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Title: Three WomenAuthor: Ella Wheeler WilcoxRelease date: November 27, 2008 [eBook #27336]Most recently updated: January 4, 2021Language: EnglishCredits: Produced by Al Haines
Title: Three Women
Author: Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Author: Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Release date: November 27, 2008 [eBook #27336]Most recently updated: January 4, 2021
Language: English
Credits: Produced by Al Haines
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Ella Wheeler WilcoxElla Wheeler Wilcox
Ella Wheeler WilcoxElla Wheeler Wilcox
My love is young, so young;Young is her cheek, and her throat,And life is a song to be sungWith love the word for each note.
Young is her cheek and her throat;Her eyes have the smile o' May.And love is the word for each noteIn the song of my life to-day.
Her eyes have the smile o' May;Her heart is the heart of a dove,And the song of my life to-dayIs love, beautiful love.
Her heart is the heart of a dove,Ah, would it but fly to my breastWhere lone, beautiful love,Has made it a downy nest.
Ah, would she but fly to my breast,My love who is young, so young;I have made her a downy nestAnd life is a song to be sung.
A dull little station, a man with the eyeOf a dreamer; a bevy of girls moving by;A swift moving train and a hot Summer sun,The curtain goes up, and our play is begun.The drama of passion, of sorrow, of strife,Which always is billed for the theatre Life.It runs on forever, from year unto year,With scarcely a change when new actors appear.It is old as the world is—far older in truth,For the world is a crude little planet of youth.And back in the eras before it was formed,The passions of hearts through the Universe stormed.
Maurice Somerville passed the cluster of girlsWho twisted their ribbons and fluttered their curlsIn vain to attract him; his mind it was plainWas wholly intent on the incoming train.That great one eyed monster puffed out its black breath,Shrieked, snorted and hissed, like a thing bent on death,Paused scarcely a moment, and then sped away,And two actors more now enliven our play.
A graceful young woman with eyes like the morn,With hair like the tassels which hang from the corn,And a face that might serve as a model for Peace,Moved lightly along, smiled and bowed to Maurice,Then was lost in the circle of friends waiting near.A discord of shrill nasal tones smote the ear,As they greeted their comrade and bore her from sight.(The ear oft is pained while the eye feels delightIn the presence of women throughout our fair land:God gave them the graces which win and command,But the devil, who always in mischief rejoices,Slipped into their teachers and ruined their voices.)
There had stepped from the train just behind Mabel LeeA man whose deportment bespoke him to beA child of good fortune. His mien and his airWere those of one all unaccustomed to care.His brow was not vexed with the gold seeker's worry,His manner was free from the national hurry.Repose marked his movements. Yet gaze in his eye,And you saw that this calm outer man was a lie;And you knew that deep down in the depths of his breastThere dwelt the unmerciful imp of unrest.
He held out his hand; it was clasped with a willIn both the firm palms of Maurice Somerville."Well, Reese, my old Comrade;" "Ha, Roger, my boy,"They cried in a breath, and their eyes gemmed with joy(Which but for their sex had been set in a tear),As they walked arm in arm to the trap waiting near,And drove down the shining shell roadway which woundThrough forest and meadow, in search of the Sound.
Roger:
I smell the salt water—that perfume which startsThe blood from hot brains back to world withered hearts;You may talk of the fragrance of flower filled fields,You may sing of the odors the Orient yields,You may tell of the health laden scent of the pine,But give me the subtle salt breath of the brine.Already I feel lost emotions of youthSteal back to my soul in their sweetness and truth;Small wonder the years leave no marks on your face,Time's scythe gathers rust in this idyllic place.You must feel like a child on the Great Mother's breast,With the Sound like a nurse watching over your rest?
Maurice:
There is beauty and truth in your quaint simile,I love the Sound more than the broad open sea.The ocean seems always stern, masculine, bold,The Sound is a woman, now warm, and now cold.It rises in fury and threatens to smite,Then falls at your feet with a coo of delight;Capricious, seductive, first frowning, then smiling,And always, whatever its mood is, beguiling.Look, now you can see it, bright beautiful blue,And far in the distance there loom into viewThe banks of Long Island, full thirty miles off;A sign of wet weather to-morrow. Don't scoff!We people who chum with the waves and the windKnow more than all wise signal bureaus combined.
