did not unloose it, as I thought of course they would pass by. Such was Finnock’s intention, but attempting to bear to one side, he gave the rudder too strong a turn, and to correct that turned too much the other way, and their boat, at full speed, ran obliquely against us. Carlotta and Miss Finnock both had risen to their feet as they saw the impending collision, and were both precipitated into the water, between the boats, which separated as soon as they struck.Carlotta had scarcely touched the water before I was by her side.Did you ever see waves close over one you love? then you know the horror that stamped the whole scene upon my memory, indelible in its distinctness, and perfectly vivid in its minutest detail. Her frightened look, as the boats came together, her agonizing cry for help as she fell, the dull splash of the water, the eddies that curled above the place she sank, all are present still. I remember now how clear the water was, and how, as with one stroke of my hands, I reached the spot, I saw her dress floating scarce beneath the surface, and then her face, distorted in her convulsive struggles for life, slowly rising upward. To draw her head above the surface was the work of a second, and as soon as she had cleared the water from her eyes and mouth sufficiently to become conscious, I bade her take my hand, and with the other commenced to swim to the nearest boat. As soon as she realized the situation she regained her presence of mind, and clung to me tenderly, though not so as to impede my movements. The large boat was not more than a dozen feet from us, and the occupants, as is usual in such cases, were in a frenzy of salvation, throwing overboard for our assistance, everything that would float. One of theirintended life-buoys—a heavy oar—struck me on the head, almost stunning me, but I shook the water from my eyes and struggled on. The next moment my feet became entangled in a web of garments, a bubbling shriek burst forth close at my ear, and my arms were pinioned by the frantic Miss Finnock, who rose near me.“B-r-r-sh ok—ok—Oh! chtl-Mr. Smith k-k—tl save your-k—d-arling, tlsave me k-ok—Oh! tlsave-k-me. D-ts-earest tsave me;” and, sputtering and choking, she clung to my neck, dragging me down irresistibly. As soon as Carlotta saw my danger, she let go my hand, and said, in her trembling voice, “Save yourself, John!”But all this occurred in half the time I have taken to write it, and the people in the boat had now recovered their senses. The two Irishmen were in the water, and Mr. Marshman and Finnock stood ready with ropes to aid them. Carlotta was first drawn on board, then Miss Finnock and myself. Mr. Marshman fortunately happened to have a flask of brandy along, so the ladies went to work on the ladies, the gentlemen on me, while the boat hands overhauled our little boat, took down the sail, and lashed it fast to the large one. At first I felt weak and dizzy, but after a while I was able to sit up, though I could not render much help to the others. Carlotta was very pale, and her loosened hair, rendered still more glossy by the water, hung in jetty masses around her marble features. She was conscious, though faint, and lay helplessly in Mrs. Marshman’s lap, occasionally raising her soft eyes to mine with an expression so full of grateful meaning that it thrilled me into life and activity. Miss Finnock had fainted, of course, and lay like one dead in Miss Stelway’s lap.The pallor on her face did not tend to increase her beauty, and a large roll of wet hair was hanging to her own knot by a single hair-pin.Finnock and Miss Stelway were chafing her hands, andtrying to get some of the brandy between her lips. Mrs. Marshman suggested unfastening her clothing, but after Miss Stelway had stolen a hand under her bodice, she withdrew it hopelessly, as if there was rather too much to undo and cut.Very soon Miss F. commenced gasping, like a fish on a sand bank, and opening and closing her eyes in the most approved stage-faint style. Miss Stelway kissed her forehead, and called her “dear Saph,” with a fine resuscitating effect, for little Sappho began to utter broken sentences in faint but nervous sudden tones, jerking the words out, as if she could not control them.“Oh where—where—is he?” she said, looking straight up into Miss Stelway’s face. “She sunk—him—I know she—did. I saw—her cling-ing to him.”With Miss Stelway’s assistance she sat up, and her eyes met mine. When, with an affected scream, she buried her face in Miss Stelway’s bosom, and sobbed.“There, darling,” said Miss S., “compose yourself; we all are safe, and are nearly at the shore.”“Oh, Nellie,” said Miss Finnock, between her sobs, “did—they—all—see my—feet?”Those at the Lake House had seen the accident, and Herrara met us at the shore with his carriage. We drove rapidly back to the town, and were met by mother, with uplifted hands and a face full of horror. Afraid of forming a scene, I bade them good morning, and went over to my room to change my clothes. A strange happiness was at my heart, for Carlotta had pressed my hand, when we parted, with grateful fervor.
Thewaiter’s reveille was very unwelcome next morning, but I rose and dressed and found Miss Finnock already in the parlor.
“Oh, the morning air is so bracing, is it not?” she said, as we left the hotel; “it buoys one up so; I feel so light-hearted and free early in the morning; I am as airy as afeather,” and she almost skipped in her youthful exuberance of spirits.
“You had better weigh,” I said, somewhat morosely, as we passed the old lame man and his scales.
I confess I was out of humor. Can you blame me? To be roused at such an hour, to parade over to see tiresome Indians, with a fidgety little woman, who was trying to captivate me, and whom I hated now. Would not her very flow of spirits be provoking?
“See yon dew-drops how they sparkle,” she exclaimed, pointing with a finger on which shone a diamond ring over her glove. “Nature, unlike the ladies, wears her jewels at morn.”
“Then the ladies are not natural,” I said emptily.
“Oh! I confess we are quite artificial in many respects, though not artful—at least I am not.”
“Really, Miss Finnock, do you confess to artificial aid in your beauty?”
“If I had any beauty it would be artificial, of course. You admire beauty, do you not—your lady love is so beautiful?”
“To whom do you refer as my lady love, Miss Finnock?”
“Why, the lady who called you away from me yesterday. Please tell me if you love her. Now, confide in me, won’t you?” and she looked up at me with an affected squint in her broad little eyes.
“I would trust you, Miss Finnock, but there is nothing to confide.”
“Then, of course, there is no love, as that is something of great importance.”
“Do you think so?” I said, vacantly, as we entered the camp ground. We spent half an hour strolling about, and after I had given five dollars for an old bead basket, that was said to have some Indian legend connected with it, and presented it to the little enthusiast, we turned back to our hotel. I was unusually dull, for I felt that it would be inconsistentwith previous attentions and her expectations to introduce commonplace topics, and I had determined not even to hint at love. She seemed to notice my reticence, and tried to rally me.
“You do not seem as cheerful as usual, Mr. Smith. Can I have offended you in any way?”
