Fierce hunger reigns within my breast,I had not dreamt that this whole world,Crushed in the hand of God, could yieldSuch bitter essence of unrest,Such pain as Sorrow now hath hurledOut of its dreadful heart, unsealed!
Each sobbing breath is but a cry,My heart-strokes knells of agony,And my whole brain has but one thoughtThat nevermore through life shall I(Save in the ache of memory)Touch hands with thee, who now art naught!
Through the whole void of night I search,So dumbly crying out to thee;But thou arenot; and night's vast throneBecomes an all stupendous churchWith star-bells knelling unto meWho in all space am most alone!
An hungered, to the shore I creep,Perchance some comfort waits on meFrom the old Sea's eternal heart;But lo! from all the solemn deep,Far voices out of mysterySeem questioning why we are apart!
"Where'er I go I am aloneWho once, through thee, had all the world.My breast is one whole raging painFor that whichwas, and now is flownInto the Blank where life is hurledWhere all is not, nor is again!"
[1]An apparently unmeaning interpolation. I can find no previous reference in the MS. to this matter. It becomes clearer, however, in the light of succeeding incidents.—Ed.
[2]Here, the writing becomes undecipherable, owing to the damaged condition of this part of the MS. Below I print such fragments as are legible.—Ed.
[3]NOTE.—The severest scrutiny has not enabled me to decipher more of the damaged portion of the MS. It commences to be legible again with the chapter entitled "The Noise in the Night."—Ed.
[4]The Recluse uses this as an illustration, evidently in the sense of the popular conception of a comet.—Ed.
[5] Evidently referring to something set forth in the missing and mutilated pages. SeeFragments, Chapter 14—Ed.
[6]No further mention is made of the moon. From what is said here, it is evident that our satellite had greatly increased its distance from the earth. Possibly, at a later age it may even have broken loose from our attraction. I cannot but regret that no light is shed on this point.—Ed.
[7]Conceivably, frozen air.—Ed.
[8]See previous footnote. This would explain the snow (?) within the room.—Ed.
[9]I am confounded that neither here, nor later on, does the Recluse make any further mention of the continued north and south movement (apparent, of course,) of the sun from solstice to solstice.—Ed.
[10]At this time the sound-carrying atmosphere must have been either incredibly attenuated, or—more probably—nonexistent. In the light of this, it cannot be supposed that these, or any other, noises would have been apparent to living ears—to hearing, as we, in the material body, understand that sense.—Ed.
[11]I can only suppose that the time of the earth's yearly journey had ceased to bear its presentrelativeproportion to the period of the sun's rotation.—Ed.
[12]A careful reading of the MS. suggests that, either the sun is traveling on an orbit of great eccentricity, or else that it was approaching the green star on a lessening orbit. And at this moment, I conceive it to be finally torn directly from its oblique course, by the gravitational pull of the immense star.—Ed.
[13]It will be noticed here that the earth was "slowlytraversing the tremendous face of the dead sun." No explanation is given of this, and we must conclude, either that the speed of time had slowed, or else that the earth was actually progressing on its orbit at a rate, slow, when measured by existing standards. A careful study of the MS. however, leads me to conclude that the speed of time had been steadily decreasing for a very considerable period.—Ed.
[14]Seefirst footnote, Chapter 18.
[15]Without doubt, the flame-edged mass of the Dead Central Sun, seen from another dimension.—Ed.
[16]NOTE.—From the unfinished word, it is possible, on the MS., to trace a faint line of ink, which suggests that the pen has trailed away over the paper; possibly, through fright and weakness.—Ed.
[17]These stanzas I found, in pencil, upon a piece of foolscap gummed in behind the fly-leaf of the MS. They have all the appearance of having been written at an earlier date than the Manuscript.--Ed.