But come, let us talk of yourself—for of meThere is little to tell which your eyes may not see.Since we finished at College (eight years, is it not?)I simply have dreamed away life in this spot.With my dogs and my horses, a book and a pen,And a week spent in town as a change now and then.Fatigue for the body, disease for the mind,Are all that the city can give me, I find.Yet once in a while there is wisdom I holdIn leaving the things that are dearer than gold,—Loved people and places—if only to learnThe exquisite rapture it is to return.But you, I remember, craved motion and change;You hated the usual, worshiped the strange.Adventure and travel I know were your theme:Well, how did the real compare with the dream?You have compassed the earth since we parted at Yale,Has life grown the richer, or only grown stale?
Roger:
Stale, stale, my dear boy! that's the story in short,I am weary of travel, adventure and sport;At home and abroad, in all climates and lands,I have had what life gives when a full purse commands,I have chased after Pleasure, that phantom faced elf,And lost the best part of my youth and myself.And now, barely thirty, I'm heart sick and blue;Life seems like a farce scarcely worth sitting through.I dread its long stretch of dissatisfied years;Ah! wealth is not always the boon it appears.And poverty lights not such ruinous firesAs gratified appetites, tastes and desires.Fate curses, when letting us do as we please—It stunts a man's soul to be cradled in ease.
Maurice:
You are right in a measure; the devil I holdIs oftener found in full coffers of goldThan in bare, empty larders. The soul, it is plain,Needs the conflicts of earth, needs the stress and the strainOf misfortune, to bring out its strength in this life—The Soul's calisthenics are sorrow and strife.But, Roger, what folly to stand in youth's primeAnd talk like a man who could father old Time.You have life all before you; the past,—let it sleep;Its lessons alone are the things you should keep.There is virtue sometimes in our follies and sinnings;Right lives very often have faulty beginnings.Results, and not causes, are what we should measure.You have learned precious truths in your search after pleasure.
You have learned that a glow worm is never a star,You have learned that Peace builds not her temples afar.And now, dispossessed of the spirit to roam,You are finely equipped to establish a home.That's the one thing you need to lend savor to life,A home, and the love of a sweet hearted wife,And children to gladden the path to old age.
Roger:
Alas! from life's book I have torn out that page;I have loved many times and in many a fashion,Which means I know nothing at all of the passion.I have scattered my heart, here and there, bit by bit,'Til now there is nothing worth while left of it;And, worse than all else, I have ceased to believeIn the virtue and truth of the daughters of Eve.There's tragedy for you—when man's early trustIn woman, experience hurls to the dust!
Maurice:
Then you doubt your own mother?
Roger:
She passed heavenwardBefore I remember; a saint, I have heard,While she lived; there are scores of good women to-day,Temptation has chanced not to wander their way.The devil has more than his lordship can do,He can't make the rounds, so some women keep true.
Maurice:
You think then each woman, if tempted, must fall?
Roger:
Yes, if tempted her way—not one way suits them all—They have tastes in their sins as they have in their clothes,The tempter, of course, has to first study those.One needs to be flattered, another is bought;One yields to caresses, by frowns one is caught.One wants a bold master, another a slave,With one you must jest, with another be grave.But swear you're a sinner whom she has reformedAnd the average feminine fortress is stormed.In rescuing men from abysses of sinShe loses her head—and herself tumbles in.The mind of a woman was shaped for a saint,But deep in her heart lies the devil's own taint.With plans for salvation her busy brain teems,While her heart longs in secret to know how sin seems.And if with this question unanswered she dies,Temptation came not in the right sort of guise.There's my estimate, Reese, of the beautiful sex;I see by your face that my words wound and vex,But remember, my boy, I'm a man of the world.
Maurice:
Thank God, in the vortex I have not been hurled.If experience breeds such a mental disease,I am glad I have lived with the birds and the bees,And the winds and the waves, and let people aloneSo far in my life but good women I've known.My mother, my sister, a few valued friends—A teacher, a schoolmate, and there the list ends.But to know one true woman in sunshine and gloom,From the zenith of life to the door of the tomb,To know her, as I knew that mother of mine,Is to know the whole sex and to kneel at the shrine.
Roger:
Then you think saint and woman synonymous terms?
Maurice:
Oh, no! we are all, men and women, poor wormsCrawling up from the dampness and darkness of clayTo bask in the sunlight and warmth of the day.Some climb to a leaf and reflect its bright sheen,Some toil through the grass, and are crushed there unseen.Some sting if you touch them, and some evolve wings;Yet God dwells in each of the poor, groping things.They came from the Source—to the Source they go back;The sinners are those who have missed the true track.We can not judge women or men as a class,Each soul has its own distinct place in the mass.