“Thank you, Miss Finnock, for the hint that I am not entertaining,” I said, glad of anything to take up; “let us hasten our steps that you may be the sooner relieved of my presence.”
“Oh, how cruelly you misinterpret my meaning. The pleasure of your company is as great—I mean that——” she feigned confusion, “I like to be with you, but there is such a change in your manner since yesterday.”
“Is there?” I said, mechanically, and thoughtlessly continued: “I was hardly aware of it. I am sure my feelings have not changed.”
“Have they not?” she exclaimed eagerly; “neither have mine.”
‘Twas too far gone to correct, and so I said nothing. After another pause she tried to look roguish and said, “Did you not chastise the waiter for his interruption yesterday?”
What could I say but that I feared she had already rewarded him for so opportune an entrance.
“I regretted it as much as you possibly could,” she said, softly looking down at the beaten path.
It was abrupt, perhaps unkind, but I inquired if she would take a glass of water, as we were just then near the springs. She assented with a slightly reproachful look, and we approached the circular railing, which was surrounded by a throng of health-seeking drinkers, all eagerly waiting for the glasses from the long whirling dippers.
It was the same crowd that is always there. The stylish young lady, who puts her glass down after the third sip; the pale young man with the large Adam’s apple, which goesup and down his throat like the piston of a pump, carrying down whole gills of water at every gulp; the tall school girl, with her hair plaited in ribbons, leaning over to the glass and holding her dress back with one hand from its drippings; the fat bad child, his mother holding a glass to his mouth, and resting her hand on his head as if it was the faucet she had to hold open for the water to run down; and the delicate, meek boy, who has been brought to the springs by his father, who is now standing by, watching with deep interest and a notch stick the glasses he takes. Poor little fellow! standing with a Hogarth’s curve in his shoulders, both hands grasping the glass, he swigs away, while the veins and leaders in his neck swell and tighten, and the dark lines under his eyes grow deeper, and his eyelids redder, as they disappear behind the rising edge of the tumbler. He takes it down and blows out: “How many’s that, pa?” and receiving the plaudit, “Five, my dear boy,” is led away to the hotel, to spend the day in his room, instead of playing himself into health with other children.
When Miss Finnock and I had left the pagoda, and were walking up the hill towards the hotel, she made a pretence of pondering over something, and suddenly said:
“Mr. Smith, will you tell me something if I ask you?”
“Most assuredly, Miss Finnock, if it is in my power to do so.”
“Well, I want to know—no, I can’t ask you now, I’ll wait till we part at the hotel.”
When we ascended the steps I begged to know her question.
“Oh! I cannot tell, it sounds so silly,” she said, twirling the Indian basket with assumed bashfulness.
“I must bid you good morning, then,” I said, turning to leave.
“No, I will tell you; I don’t mind; I only wanted to know the remainder of the sentence you left unfinished yesterday.”
“I will tell you soon,” I replied, bowing and leaving her, for I knew not what else to say. Now I am in for it, I said to myself, as I walked across the street to Congress Hall, to breakfast with our family. I will consult Carlotta upon it and take her advice.
As unpleasant as my walk had been in some respects, it had imparted an appetite that made porterhouse steaks andomelettes souffledisappear with a celerity alarming to the proprietors. As we rose from the table Carlotta told me that she and Lola were going over to the lake, and insisted that I should join them. As I now felt no delicacy about obtruding, since she had informed me of the relation she sustained to him, I consented. Lola and I had scarcely finished our cigars when his carriage was announced, and, going up to our parlors we found Carlotta waiting, the picture of perfect loveliness, beneath a broad sun hat. The road was already filled with vehicles, and the dust was floating in clouds about our faces; Lola leaned forward and spoke to the driver; “Go ahead, Michael,” and with dizzy speed his splendid horses whirled us past every team, and we were breathing again the pure fresh air.
When we reached the lake house, and had refreshed with some ices, I went down and secured a boat for a sail. Lola said he preferred the bowling alley, and Carlotta and I took our places in the graceful little craft I had chosen. My experience on the Sound at home had made me a good sailor, and I dismissed the boatman.
Running up the sail and getting before the wind, so that there was no danger of a gybe, I lashed the rudder so as to direct our course across the lake, and took my seat by Carlotta under the awning. The scene and situation were enchanting. The purple hills held the crystal lake in their bosom, like an immense dew drop, while soft fleecy clouds floated off from their hazy tops like smoke from an altar. The glittering surface of the lake was crimped by the breezeinto myriad ruffles, that rustled their little foam against our vessel’s side. Other boats were sailing far off, and with their glistening canvas looked like white herons flying hither and thither with a slow, objectless flight. Behind us was the lake-house, its verandahs thronged with people, its carriage way crowded with constantly arriving and departing vehicles, and at the water’s edge, a long walk-way extending out into the lake—all receding farther and farther from us. By my side was Carlotta, a bright glow on her cheeks, her beautiful eyes beaming with pleasure, and her magnificent hair caught up in an immense coil, that seemed oppressive in its weight as it was bewitching in its negligée. One glove was withdrawn and her sleeve pushed high up the swelling arm, while the dimpled hand dangled in the rippling waters, that reflected the smooth white fingers in crooked, dancing outlines. Out on the lake alone, and Heaven only knows how I loved her! yet I did not dare to disclose it. The very intimacy of our childhood, the relations we bore to each other in our family, the brilliancy of her career in society, and the constant adulation she received, all made me feel that she could regard my tame proposal of love with nothing less than ridicule. So, while my heart fluttered with its restrained emotion, I spoke carelessly and lightly, admiring the view with her, and quoting Wordsworth and Tupper with pedantic inaptitude. Leaving scenery we became more personal, and, after asking her secrecy, I told her of my affair with Miss Finnock and asked her advice.
“And you promised to finish the sentence soon?” she said, laughing, and flipping the water from her fingers’ ends as she drew on her glove; “what was its intended conclusion?”
“I was about to ask her that, if I were to offer my hand and heart, would she accept?” feeling a little ashamed of the commonplace phrases.
“A subjunctive courtship, truly,” she said, smiling, as she took off her hat and threw back her hair from her white forehead to catch the fresh breeze. “Well, you have, indeed, committed yourself. You have attached too much importance to the matter, by deferring it, to give it some trivial conclusion, such as, ‘were I to raise the piano would you play?’ or, if I call this evening, will you ride with me? You have promised, and her heart is beating high with expectation.”
