"'Why, in the leafy greenwood loneSit you, rustic Pan, and droneOn a dulcet resonant reed?'"
"'Why, in the leafy greenwood loneSit you, rustic Pan, and droneOn a dulcet resonant reed?'"
"'Why, in the leafy greenwood loneSit you, rustic Pan, and droneOn a dulcet resonant reed?'"
"'Why, in the leafy greenwood lone
Sit you, rustic Pan, and drone
On a dulcet resonant reed?'"
He paused, peering across to the stone figure as for an answer. All stood listening, waiting, only wind and water breaking the silence. The bats were now flitting; overhead hung the saffron arch of fading sunset. In a deep ringing voice, very gruff and very low, Father Collins gave the answer:
"'So that yonder cows may feedUp the dewy mountain passes,Gathering the feathered grasses.'
"'So that yonder cows may feedUp the dewy mountain passes,Gathering the feathered grasses.'
"'So that yonder cows may feedUp the dewy mountain passes,Gathering the feathered grasses.'
"'So that yonder cows may feed
Up the dewy mountain passes,
Gathering the feathered grasses.'
"That's Pan's work," he said, laughing pleasantly, "Pan and all his splendid hierarchy. Always at work, though invisibly, with music, colour, beauty!..."
It was scraps like this that stood out in Fillery's memory, adding to his conviction that Paul had enlisted even this strange priest in his deep-laid plan....
"Each man is saturated with certain ideas, thoughts, phrases in a line of his own. These constitute his groove. To go outside it makes him feel homeless and uncomfortable. Accustomed to its measurements and safe within them, he interprets all he hears, reads, observes, according to his particular familiar shibboleths, to which, as to astandard of infallible criticism, he brings slavishly all that is offered for the consideration of his judgment. A new Idea stands little chance of being comprehended, much less adopted. Tell him new things about the stars, the Stock Exchange, the Stigmata—up crops his Standard of approval or disapproval. He cannot help himself. His judgment, based upon the limited content of his groove, operates automatically. He condemns. An entirely new idea is barely glanced at before it is rejected for the rubbish heap. How, then, can progress come swiftly to a Race composed of such individuals? Mass-judgment, herd-opinion governs everything. He who has original ideas is outcast, and dwells lonely as the moon. How slow, ye Gods! How slow!" ...
Only Fillery could not remember, could not be certain, whether it was his host or himself that used the words. Father Collins, as usual, was saying "all sorts of things," but addressed himself surely, to old Khilkoff most of the time, the Russian, half angry, half amused, growling out his comments and replies as he sat smoking heavily and enjoying the peaceful night scene in his own fashion....
It was odd, none the less, how much that the wild priest gabbled coincided with his own, with Fillery's, thoughts at the moment. A peculiar melancholy, a mood of shyness never known before, lay still upon him. The beauty of the silent girl beside him overpowered him a little; too wonderful to hold, to own, she seemed. Yet they were deliciously, uncannily akin. All his former self-created denials and suppressions, hesitations and refusals had vanished. "N. H."—He wondered?—had provided him with the fullest expression he had ever known. A boundless relief poured over him. He was aware of wholesome desire rising behind his old high admiration and respect....
He watched her once standing close to Pan's broken outline among the shadows, touching the mossy arm with white fingers, and he imagined for an instant that she held the vanished pipes.
"After an experience with Other Beings," Father Collins's endless drone floated to him, "shyness, they say, is felt. Silence descends upon the whole nature" ... to which, a little later, came the growling comment with its foreign accent: "Talk may be pleasurable—sometimes—but it is profitable rarely...."
The talk flowed past and over him, occasional phrases, like islands rising out of a stream, inviting his attention momentarily to land and listen.... The girl, he now saw, no longer stood beside the broken stone figure. She was wandering idly towards the farther garden and the trees.
He burned to rise and go to her, but something held him. What was it? What could it be? Some strange hard little obstacle prevented. Then, suddenly, he knew what it was that stopped him: he was waiting for that familiar pet sentence. Once he heard that, the impetus to move, the power to overcome his strange shyness, the certainty that his whole being was at last one with itself again, would come to him. It made him laugh inwardly while he recognized the validity of the detail—final symptoms of the obstructing inhibitions, of the obstinate original complex.