There is no sex in sin; it were folly to swearAll women are angels, but worse to declareAll are devils as you do. You're morbid, my boy,In what you thought gold you have found much alloyAnd now you are doubting there is the true ore.But wait till you study my sweet simple storeOf pure sterling treasures; just wait till you've beenA few restful weeks, or a season, withinThe charmed circle of home life; then, Roger, you'll findThese malarial mists clearing out of your mind.As a ship cuts the fog and is caught by the breeze,And swept through the sunlight to fair, open seas,So your heart will be caught and swept out to the oceanOf youth and youth's birthright of happy emotion.I'll wager my hat (it was new yesterday)That you'll fall in love, too, in a serious way.Our girls at Bay Bend are bewitching and fair,And Cupid lurks ever in salt Summer air.
Roger:
I question your gifts as a prophet, and yet,I confess in my travels I never have metA woman whose face so impressed me at sight,As one seen to-day; a mere girl, sweet and bright,Who entered the train quite alone and sat downSurrounded by parcels she'd purchased in town.A trim country lass, but endowed with the beautyWhich makes a man think of his conscience and duty.Some women, you know, move us that way—God bless them,While others rouse only a thirst to possess themThe face of the girl made me wish to be good,I went out and smoked to escape from the mood.When conscience through half a man's life has been sleepingWhat folly to wake it to worry and weeping!
Maurice:
The pessimist role is a modern day fad,But, Roger, you make a poor cynic, my lad.Your heart at the core is as sound as a nut,Though the wheels of your mind have dropped into the rutOf wrong thinking. You need a strong hand on the leverOf good common sense, and an earnest endeavorTo pull yourself out of the slough of despondBack into the highway of peace just beyond.And now, here we are at Peace Castle in truth,And there stands its Chatelaine, sweet Sister Ruth,To welcome you, Roger; you'll find a new typeIn this old-fashioned girl, who in years scarcely ripe,And as childish in heart as she is in her looks,And without worldly learning or knowledge of books,Yet in housewifely wisdom is wise as a sage.She is quite out of step with the girls of her age,For she has no ambition beyond the home sphere.Ruth, here's Roger Montrose, my comrade of dearCollege days.
The gray eyes of the girl of nineteenLooked into the face oft in fancy she'd seenWhen her brother had talked of his comrade at Yale.His stature was lower, his cheek was more paleThan her thought had portrayed him; a look in his eyeMade her sorry, she knew not for what nor knew why,But she longed to befriend him, as one needing aidWhile he, gazing down on the face of the maid,Spoke some light words of greeting, the while his mind ranOn her "points" good and bad; for the average manWhen he looks at a woman proceeds first to scan herAs if she were horse flesh, and in the same mannerNotes all that is pleasing, or otherwise. SoRoger gazed at Ruth Somerville.
"Mouth like a bowAnd eyes full of motherhood; color too warm,And too round in the cheek and too full in the formFor the highest ideal of beauty and art.Domestic—that word is the cue to her partShe would warm a man's slippers, but never his veins;She would feed well his stomach, but never his brains.And after she looks on her first baby's face,Her husband will hold but a second-class placeIn her thoughts or emotions, unless he falls ill,When a dozen trained nurses her place can not fill.She is sweet of her kind; and her kind since the birthOf this sin ridden, Circe-cursed planet, the Earth,Has kept it, I own, with its medleys of evilFrom going straight into the hands of the devil.It is not through its heroes the world lives and thrives,But through its sweet commonplace mothers and wives.We love them, and leave them; deceive, and respect them,We laud loud their virtues and straightway neglect them.They are daisy and buttercup women of earthWho grace common ways with their sweetness and worth.We praise, but we pass them, to reach for some flowerThat stings when we pluck it, or wilts in an hour.
"You are thornless, fair Ruth! you are useful and sweet!But lovers shall pass you to sigh at the feetOf the selfish and idle, for such is man's way;Your lot is to work, and to weep, and to pray.To give much and get little; to toil and to waitFor the meager rewards of indifferent fate.Yet so wholesome your heart, you will never complain;You will feast on life's sorrow and drink of its pain,And thank God for the banquet; 'tis women like youWho make the romancing of preachers seem true.The earth is your debtor to such large amountsThere must be a heaven to square up accounts,Or else the whole scheme of existence at bestIs a demon's poor effort at making a jest."
That night as Ruth brushed out her bright hazel hairHer thoughts were of Roger, "His bold laughing airIs a cloak to some sorrow concealed in his breast,His mind is the home of some secret unrest."
