How large a Debt we owe you, wise and holie Men of old! How ye counsel us to Patience, incite us to Self-mastery, cheer us on to high Emprize, temper in us the Heat of Youth, school our Inexperience, calm the o'erwrought Mind, allay the Anguish of Disappointment, cheat Suspense, and master Despair.... How much better and happier ye would make us, if we would but list your Teaching!
Besshath fallen Sick; no marvell. Everie one goeth heavilie. Alle Joy is darkened; the Mirthe of the House is gone.
Willtells me, that as they pushed off from the Stairs,Fathertook him about the Neck and whispered, "I thank ourLord, the Field is won!" Sure,Regulusne'er went forthe with higher Self-devotion.
The Stairs.The Stairs.
The Stairs.
Having declared his Inabilitie to take the Oath as it stoode, they bade him,Willtells me, take a Turn in the Garden while they administered it to sundrie others, thus affording him Leisure for Re-consideration. But they might as well have bidden the Neap-tide turn before its Hour. When called in agayn, he was as firm as ever, so was given in Ward to theAbbotofWestminstertill theKing'sGrace was informed of the Matter. And now, the Fool's wise Saying of vindictiveHerodiascame true, for 'twas theKing'sMind to have Mercy on his old Servant, and tender him a qualifyed Oath;but QueenAnne, by her importunate Clamours, did overrule his proper Will, and at four Days' End, the full Oath being agayn tendered and rejected,Fatherwas committed to the Tower. Oh, wicked Woman, how could you?... Sure, you never loved a Father....
May 22d.
In Answer to our incessant Applications throughout this last Month past,Motherhath at length obtayned Access to dearFather. She returned, her Eyes nigh swollen to closing with weeping.... We crowded round about, burning for her Report, but 'twas some Time ere she coulde fetch Breath or Heart to give it us. At lengthDaisy, kissing her Hand once and agayn, draws forthe a disjoynted Tale, somewhat after this Fashion.
"Come, give over weeping, dearestMother, 'twill do neither him, you, nor us anie Goode.... What was your first Speech of him?"
"Oh, my first Speech, Sweetheart, was, 'What, my Goodness, Mr.More! I marvell how that you, who were always counted a wise Man, should now soe play the Fool as to lie here in this close, filthy Prison, shut up with Mice and Rats, when you mighte be abroade and at your Liberty, with the Favour of King and Council, and return to your righte fayr House, your Books and Gallery, and your Wife, Children, and Household, if soe be you onlie woulde but do what the Bishops and best learned of the Realm have, without Scruple, done alreadie.'"
"And what sayd he,Mother, to that?" ...
"Why, then, Sweetheart, he chucks me under the Chin and sayeth, 'I prithee, good MistressAlice, to tell me one Thing.' ... Soe then I say,'What Thing?' Soe then he sayeth, 'Is not this House, Sweetheart, as nigh Heaven as mine own?' Soe then I jerk my Head away and say, 'Tilly-valley! Tilly-valley!'"
SaythBess, "Sure,Mother, that was cold Comfort.... And what next?"
"Why, then I said, 'Bone Deus, Man!Bone Deus!will this Gear never be left?' So then he sayth, 'Well then, Mrs.Alice, if it be soe, 'tis mighty well, but, for my Part, I see no greate Reason why I shoulde much joy in my gay House, or in Aniething belonging thereunto, when, if I shoulde be but seven Years buried underground, and then arise and come thither agayn, I shoulde not fail to find Some therein that woulde bid me get out of Doors, and tell me 'twas none o' mine. What Cause have I, then, to care soe greatliefor a House that woulde soe soone forget its Master?'"
"And then,Mother? and then?"
