An Extraordinary Afternoon
Aylmer guessed at once she had seen him driving. Being a man of sense, and not an impossible hero in a feuilleton, instead of going away again and leaving the misunderstanding to ripen, he went to the telephone, endeavoured to get on, and to explain, in few words, what had obviously happened. To follow the explanation by an immediate visit was his plan. Though, of course, slightly irritated that she had seen him under circumstances conveying a false impression, on the other hand he was delighted at the pique her letter showed, especially coming immediately after the almost tender letter in Paris.
He rang and rang (and used language), and after much difficulty getting an answer he asked, 'Why he could not get on' a pathetic question asked plaintively by many people (not only on the telephone).
'The line is out of order.'
In about twenty minutes he was at her door. The lift seemed to him preternaturally slow.
'Mrs Ottley?'
'Mrs Ottley is not at home, sir.'
At his blank expression the servant, who knew him, and of course liked him, as they always did, offered the further information that Mrs Ottley had gone out for the whole afternoon.
'Are the children at home, or out with Miss Townsend?'
'The children are out, sir, but not with Miss Townsend. They are spending the day with their grandmother.'
'Oh! Do you happen to know if Mr and Mrs Ottley will be at home to dinner?'
'I've heard nothing to the contrary, sir.'
'May I come in and write a note?'
He went into the little drawing-room. It was intensely associated with her. He felt a little ému…. There was the writing-table, there the bookcase, the few chairs, the grey walls; some pale roses fading in a pewter vase…. The restfulness of the surroundings filled him, and feeling happier he wrote on the grey notepaper:
I arrived early this morning. I started, in fact, from Paris immediately after receiving a few lines you very kindly sent me there. I'm so disappointed not to see you. Unless I hear to the contrary—and even if I do, I think!—I propose to come round this evening about nine, and tell you and Bruce all about my travels.
'Excuse my country manners in thus inviting myself. But I know you will say no if you don't want me. And in that case I shall have to come another time, very soon, instead, as I really must see you and show you something I've got for Archie. Yours always—'
He paused, and then added:
'Sincerely,
He went to his club, there to try and pass the time until the evening. He meant to go in the evening, even if she put him off again; and, if they were out, to wait until they returned, pretending he had not heard from her again.
He was no better. He had been away six weeks and was rather more in love than ever. He would only see her—shedidwant to see him before they all separated for the summer! He could not think further than of the immediate future; he would see her; they could make plans afterwards. Of course, her letter was simply pique! She had given herself away—twice—once in the angry letter, also in the previous one to Paris. Where was she now? What did it mean? Why did she go out for the whole afternoon? Where was she?
* * * * *
After Edith had written and sent her letter to Aylmer in the morning,Mrs Ottley the elder came to fetch the children to dine, and Edith toldMiss Townsend to go for the afternoon. She was glad she would beabsolutely alone.
'Aren't you very well, dear Mrs Ottley?' asked this young lady, in her sweet, sympathetic way.
Edith was fond of her, and, by implication only, occasionally confided in her on other subjects than the children. Today, however, Edith answered that she wasverywellindeed, but was going to see about things before they went away. 'I don't know how we shall manage without you for the holidays, Miss Townsend. I think you had better come with us for the first fortnight, if you don't mind much.'
Miss Townsend said she would do whatever Edith liked. She could easily arrange to go with them at once. This was a relief, for just at this moment Edith felt as if even the children would be a burden.
Sweet, gentle Miss Townsend went away. She was dressed rather like herself, Edith observed; she imitated Edith. She had the soft, graceful manner and sweet voice of her employer. She was slim and had a pretty figure, but was entirely without Edith's charm or beauty. Vaguely Edith wondered if she would ever have a love affair, ever marry. She hoped so, but (selfishly) not till Archie went to Eton.
Then she found herself looking at her lonely lunch; she tried to eat, gave it up, asked for a cup of tea.
At last, she could bear the flat no longer. It was a glorious day, very hot, Edith felt peculiar. She thought that if she spent all the afternoon out and alone, it would comfort her, and she would think it out. Trees and sky and sun had always a soothing effect on her. She went out, walked a little, felt worried by the crowd of shoppers swarming to Sloane Street and the Brompton Road, got into a taxi and drove to the gate of Kensington Gardens, opposite Kensington Gore. Here she soon found a seat. At this time of the day the gardens were rather unoccupied, and in the burning July afternoon she felt almost as if in the country. She took off her gloves—a gesture habitual with her whenever possible. She looked utterly restful. She had nothing in her hands, for she never carried either a parasol or a bag, nor even in winter a muff or in the evening a fan. All these little accessories seemed unnecessary to her. She liked to simplify. She hated fuss, anything worrying, agitating.
… And now she felt deeply miserable, perturbed and agitated. What a punishment for giving way to that half-coquettish, half self-indulgent impulse that had made her write to Paris! She had begged him to come back; while, really, he was here, and had not even let her know. She had never liked what she had heard of Mavis Argles, but had vaguely pitied her, wondering what Vincy saw in her, and wishing to believe the best. Now, she assumed the worst! As soon as Vincy had gone out of town—he was staying in Surrey with some of his relatives—she, the minx, began flirting or carrying on with Aylmer. How far had it gone? she wondered jealously. She did not believe Aylmer's love-making to be harmless. He was so easily carried away. His feelings were impulsive. Yet it was only a very short time since Vincy had told her of Aylmer's miserable letter. Edith was not interested in herself, and seldom thought much of her own feelings, but she hated self-deception; and now she faced facts. She adored Aylmer! It had been purely jealousy that made her write to Paris so touchingly, asking him to come back—vague fears that, if he were so depressed in Spain, perhaps he might try by amusements to forget her in Paris. He had once said to her that, of all places, he thought Paris the least attractive for a romance, because it was all so obvious, so prepared, so professional. He liked the unexpected, the veiled and somewhat more hypocritical atmosphere, and in the fogs of London, he had said, were more romantic mysteries than in any other city. Still, she had feared. And besides she longed to see him. So she had unbent and thought herself soon after somewhat reckless; it was a little wanton and unfair to bring him back. But she was not a saint; she was a woman; and sometimes Bruce was trying….
Edith belonged to the superior class of human being whom jealousy chills and cures, and does not stimulate to further efforts. It was not in her to go in for competition. The moment she believed someone else took her place she relaxed her hold. This is the finer temperament, but it suffers most.