The outline of the girl was lost now, merged in the shadows beyond. He stirred, but could not get up to go. A fury of impatience burned in him. Father Collins, he felt, dawdled outrageously. He was talking—jawing, Fillery called it—about extraordinary experiences. "Gradually, as consciousness more and more often extends, the organs to record such extensions will be formed, you see.... If our inventive faculties were turned inwards, instead of outwards for gain and comfort as they now are, we might know the gods...."
The sculptor's growl, though the words were this time inaudible, had a bite in them. The other voice poured on like thick, slow oil:
"What, anyhow, is it, then, that urges us on in spite of all obstacles, denials, failures...?"
Then came something that seemed leading up to the petsentence that was the signal he waited for—nearer to it, at any rate:
"... It's childish, surely, to go on merely seeking more of what we have already. We should seek something new...."
A call, it seemed, came to him on the wind from the dark trees. But still he could not move.
But, at last, out of a prolonged jumble of the two voices, one growling, the other high pitched, came the signal he somehow waited for. Even now, however, the speaker delayed it as long as possible. He was doing it, of course, on purpose. This was intentional, obviously.
"... Yes, but a thing out of its right place is without power, life, means of expression—robbed of its context which alone gives it meaning—robbed, so to speak, of its arms and legs—without a body...."
There, at least, was the definite proof that Father Collins was doing this of deliberate, set purpose!
"Go on! Yes, but, for God's sake, say it! I want to be off!" Fillery believed he shrieked the words, but apparently they were inaudible. They remained unnoticed, at any rate.
"... Hence the value of order, tidiness, you see. Often a misplaced thing is invisible until replaced where it belongs. It is, as we say, lost. No movement is meaningless, no walk without purpose. All your movements tend towards your proper place...."
A breeze blew the fountain spray aside so that its splashing ceased for a brief second. From the rustling leaves beyond came a faint murmur as of distant piping. But—into the second's pause had leaped the pet sentence:
"Only a being in hisownplace is the ruler of his fate."
The signal! He was aware that the Russian cleared his throat and spat unmusically, aware also that Father Collins, a queer smile just discernible on his face in the gloom, turned his head with a gesture that might well have been an understanding nod. Both sound and gesture, however, were already behind him. He was released. He was acrossthe paved courtyard, past the fountain, past the stone figure of the silent old rough god—and off!
And as he went, finding his way instinctively among the dark trees, that pet sentence went with him like a clarion call, as though sweet piping music played it everywhere about him. A thousand memories shut down with a final snap. In the stage of his mind came a black-out upon a host of inhibitions. There was an immense and glorious sense of relief as though bitter knots were suddenly disentangled, and some iron kernel of resistance that had weighted him for years flowed freely at last in a stream of happy molten gold....
He found her easily. Where the trees thinned at the farther edge he saw her figure, long before he came up with her, outlined against the fading saffron. He saw her turn. He saw her arms outstretched. He came up with her the same minute, and they stood in silence for a long time, watching the darkness bend and sink upon the landscape.
For, here, at this one edge of the tiny estate, the real open country showed. Beyond them, in the twilight, lay the silent fields like a gigantic brown and yellow carpet whose shaken folds still seemed to tremble and run on beneath the growing moon. Along a farther ridge the trees and hedges passed in a ragged procession of strange figures, defined sharply against the sky—witches, queens and goblins on the prowl, the ancient fairyland of the English countryside.
They still stood silent, side by side, touching almost, their heat and perfume and atmosphere intermingling, looking out across the quiet scene. He was aware that her mind stole into his most sweetly, and that without knowing it his hand had found her own, and that, presently, she leaned a little against him. Their eyes, their mental sight as well, saw the same things, he knew. The first stars peeped out, and they looked up at them as one being looks, together.
"The wonder that you saw—in him," he heard himself saying. It was a statement, not a question.
"Was yourself, of course," her voice, like his own, in the rustle of the leaves, came softly. It continued his own thought rather than replied to it. "The part you've held down and hidden away all these years."
Her divination came to him with staggering effect. "You always knew then?"
"Always. The first day we met you took me into the firm."
He was aware that everything about him pulsed and throbbed with life, intelligence in every stick and stone. Angelic beings marched on their wondrous business through the sky. A mighty host pursued their endless service with a network of huge and tiny rhythms. The spirals of creative fire soared and danced....