"Soe then, Sweetheart, he sayth, 'Come tell me, Mrs.Alice, how long do you think we might reckon on living to enjoy it?' Soe I say, 'Some twenty Years, forsooth.' 'In faith,' says he, 'had you said some thousand Years, it had beene Somewhat; and yet he were a very bad Merchant that woulde put himselfe in Danger to lose Eternity for a thousand Years ... how much the rather if we are not sure to enjoy it one Day to an End?' Soe then he puts me off with Questions, How isWill? andDaisy? andRupert? and this one? and t'other one? and the Peacocks? and Rabbits? and have we elected a new King of the Cob-loaf yet? and hasTomfound his Hoop? and is the Hasp ofthe Buttery-hatch mended yet? and how goes the Court? and what was the Text o'Sunday? and have I practised the Viol? and how are we off for Money? and why can't he seeMeg? Then he asks for this Book and t'other Book, but I've forgot their Names, and he sayth he's kept mighty short of Meat, though 'tis little he eats, but his ManJohn a Woodis gay an' hungry, and 'tis worth a World to see him at a salt Herring. Then he gives me Counsell of this and that, and puts his Arm about me and says, 'Come, let us pray;' but while he kept praying for one and t'other, I kept a-counting of his gray Hairs; he'd none a Month agone. And we're scarce off our Knees, when I'm fetched away; and I say, 'When will you change your Note, and act like a wise Man?' and he sayth,'When? when?' looking very profound; 'why, ... when Gorse is out of Blossom and Kissing out of Fashion.' Soe puts me forthe by the Shoulders with a Laugh, calling after me, 'Remember me over and over agayn to them alle, and let me seeMeg.'"
... I feel as if a String were tied tight about my Heart. Methinketh 'twill burst if we goe on long soe.
July 25th.
He hath writ us a few Lines with a Coal, ending with "Sursum Corda, dear Children! up with your Hearts." The Bearer was dearBonvisi.
Aug. 16th.
TheLordbegins to cut us short. We are now on very meagre Commons, dearMotherbeing obliged to pay fifteen Shillings a week for the Board, poor as it is, ofFatherand his Servant. She hath parted with her Velvet Gown, embroidered overthwart, to my LadySands'Woman. Her Mantle edged with Coney went long ago.
But we lose not Heart; I think mine is becoming annealed in the Furnace, and will not now break. I have writ somewhat after this Fashion to him.... "What do you think, most dearFather, doth comfort us atChelsea, during this your Absence? Surelie, the Remembrance of your Manner of Life amongus, your holy Conversation, your wholesome Counsells, your Examples of Virtue, of which there is Hope that they do not onlie persevere with you, but that, byGod'sGrace, they are much increast."
I weary to see him.... Yes, we shall meet in Heaven, but how long first, OLord? how long?
Aug 20th.
Now that I've come back, let me seek to think, to remember.... Sure, my Head will clear by-and-by! Strange, that Feeling shoulde have the Masterdom of Thought and Memory, in Matters it is most concerned to retayn.
... I minded to put the Haircloth and Cord under my Farthingale, and one or two of the smaller Books in my Pouch,as alsoe some Sweets and Suckets such as he was used to love.WillandBonvisiwere a-waiting for me; and deareBess, putting forthe her Head from her Chamber Door, cries piteously, "Tell him, dearMeg, tell him ... 'twas never soe sad to me to be sick ... and that I hope ... I pray ... the Time may come ..." then falls back swooning intoDancey'sArms, whom I leave crying heartilie over her, and hasten below to receive the confused Medley of Messages sent by every other Member of the House. For mine owne Part, I was in such a tremulous Succussion as to be scarce fitt to stand or goe; but Time and the Tide will noe Man bide, and, once having taken Boat, the cool River Air allayed my fevered Spiritts; onlie I coulde not for awhile get ridd of the Impression of poorDanceycrying overBessin her Deliquium.
I think none o' the three opened our Lips before we reachedLambeth, save, in theReach,Willcried to the Steersman, "Look you run us not aground," in a sharper Voyce than I e'er heard from him. After passing theArchbishop'sPalace, whereon I gazed full ruefullie, goodBonvisibeganne to mention some Rhymes he had founde writ with a Diamond on one of the Window-panes atCrosby House, and would know were theyFather's? and was't the ChamberFatherhad used to sleep in? I tolde him it was, but knew Nought of the Distich, though 'twas like enow to be his. And thence he went on to this and that, how thatFather'scheerfulle, funny Humour never forsook him, nor his brave Heart never quelled; instancing his fearlesse Passage through the Traitor's Gate, asking his Neighbours whetherhisGait were that of a Traditor; and, on being sued by the Porter for hisupper Garment, giving him hisCap, which he sayd was uppermost. And other such Quips and Passages, which I scarce noted nor smiled at, soe sorry was I of Cheer.
his fearlesse passage through the Traitor's Gate"his fearlesse passage through the Traitor's Gate"
"his fearlesse passage through the Traitor's Gate"
At length we stayed rowing:Willlifted me out, kissed me, heartened me up; and, indeede, I was in better Heart then, having been quietlie in Prayer a good While. After some few Forms, we were led through sundrie Turns and Passages; and, or ever I was aware, I founde myself quit of my Companions and inFather'sArms.