“It will beat a long time before it is satisfied, then,” I said, somewhat morosely.
“Suppose you write her a note, and candidly inform her that your feelings have undergone a change,” she suggested archly.
“That would wound her feelings,” I said, “and I cannot do that.”
“But are you sure the lady loves you? That is a matter of some importance.”
“I have every reason to believe it.”
“I see nothing that you can do but wait the issue of events. Wouldn’t it be funny if you had to marry her, or be sued for a breach of promise?”
“Pardon me for not seeing the fun in either case,” I replied, shuddering at the bare idea of marrying her; “but see, here comes another boat!”
The large boat at the lake house had been manned, and was rapidly catching up with us, under the pressure of sails, and oars to which a couple of stout Irishmen were bending. As they drew nearer we saw that the occupants were Mr. Marshman and party. Miss Finnock was sitting in the prow of the boat, armed with an opera glass, which she now lowered from the hills to our boat. I fancied her eyes grew wider apart as she saw who my companion was. Their boat came swiftly on, foaming at her prow, and bearing down upon us like a pirate on a prize.
They were near enough now to bow, and I raised myself from my reclining position to touch my hat. Mr. Finnock was steering, and I saw he knew nothing about it.
As I had tied my rudder I did not unloose it, as I thought of course they would pass by. Such was Finnock’s intention, but attempting to bear to one side, he gave the rudder too strong a turn, and to correct that turned too much the other way, and their boat, at full speed, ran obliquely against us. Carlotta and Miss Finnock both had risen to their feet as they saw the impending collision, and were both precipitated into the water, between the boats, which separated as soon as they struck.
Carlotta had scarcely touched the water before I was by her side.
Did you ever see waves close over one you love? then you know the horror that stamped the whole scene upon my memory, indelible in its distinctness, and perfectly vivid in its minutest detail. Her frightened look, as the boats came together, her agonizing cry for help as she fell, the dull splash of the water, the eddies that curled above the place she sank, all are present still. I remember now how clear the water was, and how, as with one stroke of my hands, I reached the spot, I saw her dress floating scarce beneath the surface, and then her face, distorted in her convulsive struggles for life, slowly rising upward. To draw her head above the surface was the work of a second, and as soon as she had cleared the water from her eyes and mouth sufficiently to become conscious, I bade her take my hand, and with the other commenced to swim to the nearest boat. As soon as she realized the situation she regained her presence of mind, and clung to me tenderly, though not so as to impede my movements. The large boat was not more than a dozen feet from us, and the occupants, as is usual in such cases, were in a frenzy of salvation, throwing overboard for our assistance, everything that would float. One of theirintended life-buoys—a heavy oar—struck me on the head, almost stunning me, but I shook the water from my eyes and struggled on. The next moment my feet became entangled in a web of garments, a bubbling shriek burst forth close at my ear, and my arms were pinioned by the frantic Miss Finnock, who rose near me.
“B-r-r-sh ok—ok—Oh! chtl-Mr. Smith k-k—tl save your-k—d-arling, tlsave me k-ok—Oh! tlsave-k-me. D-ts-earest tsave me;” and, sputtering and choking, she clung to my neck, dragging me down irresistibly. As soon as Carlotta saw my danger, she let go my hand, and said, in her trembling voice, “Save yourself, John!”
But all this occurred in half the time I have taken to write it, and the people in the boat had now recovered their senses. The two Irishmen were in the water, and Mr. Marshman and Finnock stood ready with ropes to aid them. Carlotta was first drawn on board, then Miss Finnock and myself. Mr. Marshman fortunately happened to have a flask of brandy along, so the ladies went to work on the ladies, the gentlemen on me, while the boat hands overhauled our little boat, took down the sail, and lashed it fast to the large one. At first I felt weak and dizzy, but after a while I was able to sit up, though I could not render much help to the others. Carlotta was very pale, and her loosened hair, rendered still more glossy by the water, hung in jetty masses around her marble features. She was conscious, though faint, and lay helplessly in Mrs. Marshman’s lap, occasionally raising her soft eyes to mine with an expression so full of grateful meaning that it thrilled me into life and activity. Miss Finnock had fainted, of course, and lay like one dead in Miss Stelway’s lap.
The pallor on her face did not tend to increase her beauty, and a large roll of wet hair was hanging to her own knot by a single hair-pin.
Finnock and Miss Stelway were chafing her hands, andtrying to get some of the brandy between her lips. Mrs. Marshman suggested unfastening her clothing, but after Miss Stelway had stolen a hand under her bodice, she withdrew it hopelessly, as if there was rather too much to undo and cut.
Very soon Miss F. commenced gasping, like a fish on a sand bank, and opening and closing her eyes in the most approved stage-faint style. Miss Stelway kissed her forehead, and called her “dear Saph,” with a fine resuscitating effect, for little Sappho began to utter broken sentences in faint but nervous sudden tones, jerking the words out, as if she could not control them.
“Oh where—where—is he?” she said, looking straight up into Miss Stelway’s face. “She sunk—him—I know she—did. I saw—her cling-ing to him.”
With Miss Stelway’s assistance she sat up, and her eyes met mine. When, with an affected scream, she buried her face in Miss Stelway’s bosom, and sobbed.
“There, darling,” said Miss S., “compose yourself; we all are safe, and are nearly at the shore.”
“Oh, Nellie,” said Miss Finnock, between her sobs, “did—they—all—see my—feet?”
Those at the Lake House had seen the accident, and Herrara met us at the shore with his carriage. We drove rapidly back to the town, and were met by mother, with uplifted hands and a face full of horror. Afraid of forming a scene, I bade them good morning, and went over to my room to change my clothes. A strange happiness was at my heart, for Carlotta had pressed my hand, when we parted, with grateful fervor.