The moon emerged, sailing, sailing, as though no wind could stop her lovely flight. She fled the stars themselves. The clouds turned round to look at her, as, clearing their hair, she passed onwards with her radiant smile. Heading into the bare bosom of the sky, she blazed in her triumph of loneliness, her icy prow set towards some far, unknown, unearthly goal, which is the reason why men love her so.
"And my theories—our theories?" he murmured into the ear against his lips. "The way that has been shown to us?"
Both arms were now about her, and he held her so close that her words were but a warm perfumed breath to cover his face as her hair was covering his eyes.
"We shall follow it together ... dear."
It was as if some angel, stepping down the sky, came near enough to fold them in a great rhythm of fire and wind. Bright, mighty faces in a crowd rose round them, and, through her hair, he saw familiar visible outlines of all the common things melt out, showing for one gorgeous instant the flashings and whirlings that was the workshop of Their deathless service.
"Look! Look!" he whispered, pointing from the darkening earth to the stars and sailing moon above. "They'reeverywhere! You can see them too? The bright messengers?"
For answer, she came yet closer against his side, holding him more tightly to her, lifting her lips to his, so that in her very eyes he saw the marvellous fire shine and flash. "We shall build together, you and I," she whispered very softly, "and with Their help, the sweetest and most perfect body ever known...."
But behind the magic of her words and voice, behind their meaning and the steadying, understanding sympathy he easily divined, he heard another sound, familiar as a dream, yet fraught with some haunting significance he already was forgetting—almosthadentirely forgotten. From the centre of the earth it seemed to rise, a magnificent, deep, stupendous rhythm that created, at least, the impression of a voice:
"I weave and I weave...!" rolled forth, as though the planet uttered. He stood waiting, transfixed, listening intently.
"You heard?" he whispered.
"Everything," she said, tight in his arms at once again, her lips on his. "The very beating of your heart—your inmost thoughts as well."
THE END
Transcriber's Note:Punctuation has been standardised. Hyphenation and spelling has been retained as in the original publication except as follows:Page 30Khilkoff, the daugher of hischanged toKhilkoff, thedaughterof hisPage 38Butt puzzled—my Godchanged toButpuzzled—my GodPage 59sets limits to it, Edwardchanged tosetlimits to it, EdwardPage 70Le Vallon was quite docilechanged toLeVallonwas quite docilePage 72Yets its limits seemedchanged toYetits limits seemedPage 105according to Bosé....changed toaccording toBose....Page 153reaching the divan in its dimlitchanged toreaching the divan in itsdim-litPage 157went as unobstrusively as an animalchanged towent asunobtrusivelyas an animalPage 185was too convicing to be missedchanged towas tooconvincingto be missedPage 282with amazemnt. They were sochanged towithamazement. They were soPage 299Le Vallon went on, plucking thechanged toLeVallonwent on, plucking thePage 299all her life suppressed (becausechanged toall her life suppressedbecausePage 302young girl wavered and hestitatedchanged toyoung girl wavered andhesitatedPage 339planetary spirits and vast Intelligeneschanged toplanetary spirits and vastIntelligences
Transcriber's Note:
Punctuation has been standardised. Hyphenation and spelling has been retained as in the original publication except as follows:
Page 30Khilkoff, the daugher of hischanged toKhilkoff, thedaughterof his
Page 38Butt puzzled—my Godchanged toButpuzzled—my God
Page 59sets limits to it, Edwardchanged tosetlimits to it, Edward
Page 70Le Vallon was quite docilechanged toLeVallonwas quite docile
Page 72Yets its limits seemedchanged toYetits limits seemed
Page 105according to Bosé....changed toaccording toBose....
Page 153reaching the divan in its dimlitchanged toreaching the divan in itsdim-lit
Page 157went as unobstrusively as an animalchanged towent asunobtrusivelyas an animal
Page 185was too convicing to be missedchanged towas tooconvincingto be missed
Page 282with amazemnt. They were sochanged towithamazement. They were so
Page 299Le Vallon went on, plucking thechanged toLeVallonwent on, plucking the
Page 299all her life suppressed (becausechanged toall her life suppressedbecause
Page 302young girl wavered and hestitatedchanged toyoung girl wavered andhesitated
Page 339planetary spirits and vast Intelligeneschanged toplanetary spirits and vastIntelligences