We both cried a little at first; I wonder I wept noe more, but Strength was given me in that Hour. As soone as I coulde, I lookt him in the Face, and he lookt at me, and I was beginning to note his hollow Cheeks, when he sayd, "Why,Meg, you are getting freckled;"soe that made us bothe laugh. He sayd, "You shoulde get some Freckle-water of the Lady that sent me here; depend on it, she hath Washes and Tinctures in Plenty; and after all,Meg, she'll come to the same End at last, and be as the Lady all Bone and Skin, whose ghastlie Legend used to scare thee soe when thou wert a Child. Don't tell that Story to thy Children; 'twill hamper 'em with unsavoury Images of Death. Tell them of heavenlie Hosts a-waiting to carry off good Men's Souls in fire-bright Chariots, with Horses of the Sun, to a Land where they shall never more be surbated and weary, but walk on cool, springy Turf and among Myrtle Trees, and eat Fruits that shall heal while they delight them, and drink the coldest of cold Water, fresh from the River of Life, and have Space to stretchthemselves, and bathe, and leap, and run, and, whichever Way they look, meetChrist'sEyes smiling on them. Sure,Meg, who would live, that coulde die? One mighte as lief be an Angel shut up in a Nutshell as bide here. Fancy how gladsome the sweet Spirit woulde be to have the Shell cracked! no matter by whom; the King, or King's Mistress.... Let her dainty Foot but set him free, he'd say, 'For this Release, much Thanks.' ... And how goes the Court,Meg?"
"In Faith,Father, never better.... There is Nothing else there, I hear, but Dancing and Disporting."
"Never better, Child, sayst thou? Alas,Meg, it pitieth me to consider what Misery, poor Soul, she will shortlie come to. These Dances of hers will prove such Dances that shewill spurn our Heads off like Footballs; but 'twill not be long ere her Head will dance the like Dance. Mark you,Meg, a Man that restraineth not his Passions, hath always Something cruel in his Nature, and if there be a Woman toward, she is sure to suffer heaviest for it, first or last.... Seek Scripture Precedent for't ... you'll find it as I say. Stony as Death, cruel as the Grave. ThosePhariseesthat were, to a Man, convicted of Sin, yet haled a sinning Woman before theLord, and woulde fain have seene the Dogs lick up her Blood. When they lick up mine, deareMeg, let not your Heart be troubled, even though they shoulde hale thee toLondon Bridge, to see my Head stuck on a Pole. Think, most dear'st, I shall then have more Reason to weep for thee than thou for me. But there'snoe weeping in Heaven; and bear in Mind,Meg, distinctlie, that if they send me thither, 'twill be for obeying the Law ofGodrather than of Men. And after alle, we live not in the bloody, barbarous old Times of Crucifyings and Flayings, and immersing in Cauldrons of boiling Oil. One Stroke, and the Affair's done. A clumsy Chirurgeon would be longer extracting a Tooth. We have oft agreed that the little Birds struck down by the Kite and Hawk suffer less than if they were reserved to a naturall Death. There is one sensible Difference, indeed, between us. In our Cases, Preparation is a-wanting."
Hereon, I minded me to slip off the Haircloth and Rope, and give the same to him, along with the Books and Suckets, all which he hid away privatelie, making merry at the last.
"'Twoulde tell well before the Council," quoth he, "that on searching the Prison-cell of SirThomas More, there was founde, flagitiouslie and mysteriouslie laid up ... a piece of Barley-sugar!"
Then we talked over sundrie Home-matters; and anon, having now both of us attayned unto an equable and chastened Serenitie of Mind, which needed not any false Shows of Mirth to hide the naturall Complexion of, he sayth, "I believe,Meg, they that have put me here ween they have done me a high Displeasure; but I assure thee on my Faith, mine owne good Daughter, that if it had not beene for my Wife, and for you, my dear good Children, I woulde faine have beene closed up, long ere this, in as strait a Room, and straiter too."
Thereon, he shewed me how illegal was his Imprisonment, there being noeStatute to authorize the Imposition of the Oath, and he delivered himself, with some Displeasure, agaynst the King's ill Counsellors.