She would not try to take Aylmer away. Let him remain with his red-haired Miss Argles! He might even marry her. He deserved it.
She meant to tell Vincy, of course. Poor Vincy,hedidn't know of the treachery. Now she must devote herself to the children, and be good and kind to Bruce. At least, Bruce wastrueto her in his way.
He had been in love when they married, but Edith shrewdly suspected he was not capable of very much more than a weak rather fatuous sentiment for any woman. And anyone but herself would have lost him many years ago, would very likely have given him up. But she had kept it all together, had really helped him, and was touched when she remembered that jealous scene he made about the letter. The letter she wouldn't at first let him see. Poor Bruce! Well, they were linked together. There were Archie, the angel, and Dilly, the pet…. She was twenty-eight and Aylmer forty. He ought not to hold so strong a position in her mind. But he did. Yes, she was in love with him in a way—it was a mania, an obsession. But she would now soon wrestle with it and conquer it. The great charm had been his exclusive devotion—but also his appearance, his figure, his voice. He looked sunburnt and handsome. He was laughing as he talked to the miserable creature (so Edith called her in her own mind).
Then Edith had a reaction. She would cure herself today! No more flirtation, no more amitié amoureuse. They were going away. The children, darlings, how they loved her! And Bruce. She was reminding herself she must be gentle, good, to Bruce. He had at least never deceived her!
She got up and walked on and on. It was about five o'clock now. As she walked, she thought how fortunate she was in Miss Townsend; what a nice girl she was, what a good friend to her and the children. She had a sort of intuition that made her always have the right word, the right manner. She had seemed a little odd lately, but she was quite pleased to come with them to the country. What made her think of Miss Townsend? Some way off was a girl, with her back to Edith, walking with a man. Her figure was like Miss Townsend's, and she wore a dress like the one copied from Edith's. Edith walked more quickly, it was the retired part of the gardens on the way towards the Bayswater Road. The two figures turned down a flowery path…. It was Miss Townsend! She had turned her face. Edith was surprised, was interested, and walked on a few steps. She had not seen the man clearly. Then they both sat down on a seat. He took her hand. She left it in his. There was something familiar in his figure and clothes, and Edith saw his face.
Yes, it was Bruce.
Edith turned round and went home.
Journeys End
So that was how Bruce behaved to her!
The deceit of both of them hurt her immensely. But she pulled herself together. It was a case for action. She felt a bitter, amused contempt, but she felt it half-urgentnotto do anything that would lead to a life of miserable bickering and mutual harm.
It must be stopped. And without making Bruce hate her.
She wrote the second note of this strange day and sent it by a messenger.
Giving no reason of any kind, she told the governess that she had decided the children's holidays should begin from that day, and that she was unexpectedly going away with them almost immediately, and she added that she would not require Miss Townsend any more. She enclosed a cheque, and said she would send on some books and small possessions that Miss Townsend had kept there.
This was sent by a messenger to Miss Townsend's home near WestbourneGrove. She would find it on her return from her walk!
And now Edith read Aylmer's note—it was so real, so sincere, she began to disbelieve her eyes this morning.
It gave her more courage; she wanted to be absolutely calm, and looking her very best, for Bruce's entrance.
He came in with his key. He avoided her eye a little—looked rather sheepish, she thought. It was about seven.
'Hallo! Aren't the children in yet? Far too late for them to be out.' 'Nurse fetched Dilly. She has gone to bed. Archie is coming presently; mother will send him all right.'
'How are you, Edith, old girl?'
'I'm quite well, Bruce.'
'I have a sort of idea, as you know,' he said, growing more at ease, 'that we shall rather miss—a—Miss Townsend, when we first go away. What do you think of taking her for part of the time?' 'Dinner's ready,' announced Edith, and they dined. Towards the end of dinner he was about to make the suggestion again, when Edith said in clear, calm but decided tones:
'Bruce, I am not going to take Miss Townsend away with us. She is not coming any more.'
'Not—Why? What the devil's the idea of this new scheme? What's the matter with Miss Townsend?'
'Bruce,' answered Edith, 'I prefer not to go into the question, and later you will be glad I did not. I've decided that Miss Townsend is not to come any more at all. I've written to tell her so. I'll look after the children with nurse until we come back…. It's all settled.'
Bruce was silent.
'Well upon my word!' he exclaimed, looking at her uneasily. 'Have it your own way, of course—but upon my word! Why?'
'Do you really want me to tell you exactly why? I would so much prefer not.'
'Oh, all right, Edith dear; after all—hang it all—you're the children's mother—it's for you to settle…. No, I don't want to know anything. Have it as you wish.'
'Then we won't discuss it again. Shall we?'
'All right.'
He was looking really rather shamefaced, and she thought she saw a gleam of remorse and also of relief in his eye. She went into the other room. She had not shown him Aylmer's letter.
After ten minutes he came in and said: 'Look here, Edith. Make what arrangements you like.Inever want to see—Miss Townsend again.'
She looked a question.
'And I never shall.'
She was really pleased at this, and held out her hand. Bruce had tears in his eyes as he took it. 'Edith, old girl, I think I'll go round to the club for an hour or two.'
'Do. And look here, Bruce, leave it to me to tell the children. They'll forget after the holidays. Archie must not be upset.'
'Whatever you do, Edith, will be—what I mean to say is that—Well, good night; I sha'n't be long.'
Edith was really delighted, she felt she had won, and shedidwant that horrid little Townsend to be scored off! Wasn't it natural? She wanted to hear no more about it.
There was a ring. It was nine o'clock. It was Aylmer's voice.
The Great Exception
The absurdly simple explanation, made almost in dumb show, by action rather than in dialogue, was soon given. He was surprised, simply enchanted, at the entire frankness of her recognition; she acknowledged openly that it mattered to her tremendously whether or not he was on intimate terms or flirting with little Miss Argles, or with little Miss anybody. He was not even to look at any woman except herself, that was arranged between them now and understood. They were side by side, with hands clasped as a matter of course, things taken for granted that he formerly never dreamt of. The signs of emotion in her face he attributed of course to the morning's contretemps, knowing nothing of the other trouble.
'It's heavenly being here again. You're prettier than ever, Edith; sweeter than ever. What a time I had away. It got worse and worse.'
'Dear Aylmer!'
'You're far too good and kind to me. But Ihavesuffered—awfully.'
'So have I, since this morning. I felt—'
'What did you feel? Tell me!'
'Must I?'
'Yes!'