She sighed; and there woke in her bosom once moreThe impulse to comfort and help him; to pourSoothing oil from the urn of her heart on his wounds.Where motherhood nature in woman aboundsIt is thus Cupid comes; unannounced and unbidden,In sweet pity's guise, with his arrows well hidden.But once given welcome and housed as a guest,He hurls the whole quiver full into her breast,While he pulls off his mask and laughs up in her eyesWith an impish delight at her start of surprise.So intent is this archer on bagging his gameHe scruples at nothing which gives him good aim.
Ruth's heart was a virgin's, in love menaced dangerWhile she sat by her mirror and pitied the stranger.But just as she blew out her candle and stoodRobed for sleep in the moonlight, a change in her moodQuickly banished the dreamer, and brought in its steadThe practical housekeeper. Sentiment fled;And she puzzled her brain to decide which were best,Corn muffins or hot graham gems, for the guest!
The short-sighted minister preached at Bay BendHis long-winded sermon quite through to the end,Unmindful there sat in the Somerville pewA stranger whose pale handsome countenance drewAll eyes from his own reverend self; nor suspectedWhat Ruth and her brother too plainly detectedThat the stranger was bored.
"Though his gaze never stirredFrom the face of the preacher, his heart has not heard,"Ruth said to herself; and her soft mother-eyeWas fixed on his face with a look like a sighIn its tremulous depths, as they rose to depart.Then suddenly Roger, alert, seemed to startAnd his dull, listless glance changed to one of surpriseAnd of pleasure. Ruth saw that the goal of his eyesWas her friend Mabel Lee in the vestibule; fairAs a saint that is pictured with sun tangled hairAnd orbs like the skies in October. She smiled,And the saint disappeared in the innocent childWith an unconscious dower of beauty and youthShe paused in the vestibule waiting for RuthAnd seemed not to notice the warm eager gazeOf two men fixed upon her in different ways.One, the look which souls lift to a being above,The other a look of unreasoning loveBorn of fancy and destined to grow in an hourTo a full fledged emotion of mastering power.
She spoke, and her voice disappointed the ear;It lacked some deep chords that the heart hoped to hear.It was sweet, but not vibrant; it came from the throat,And one listened in vain for a full chested note.While something at times like a petulant soundSeemed in strange disaccord with the peace so profoundOf the eyes and the brow.
Though our sight is deceivedThe ear is an organ that may be believed.The faces of people are trained to conceal,But their unruly voices are prone to revealWhat lies deep in their natures; a voice rarely lies,But Mabel Lee's voice told one tale, while her eyesTold another. Large, liquid, and peaceful as lakesWhere the azure dawn rests, ere the loud world awakes,Were the beautiful eyes of the maiden. "A saint,Without mortal blemish or weak human taint,"Said Maurice to himself. To himself Roger said:"The touch of her soft little hands on my headWould convert me. What peace for a world weary breastTo just sit by her side and be soothed into rest."
Daring thoughts for a stranger. Maurice, who had knownMabel Lee as a child, to himself would not ownSuch bold longings as those were. He held her to beToo sacred for even a thought that made free.And the voice in his bosom was silenced and hushedLest the bloom from her soul by his words should be brushed.
There are men to whom love is religion; but womanIs far better pleased with a homage more human.Though she may not be able to love in like fashion,She wants to be wooed with both ardor and passion.Had Mabel Lee read Roger's thoughts of her, boldThough they were, they had flattered and pleased her, I hold.
The stranger was duly presented.
Roger:
Miss Lee,I am sure, has no least recollection of me,But the pleasure is mine to have looked on her faceOnce before this.
Mabel:
Indeed? May I ask where?
Roger:
The placeWas the train, and the time yesterday.
Mabel:
"Then I cameFrom my shopping excursion in town by the sameFast express which brought you? Had I known that the friendOf my friends, was so near me en route for Bay Bend,I had waived all conventions and asked him to takeOne-half of my parcels for sweet pity's sake.
Roger:
You sadden me sorely. As long as I liveI shall mourn the great pleasure chance chose not to give.
Maurice:
Take courage, mon ami. Our fair friend, Miss Lee,Fills her time quite as full of sweet works as the bee;Like the bee, too, she drives out the drones from her hive.You must toil in her cause, in her favor to thrive.
Roger:
She need but command me. To wait upon beautyAnd goodness combined makes a pleasure of duty.