"And surelie,Meg," quoth he, "'tis pitie that anie Christian Prince shoulde, by a flexible Council readie to follow his Affections, and by a weak Clergy lacking Grace to stand constantly to the Truth as they have learned it, be with Flattery so constantly abused. The Lotus Fruit fabled by the Ancients, which made them that ate it lose all Relish for the daylie Bread of their own Homes, was Flattery,Meg, as I take it, and Nothing else. And what less was the Song of the Syrens, agaynst whichUlyssesmade his Sailors stop their Ears, and which he, with all his Wisdom, coulde not listen to without struggling to be unbound from theMast? Even Praise,Meg, which, moderately given, may animate and cheer forward the noblest Minds, yet too lavishly bestowed, will decrease and palsy their Strength, e'en as an Over-dose of the most generous and sprightlie Medicine may prove mortiferous. But Flattery is noe Medicine, but a rank Poison, which hath slayn Kings, yea, and mighty Kings; and they who love it, theLordknoweth afar off; knoweth distantlie, has no care to know intimatelie, for they are none of his."
Thus we went on, from one Theme to another, till methinketh a heavenlie Light seemed to shine alle about us, like as when the Angel entered the Prison ofPeter. I hung upon everie Word and Thought that issued from his Lips, and drank them in as thirsty Land sucks up the tender Rain.... Had the Angel of Death atthat Hour come in to fetch both of us away, I woulde not have sayd him nay, I was soe passively, soe intenselie happy. At length, as Time wore on, and I knew I shoulde soone be fetcht forthe, I coulde not but wish I had the Clew to some secret Passage or Subterraneal, of the which there were doubtless Plenty in the thick Walls, whereby we might steal off together.Fathermade Answer, "Wishes never filled a Sack. I make it my Businesse,Meg, to wish as little as I can, except that I were better and wiser. You fancy these four Walls lonesome; how oft, dost thou suppose, I here receivePlatoandSocrates, and this and that holy Saint and Martyr? My Gaolers can noe more keep them out than they can exclude the Sunbeams. Thou knowest,Jesusstood among his Disciples when the Doorswere shut. I am not more lonely than St.Anthonyin his Cave, and I have a divine Light e'en here, whereby to con the Lesson, 'Godis Love.' The Futility of our Enemies' Efforts to make us miserable was never more stronglie proven to me than when I was a mere Boy inCardinall Morton'sService. Having unwittinglie angered one of his Chaplains, a choleric and even malignant-spirited Man, he did, of his owne Authoritie, shut me up for some Hours in a certayn damp Vault, which, to a Lad afeard of Ghosts and devilish Apparitions, would have beene fearsome enow. Howbeit, I there cast myself on the Ground with my Back sett agaynst the Wall, and mine Arm behind my Head, this Fashion ... and did then and there, by reason of a young Heart, quiet Conscience, and quick Phansy,conjure up such a lively Picture of the Queen o' the Fairies' Court, and alle the Sayings and Doings therein, that never was I more sorry than when my Gaoler let me goe free, and bade me rise up and be doing. In place, therefore, my Daughter, of thinking of me in thy Night Watches as beating my Wings agaynst my Cage Bars, trust thatGodcomes to look in upon me without Knocking or Bell-ringing. Often in Spiritt I am with you alle; in the Chapel, in the Hall, in the Garden; now in the Hayfield, with my Head on thy Lap, now on the River, withWillandRupertat the Oar. You see me not about your Path, you won't see my disembodied Spiritt beside you hereafter, but it may be close upon you once and agayn for alle that: maybe, at Times when you have prayed with most Passion,or suffered with most Patience, or performed my Hests with most Exactness, or remembered my Care of you with most Affection. And now, good Speed, goodMeg, I hear the Key turn in the Door.... This Kiss for thy Mother, this forBess, this forCecil, ... this and this for my whole School. Keep dry Eyes and a hopefull Heart; and reflect that Nought but unpardoned Sin shoulde make us weep for ever."
September.
Seeing the Woodman fell a noble Tree, which, as it went to the Ground, did uptear severall small Plants by the Roots, methoughte such woulde be the Fall of dearFather, herein more sad than that of the AbbotofSionand theCharterhouseMonks, inasmuch as, being celibate, they involve noe others in theire Ruin. Brave, holie Martyrs! how cheerfully they went to theire Death. I'm glad to have seene how pious Men may turn e'en an ignominious Sentence into a kind of Euthanasy. DearFatherbade me note how they bore themselves as Bridegrooms going to theire Marriage, and converted what mighte have beene a Shock to my surcharged Spiritts, into a Lesson of deepe and high Comfort.