'I felt, when I saw you with her, as if I hadn't got a friend in the world. I felt quite alone. I felt as if the ground were going to open and swallow me up. I relied on you so much, far more than I knew! I was struck dumb, and rooted to the spot, and knocked all of a heap, in a manner of speaking, as Vincy would say,' Edith went on, laughing. 'But now, you've cured me thoroughly; you're such arealperson.'
'Angel!'
She still left her hand in his. Her eyes were very bright, the result of few but salt tears, the corners of her mouth were lifted by a happy smile, not the tantalising, half-mocking smile he used to see. She was changed, and was, he thought, more lovable—prettier; today's emotion had shaken her out of herself. The reaction of this evening gave a brilliancy to her eyes, happy curves to her lips, and the slight disarrangement of her hair, not quite silky-smooth tonight, gave her a more irresponsible look. She seemed more careless—younger.
'Where's Bruce?' Aylmer asked suddenly.
'He's gone to the club. He'll be back rather soon, I should think.'
'I won't wait. I would rather not meet him this evening. When shall I see you again?'
'Oh, I don't know. I don't think I want to make any plans now.'
'As you wish. I say, do you really think Vincy can care for that girl?'
'I believe he has had a very long friendship of some kind with her.He's never told me actually, but I've felt it,' Edith said.
'Is he in love with her? Can he be?'
'In a way—in one of his peculiar ways.'
'She's in love with him, I suppose,' said Aylmer. 'It was only because she thought it would please him that she wanted to see those things at the museum. I think she's a little anxious. I found her a wild, irritating, unaccountable, empty creature. I believe she wants him to marry her.'
'I hope he won't, unless hereallywants to,' said Edith. 'It would be a mistake for Vincy to sacrifice himself as much as that.'
'I hope indeed he won't,' exclaimed Aylmer. 'And I think it's out of the question. Miss Argles is only an incident, surely. She looks the slightest of episodes.'
'It's a very long episode. It might end, though—if she insists and he won't.'
'Oh, bother, never mind them!' Aylmer replied, with boyish impatience.'Let me look atyouagain. Do you care for me a little bit, Edith?'
'Yes; I do.'
'Well, what's going to be done about it?' he asked, with happy triviality.
'Don't talk nonsense,' she replied. 'We're just going to see each other sometimes.' 'I'll be satisfied with anything!' cried Aylmer, 'after what I've suffered not seeing you at all. We'll have a new game. You shallmakethe rules and I'll keep them.'
'Naturally.'
'About the summer?'
'Oh, no plans tonight. I must think.' She looked thoughtful.
'Tell me, how's Archie?' he said.
'Archie's all right—delightful. Dilly, too. But I'm rather bothered.'
'Why should you bother? What's it about? Tell me at once.'
She paused a moment. 'Miss Townsend won't be able to come back any more,' she said steadily.
'Really? What a pity. I suppose the fool of a girl's engaged, or something.'
'She won't come back any more,' answered Edith.
'Will you have to get a new Miss Townsend?'
'I thought of being their governess myself—during the holidays, anyhow.'
'But that will leave you hardly any time—no leisure.'
'Leisure for what?'
'For anything—for me, for instance,' said Aylmer boldly. He was full of the courage and audacity caused by the immense relief of seeing her again and finding her so responsive.
There is, of course, no joy so great as the cessation of pain; in fact all joy, active or passive, is the cessation of some pain, since it must be the satisfaction of a longing, even perhaps an unconscious longing. A desire is a sort of pain, even with hope, without it is despair. When, for example, one takes artistic pleasure in looking at something beautiful, that is a cessation of the pain of having been deprived of it until then, since what one enjoys one must have longed for even without knowing it.
'Look here,' said Aylmer suddenly. 'I don't believe I can do without you.'
'You saidIwas to make the rules.'
'Make them then; go on.'
'Well, we'll be intimate friends, and meet as often as we can. Once a week you may say you care for me, and I'll say the same. That's all. If you find you don't like it—can't stand it, as you say—then you'll have to go away again.'
'I agree to it all, to every word. You'll see if I don't stick to it absolutely.'
'Thank you, dear Aylmer.'
He paused.
'Then I mustn't kiss you?'
'No. Never again.'
'All right. Never again after tonight. Tonight is the great exception,' said Aylmer.
She made a tardy and futile protest. Then she said:
'Now, Aylmer, you must go.' She sighed. 'I have a lot of worries.'
'I never heard you say that before. Let me take them and demolish them for you. Can't you give them to me?'
'No; I shall give nothing more to you. Good-bye….
'Remember, there are to be no more exceptions,' said Edith.
'I promise.'
She sat quietly alone for half-an-hour, waiting for Bruce.
She now felt sorry for Bruce, utterly and completely indifferent about 'the Townsend case', as she already humorously called it to herself. But, she thought, shemustbe strong! She was not prepared to lose her dignity, nor to allow the children to be educated by a woman whose faith at least with them and in their home was unreliable; their surroundings must be crystal-clear. It would make a certain difference to them, she thought. How could it not? There were so many little ways in which she might spoil them or tease them, scamp things, or rush them, or be nicer to one of them, or less nice, if she had any sort of concealed relation with their father. And as she had been treated absolutely as a confidante by Edith, the girl had certainly shown herself treacherous, and rather too clearly capable of dissimulation. Edith thought this must have a bad effect on the children.
Edith was essentially a very feminine woman though she had a mental attitude rightly held to be more characteristic of men. Being so feminine, so enraged under her calm and ease, she was, of course, not completely consistent. She was still angry, and very scornful of Miss Townsend. She was hurt with her; she felt a friend had played her false—a friend, too, in the position of deepest trust, of grave responsibility. Miss Townsend knew perfectly well what the children were to Edith, and, for all she knew, there was no-one in Edith's life except Bruce; so that it was rather cruel. Edith intended to keep up her dignity so absolutely that Miss Townsend could never see her again, that she could never speak to Edith on the subject. She wished also,verymuch, that Bruce should never see her again, but didn't know how to encompass this. She must find a way.
