LETTER LXIV.
HarringtontoWorthy.
HARRIOT is dead—and the world to me is a dreary desert—I prepare to leave it—the fatal pistol is charged—it lies on the table by me, ready to perform its duty—but that duty is delayed till I take my last farewel of the best of friends.
YOUR letter is written with the impetuosity of an honest heart; it expresses great sincerity and tenderness.
I THANK you for all your good advice—it comes too late—OWorthy! she is dead—she is gone—never to return, never again to cheer my heart with her smiles and heramiable manners—her image is always before me—and can I forget her? No!—She is continually haunting my mind, impressing the imagination with ideas of excellence—but she is dead—all that delighted me is become torpid—is descended into the cold grave.
... With theeCertain my resolution is to die;How can I live without thee—How foregoThy converse sweet, and love so dearly join’d,To live again in these wild woods forlorn?· · · · ·... loss of theeWill never from my heart—no! no!—I feelThe link of nature draw me.... From thy stateMine never shall be parted, bliss or woe.
... With theeCertain my resolution is to die;How can I live without thee—How foregoThy converse sweet, and love so dearly join’d,To live again in these wild woods forlorn?· · · · ·... loss of theeWill never from my heart—no! no!—I feelThe link of nature draw me.... From thy stateMine never shall be parted, bliss or woe.
... With theeCertain my resolution is to die;How can I live without thee—How foregoThy converse sweet, and love so dearly join’d,To live again in these wild woods forlorn?
... With thee
Certain my resolution is to die;
How can I live without thee—How forego
Thy converse sweet, and love so dearly join’d,
To live again in these wild woods forlorn?
· · · · ·
· · · · ·
... loss of theeWill never from my heart—no! no!—I feelThe link of nature draw me.... From thy stateMine never shall be parted, bliss or woe.
... loss of thee
Will never from my heart—no! no!—I feel
The link of nature draw me.
... From thy state
Mine never shall be parted, bliss or woe.
THOU hast sat out on a long journey—but you shall not go alone—I hasten toovertake thee. My resolution is not to be diverted—is not to be shaken—I will not be afraid—I am inexorable—
I HAVE just seen my father—he is dejected—sullen grief is fixed upon his brow—he tells me I am very ill—I looked atMyra—she wiped her face with her handkerchief—perhaps they did not imagine this was the last time they were to behold me.
SHE mentioned the name ofWorthy, but my thoughts were differently engaged. She repeated your name, but I took no heed of it. Take her, myWorthy—Myrais a good girl—take her—comfort her. Let not my departure interrupt your happiness—perhaps it may for a short time. When the grass is grown over my grave, lead her to it, in your pensive walks—point to the spot where my ashes are deposited—drop one tear on theremembrance of a friend, of a brother—but I cannot allow you to be grieved—grieve for me! Wretch that I am—why do I delay—
I WISH I could be buried by the side of her, then should the passenger who knows the history of our unfortunate loves, say—“Here liesHarringtonand hisHarriot—in their lives they loved, but were unhappy—in death they sleep undivided.”—Guardian spirits will protect the tomb which conceals her body—the body where every virtue delighted to inhabit.—
DO not judge too rashly of my conduct—let me pray you to be candid,—I have taken advantage of a quiet moment, and written an Epitaph—If my body were laid by her’s, the inscription would be pertinent. Let no one concerned be offended at the moral I have chosen to draw from our unfortunate story.
MY heart sinks within me—the instrument of death is before me—farewel! farewel!—My soul sighs to be freed from its confinement—Eternal Father! accept my spirit—Let the tears of sorrow blot out my guilt from the book of thy wrath.