One Thing hath grieved me sorelie. He mistooke Somewhat I sayd at parting for an Implication of my Wish that he shoulde yield up his Conscience. Oh no, dearestFather, that be far from me! It seems to have cut him to the Heart, for he hath writ that "none of the terrible Things that may befall him touch himsoe nearlie as that his dearly beloved Child, whose Opinion he soe much values, shoulde desire him to overrule his Conscience." That be far from me,Father! I have writ to explayn the Matter, but his Reproach, undeserved though it be, hath troubled my Heart.
November.
Parliament will meet to-morrow. 'Tis expectedFatherand the good Bishop ofRochesterwill be attainted for Misprision of Treason by the slavish Members thereof; and though not given hithertoe unto much Heede of Omens and Bodements while our Hearts were light and our Courage high, yet now the coming Evill seemeth foreshadowed unto alle by I know nothow many melancholick Presages, sent, for aught we know, in Mercy. Now that the days are dark and short, and the Nights stormy, we shun to linger much after Dusk in lone Chambers and Passages, and what was sayd of the Enemies ofIsraelmay be nigh sayd of us, "that a falling Leaf shall chase them." I'm sure "a going in the Tops of the Mulberry Trees" on a blusterous Evening, is enow to draw us alle, Men, Mothers, and Maids, together in an Heap.... We goe aboute the House in Twos and Threes, and care not much to leave the Fireside. LastSundaywe had closed about the Hearth, and littleBillwas a reading by the Fire-light howHerodias'Daughter danced off the Head of St.JohntheBaptist, when down comes an emptie Swallow's Nest tumbling adown the Chimnie, bringing with it enow of Soot,Smoke, and Rubbish to half smother us alle; but the Dust was nothing to the Dismay thereby occasioned, and I noted one or two of our bravest turn as pale as Death. Then, the Rats have skirmished and gallopped behind the Wainscoat more like a Troop of Horse than a Herd of such small Deer, to the infinite Annoyance ofMother, who coulde not be more firmly persuaded they were about to leave a falling House, if, like the scared Priests in the Temple ofJerusalem, she had heard a Voyce utter, "Let us depart hence." The round upper Half of the Cob-loaf rolled off the Table this Morning; andRupert, as he picked it up, gave a Kind of Shudder, and muttered somewhat about a Head rolling from the Scaffold. Worse than this was o'TuesdayNight.... 'Twas Bed-time, and yet none were liking to goe, when, o' suddain,we hearde a Screech that made every Body's Heart thrill, followed by one or two hollow Groans.Willsnatches up the Lamp and runs forth, I close following, and alle the others at our Heels; and after looking into sundrie deserted Cup-boards and Corners, we descend the broad Stone Steps of the Cellars, half way down whichWill, stumbling over something he sees not, takes a flying Leap to clear himself down to the Bottom, luckilywithout extinguishing the Lamp. We findGillianon the Steps in a Swoon; on bringing her to, she exclayms about a Ghost without a Head, wrapped in a Winding-sheet, that confronted her and then sank to the Ground as she entered the Vaults. We cast a fearfulle Look about, and descry a tall white Sack of Flour, recently overturned by the Rats, which clears up the Mystery, and procuresGilliana little Jeering; but we alle return to the Hall with fluttered Spiritts. Another Time I, going up to the Nurserie in the Dark, on hearing Baby cry, am passed on the Stairs by I know not what, breathing heavilie. I reache forthe my Arm, but pass cleare through the spirituall Nature, whatever it is, yet distinctlie feel my Cheek and Neck fanned by its Breath. I turn very faint, and get Nurse to goe with me when I return, bearing a Light,yet think it as well to say nought to distress the rest.
Gillian and the Flour Sacks.
But worst of alle was last Night.... After I had beene in Bed awhile, I minded me that deareWillhad not returned meFather'sLetter. I awoke him, and asked if he had broughte it up Stairs; he sleepily replied he had not, soe I hastily arose, threw on a Cloke, took a Light, and entered the Gallery; when, half-way along it, between me and the pale Moonshine, I was scared to behold a slender Figure alle in white, with naked Feet and Arms extended. I stoode agaze, speechlesse, and to my Terror made out the Features ofBess... her Eyes open, but vacant; then sawJohn Danceysoftly stealing after her, and signing to me with his Finger on his Lips. She passed without noting me, on toFather'sDoor, there knelt as if in Prayer, making a low sortof Wail, whileDancey, with Tears running down his Cheeks, whispered, "'Tis the third Time of her thus sleep-walking ... the Token of how troubled a Mind!"