Maurice:
Who serves Mabel Lee serves all Righteousness too.Pray, then, that she gives you some labor to do.The cure for the pessimist lies in good deeds.Who toils for another forgets his own needs,And mischief and misery never attendOn the man who is occupied fully.
Ruth:
Our friendHas the town on her shoulders. Whatever may beThe cause that is needy, we look to Miss Lee.Have you gold? She will make you disgorge it ere long;Are you poor? Well, perchance you can dance—sing a song—Make a speech—tell a story, or plan a charade.Whatever you have, gold or wits, sir, must aidIn her numerous charities.
Mabel:
Riches and brainAre but loans from the Master. He meant them, 'tis plain,To be used in His service; and people are kind,When once you can set them to thinking. I findIt is lack of perception, not lack of good heartWhich makes the world selfish in seeming. My partIs to call the attention of Plenty to need,And to bid Pleasure pause for a moment and heedThe woes and the burdens of Labor.
Roger:
One pleaFrom the rosy and eloquent lips of Miss LeeWould make Avarice pour out his coffers of goldAt her feet, I should fancy; would soften the cold,Selfish heart of the world to compassionate sighs,And bring tears of pity to vain Pleasure's eyes.
As the sunset a color on lily leaves throws,The words and the glances of Roger MontroseO'er the listener's cheeks sent a pink tinted wave;While Maurice seemed disturbed, and his sister grew grave.The false chink of flattery's coin smites the earWith an unpleasant ring when the heart is sincere.Yet the man whose mind pockets are filled with this ore,Though empty his brain cells, is never a boreTo the opposite sex.
While Maurice knew of oldRoger's wealth in that coin that does duty for goldIn Society dealings, it hurt him to seeThe cheap metal offered to sweet Mabel Lee.
(Yet, perchance, the hurt came, not so much that 'twas offered,As in seeing her take, with a smile, what was proffered.)They had walked, two by two, down the elm shaded street,Which led to a cottage, vine hidden, and sweetWith the breath of the roses that covered it, whereMabel paused in the gateway; a picture most fair."I would ask you to enter," she said, "ere you pass,But in just twenty minutes my Sunday-school classClaims my time and attention; and later I meetA Committee on Plans for the boys of the street.We seek to devise for these pupils in crimeRight methods of thought and wise uses of time.
Roger:
I am but a vagrant, untutored and wild,May I join your street class, and be taught like a child?
Mabel:
If you come I will carefully study your case.
Maurice:
I must go along, too, just to keep him in place.
Mabel:
Then you think him unruly?
Maurice:
Decidedly so.
Roger:
I was, but am changed since one-half hour ago.
Mabel:
The change is too sudden to be of much worth;The deepest convictions are slowest of birth.Conversion, I hold, to be earnest and lasting,Begins with repentance and praying and fasting,And (begging your pardon for such a bold speech),You seem, sir, a stranger to all and to eachOf these ways of salvation.
Roger:
Since yesterday, miss,When, unseen, I first saw you (believe me in this),I have deeply repented my sins of the past.To-night I will pray, and to-morrow will fast—Or, make it next week, when my shore appetiteMay be somewhat subdued in its ravenous might.
Maurice:
That's the way of the orthodox sinner! He waitsUntil time or indulgence or misery satesAll his appetites, then his repentance begins,When his sins cease to please, then he gives up his sinsAnd grows pious. Now prove you are morally braveBy actually giving up something you crave!We have fricasseed chicken and strawberry cakeFor our dinner to-day.
Roger:
For dear principle's sakeI could easily do what you ask, were it notMost unkind to Miss Ruth, who gave labor and thoughtTo that menu, preparing it quite to my taste.
Ruth:
But the thought and the dinner will both go to waste,If we linger here longer; and Mabel, I see,Is impatient to go to her duties.
Roger:
The beeIs reluctant to turn from the lily althoughThe lily may obviously wish he would goAnd leave her to muse in the sunlight alone.Yet when the rose calls him, his sorrow, I own,Has its recompense. So from delight to delightI fly with my wings honeyladen.Good night.
Oh, love is like the dawnlightThat turns the dark to day,And love is like the deep nightWith secrets hid away.
And love is like the moonlightWhere tropic Summers glow,And love is like the twilightWhen dreams begin to grow.
Oh, love is like the sunlightThat sets the world ablaze.And love is like the moonlightWith soft illusive rays.
And love is like the starlightThat glimmers o'er the skies.And love is like the far lightThat shines from God's great eyes.