CHAPTER XXXVII.Ouraccident formed quite a subject of sensation in Saratoga, and, in a small way, I found myself the hero of the occasion, and scores of the “fellows” echoed Monte’s sentiments, when he said:“Smith, I vow I would like to have been in your place. ‘Twas jolly, I know, saving that angelic Lola. The devil take your good luck! did she hold on tight?”The afternoon following the day of the disaster I went over to Congress Hall, and sent up my card, and inquiries after Carlotta’s health. The servant returned with a card from mother, saying Carlotta was almost well enough to go out, but that she was now sleeping under the influence of an opiate, and must remain quiet all the evening. They were in their parlor, and insisted that I should join them. I immediately went up stairs, and was met at the door by mother, with her bonnet on. She invited me in, in a whisper, and explained that she had just gotten ready to do some shopping that was necessary. She pointed to the centre table, on which were some new books, and begged me to amuse myself for a quarter of an hour, when she would be back, or Carlotta would awaken.I accordingly took my seat, nothing loth to watch over such a beautiful charge, and picking upBeulah, which was the sensation just then, began to read. The room was very quiet, and the shaded light from the soft green curtains was very pleasant, but I could not become interested in the book, and, laying it down, I moved a chair noiselessly near Carlotta, and sat silently looking and loving. She was reclining on a folding lounge of pink damask, that reflected a faint tint on her face, which was white as marble. Her hair was parted simply over her forehead, and fell in voluminous waves over the pillow, while her lashes lay in deep blackcrescents on her cheeks. One soft hand rested under her face, while the other lay at her side, its tapering fingers half closed. No quivers of the lids, no slightest motion, told of life, save the rise and fall of the snowy frill at her throat. Oh, hopeless love! the saddest of all earth’s sadness, the deepest of all earth’s gloom!She could not, did not love me, I knew from all the past and the present. To tell her of my love would only distress her and make home unhappy. Mine alone must be the struggle and the victory. I would kneel by her side, touch her cheek but once with my lips, and henceforth only be her brother. I rose softly and knelt by the sofa, and my face bent over hers. That kiss was to be the seal of my silence, and I was, from that moment, to bury the love of my life in my own heart, and trust to Time to build its tomb. I steadied myself with one hand on the back of the sofa, leaned down, and whispering only that one word, “Darling!” kissed her cheek. As gentle as was my touch her eyes unclosed and she looked in my face. Overwhelmed with shame and confusion, I could not move or speak, but kneeled motionless with our faces almost touching, and my eyes fixed on hers. The next instant her soft arm was laid timidly around my neck, and, with a look that thrilled my very soul, she said, in a tone of wondrous tenderness, “John!” It was only one word, but it told me all; and the next instant, in a delirium of surprise and joy, I had clasped her in my arms, kissing her brow, and cheeks, and mouth, and murmuring, “Darling, do you love me?”And when Reason had returned, what a Heaven on earth ‘twas to sit by her side, to hold her hand in mine, to feel the glorious resurrection of hope and love from the grave to which I was about to consign them, to know that the very truth and sincerity of her nature assured the certainty and earnestness of her love for me! Then it was such a delightful surprise, so different from what I expected, that I fearedit could not be true—that it was all a dream. “Carlotta,” I said, looking at her fondly, “is this real, do you love me? Is it possible that, after all my fears, all my despair, you will be mine, my own darling—mine to love, cherish and honor, with a devotion man never knew before?” She looked up into my face with a depth of truth in her dark eyes that dispelled every doubt, as she said:“I have always loved you, John.”“Always, Lottie? What hours of unhappiness ‘twould have saved me had I known it; for, though I have loved you constantly during these long years of our separation, yet I have felt that my love was hopeless, and while I treasured that dear curl, the pledge of your remembrance, I somehow felt that you would remember me only as the friend, perhaps the brother of your childhood. As I received letters telling me of your growth into beautiful womanhood, and of the attention and devotion that were lavished upon you everywhere, I felt that the gulf between us was widening—that you would return proud and supercilious, inflated with your success, and contemptuous of my quiet student life. Almost fearing to meet you, I delayed along my trip, hoping that when I reached Niagara I would find our party gone; hence I stopped at the Springs, intending, after a week’s stay, to run across to the Falls. You know the rest; how cordially you met me, and how the thraldom of my life was sealed. The love that had glowed so steadily during your absence burst into a resistless flame before your superb beauty and lovely character. Yet O, darling, the anguish of the thought that you would never love me—that another would soon claim the hand that held in its grasp my soul! I could have borne it better had I found you haughty and vain, for then resentment would have aided me; but I found that you were still the same sweet Carlotta that had told me farewell in Raleigh; that the brilliant belle of every occasion was as guileless and pure aswhen I found her on the beach; that she was unspoilt by the caresses of society. How I worshipped you none can ever know, and I longed to fall at your feet and tell you all, but I felt sure you would laugh at the idea of ‘John’s loving,’ and this evening I was going to kiss your cheek, and bid farewell forever to my love, when you awoke—and thank Heaven for it! And now, darling, tell me again that you love me, for your voice, talking of love, is the sweetest music in the world to me.”She smiled such a tender, loving smile, and, nestling up close to me, said:“I have loved you, John, ever since we met. When I clasped your hand first after the shipwreck there was a thrill in my heart that ever came back when you were near me. So fearful was I that you might detect this feeling, that I tried to be reserved and silent in your presence, and even avoided you as much as possible. Conscious of my own love, I felt, child as I was, that every one else knew it, and hence my extreme sensitiveness at any connection of our names together. You doubtless remember the scene with Mrs. Smith, when you were asleep in the hall, or pretending to be. That explained the nature of my feelings. I shrank from the position I seemed to occupy—that of awaiting your love, and of being trained to suit that love if you pleased to confer it. While I saw you so full of Lulie and Lillian I buried my feelings in my own heart, and strove strenuously to crush them out of existence; but there were times when you were tender and loving to me, and then they came resistlessly. Do you remember one night, years ago, when we were out on the stoop, and you took my hand and held it awhile? No words can ever tell how I have treasured up that little scene. When you told me farewell, the night of our departure for Europe, and I gave you the curl, it was an earnest pledge of what I faithfully performed.”“Darling, do not speak of Lulie and Lillian. One was onlythe passing object of boyish affection, and the other a heartless though brilliant woman, who flattered me by her notice into an admiration that was as vain as it was transient. Dearest Lottie, your heart believes me, I know, when I vow that the purest, fondest love of my nature is yours, that without it all life is void and blank. Darling, have you loved me always, have you never wavered in your love, as affections more worthy, but none more devoted than mine, have been laid at your feet?”