We disturbed her not, dreading that a suddain Waking might bring on Madness; soe after making Moan awhile, she kisses the senseless Door, rises up, moves towards her own Chamber, followed byDanceyand me, wrings her Hands a little, then lies down and graduallie falls into what seems a dreamlesse Sleep, we watching her in Silence till she's quiet, and then squeezing each other's Hands ere we part.
----Willwas wide awake when I got back; he sayd, "Why,Meg, how long you have beene! coulde you not lighte on the Letter?" ... When I tolde him what had hindered me by theWay, he turned his Face to the Wall and wept.
Midnight.
The wild Wind is abroad, and, methinketh,nothing else. Sure, how it rages through our empty Courts! In such a Season, Men, Beasts, and Fowls cower beneath the Shelter of their rocking Walls, yet almost fear to trust them.Lord, I know that thou canst give the Tempest double Force, but do not, I beseech thee! Oh! have Mercy on the frail Dwelling and the Ship at Sea.
Dear littleBillhath ta'en a feverish Attack. I watch beside him whilst his Nurse sleeps. Earlie in the Night his Mind wandered, and he told me of apretty pyebald Poney, noe bigger than a Bee, that had golden Housings and Barley-sugar Eyes; then dozed, but ever and anon kept starting up, crying, "Mammy dear!" and softlie murmured, "Oh!" when he saw I was by. At length I gave him my Forefinger to hold, which kept him ware of my Presence without speaking; but presentlie he stares hard towards the Foot of the Bed, and says fearfullie, "Mother, why hangs yon Hatchet in the Air, with its sharp Edge turned towards us?" I rise, move the Lamp, and say, "Do you see it now?" He sayth, "No, not now," and closes his Eyes. After a good Space, during the which I hoped he slept, he says in quite an altered Tone, most like unto soft, sweet Music, "There's a pretty little Cherub there now, alle Head and noe Body, with two little Wings aneath his Chin; but, for allehe's soe pretty, he is just like dearGaffer, and seems to know me ... and he'll have a Body agayn too, I believe, by and by....Mother,Mother, tellHobbinolthere's such a gentle Lamb in Heaven!" And soe, slept.
17th.
He's gone, my pretty...! slipt through my Fingers like a Bird! upfled to his own native Skies; and yet, whenas I think on him, I cannot choose but weepe.... Such a guilelesse little Lamb!... My Billy-bird! his Mother's owne Heart!—They are alle wondrous kind to me....
27th.
How strange that a little Child shoulde be permitted to suffer soe much Payn, when of such is the Kingdom of Heaven! But 'tis onlie transient, whereas a Mother makes it permanent, by thinking it over and over agayn. One Lesson it taughte us betimes, that a naturall Death is not, necessarilie, the most easie. We must alle die.... As poorPattesonwas used to say, "The greatest King that ever was made, must bed at last with Shovel and Spade," ... and I'd sooner have myBilly'sBaby Deathbed than KingHarry's, orNan Boleyn'seither, however manie Years they may yet carry Matters with a high Hand. Oh, you Ministers of Evill, whoever yebe, visible or invisible, you shall not build a Wall between myGodand me.... I've Something within me grows stronger and stronger, as Times grow more and more Evill; some woulde call it Resolution, but methinketh 'tis Faith.
Meantime,Father'sFoes ... alack that anie can shew 'emselves such! are aiming, by fayr Seemings of friendlie Conference, to draw from him Admissions they can come at after noe other Fashion. The newSolicitor Generallhath gone to the Tower to deprive him of the few Books I have taken him from Time to Time.... Ah, MasterRich, you must deprive him of his Brains afore you can rob him of their Contents!... and, while having 'em packt up, he falls into easie Dialogue with him, as thus, ... "Why now, sure, Mr.More, were there an Act of Parliament made that all theRealm shoulde take me for King, you woulde take me for such with the Rest."
"Aye, that would I, Sir," returnsFather.
"Forsooth, then," pursuesRich, "we'll suppose another Act that should make me the Pope. Woulde you not take me for Pope?"
"Or suppose another Case, Mr.Rich," returnsFather, "that another Act shoulde pass, thatGodshoulde not beGod, would you say well and good?"
"No, truly," returns the other hastily, "for no Parliament coulde make such Act lawful."
"True, as you say," repeatsFather, "they coulde not," ... soe eluded the Net of the Fowler; but how miserable and unhandsome a Device to lay wait for him thus!