On the other hand, after the first shock and disgust at seeing him, Edith's anger with Bruce himself had entirely passed. Had she not known, for years, that he was a little weak, a little fatuous? He was just as good a sort now as he had ever been, and as she was not blinded by the resentment and fury of the real jealousy of passion, Edith saw clearly, and knew that Bruce cared far more forherthan for anybody else; that in so far as he could love anybody he loved her in his way. And she wanted to keep the whole thing together on account of Archie, and for Dilly's sake. She must be so kind, yet so strong that Bruce would be at once grateful for her forbearance and afraid to take advantage of it. Rather a difficult undertaking!…
And she had seen Aylmer again! There was nothing in it about Miss Argles. What happiness! She ought to have trusted him. He cared for her. He loved her. His sentiment was worth having. And she cared for him too; how much she didn't quite know. She admired him; he fascinated her, and she also felt a deep gratitude because he gave her just the sort of passionate worship that she must have always unconsciously craved for.
Certainly the two little events of today had drawn her nearer to him. She had been far less reserved that evening. She closed her eyes and smiled to herself. But this mustn't happen again.
With a strong effort of self-coercion she banished all delightful recollections as she heard Bruce come up in the lift.
He came in with a slightly shy, uncomfortable manner. Again, she felt sorry for him.
'Hallo!' he said.
He gave her a quick glance, a sort of cautious look which made her feel rather inclined to laugh. Then he said:
'I've just been down to the club. What have you been doing?'
'Aylmer's been here.'
'Didn't know he was in town.'
'He's only come for a few days.'
'I should like to see him,' said Bruce, looking brighter. 'Did he ask after me?'
'Yes.'
He looked at her again and said suspiciously:
'I suppose you didn't mention—'
'Mention what?'
'Edith!'
'Yes?'
He cleared his throat and then said with an effort of self-assertion that she thought at once ridiculous and touching:
'Look here, I don't wish to blame you in any way for what—er— arrangements you like to make in your own household. But—er—have you written to Miss Townsend?'
'Yes; she won't come back.'
'Er—but won't she ask why?'
'I hope not.'
'Why?' asked Bruce, with a tinge of defiance.
'Because then I should have to explain. And I don't like explaining.'
There was another pause. Bruce seemed to take a great interest in his nails, which he examined separately one at a time, and then all together, holding both hands in front of him.
'Did Archie enjoy his day?'
'Oh yes,' said Edith.
Bruce suddenly stood up, and a franker, more manly expression came into his face. He looked at her with a look of pain. Tears were not far from his eyes.
'Edith, you're a brick. You're too good for me.'
She looked down and away without answering.
'Look here, is there anything I can do to please you?'
'Yes, there is.'
'What? I'll do it, whatever it is, on my word of honour.'
'Well, it's a funny thing to ask you, but you know our late governess, Miss Townsend? I should like you to promise never to see her again, even by accident. If you meet her—by accident, I mean—I want you not to see her.'
Bruce held out both his hands.
'I swear I'd never recognise her even if I should meet her accidentally.'
'I know it's a very odd thing to ask,' continued Edith, 'just a fancy; why should I mind your not seeing Miss Townsend?'
He didn't answer.
'However, Idomind, and I'll be grateful.'
Edith thought one might be unfaithful without being disloyal, and she believed Bruce now. She was too sensible to ask him never to write a line, never to telephone, never to do anything else; besides, it was beneath her dignity to go into these details, and common-sense told her that one or the other must write or communicate if the thing was to be stopped. If Miss Townsend wrote to him to the club, he would have to answer. Bruce meant not to see her again, and that was enough.
'Then you're not cross, Edith—not depressed?'
She gave her sweetest smile. She looked brilliantly happy and particularly pretty.
'Edith!'
With a violent reaction of remorse, and a sort of tenderness, he tried to put his arm round her. She moved away.
'Don't you forgive me, Edith, for anything I've done that you don't like?'
'Yes, Ientirelyforgive you. The incident is closed.'
'Really forgive me?'
'Absolutely. And I've had a tiring day and I'm going to sleep. Good night.'
With a kind little nod she left him standing in the middle of the room with that air of stupid distinction that he generally assumed when in a lift with other people, and that came to his rescue at awkward moments—a dull, aloof, rather haughty expression. But it was no use to him now.
He had considerable difficulty in refraining from venting his temper on the poor, dumb furniture; in fact, he did give a kick to a pretty little writing-table. It made no sound, but its curved shoulder looked resentful.
'What a day!' said Bruce to himself.
He went to his room, pouting like Archie. But he knew he had got off cheaply.
Another Side of Bruce
Ever since his earliest youth, Bruce had always had, at intervals, some vague, vain, half-hearted entanglement with a woman. The slightest interest, practically even common civility, shown him by anyone of the feminine sex between the ages of sixteen and sixty, flattered his vanity to such an extraordinary extent that he immediately thought these ladies were in love with him, and it didn't take much more for him to be in love with them. And yet he didn't really care for women. With regard to them his point of view was entirely that of vanity, and in fact he only liked both men or women who made up to him, or who gave him the impression that they did. Edith was really the only woman for whom his weak and flickering passion had lingered at all long; and in addition to that (the first glamour of which had faded) she had a real hold over him. He felt for her the most genuine fondness of which he was capable, besides trust and a certain admiration. A sort of respect underlay all his patronising good-nature or caprices with her. But still he had got into the habit of some feeble flirtation, a little affair, and at first he missed it very much. He didn't care a straw for Miss Townsend; he never had. He thought her plain and tedious; she bored him more than any woman he had ever met, and yet he had slipped into a silly sort of intrigue, beginning by a few words of pity or sympathy to her, and by the idea that she looked up to him in admiration. He was very much ashamed of it and of the circumstances; he was not proud of his conquest with her, as he generally was. He felt that on account of the children, and altogether, he had been playing it a bit low down.
He was not incapable, either, of appreciating Edith's attitude. She had never cross-questioned him, never asked him for a single detail, never laboured the subject, nor driven the point home, nor condescended even to try to find out how far things had really gone. She hadn't even told him how she knew; he was ashamed to ask.
And, after that promise of forgiveness, she never referred to it; there was never the slightest innuendo, teasing, reproach. Yes, by Jove! Edith was wonderful! And so Bruce meant to play the game too.
For several days he asked the porter at the club if there were any letters, receiving the usual reply, 'None, sir.'