“Never, John. No faintest shadow of love for another has ever passed across my mind, and the only pleasure I took in the attention I may have received has been the thought that, if others see aught in me to love, perhaps, when we meet,hewill.”“He being myself?” I asked, looking at her with a smile.“He being yourself. There, I have made enough unladylike confessions for one afternoon; but ‘tis all a proof of my trust and confidence in you.”“As God shall help me it is not misplaced,” and I lifted her hand tenderly to my lips. “Never was man as proud of as beautiful and pure a love as I am of yours, and never was a love guarded and cherished as I will yours, and I will seek no higher happiness on earth than to keep that dear brow as bright and beautiful as now. Darling, look into my eyes and read the truth of love.”She looked, and would have read, perhaps, had not the door opened just then, and mother entered from her shopping excursion. As she saw us sitting lovingly together, Carlotta’s hand in mine, she was so utterly astounded that she stood without moving, her hands full of bundles, which kept dropping on the floor.To prevent further embarrassment, I rose from my seat, and taking mother’s hand, led her to Carlotta.“She is going to be my wife, mother,” I said, and without waiting to hear her reply, left the room.How bright and beautiful all nature seemed. The cloudless sky, the rich green foliage, and the fragrant roses scenting the evening air—all were in unison with my heart. The very birds in the lawn seemed to twitter congratulations. Nothing could have ruffled my temper; a bootblack might have thrown his brush in my face, and I would have picked it up for him with a smile. I felt that I could even be kind and courteous to Miss Finnock.In this pleasant frame of mind I went in to tea, and found the two gentlemen and Mrs. Marshman at our table, Mrs. M., after inquiries about Carlotta, and some compliments to her beauty, thought of a note for me, from Miss Finnock; and, as she gave it to me, said that Sappho had been quite indisposed all day, and had suffered severely from her fright, and the shock of the cold water.Excusing myself, I opened the little three cornered note, and read:“Will the generous and unselfish preserver of my life do me the favor to call this evening at our parlor, No.—, that I may unburden my heart of its gratitude, and offer a hecatomb of thanks to his self-sacrificing spirit. Call at eight.Waiting.”In much smaller writing, just beneath this, were some verses, as usual, across which she had drawn her pen, as if to erase them, taking care, however, to leave them sufficiently legible—“But for thy hand I might have sleptDeep in the bosom of yon lake,And no one for me would have wept,And none have wished that I might wake.”That’s the first sensible poetry you ever wrote, I muttered, as I read it. But there was more:“I would not shun the wild waves’ wrath,Could we sink clasping hand in hand,To walk together pearly pathsOf mermaids, down the coral strand.”You ought to have said “path,” Saph; you’ve spoiled your rhyme; and “mermaids” and a “coral strand,” out in this little lake, are very much strained, but so are the verses. I was, as I have stated, in a pleasant frame of mind, and thus jested to myself with the verses as I read them. The next verse, however, put the case a little more strongly:“I fain would seek a watery grave,To dwell with thee in grottoes bright,Or roam through halls where the sea-weeds wave,And love would make the darkness light.”To think of marrying her anywhere! much less down in a grotto, with sea-weeds and bad colds, and coral, etc. No, I could not “fain,” as she did; but I glanced at my watch as I rose from the table, and found that it wanted a quarter of eight. Fifteen minutes with a Partaga, and I tapped at the door of her parlor. Miss Finnock after Carlotta! ‘Twas like a dessert of nutgalls after Hymettean honey; but I felt that the necessary exercise of my ingenuity would be rather pleasant than otherwise, and looked forward to our interview, with anticipated pride in my skilful retrogression.When I entered I found Miss Finnock reclining in an easy chair, and looking as little like her Lesbian nomenclatress as scant strings of hair, an unmade, stiff figure, and pale blue eyes, in a sallow face, could make her. She smiled a faint little welcome, and pointed me to a seat in front of her.“Please lower the gas,” she said, shading her eyes with her hand; “you must excuse me, Mr. Smith, for seeing you in suchdeshabille, but I felt sure you would appreciate this liberty, and feel more free and unrestrained than if I had prepared formally to see you.”“I do appreciate and thank you for your consideration,” I said, feeling assured that if she had known how different was the effect of herdeshabillefrom what she intended it should be, she would not have been so considerate.“I sent for you, Mr. Smith,” she continued, in a whispering kind of voice, “that I might express my gratitude for your heroic efforts to save me yesterday.”I would have suspected any one else of irony, but I knew she was in earnest.“Really, Miss Finnock, you overestimate my conduct,” I said; “I must be candid with you, and tell you that I was doing all I could to save myself, which was almost impossible with yourself and Miss Rurlestone on my arms.”She looked at me with a queer little smile, and said: “What a trying ordeal for you! If no boat had been near us, ‘twould have been an effectual test of your love, indeed. Would you have found it difficult to have made a choice, if you had seen you could not save but one?”“Not at all,” I replied, hoping she would construe the preference as intended for herself, and let the subject rest.She played with the tassel of her wrapper, and said softly, “Which would you have chosen?”I pretended not to have heard, and asked if she had suffered any serious inconvenience from the accident?“Not much,” she said, with something of a sigh in her tone. “I have been feeble to-day, but hope to gain strength rapidly. I expect to take a stroll every morning before breakfast, and to ride with brother in the afternoons.”It was a very fine opening for engagements; but I had had enough of strolls, and so I said nothing. There was a pause of some length, during which I saw a scrap of paper lying on the table, and as my name was on it, I looked at it more closely. The light in the room was very dim, and Miss Finnock was all the while stealing quick glances at me; besides, I knew ‘twas highly improper to read it, yet under all these difficulties I managed to make out its purport. It was a note from Miss Belle Monte, Miss Finnock’s dearest friend and adviser, to her “precious Saph,” telling her that I was only trifling with her, that her brother had certaininformation that I was engaged to Miss Rurlestone; that my attentions to Miss F. were all insincere; that the best thing to do was to secure an interview with me, and, on my first committal, discard me promptly and finally.I now saw that I had been invited to her parlor that she might have the credit of dismissing me, and I resolved that say what she would, I would not, by any reply, give her an opportunity of so doing.“When do you think of leaving?” she asked, at length, lifting her head wearily from her hand.“We will leave to-morrow or next day for Newport, where we will spend some weeks before going home.”“Oh, that is too soon,” she said; “you have not seen enough of the Springs.”