... I stole forthe, ere 'twas Lighte, this damp chill Morning, to pray beside the little Grave, but found dearDaisythere before me. How Christians love one another!
Will'sLoss is as heavie as mine, yet he bears with me tenderlie. Yesternighte, he sayth to me half reproachfullie, "Am not I better unto thee than ten Sons?"
March, 1535.
Spring comes, that brings Rejuvenescence to the Land, and Joy to the Heart, but it brings none to us, for where Hope dieth, Joy dieth. But Patience, Soul;God'syet in the Aumry!
May 7.
Fatherarraigned.
July 1.
By Reason ofWill'sminding to be present at the Triall, which, for the Concourse of Spectators, demanded his earlie Attendance, he committed the Care of me, withBess, toDancey, who got us Places to seeFatheron his Way from theTowertoWestminster Hall. We coulde not come at him for the Crowd, but clambered on a Bench to gaze our very Hearts away after him as he went by, sallow, thin,grey-haired, yet in Mien not a Whit cast down. Wrapt in a coarse woollen Gown, and leaning on a Staff; which unwonted Support whenBessmarkt, she hid her Eyes on my Shoulder and wept sore, but soon lookt up agayn, though her Eyes were soe blinded, I think she coulde not see him. His Face was calm, but grave, as he came up, but just as he passed he caughte the Eye of some one in the Crowd, and smiled in his old, frank Way; then glanced up towards the Windows with the bright Look he hath soe oft cast to me at my Casement, but saw us not. I coulde not help crying "Father," but he heard me not; perchance 'twas soe best.... I woulde not have had his Face cloud at the Sighte of poorBessy'sTears.
...Willtells me the Indictment was the longest ever hearde; on four Counts. First, his Opinion on the King's Marriage.Second, his writing sundrie Letters to theBishop of Rochester, counselling him to hold out. Third, refusing to acknowledge his Grace's Supremacy. Fourth, his positive Deniall of it, and thereby willing to deprive the King of his Dignity and Title.
When the reading of this was over, theLord Chancellorsayth, "Ye see how grievouslie you have offended the King his Grace, but and yet he is soe mercifulle, as that if ye will lay aside your Obstinacie, and change your Opinion, we hope ye may yet obtayn Pardon."
Fathermakes Answer ... and at Sounde of his deare Voyce alle Men hold their Breaths; ... "Most noble Lords, I have great Cause to thank your Honours for this your Courtesie ... but I prayAlmighty GodI may continue in the Mind I'm in, through his Grace, until Death."
They coulde not make goode their Accusation agaynst him. 'Twas onlie on the Last Count he could be made out a Traitor, and Proof of't had they none; how coulde they have? He shoulde have beene acquitted out of hand, 'steade of which, his bitter Enemy myLord Chancellorcalled on him for his Defence.Willsayth there was a generall Murmur or Sigh ran through the Court.Father, however, answered the Bidding by beginning to expresse his Hope that the Effect of long Imprisonment mighte not have beene such upon his Mind and Body, as to impair his Power of rightlie meeting alle the Charges agaynst him ... when, turning faint with long standing, he staggered and loosed Hold of his Staff, whereon he was accorded a Seat. 'Twas but a Moment's Weakness of the Body, and he then proceeded frankly to avowhis having always opposed theKing'sMarriage to his Grace himself, which he was soe far from thinking High Treason, that he shoulde rather have deemed it Treachery to have withholden his Opinion from his Sovereign King when solicited by him for his Counsell. His Letters to the goodBishophe proved to have been harmlesse. Touching his declining to give his Opinion, when askt, concerning the Supremacy, he alleged there coulde be noe Transgression in holding his Peace thereon,Godonly being cognizant of our Thoughts.
"Nay," interposeth theAttorney Generall, "your Silence was the Token of a malicious Mind."
"I had always understoode," answersFather, "that Silence stoode for Consent.Qui tacet, consentire videtur;" which made Sundrie smile. On the last Charge,he protested he had never spoken Word against the Law unto anie Man.
The Jury are about to acquit him, when up starts theSolicitor Generall, offers himself as Witness for the Crown, is sworn, and gives Evidence of his Dialogue withFatherin the Tower, falselie adding, like a Liar as he is, that on his saying "No Parliament coulde make a Law thatGodshoulde not beGod,"Fatherhad rejoyned, "No more coulde they make the King supreme Head of the Church."