The third day he received the following note, and took it to read with enjoyment of the secrecy combined with a sort of self-important shame. Until now he hadn't communicated with her:—
'Dear Mr Ottley,
Of course you know I'm not returning to the children after the holidays, nor am I going with you to Westgate. I'm very unhappy, for I fear I have offended Mrs Ottley. She has always been very kind to me till now; but I shall let the matter rest. Under the circumstances I suppose I shall not see you any more. May I ask that you should not call or write. I and mother are going to spend the summer at Bexhill with some friends. Our address will be Sandringham, Seaview Road, Bexhill, if you like to write just one line to say good-bye. I fear I have been rather to blame in seeing you without Mrs Ottley's knowledge, but you know how one's feelings sometimes lead one to do what one knows one ought not to …'
'Sandringham, indeed! Some boarding house, I suppose,' said Bruce to himself. 'What a lot of 'ones'!… Fine grammar for a governess.'
'… Wishing you every happiness (Ishallmiss the children!).
Yours sincerely,
Margaret Townsend
'P.S.—I shall never forget how happy I was with you and Mrs Ottley.'
Bruce's expression as he read the last line was rather funny.
'She's a silly little fool, and I shan't answer,' he reflected.
Re-reading the letter, he found it more unsatisfactory still, and destroyed it.
The thought of Miss Townsend bored him unutterably; and indeed he was incapable of caring for any woman (however feebly) for more than two or three weeks. He was particularly fickle, vague, and scrappy in his emotions. Edith was the only woman for whom even a little affection could last, and he would have long tired of her but for her exceptional character and the extraordinary trouble and tact she used with him. He didn't appreciate her fine shades, he was not in love with her, didn't value her as another man might have done. But he was always coming back to a certain steady, renewed feeling of tenderness for her.
With the curious blindness common to all married people (and indeed to any people who live together), clever Edith had been entirely taken in, in a certain sense; she had always felt (until the 'Townsend case') half disdainfully but satisfactorily certain of Bruce's fidelity. She knew that he had little sham flirtations, but she had never imagined his going anywhere near an intrigue. She saw now that in that she had been duped, and that if he didn't do more it was not from loyalty to her. Still, she now felt convinced that it wouldn't occur again. She had treated him well; she had spared him in the matter. He was a little grateful, and she believed he would be straight now, though her opinion of him had rather gone down. Edith always felt that she must go to the very extreme of loyalty to anyone who was faithful to her; she valued fidelity so deeply, and now this feeling was naturally relaxed a little. She hadn't the slightest desire for revenge, but she felt she had a slightly freer hand. She didn't see why she should, for instance, deprive herself of the pleasure of seeing Aylmer; she had not told him anything about it.
That day at the club, Bruce in his depression had a chat with Goldthorpe, his golfing companion and sometime confidant. Over a cigarette and other refreshments, Bruce murmured how he had put an end to the little affair for the sake of his wife.
'Rather jolly little girl, she was.'
'Oh yes,' said Goldthorpe indifferently. He thought Edith very attractive, and would have liked to have the duty of consoling her.
'One of those girls that sort ofget roundyou, and appeal to you—youknow.'
'Oh yes.'
'Grey eyes—no, by Jove! I should call them hazel, with black lashes, no, not exactly black—brown. Nice, white teeth, slim figure—perhaps a bit too straight. Brownish hair with a tinge of gold in the sun.'
'Oh yes.'
'About twenty,' continued Bruce dreamily. He knew that Miss Townsend was thirty-two, but suspected Goldthorpe of admiring flappers, and so, with a subconscious desire to impress him, rearranged the lady's age.
'About twenty—if that. Rather long, thin hands—the hands of a lady.Well, it's all over now.'
'That's all right,' said Goldthorpe. He seemed to have had enough of this retrospective inventory. He looked at his watch and found he had an appointment.
Bruce, thinking he seemed jealous, smiled to himself.
For a few days after what had passed there was a happy reaction in the house. Everyone was almost unnaturally sweet and polite and unselfish about trifles to everybody else. Edith was devoting herself to the children, Bruce had less of her society than usual. She seemed to assume they were to be like brother and sister. He wouldn't at present raise the question; thinking she would soon get over such a rotten idea. Besides, a great many people had left town; and they were, themselves, in the rather unsettled state of intending to go away in a fortnight. Though happy at getting off so easily, Bruce was really missing the meetings and notes (rather than the girl).
Fortunately, Vincy now returned; he was looking sunburnt and happy. He had been having a good time. Yet he looked a little anxious occasionally, as if perplexed.
One day he told Edith that he had just had a rather serious quarrel with someone who was awfully cross, and carried on like anything and wouldn't give over.
'I guess who she is. What does she want you to do?'
'She wants me to do what all my relations are always bothering me to do,' said Vincy, 'only with a different person.'
'What, to marry?'
'Yes.'
'To marry her, I suppose? Shall you?'
'I'm afraid not,' he said. 'I don't think I quite can.'
'Don't you think it would be rather unkind to her?'
Neither of them had mentioned Miss Argles' name. The fact that Vincy referred to it at all showed her that he had recovered from his infatuation.
'But do you think I'm treating the poor girl badly?'
'Vincy, even if you adored her it would end unhappily. As you don't, you would both be miserable from the first day. Be firm. Be nice and kind to her and tell her straight out, and come and stay with us in the country.'
'Well, that was rather my idea. Oh, but, Edith, it's hard to hurt anyone.'
'You know I saw her driving with Aylmer that day, and I thought he liked her. I found I was wrong.'
'Yes. He doesn't. I wish I could get some nice person to—er—take her out. I mean, take her on.'
'What sort of person? She's pretty in her way. I daresay she'll attract someone.'
'What sort of person? Oh, I don't know. Some nice earl would please her, or one of those artist chaps you read of in the feuilletons—the sort of artist who, when he once gets a tiny little picture skied at the Academy, immediately has fortune, and titles and things, rolling in. A little picture called 'Eventide' or 'Cows by Moonlight', or something of that sort, in those jolly stories means ten thousand pounds a year at once. Jolly, isn't it?'
'Yes, Vincy dear, but we're not living in a feuilleton. What's really going to be done? Will she be nasty?'
'No. But I'm afraid Aunt Jessie will abuse me something cruel.' He thought a little while. 'In fact she has.'
'What does she say?'
'She says I'm no gentleman. She said I had no business to lead the poor girl on, in a manner of speaking, and walk out with her, and pay her marked attention, and then not propose marriage like a gentleman.'
'Then you're rather unhappy just now, Vincy?'
'Well, I spoke toherfrankly, and said I would like to go on being her friend, but I didn't mean to marry. Andshesaid she'd never see me again unless I did.'
'And what else?'
'That's about all, thanks very much,' said Vincy.
Here Bruce came in.