Maurice Somerville from his turreted denLooked out of the window and laid down his pen.A soft salty wind from the water was blowing,Below in the garden sat Ruth with her sewing.And stretched on the grass at her feet Roger layWith a book in his hand.
Through the ripe August day,Piped the Katydids' voices, Jack Frost's tally-hoCommanding Queen Summer to pack up and go.Maurice leaned his head on the casement and sighed,Strong and full in his heart surged love's turbulent tide.And thoughts of the woman he worshiped with longingTook shape and like angels about him came thronging.The world was all Mabel! her exquisite faceSeemed etched on the sunlight and gave it its grace;Her eyes made the blue of the heavens, the sunWas her wonderful hair caught and coiled into oneShining mass. With a reverent, worshipful awe,It was Mabel, fair Mabel, dear Mabel he saw,When he looked up to God.
They had been much togetherThrough all the bright stretches of midsummer weather,Ruth, Roger, and Mabel and he. Scarce a dayBut the four were united in work or in play.And much of the play to a man or a maidNot in love had seemed labor. Recital, charade,Garden party, church festival, musical, hop,Were all planned by Miss Lee without respite or stop.The poor were the richer; school, hospital, church,The heathen, the laborer left in the lurchBy misfortune, the orphan, the indigent old,Our kind Lady Bountiful aided with goldWhich she filched from the pockets of pleasure—God's spoil,And God's blessing will follow such lives when they toilThrough an infinite sympathy.
Fair Mabel LeeLoved to rule and to lead. She was eager to beIn the eyes of the public. That modern day crazePossessed her in secret, and this was its phase.An innocent, even commendable, fadWhich filled empty larders and cheered up the sad.She loved to do good. But, alas! in her heart,She loved better still the authoritative partWhich she played in her town.
'Neath the saint's aureoleLurked the feminine tyrant who longed to control,And who never would serve; but her sway was so sweet,That her world was contented to bow at her feet.
Who toils in the great public vineyard must needsLet other hands keep his own garden from weeds.So busy was Mabel with charity fairsShe gave little thought to her home or its cares.Mrs. Lee, like the typical modern day mother,Was maid to her daughter; the father and brotherWere slaves at her bidding; an excellent planTo make a tyrannical wife for some man.
Yet where was the man who, beholding the graceOf that slight girlish creature, and watching her faceWith its infantile beauty and sweetness, would dareThink aught but the rarest of virtues dwelt there?Rare virtues she had, but in commonplace onesWhich make happy husbands and home loving sonsShe was utterly lacking. Ruth Somerville sawIn sorrow and silence this blemishing flawIn the friend whom she loved with devotion! MauriceSaw only the angel with eyes full of peace.The faults of plain women are easily seen.But who cares to peer back of beauty's fair screenFor things which are ugly to look on?
The loverIs not quite in love when his sharp eyes discoverThe flaws in his jewel.
Maurice from his roomLooked dreamily down on the garden of bloom,Where Ruth sat with Roger; he smiled as he thoughtHow quickly the world sated cynic was broughtInto harness by Cupid. The man mad with drink,And the man mad with love, is quite certain to thinkAll other men drunkards or lovers. In truthMaurice had expected his friend to love Ruth."She was young, she was fair; with her bright sunny artShe could scatter the mists from his world befogged heart.She could give him the one heaven under God's dome,A peaceful, well ordered, and love-guarded home.And he? why of course he would worship her! WhenCupid finds the soft spot in the hearts of such menThey are ideal husbands." Maurice SomervilleFelt the whole world was shaping itself to his will.And his heart stirred with joy as, by thought necromancy,He made the near future unfold to his fancy,And saw Ruth the bride of his friend, and the placeShe left vacant supplied with the beauty and graceOf this woman he longed for, the love of his life,Fair Mabel, his angel, his sweet spirit wife.
Maurice to his desk turned again and once moreBegan to unburden his bosom and pourHis heart out on paper—the poet's relief,When drunk with life's rapture or sick with its grief.
Song.
When shall I tell my lady that I love her?Will it be while the sunshine woos the world,Or when the mystic twilight bends above her,Or when the day's bright banners all are furled?Will wild winds shriek, or will the calm stars glow,When I shall tell her that I love her so,I love her so?
I think the sun should shine in all his glory;Again, the twilight seems the fitting time.Yet sweet dark night would understand the story,So old, so new, so tender, so sublime.Wild storms should rage to chord with my desire,Yet faithful stars should shine and never tire,And never tire.