I marvell the Ground opened not at his Feet.Fatherbrisklie made Answer, "If I were a Man, my Lords, who regarded not an Oath, ye know well I needed not stand now at this Bar. And if the Oath which you, Mr.Rich, have just taken, be true, then I pray I may never seeGodin the Face. In good Truth, Mr.Rich, I am more sorry foryour Perjurie than my Perill. You and I once dwelt long together in one Parish; your manner of Life and Conversation from your Youth up were familiar to me, and it paineth me to tell ye were ever held very light of your Tongue, a great Dicer and Gamester, and not of anie commendable Fame either there or in theTemple, the Inn to which ye have belonged. Is it credible, therefore, to your Lordships, that the Secrets of my Conscience touching the Oath, which I never woulde reveal, after the Statute once made, either to the King's Grace himself, nor to anie of you, my honourable Lords, I should have thus lightly blurted out in private Parley with Mr.Rich?"
In short, the Villain made not goode his Poynt: ne'erthelesse, the Issue of this black Day was aforehand fixed; my LordAudleywas primed with a virulent and venomous Speech; the Jury retired, and presentlie returned with a Verdict of Guilty; for they knew what the King's Grace woulde have 'em doe in that Case.
Up starts my LordAudley;—commences pronouncing Judgment, when—
"My Lord," saysFather, "in my Time, the Custom in these Cases was ever to ask the Prisoner before Sentence, whether he coulde give anie Reason why Judgment shoulde not proceed agaynst him."
My Lord, in some Confusion, puts the Question.
And then came the frightful Sentence.
Yes, yes, my Soul, I know; there were Saints of old sawn asunder. Men of whom the World was not worthy.
... Then he spake unto 'em hisMind; and bade his Judges and Accusers farewell; hoping that like as St.Paulwas present and consenting unto St.Stephen'sDeath, and yet both were now holy Saints in Heaven, so he and they might speedilie meet there, joint Heirs of e'erlasting Salvation.
Meantime, poorBessandCecilie, spent with Grief and long waiting, were forct to be carried Home byHeron, or everFatherreturned to his Prison. Was't less Feeling, or more Strength of Body, enabled me to bide at the Tower Wharf withDancey?Godknoweth. They brought him back by Water; my poor Sisters must have passed him.... The first Thing I saw was the Axe,turned with its Edge towards him—my first Note of his Sentence. I forct my Way through the Crowd ... some one laid a cold Hand on mine Arm; 'twas poorPatteson, soechanged I scarce knew him, with a Rosary of Gooseberries he kept running through his Fingers. He sayth, "Bide your Time, MistressMeg; when he comes past, I'll make a Passage for ye; ... Oh, Brother, Brother! what ailed thee to refuse the Oath?I'vetaken it!" In another Moment, "Now, Mistress, now!" and flinging his Arms right and left, made a Breach through which I darted, fearlesse of Bills and Halberds, and did cast mine Arms aboutFather'sNeck. He cries, "MyMeg!" and hugs me to him as though our very Souls shoulde grow together. He sayth, "Bless thee, bless thee! Enough, enough, my Child; what mean ye, to weep and break mine Heart? Remember, though I die innocent, 'tis not without the Will ofGod, who coulde have turned mine Enemies' Hearts, if 'twere best; thereforepossess your Soul in Patience. Kiss them alle for me, thus and thus ..." soe gave me back intoDancey'sArms, the Guards about him alle weeping; but I coulde not thus lose Sight of him for ever; soe, after a Minute's Pause, did make a second Rush, brake away fromDancey, clave toFatheragayn, and agayn they had Pitie on me, and made Pause while I hung upon his Neck. This Time there were large Drops standing on his dear Brow; and the big Tears were swelling into his Eyes. He whispered, "Meg, forChrist'sSake don't unman me; thou'lt not deny my last Request?" I sayd, "Oh! no;" and at once loosened mine Arms. "God's Blessing be with you," he sayth with a last Kiss. I coulde not help crying, "MyFather, myFather!" "The Chariot ofIsrael, and the Horsemen thereof!" he vehementlie whispers, pointing upwards with soe passionate a Regard, that I look up, almostexpecting a beatific Vision; and when I turn about agayn, he's gone, and I have noe more Sense nor Life till I find myself agayn in mine owne Chamber, my Sisters chafing my Hands.
More returning from his Trial.
July 5th.
Alle's over now ... they've done theire worst, and yet I live. There were Women coulde stande aneath the Cross. TheMaccabees'Mother— ... yes, my Soul, yes; I know—Nought but unpardoned Sin.... The Chariot ofIsrael.
6th.