'Edith,' he said,' have you asked Aylmer to come and stay with us atWestgate?'
'Oh no. I think I'd rather not.'
'Why on earth not? How absurd of you. It's a bit selfish, dear, if you'll excuse my saying so. It's all very well for you: you've got the children and Vincy to amuse you (you're coming, aren't you, Vincy?). What price me? I must have someone else who can go for walks and play golf, a real pal, and so forth. I need exercise, and intellectual sympathy. Aylmer didn't say he had anywhere else to go.'
'He's going to take his boy, Freddie, away to some seaside place. He doesn't like staying with people.'
'All right, then. I shall go and ask him to come and stay at the hotel, for at least a fortnight. I shall go and ask him now. You're inconsistent, Edith. At one moment you seem to like the man, but as soon as I want to make a pleasant arrangement you're off it. So like a woman, isn't it, Vincy?' He laughed.
'Isn't it?' answered Vincy.
'Well, look here, I'm going right down to Jermyn Street purposely to tell him. I'll be back to dinner; do stop, Vincy.'
Bruce was even more anxious than he used to be always to have a third person present whenever possible.
He walked through the hot July streets with that feeling of flatness —of the want of a mild excitement apart from his own home. He saw Aylmer and persuaded him to come.
While he was there a rather pretty pale girl, with rough red hair, was announced. Aylmer introduced Miss Argles.
'I only came for a minute, to bring back those books, Mr Ross,' she said shyly. 'I can't stop.'
'Oh, thank you so much,' said Aylmer. 'Won't you have tea?'
'No, nothing. Imustgo atonce. I only brought you in the books myself to show you they were safe.'
She gave a slightly coquettish glance at Aylmer, a half-observant glance at Bruce, sighed heavily and went away. She was dressed in green serge, with a turned-down collar of black lace. She wore black suède gloves, a gold bangle and a smart and pretty hat, the hat Vincy pretended had been given tohimby Cissie Cavanack, his entirely imaginary cousin, and which he'd really bought for her in Bond Street.
'Well, I'll be off then. I'll tell Edith you'll write for rooms. Look sharp about it, because they soon go at the best hotels.'
'At any rate I'll bring Freddie down for a week,' said Aylmer, 'and then we'll see.'
'Who is that girl?' asked Bruce, as he left.
'She's a young artist, and I lent her some books of old prints she wanted. She's not a particular friend of mine—I don't care for her much.'
Bruce didn't hear the last words, for he was flying out of the door.Miss Argles was walking very slowly; he joined her.
'Pardon me,' he said, raising his hat. 'It's so very hot—am I going your way? Would you allow me to see you home?'
'Oh, you're very kind, I'm sure,' she said sadly. 'But I don't think—I live at Ravenscourt Park.'
Bruce thought there was plenty of time.
'Why how very curious! That's just where I was going,' said he boldly.
He put up his stick. Instead of a taxi a hansom drove up. Bruce hailed it.
'Always like to give these chaps a turn when I can,' he said. It would take longer.
'How kind-hearted you are,' murmured the girl. 'But I'd really rather not, thank you.'
'Then how shall you get back?'
'Walk to the Tube.'
'Oh no; it's far too hot. Let me drop you, as I'm going in your direction.'
He gave her a rather fixed look of admiration, and smiled. She gave a slight look back and got into the cab.
'What ripping red hair,' said Bruce to himself as he followed her.
* * * * *
Before the end of the drive, which for him was a sort of adventure,Mavis had promised to meet Bruce when she left her Art School nextTuesday at a certain tea-shop in Bond Street.
Bruce went home happy and in good spirits again. There was no earthly harm in being kind to a poor little girl like this. He might do a great deal of good. She seemed to admire him. She thought him so clever. Funny thing, there was no doubt he had the gift; women liked him, and there you are. Look at Miss Mooney at the Mitchells' the other day, why, she was ever so nice to him; went for him like one o'clock; but he gave her no encouragement. Edith was there. He wouldn't worry her, dear girl.
As he came towards home he smiled again. And Edith, dear Edith—she, too, must be frightfully keen on him, when one came to think about it, to forgive him so readily about Margaret Tow—Oh, confound Miss Townsend. This girl was a picture, a sort of Rossetti, and she had had such trouble lately—terrible trouble. The man she had been devoted to for years had suddenly thrown her over, heartlessly…. What a brute he must have been! She was going to tell him all about it on Tuesday. That man must have been a fiend!…
'Holloa, Vincy! So glad you're still here. Let's have dinner, Edie.'
At Lady Everard's
Lady Everard was sitting in her favourite attitude at her writing-table, with her face turned to the door. She had once been photographed at her writing-table, with a curtain behind her, and her face turned to the door. The photograph had appeared inThe Queen, The Ladies' Field, The Sketch, The Taller, The Bystander, Home Chat, Home Notes, The Woman at Home, andOur Stately Homes of England. It was a favourite photograph of hers; she had taken a fancy to it, and therefore she always liked to be found in this position. The photo had been called: 'Lady Everard at work in her Music-Room.'
What she was supposed to be working at, heaven only knew; for she never wrote a line of anything, and even her social notes and invitation cards were always written by her secretary.
As soon as a visitor came in, she rose from the suspiciously clean writing-table, put down the dry pen on a spotless blotter, went and sat in a large brocaded arm-chair in front of some palms, within view of the piano, and began to talk. The music-room was large, splendid and elaborately decorated. There was a frieze all round, representing variously coloured and somewhat shapeless creatures playing what were supposed to be musical instruments. One, in a short blue skirt, was blowing at something; another in pink drapery (who squinted) was strumming on a lyre; other figures were in white, with their mouths open like young birds preparing to be fed by older birds. They represented Harmony in all its forms. There were other attempts at the classical in the decoration of the room; but Lady Everard herself had reduced this idea to bathos by huge quantities of signed photographs in silver frames, by large waste-paper baskets, lined with blue satin and trimmed with pink rosettes, by fans which were pockets, stuffed cats which were paperweights, oranges which were pincushions, and other debris from those charitable and social bazaars of which she was a constant patroness.
With her usual curious combination of weak volubility and decided laying-down of the law, she was preparing to hold forth to young La France (whom she expected), on the subject of Debussy, Edvina, Marcoux, the appalling singing of all his young friends, his own good looks, and other subjects of musical interest, when Mr Cricker was announced.
She greeted him with less eagerness, if less patronage, than her other protégé, but graciously offered him tea and permitted a cigarette.