Ah, if my lady will consent to listen,All hours, all times, shall hear my story told.In amorous dawns, on nights when pale stars glistenIn dim hushed gloamings and in noon hours bold,While thunders crash, and while the winds breathe low,Will I re-tell her that I love her so.I love her so.
The October day had been luscious and fairLike a woman of thirty. A chill in the airAs the sun faced the west spoke of frost lurking near.All day the Sound lay without motion, and clearAs a mirror, and blue as a blond baby's eyes.A change in the tide brought a change to the skies.The bay stirred and murmured and parted its lipsAnd breathed a long sigh for the lost lovely ships,That had gone with the Summer.
Its calm placid breastWas stirred into passionate pain and unrest.Not a sail, not a sail anywhere to be seen!The soft azure eyes of the sea turned to green.A sudden wind rose; like a runaway horseUnchecked and unguided it sped on its course.The waves bared their teeth, and spat spray in the faceOf the furious gale as they fled in the chase.The sun hurried into a cloud; and the treesBowed low and yet lower, as if to appeaseThe wrath of the storm king that threatened them. CloseTo the waves at their wildest stood Roger Montrose.The day had oppressed him; and now the unrestOf the wind beaten sea brought relief to his breast,Or at least brought the sense of companionship. LashedBy his higher emotions, the man's passions dashedOn the shore of his mind in a frenzy of pain,Like the waves on the rocks, and a frenzy as vain.
Since the day he first looked on her face, Mabel LeeHad seemed to his self sated nature to be,On life's troubled ocean, a beacon of light,To guide him safe out from the rocks and the night.Her calm soothed his passion; her peace gave him poise;She seemed like a silence in life's vulgar noise.He bathed in the light which her purity cast,And felt half absolved from the sins of the past.He longed in her mantle of goodness to hideAnd forget the whole world. By the incoming tideHe talked with his heart as one talks with a friendWho is dying. "The summer has come to an endAnd I wake from my dreaming," he mused. "Wake to knowThat my place is not here—I must go—I must go.Who dares laugh at Love shall hear Love laughing last,As forth from his bowstring barbed arrows are cast.I scoffed at the god with a sneer on my lip,And he forces me now from his chalice to sipA bitter sweet potion. Ah, lightly the partOf a lover I've played many times, but my heartHas been proud in its record of friendship. And nowThe mad, eager lover born in me must bowTo the strong claims of friendship. I love Mabel Lee;Dared I woo as I would, I could make her love me.The soul of a maid who knows not passion's fireIs moth to the flame of a man's strong desire.With one kiss on her lips I could banish the nunAnd wake in her virginal bosom the oneMighty love of her life. If I leave her, I knowShe will be my friend's wife in a season or so.He loves her, he always has loved her; 'tis heWho ever will do all the loving; and sheWill accept it, and still be the saint to the end,And she never will know what she missed; but my friendHas the right to speak first. God! how can he delay?I marvel at men who are fashioned that way.He has worshiped her since first she put up her tresses,And let down the hem of her school-girlish dressesAnd now she is full twenty-two; were I heA brood of her children should climb on my kneeBy this time! What a sin against love to postponeThe day that might make her forever his own.The man who can wait has no blood in his veins.Maurice is a dreamer, he loves with his brainsNot with soul and with senses. And yet his whole lifeWill be blank if he makes not this woman his wife.She is woof of his dreams, she is warp of his mind;Who tears her away shall leave nothing behind.No, no, I am going: farewell to Bay BendI am no woman's lover—Iamone man's friend.Still-born in the arms of the matron eyed yearLies the beautiful dream that my life buries here.Its tomb was its cradle; it came but to taunt me,It died, but its phantom shall ever more haunt me."
He turned from the waves that leaped at him in wrathTo find Mabel Lee, like a wraith, in his path.The rose from her cheek had departed in fear;The tip of her eyelash was gemmed with a tear.The rude winds had disarranged mantle and dress,And she clung with both hands to her hat in distress."I am frightened," she cried, in a tremulous tone;"I dare not proceed any farther alone.As I came by the church yard the wind felled a tree,And invisible hands seemed to hurl it at me;I hurried on, shrieking; the wind, in disgust,Tore the hat from my head, filled my eyes full of dust,And otherwise made me the butt of its sport.Just then I spied you, like a light in the port,And I steered for you. Please do not laugh at my fright!I am really quite bold in the calm and the light,But when a storm gathers, or darkness prevails,My courage deserts me, my bravery fails,And I want to hide somewhere and cover my ears,And give myself up to weak womanish tears."
