To lose his own cause in pleading Katherine’s loomed a black probability, yet in his very defeat he would prove himself not unworthy of Hilda’s love; neither cruel nor mean nor weak. Ah! piercing words! At least he could now draw them from their rankling. And as they walked together he told Katherine’s story, lending to it every charitable possibility with which she herself could not honestly have invested it.
When he had done, taking off his hat, for his temples were throbbing with the stress of the recital, and looking at Hilda with an almost pitifully boyish look, he had emphasized his own unconscious revelation of his love for Hilda, emphasized that hint of broken-hearted generosity in Katherine, he had hardly touched on her lie to Allan or on the glaring fact that she had made sure of him before giving Peter his freedom. The soreness that the revelation of Katherine’s selfishness had made between them so soon after their engagement, he had not mentioned.
Hilda walked along, looking steadily down. Once or twice during the story she had clutched her clasped hands more tightly, and once or twice her step had faltered and she had paused as though to listen more intently, but the white profile with its framing eddies of hair crossed the pale gold background, its attitude of intense quiet unchanged.
The silence that followed his last words seemed cruelly long to Odd, but at last she lifted her eyes, and meeting the solemn, pitiful, boyish look, her own look broke suddenly into passionate sympathy and emotion.
“Peter,” she said, standing still before him, “she didn’t love you.”
“I don’t think she did.” Odd’s voice was shaken but non-committal.
“Perhaps she loved you more than she could love any one else,” said Hilda.
“Yes; perhaps.”
Hilda’s hands were still clasped behind her, and she looked hard into his face as she added with a certain stern deliberateness—
“I don’t believe she ever loved anybody.”
Odd was silent. He had not dared to hope for such a clear perception.
“She was very cruel to me,” said Hilda, after a little pause, and her eyes, turning from his, looked far away as if following the fading of a lost illusion.
“I don’t think she ever cared much for me either,” she added.
“Not much; not as you interpret caring.”
Peter kept the balance with difficulty, for over him rushed that indignant realization of Katherine’s intrinsic selfishness.
“No; I could not have been so cruel to her, not even if she had robbed me of you.” It was the most self-assertive speech he had ever heard her utter.
“No; you could not have been so cruel to her,” he repeated, “not even loving me as you did and as she did not.”
There was a pause, a pause in which it seemed to Odd that the very trees stretched out their branches in breathless listening, and Hilda said slowly—
“But that doesn’t make what I did less wrong. I was as weak, as disloyal, as though Katherine had loved us both as much as I thought she did.”
“And I as cruel, as weak, as mean?” Odd asked.
“Ah, don’t!” she said, with a look of pain. “You have redeemed yourself,” she added, “and have made me more ashamed.”
“Then I have made a miserable failure of my attempt.”
“No, no; you have not.”
The river was before them now, and the woods sloped down to its curving band of silver. They both stood still and looked at it, and beyond it at the gentle stretches of autumnal hill and meadow.
“Dear Peter,” said Hilda gently. He looked down at her and she up at him, putting her hand in his, but so gravely and quietly that the tender little action conveyed nothing but a reminiscence of the child of ten years ago.
So, holding hands, they were both still silent, and again they looked at the river, the meadows, and the blue distance of the hills. Palamon, after running here and there, with rather assumed interest, his nose to the ground, came and sat down before them with an air of dignified acquiescence and appreciative contemplation. In the woods the sudden, sad-sweet twitter of a bird seemed to embroider the silence with unconscious pathos.
“O Peter!” said Hilda suddenly, on a note asimpulsive and as inevitable as the bird’s. He looked at her and put his arms around her, saying nothing.
“Oh!” said Hilda, “I cannot help it. I love you too much, dear Peter. Everything else may have been wrong, but it is right to love you.”
He took her face between his hands and looked at her.
“Everything else would be wrong.”
“Then kiss me, Peter.”
He gave himself the joy of a delicious postponement.
“Not till you tell me that you see that everything else would be wrong.” But the kiss was given before her answer.
“I trust you, and you must know.”
THE END.