Lady Everard went in for being at oncegrande dameand Bohemian. She was truly good-natured and kind, except to rivals in her own sphere, but when jealous she was rather redoubtable.
'I'm pleased to see you, my dear Willie,' she said; 'all the more because I hear Mrs Mitchell has taken Wednesdays now. Notquitea nice thing to do, I think; although, after all, I suppose we could hardly really clash. True, wedohappen to know a few of the same people.' (By that Lady Everard meant she had snatched as many of Mrs Mitchell's friends away as she thought desirable.) 'But as a general rule I suppose we're not really in the same set. But perhaps you're going on there afterwards?'
That had been Mr Clicker's intention, but he denied it, with surprise and apparent pain at the suspicion.
She settled down more comfortably.
'Ah, well, Mrs Mitchell is an extremely nice, hospitable woman, and her parties are, I know, consideredquiteamusing, but I do think—I really do—that her husband carries his practical jokes and things alittletoo far. It isn't good form, it really isn't, to see a man of his age, with his face blacked, coming in after dinner with a banjo, calling himself the Musical White-eyed Kaffir, as he did the last time I was there. I find itdéplacé—that's the word,déplacé. He seemed to think that we were all children at a juvenile party! I was saying so to Lord Rye only last night. Lord Rye likes it, I think, but he says Mr Mitchell's mad—that's what it is, a little mad. Last time Lord Rye was there everybody had a present given them hidden in their table napkins. There had been some mistake in the parcels, I believe, and Miss Mooney—you know, the actress, Myra Mooney—received a safety razor, and Lord Rye a vanity bag. Everybody screamed with laughter, but I must say it seemed to me rather silly. I wasn't there myself.'
'I was,' said Mr Cricker. 'I got a very pretty little feather fan. I suppose the things really had been mixed up, and after all I was very glad of the fan; I was able to give it to—' He stopped, sighed and looked down on the floor.
'And is that affair still going on, Willie dear? It seems to mesucha pity. Idowish you would try and give it up.'
'I know, but shewon't,' he said in a voice hoarse with anxiety.'Dear Lady Everard, you're a woman of the world, and know everything—'
She smiled. 'Not everything, Willie; a little of music, perhaps. I know a good voice when I hear it. I have a certainflairfor what's going to be a success in that direction, and of course I've been everywhere and seen everything. I've a certain natural knowledge of life, too, and keep well up to date with everything that's going on. I knew about the Hendon Divorce Case long before anyone else, though it never came off after all, but that's not the point. But then I'm so discreet; people tell me things. At any rate, I alwaysknow.'
Indeed, Lady Everard firmly believed herself to be a great authority on most subjects, but especially on contemporary gossip. This was a delusion. In reality she had that marvellous talent for not knowing things, that gift for ignorance, and genius for inaccuracy so frequently seen in that cultured section of society of which she was so popular and distinguished a member. It is a talent that rarely fails to please, particularly in a case like her own. There is always a certain satisfaction in knowing that a woman of position and wealth, who plumes herself on her early knowledge and special information, is absolutely and entirely devoid of the one and incorrect in the other. A marked ignorance in a professionally well-informed person has always something touching and appealing to those who are able, if not willing, to set that person right. It was taken for granted among her acquaintances, and probably was one of the qualities that endeared her to them most, that dear Lady Everard was generally positive and always wrong.
'Yes, I do know most things, perhaps,' she said complacently. 'And one thing I know is that this woman friend of yours is making you perfectly miserable. You're longing to shake it off. Ah, I know you! You've far more real happiness in going to the opera with me than even in seeing her, and the more she pursues you the less you like it. Am I not right?'
'Yes, I suppose so. But as a matter of fact, Lady Everard, if she didn't—well—what you might call make a dash for it, I shouldn't worry about her at all.'
'Men,' continued Lady Everard, not listening, 'only like coldness; coldness, reserve. The only way in the world to draw a man on is to be always out to him, or to go away, and never even let him hear your name mentioned.'
'I daresay there's a lot in that,' said Cricker, wondering why she did not try that plan with young La France.
'Women of the present day,' she continued, growing animated, 'make such a terrible, terrible mistake I What do they do when they like a young man? Oh, I know! They write to him at his club; they call at his rooms and leave messages; they telephone whenever they can. The more he doesn't answer their invitations the more they invite him. It's appalling! And what's the result? Men are becoming cooler and cooler— as a class, I mean. Of course, there are exceptions. But it's such a mistake of women to run after the few young men there are. There are such a tremendous lot of girls and married women nowadays, there are so many more of them.'
'Well, perhaps that's why they do it,' said Cricker rather stupidly. 'At any rate—oh, well, I know if my friend hadn't been so jolly nice to me at first and kept it up so—oh, well, you know what I mean—kept on keeping on, if I may use the expression, I should have drifted away from her ages ago. Because, you see, supposing I'm beginning to think about something else, or somebody else, she doesn't stand it; she won't stand it. And the awkward part is, you see, her beingonthe stageandmarried makes the whole thing about as awkward as a case of that sort can possibly be.'
'I would not ask you her name for the world,' said Lady Everard smoothly. 'Of course I know she's a beautiful young comedy actress, or is it tragedy? I wonder if I could guess her first name? Will you tell me if I guess right?' She looked arch.
'Oh, I say, I can't tell you who it is, Lady Everard; really not.'
'Only the first name? I don'twantyou to tell me; I'm discretion itself, I prefer not to know. The Christian name is not Margaretta, is it? Ah! no, I thought not. It's Irene Pettifer! There, I've guessed. The fact is, I always knew it, my dear boy. Your secret is safe with me. I'm the tomb! I—'
'Excuse me, Lady Everard,' said Cricker, with every sign of annoyance, 'it's no more Irene Pettifer than it's you yourself. Please believe me. First of all I don'tknowIrene Pettifer; I've never even seen her photograph—she's not young, not married, and an entirely different sort of person.'
'What did I tell you? I knew it wasn't; I only said that to draw you. However, have a little more tea, or some iced coffee, it's so much more refreshing I always think. My dear Willie, I was only chaffing you. I knew perfectly well it wasn't either of the people I suggested. The point is, it seems to prey on your mind, and worry you, and you won't break it off.'
'But how can I?'
'I will dictate you a letter,' she said. 'Far be it from me to interfere, and I don't pretend to know more about this sort of thing than anybody else. At the same time, if you'll take it down just as I tell it, and send it off, you'll find it will do admirably. Have you got a pencil?'