“As I have not seen my parents in several years, and came on here to meet them, I must regulate my movements by theirs. Besides,” I continued, “they were here some time before I came, and desire a change—at least, Miss Rurlestone does, I am sure—as she has captured every heart here, and perhaps pines for more.” This I said a little maliciously.“Miss Rurlestone can probably account for your filial devotion—at least gossip says so.”“Gossip knows very little about such matters,” I replied, cautiously.“But is gossip wrong in this instance?”“Oh, I must not commit myself,” I said, with a forced smile.“You are so tantalizing,” she said, throwing her tassel at me, “and that reminds me that you promised to complete that unfinished sentence soon.”“What unfinished sentence?” I asked, with pretended ignorance.“You must be forgetful, indeed; do you not remember your promise when we parted yesterday morning?”“Pardon me; I do remember now,” and instantly thethought flashed on me that I would candidly inform her of my intended flirtation, confess my sin, ask her forgiveness, and thus prevent her acting on Miss Belle Monte’s advice. “I recollect now distinctly the sentence to which you refer, and its intended termination. My remarks were made in the same light style in which we were conversing, and I had no idea you would attach sufficient importance to anything I said to think of it at all afterwards. I was about to ask, ifIloved you—if I offered my heart—would you reject it? I——”“That’s what I suspected, sir,” she cut in before I could finish, and with a deprecatory wave of her hand dismissing what I had said as painful, “and while the suspicion flattered it pained me.”“But, Miss Finnock,” I said, hurriedly, “you certainly misun——”“Flattered, indeed, I was,” she went on, without allowing my interruption, “because one so noble and gifted as yourself had conferred on me the honor of his love, and pained that I must refuse it.”I was too much astonished to reply, while she went on:“But, Mr. Smith, while a calm review of my own feelings forces me to discard you, or if that is too harsh a word, to ask you to beonlymy friend, I can assure you that our brief intercourse has been exceedingly pleasant to me. It will ever be an oasis in the desert of my past, and I trust that the rainbow of mutual regard and esteem will ever arch brightly o’er our pathways, however diverse they may be. And when Time’s fingers have plastered over the scars I regret to inflict, and you have found another love, whose voice may be sweeter, and eye brighter, and heart dearer than mine, I hope you will not think of this evening with anger, but with the pleasure of forgiveness.”“With pleasure, certainly,” I managed to edge in, as she drew her breath.“And at your life’s close,” she went on, in her peculiar strain, “may your barque furl its sails in a peaceful harbor, and having bosomed” (Sapphic for breasted) “every wave, anchor safely there.”As she paused, I broke in——“Miss Finnock, you have wofully misinterpreted my meaning. I was only jesting, as I thought you were; and my words had no more serious import than the verses in abon-bon.”“I hardly expected that you would thus try to evade the subject, Mr. Smith. But I have too much consideration for your feelings to place your name on my list of rejected ones. The result of our interview shall be strictlyentre nous.”“Your list must be immensely long, if you put every name down with as little reason as you have mine. I will leave you, Miss Finnock; for I can gain nothing in a contest with a lady who makes half the addresses she rejects.” This I said without thought, being thrown off my guard by her treatment; and the moment after I had closed the door I felt like going back to ask her pardon. Pride, however, suggested that she had overstepped the bounds of womanly delicacy in her conduct towards me, and that she must take outside treatment.
Ouraccident formed quite a subject of sensation in Saratoga, and, in a small way, I found myself the hero of the occasion, and scores of the “fellows” echoed Monte’s sentiments, when he said:
“Smith, I vow I would like to have been in your place. ‘Twas jolly, I know, saving that angelic Lola. The devil take your good luck! did she hold on tight?”
The afternoon following the day of the disaster I went over to Congress Hall, and sent up my card, and inquiries after Carlotta’s health. The servant returned with a card from mother, saying Carlotta was almost well enough to go out, but that she was now sleeping under the influence of an opiate, and must remain quiet all the evening. They were in their parlor, and insisted that I should join them. I immediately went up stairs, and was met at the door by mother, with her bonnet on. She invited me in, in a whisper, and explained that she had just gotten ready to do some shopping that was necessary. She pointed to the centre table, on which were some new books, and begged me to amuse myself for a quarter of an hour, when she would be back, or Carlotta would awaken.
I accordingly took my seat, nothing loth to watch over such a beautiful charge, and picking upBeulah, which was the sensation just then, began to read. The room was very quiet, and the shaded light from the soft green curtains was very pleasant, but I could not become interested in the book, and, laying it down, I moved a chair noiselessly near Carlotta, and sat silently looking and loving. She was reclining on a folding lounge of pink damask, that reflected a faint tint on her face, which was white as marble. Her hair was parted simply over her forehead, and fell in voluminous waves over the pillow, while her lashes lay in deep blackcrescents on her cheeks. One soft hand rested under her face, while the other lay at her side, its tapering fingers half closed. No quivers of the lids, no slightest motion, told of life, save the rise and fall of the snowy frill at her throat. Oh, hopeless love! the saddest of all earth’s sadness, the deepest of all earth’s gloom!
She could not, did not love me, I knew from all the past and the present. To tell her of my love would only distress her and make home unhappy. Mine alone must be the struggle and the victory. I would kneel by her side, touch her cheek but once with my lips, and henceforth only be her brother. I rose softly and knelt by the sofa, and my face bent over hers. That kiss was to be the seal of my silence, and I was, from that moment, to bury the love of my life in my own heart, and trust to Time to build its tomb. I steadied myself with one hand on the back of the sofa, leaned down, and whispering only that one word, “Darling!” kissed her cheek. As gentle as was my touch her eyes unclosed and she looked in my face. Overwhelmed with shame and confusion, I could not move or speak, but kneeled motionless with our faces almost touching, and my eyes fixed on hers. The next instant her soft arm was laid timidly around my neck, and, with a look that thrilled my very soul, she said, in a tone of wondrous tenderness, “John!” It was only one word, but it told me all; and the next instant, in a delirium of surprise and joy, I had clasped her in my arms, kissing her brow, and cheeks, and mouth, and murmuring, “Darling, do you love me?”
And when Reason had returned, what a Heaven on earth ‘twas to sit by her side, to hold her hand in mine, to feel the glorious resurrection of hope and love from the grave to which I was about to consign them, to know that the very truth and sincerity of her nature assured the certainty and earnestness of her love for me! Then it was such a delightful surprise, so different from what I expected, that I fearedit could not be true—that it was all a dream. “Carlotta,” I said, looking at her fondly, “is this real, do you love me? Is it possible that, after all my fears, all my despair, you will be mine, my own darling—mine to love, cherish and honor, with a devotion man never knew before?” She looked up into my face with a depth of truth in her dark eyes that dispelled every doubt, as she said:
“I have always loved you, John.”