Her ripple of talk allowed Roger MontroseA few needed moments to calm and composeHis excited emotions; to curb and controlThe turbulent feelings that surged through his soulAt the sudden encounter.
"I quite understand,"He said in a voice that was under commandOf his will, "All your fears in a storm of this kind.There is something uncanny and weird in the wind;Intangible, viewless, it speeds on its course,And forests and oceans must yield to its force.What art has constructed with patience and toil,The wind in one second of time can despoil.It carries destruction and death and despair,Yet no man can follow it into its lairAnd bind it or stay it—this thing without form.Ah! there comes the rain! we are caught in the storm.Put my coat on your shoulders and come with me whereYon rock makes a shelter—I often sit thereTo watch the great conflicts 'twixt tempest and sea.Let me lie at your feet! 'Tis the last time, Miss Lee,I shall see you, perchance, in this life, who can say?I leave on the morrow at break o' the day."
Mabel:
Indeed? Why, how sudden! and may I inquireThe reason you leave us without one desireTo return? for your words seem a final adieu.
Roger:
I never expect to return, that is true,Yet my wish is to stay.
Mabel:
Are you not your own master?
Roger:
Alas, yes! and therein lies the cause of disaster.Myself bids me go, my calm, reasoning part,The will is the man, not the poor, foolish heart,Which is ever at war with the intellect. SoI silence its clamoring voices and go.Were I less my own master, I then might remain.
Mabel:
Your words are but riddles, I beg you explain.
Roger:
No, no, rather bid me keep silent! To sayWhy I go were as weak on my part as to stay.
Mabel:
I think you most cruel! You know, sir, my sexLoves dearly a secret. Then why should you vexAnd torment me in this way by hinting at one?
Roger:
Let us talk of the weather, I think the storm done.
Mabel:
Very well! I will go! No, you need not come too,And I will not shake hands, I am angry with you.
Roger:
And you will not shake hands when we part for all time?
Mabel:
Then read me your riddle!
Roger:
No, that were a crimeAgainst honor and friendship; girl, girl, have a care—You are goading my poor, tortured heart to despair.
His last words were lost in the loud thunder's crash;The sea seemed ablaze with a sulphurous flash.From the rocks just above them an evergreen treeWas torn up by the roots and flung into the sea.The waves with rude arms hurled it back on the shore;The wind gained in fury. The glare and the roarOf the lightning and tempest paled Mabel Lee's cheek,Her pupils dilated; she sprang with a shriekOf a terrified child lost to all save alarm,And clasped Roger Montrose with both hands by the arm,While her cheek pressed his shoulder. An agony, sweetAnd unbearable, thrilled from his head to his feet,His veins were like rivers, with billows of fire:His will lost control; and long fettered desireSlipped its leash. He caught Mabel Lee to his breast,Drew her face up to his, on her frightened lips pressedWild caresses of passion that startled and shocked.Like a madman he looked, like a madman he talked,Waiting not for reply, with no pause but a kiss,While his iron arms welded her bosom to his."Girl, girl, you demanded my secret," he cried;"Well, that bruise on your lips tells the story! I tried,Good God, how I tried! to be silent and goWithout speaking one word, without letting you knowThat I loved you; yet how could you look in my eyesAnd not see love was there like the sun in the skies?Ah, those hands on my arm—that dear head lightly pressedOn my shoulder! God, woman, the heart in my breastWas dry powder, your touch was the spark; and the blameMust be yours if both lives are scorched black with the flame.Do you hate me, despise me, for being so weak?No, no! let me kiss you again ere you speak!You are mine for the moment; and mine—mine aloneIs the first taste of passion your soft mouth has known.Whoever forestalls me in winning your hand,Between you and him shall this mad moment stand—You shall think of me, though you think only to hate.There—speak to me—speak to me—tell me my fate;On your words, Mabel Lee, hangs my whole future life.I covet you, covet you, sweet, for my wife;I want to stay here at your side. Since I firstSaw your face I have felt an unquenchable thirstTo be good—to look deep in your eyes and find God,And to leave in the past the dark paths I have trodIn my search after pleasure. Ah, must I go backInto folly again, to retread the old trackWhich leads out into nothingness? Girl, answer me,As souls answer at Judgment."
The face of the seaShone with sudden pink splendor. The riotous windSwooned away with exhaustion. Each dark cloud seemed linedWith vermilion. The tempest was over. A wordFloated up like a feather; the silence was stirredBy the soul of a sigh. The last remnant of grayIn the skies turned to gold, as a voice whispered, "Stay."