As if dully hypnotised, he took out a pencil and notebook.
'It would be awfully kind of you, Lady Everard. It might give me an idea anyway.'
'All right.'
She leant back and half closed her eyes, as if in thought; then started up with one finger out.
'We must be quick, because I'm expecting someone presently,' she said. 'But we've got time for this. Now begin. July 7th, 1912. Have you got that?'
'Yes, I've got that.'
'Or, perhaps, just Thursday. Thursday looks more casual, more full of feeling than the exact date. Got Thursday?'
'Yes, but it isn't Thursday, it's Friday.'
'All right, Friday, or any day you like. The day is not the point. You can send it tomorrow, or any time you like. Wednesday. My dearest Irene.'
'Her name's not Irene.'
'Oh no, I forgot. Take that out. Dear Margaretta. Circumstances have occurred since I last had the pleasure of seeing you that make it absolutely impossible that I could ever meet you again.'
'Oh, I say!'
'Go on. Ever see you or meet you again. You wish to be kind to her, I suppose?'
'Oh yes.'
'Then say: Duty has to come between us, but God knows I wish you well.' Tears were beginning to come to Lady Everard's eyes, and she spoke with a break in her voice. 'I wish you well, Irene.'
'It's not Irene.'
'I wish you well, Margaretta. Some day in the far distant future you'll think of me, and be thankful for what I have done. It's for your good and my own happiness that we part now, and for ever. Adieu, and may God bless you. How do you sign yourself?'
'Oh, Willie.'
'Very well then, be more serious this time: Always your faithful friend, William Stacey Cricker.'
He glanced over the note, his face falling more and more, while LadyEverard looked more and more satisfied.
'Copy that out, word for word, the moment you go back, and send it off,' she said, 'and all the worst of your troubles will be over.'
'I should think the worst is yet to come,' said he ruefully.
'But you promise to do it, Willie? Oh, promise me?'
'Oh yes rather,' said he half-heartedly.
'Word for word?'
'O Lord, yes. That's to say, unless anything—'
'Not a word, Willie; it will be your salvation. Come and see me soon, and tell me the result. Ah! here you are, cher maître!'
With a bright smile she welcomed Mr La France, who was now announced, gently dismissing Willie with a push of the left hand.
'Good heavens!' he said to himself, as he got into the cab, 'why, if I were to send a thing like that there would be murder and suicide! She'd show it to her husband, and he'd come round and knock me into a cocked hat for it. Dear Lady Everard—she's a dear, but she doesn't know anything about anything.'
He tore the pages out of his pocket-book, and called out to the cabman the address of the Mitchells.
'Ah, chère madame, que je suis fatigué!' exclaimed La France, as he threw himself back against the cushions.
His hair was long and smooth and fair, so fair that he had been spoken of by jealous singers as a peroxide blond. His eyes were greenish, and he had dark eyebrows and eyelashes. He was good-looking. His voice in speaking was harsh, but his manner soft and insidious. His talents were cosmopolitan; his tastes international; he had no duties, few pleasures and that entire want of leisure known only to those who have practically nothing whatever to do.
'Fatigued? That's what you always say,' said Lady Everard, laughing.
'But it is always true,' he said, with a strong French accent.
'You should take more exercise, Paul. Go out more in the air. You lead too secluded a life.'
'What exercises? I practise my voice every day, twenty minutes.'
'Ah, but I didn't mean that. I mean in the open air—sport—that sort of thing.'
'Ah, you wish I go horseback riding. Ver' nice, but not for me. I have never did it. I cannot begun now, Lady Everard. I spoil all theveloutéof my voice. Have you seen again that pretty little lady I met here before? Delicious light brown hair, pretty blue eyes, a wonderful blue, a blue that seem to say to everyone something different.'
'What!' exclaimed Lady Everard. 'Are you referring to Mrs Ottley?' She calmed down again. 'Oh yes, she's charming, awfully sweet—devoted to her husband, you know—absolutely devoted to her husband; so rare and delightful nowadays in London.'
'Oh yes, ver' nice. Me, I am devoted to 'er husband too. I go to see him. He ask me.'
'What, withoutme?' exclaimed Lady Everard.
'I meet him the other night. He ask me to come round and sing him a song. I cannot ask if I may bring Lady Everard in my pocket.'
'Really, Paul, I don't think that quite a nice joke to make, I must say.' Then relenting she said: 'I know it's only your artistic fun.'
'So she ver' devoted to him? He have great confidence in her; he trust her quite; he sure she never have any flirt?'
'He has every confidence; he's certain, absolutely certain!' exclaimedLady Everard.
'He wait till she come and tell him, I suppose. 'E is right.'
He continued in this strain for some time, constantly going back to his admiration for Edith, and then began (with a good deal of bitterness) on the subject of another young singer, whom he declared to beun garçon charmant, but no good. 'He could not sing for nuts.'
She heartily agreed, and they began to get on beautifully again, when she suddenly said to him:
'Is it true you were seen talking in the park to that girl MissTurnbull, on Sunday?'
'If you say I was seen, I was. You could not know I talk to her unlessI was seen. You could not know by wireless.'
'Don't talk nonsense, Paul,' she answered sharply. 'The point isn't that you were seen, but that you did it.'
'Who did it? Me? I didn't do anything.'
'I don't think it's fair to me, I must say; it hurt my feelings that you should meet Amy Turnbull in the park and talk to her.'
'But what could I say? It is ver' difficul. I walk through the park; she walk through it with another lady. She speak to me. She say: Ah, dear Mr La France, what pleasure to see you! I ask you, Lady Everard, could I, a foreigner, not even naturalised here, could I order her out of the park? Could I scream out to her: Go out, do not walk in ze Hyde Park! Lady Everard do not like you! I have no authority to say that. I am not responsible for the persons that walk in their own park in their own country. She might answer me to go to the devil! She might say to me: What, Lady Everard not like me, so I am not allowed in the park? What that got to do with it? In a case like this, chère madame, I have no legal power.'
She laughed forgivingly and said:
'Ah, well, one mustn't be too exacting!' and as she showed some signs of a desire to pat his hair he rose, sat down to the piano, greatly to her disappointment, and filled up the rest of the time by improvising (from memory). It was a little fatiguing, as she thought it her duty to keep up an expression of acute rapture during the whole of the performance, which lasted at least three-quarters of an hour.