“Always, Lottie? What hours of unhappiness ‘twould have saved me had I known it; for, though I have loved you constantly during these long years of our separation, yet I have felt that my love was hopeless, and while I treasured that dear curl, the pledge of your remembrance, I somehow felt that you would remember me only as the friend, perhaps the brother of your childhood. As I received letters telling me of your growth into beautiful womanhood, and of the attention and devotion that were lavished upon you everywhere, I felt that the gulf between us was widening—that you would return proud and supercilious, inflated with your success, and contemptuous of my quiet student life. Almost fearing to meet you, I delayed along my trip, hoping that when I reached Niagara I would find our party gone; hence I stopped at the Springs, intending, after a week’s stay, to run across to the Falls. You know the rest; how cordially you met me, and how the thraldom of my life was sealed. The love that had glowed so steadily during your absence burst into a resistless flame before your superb beauty and lovely character. Yet O, darling, the anguish of the thought that you would never love me—that another would soon claim the hand that held in its grasp my soul! I could have borne it better had I found you haughty and vain, for then resentment would have aided me; but I found that you were still the same sweet Carlotta that had told me farewell in Raleigh; that the brilliant belle of every occasion was as guileless and pure aswhen I found her on the beach; that she was unspoilt by the caresses of society. How I worshipped you none can ever know, and I longed to fall at your feet and tell you all, but I felt sure you would laugh at the idea of ‘John’s loving,’ and this evening I was going to kiss your cheek, and bid farewell forever to my love, when you awoke—and thank Heaven for it! And now, darling, tell me again that you love me, for your voice, talking of love, is the sweetest music in the world to me.”
She smiled such a tender, loving smile, and, nestling up close to me, said:
“I have loved you, John, ever since we met. When I clasped your hand first after the shipwreck there was a thrill in my heart that ever came back when you were near me. So fearful was I that you might detect this feeling, that I tried to be reserved and silent in your presence, and even avoided you as much as possible. Conscious of my own love, I felt, child as I was, that every one else knew it, and hence my extreme sensitiveness at any connection of our names together. You doubtless remember the scene with Mrs. Smith, when you were asleep in the hall, or pretending to be. That explained the nature of my feelings. I shrank from the position I seemed to occupy—that of awaiting your love, and of being trained to suit that love if you pleased to confer it. While I saw you so full of Lulie and Lillian I buried my feelings in my own heart, and strove strenuously to crush them out of existence; but there were times when you were tender and loving to me, and then they came resistlessly. Do you remember one night, years ago, when we were out on the stoop, and you took my hand and held it awhile? No words can ever tell how I have treasured up that little scene. When you told me farewell, the night of our departure for Europe, and I gave you the curl, it was an earnest pledge of what I faithfully performed.”
“Darling, do not speak of Lulie and Lillian. One was onlythe passing object of boyish affection, and the other a heartless though brilliant woman, who flattered me by her notice into an admiration that was as vain as it was transient. Dearest Lottie, your heart believes me, I know, when I vow that the purest, fondest love of my nature is yours, that without it all life is void and blank. Darling, have you loved me always, have you never wavered in your love, as affections more worthy, but none more devoted than mine, have been laid at your feet?”
“Never, John. No faintest shadow of love for another has ever passed across my mind, and the only pleasure I took in the attention I may have received has been the thought that, if others see aught in me to love, perhaps, when we meet,hewill.”
“He being myself?” I asked, looking at her with a smile.
“He being yourself. There, I have made enough unladylike confessions for one afternoon; but ‘tis all a proof of my trust and confidence in you.”
“As God shall help me it is not misplaced,” and I lifted her hand tenderly to my lips. “Never was man as proud of as beautiful and pure a love as I am of yours, and never was a love guarded and cherished as I will yours, and I will seek no higher happiness on earth than to keep that dear brow as bright and beautiful as now. Darling, look into my eyes and read the truth of love.”
She looked, and would have read, perhaps, had not the door opened just then, and mother entered from her shopping excursion. As she saw us sitting lovingly together, Carlotta’s hand in mine, she was so utterly astounded that she stood without moving, her hands full of bundles, which kept dropping on the floor.
To prevent further embarrassment, I rose from my seat, and taking mother’s hand, led her to Carlotta.
“She is going to be my wife, mother,” I said, and without waiting to hear her reply, left the room.
How bright and beautiful all nature seemed. The cloudless sky, the rich green foliage, and the fragrant roses scenting the evening air—all were in unison with my heart. The very birds in the lawn seemed to twitter congratulations. Nothing could have ruffled my temper; a bootblack might have thrown his brush in my face, and I would have picked it up for him with a smile. I felt that I could even be kind and courteous to Miss Finnock.
In this pleasant frame of mind I went in to tea, and found the two gentlemen and Mrs. Marshman at our table, Mrs. M., after inquiries about Carlotta, and some compliments to her beauty, thought of a note for me, from Miss Finnock; and, as she gave it to me, said that Sappho had been quite indisposed all day, and had suffered severely from her fright, and the shock of the cold water.
Excusing myself, I opened the little three cornered note, and read:
“Will the generous and unselfish preserver of my life do me the favor to call this evening at our parlor, No.—, that I may unburden my heart of its gratitude, and offer a hecatomb of thanks to his self-sacrificing spirit. Call at eight.Waiting.”
“Will the generous and unselfish preserver of my life do me the favor to call this evening at our parlor, No.—, that I may unburden my heart of its gratitude, and offer a hecatomb of thanks to his self-sacrificing spirit. Call at eight.
Waiting.”
In much smaller writing, just beneath this, were some verses, as usual, across which she had drawn her pen, as if to erase them, taking care, however, to leave them sufficiently legible—
“But for thy hand I might have slept
Deep in the bosom of yon lake,
And no one for me would have wept,
And none have wished that I might wake.”
That’s the first sensible poetry you ever wrote, I muttered, as I read it. But there was more:
“I would not shun the wild waves’ wrath,
Could we sink clasping hand in hand,
To walk together pearly paths
Of mermaids, down the coral strand.”
You ought to have said “path,” Saph; you’ve spoiled your rhyme; and “mermaids” and a “coral strand,” out in this little lake, are very much strained, but so are the verses. I was, as I have stated, in a pleasant frame of mind, and thus jested to myself with the verses as I read them. The next verse, however, put the case a little more strongly:
“I fain would seek a watery grave,
To dwell with thee in grottoes bright,
Or roam through halls where the sea-weeds wave,
And love would make the darkness light.”
To think of marrying her anywhere! much less down in a grotto, with sea-weeds and bad colds, and coral, etc. No, I could not “fain,” as she did; but I glanced at my watch as I rose from the table, and found that it wanted a quarter of eight. Fifteen minutes with a Partaga, and I tapped at the door of her parlor. Miss Finnock after Carlotta! ‘Twas like a dessert of nutgalls after Hymettean honey; but I felt that the necessary exercise of my ingenuity would be rather pleasant than otherwise, and looked forward to our interview, with anticipated pride in my skilful retrogression.
When I entered I found Miss Finnock reclining in an easy chair, and looking as little like her Lesbian nomenclatress as scant strings of hair, an unmade, stiff figure, and pale blue eyes, in a sallow face, could make her. She smiled a faint little welcome, and pointed me to a seat in front of her.
“Please lower the gas,” she said, shading her eyes with her hand; “you must excuse me, Mr. Smith, for seeing you in suchdeshabille, but I felt sure you would appreciate this liberty, and feel more free and unrestrained than if I had prepared formally to see you.”
“I do appreciate and thank you for your consideration,” I said, feeling assured that if she had known how different was the effect of herdeshabillefrom what she intended it should be, she would not have been so considerate.
“I sent for you, Mr. Smith,” she continued, in a whispering kind of voice, “that I might express my gratitude for your heroic efforts to save me yesterday.”
I would have suspected any one else of irony, but I knew she was in earnest.
“Really, Miss Finnock, you overestimate my conduct,” I said; “I must be candid with you, and tell you that I was doing all I could to save myself, which was almost impossible with yourself and Miss Rurlestone on my arms.”
She looked at me with a queer little smile, and said: “What a trying ordeal for you! If no boat had been near us, ‘twould have been an effectual test of your love, indeed. Would you have found it difficult to have made a choice, if you had seen you could not save but one?”
“Not at all,” I replied, hoping she would construe the preference as intended for herself, and let the subject rest.
She played with the tassel of her wrapper, and said softly, “Which would you have chosen?”
I pretended not to have heard, and asked if she had suffered any serious inconvenience from the accident?
“Not much,” she said, with something of a sigh in her tone. “I have been feeble to-day, but hope to gain strength rapidly. I expect to take a stroll every morning before breakfast, and to ride with brother in the afternoons.”
It was a very fine opening for engagements; but I had had enough of strolls, and so I said nothing. There was a pause of some length, during which I saw a scrap of paper lying on the table, and as my name was on it, I looked at it more closely. The light in the room was very dim, and Miss Finnock was all the while stealing quick glances at me; besides, I knew ‘twas highly improper to read it, yet under all these difficulties I managed to make out its purport. It was a note from Miss Belle Monte, Miss Finnock’s dearest friend and adviser, to her “precious Saph,” telling her that I was only trifling with her, that her brother had certaininformation that I was engaged to Miss Rurlestone; that my attentions to Miss F. were all insincere; that the best thing to do was to secure an interview with me, and, on my first committal, discard me promptly and finally.
I now saw that I had been invited to her parlor that she might have the credit of dismissing me, and I resolved that say what she would, I would not, by any reply, give her an opportunity of so doing.
“When do you think of leaving?” she asked, at length, lifting her head wearily from her hand.
“We will leave to-morrow or next day for Newport, where we will spend some weeks before going home.”
“Oh, that is too soon,” she said; “you have not seen enough of the Springs.”
“As I have not seen my parents in several years, and came on here to meet them, I must regulate my movements by theirs. Besides,” I continued, “they were here some time before I came, and desire a change—at least, Miss Rurlestone does, I am sure—as she has captured every heart here, and perhaps pines for more.” This I said a little maliciously.
“Miss Rurlestone can probably account for your filial devotion—at least gossip says so.”
“Gossip knows very little about such matters,” I replied, cautiously.
“But is gossip wrong in this instance?”
“Oh, I must not commit myself,” I said, with a forced smile.
“You are so tantalizing,” she said, throwing her tassel at me, “and that reminds me that you promised to complete that unfinished sentence soon.”
“What unfinished sentence?” I asked, with pretended ignorance.
“You must be forgetful, indeed; do you not remember your promise when we parted yesterday morning?”
“Pardon me; I do remember now,” and instantly thethought flashed on me that I would candidly inform her of my intended flirtation, confess my sin, ask her forgiveness, and thus prevent her acting on Miss Belle Monte’s advice. “I recollect now distinctly the sentence to which you refer, and its intended termination. My remarks were made in the same light style in which we were conversing, and I had no idea you would attach sufficient importance to anything I said to think of it at all afterwards. I was about to ask, ifIloved you—if I offered my heart—would you reject it? I——”
“That’s what I suspected, sir,” she cut in before I could finish, and with a deprecatory wave of her hand dismissing what I had said as painful, “and while the suspicion flattered it pained me.”
“But, Miss Finnock,” I said, hurriedly, “you certainly misun——”
“Flattered, indeed, I was,” she went on, without allowing my interruption, “because one so noble and gifted as yourself had conferred on me the honor of his love, and pained that I must refuse it.”
I was too much astonished to reply, while she went on:
“But, Mr. Smith, while a calm review of my own feelings forces me to discard you, or if that is too harsh a word, to ask you to beonlymy friend, I can assure you that our brief intercourse has been exceedingly pleasant to me. It will ever be an oasis in the desert of my past, and I trust that the rainbow of mutual regard and esteem will ever arch brightly o’er our pathways, however diverse they may be. And when Time’s fingers have plastered over the scars I regret to inflict, and you have found another love, whose voice may be sweeter, and eye brighter, and heart dearer than mine, I hope you will not think of this evening with anger, but with the pleasure of forgiveness.”
“With pleasure, certainly,” I managed to edge in, as she drew her breath.
“And at your life’s close,” she went on, in her peculiar strain, “may your barque furl its sails in a peaceful harbor, and having bosomed” (Sapphic for breasted) “every wave, anchor safely there.”
As she paused, I broke in——
“Miss Finnock, you have wofully misinterpreted my meaning. I was only jesting, as I thought you were; and my words had no more serious import than the verses in abon-bon.”
“I hardly expected that you would thus try to evade the subject, Mr. Smith. But I have too much consideration for your feelings to place your name on my list of rejected ones. The result of our interview shall be strictlyentre nous.”
“Your list must be immensely long, if you put every name down with as little reason as you have mine. I will leave you, Miss Finnock; for I can gain nothing in a contest with a lady who makes half the addresses she rejects.” This I said without thought, being thrown off my guard by her treatment; and the moment after I had closed the door I felt like going back to ask her pardon. Pride, however, suggested that she had overstepped the bounds of womanly delicacy in her conduct towards me, and that she must take outside treatment.