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Title: Time's Laughingstocks, and Other VersesAuthor: Thomas HardyRelease date: December 1, 2001 [eBook #2997]Most recently updated: December 21, 2014Language: EnglishCredits: Transcribed from the 1919 Macmillan and Co. edition by David Price
Title: Time's Laughingstocks, and Other Verses
Author: Thomas Hardy
Author: Thomas Hardy
Release date: December 1, 2001 [eBook #2997]Most recently updated: December 21, 2014
Language: English
Credits: Transcribed from the 1919 Macmillan and Co. edition by David Price
*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK TIME'S LAUGHINGSTOCKS, AND OTHER VERSES ***
Transcribed from the 1919 Macmillan and Co. edition by David Price, email ccx074@pglaf.org
BYTHOMAS HARDY
MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITEDST. MARTIN’S STREET, LONDON1928
COPYRIGHT
First Edition1909Reprinted1910Second Edition1915Reprinted1919Pocket Edition1919Reprinted1923, 1924, 1928
PRINTED IN GREAT BRITAINBY R. & R. CLARK, LIMITED, EDINBURGH
Incollecting the following poems I have to thank the editors and proprietors of the periodicals in which certain of them have appeared for permission to reclaim them.
Now that the miscellany is brought together, some lack of concord in pieces written at widely severed dates, and in contrasting moods and circumstances, will be obvious enough. This I cannot help, but the sense of disconnection, particularly in respect of those lyrics penned in the first person, will be immaterial when it is borne in mind that they are to be regarded, in the main, as dramatic monologues by different characters.
As a whole they will, I hope, take the reader forward, even if not far, rather than backward. I should add that some lines in the early-dated poems have been rewritten, though they have been left substantially unchanged.
T. H.
September1909.
Time’s Laughingstocks—
PAGE
The Revisitation
3
A Trampwoman’s Tragedy
11
The Two Rosalinds
17
A Sunday Morning Tragedy
21
The House of Hospitalities
27
Bereft
28
John and Jane
30
The Curate’s Kindness
31
The Flirt’s Tragedy
34
The Rejected Member’s Wife
40
The Farm-Woman’s Winter
42
Autumn in King’s Hintock Park
43
Shut out that Moon
45
Reminiscences of a Dancing Man
47
The Dead Man Walking
49
More Love Lyrics—
1967
53
Her Definition
54
The Division
55
On the Departure Platform
56
In a Cathedral City
58
“I say I’ll seek Her”
59
Her Father
60
At Waking
61
Four Footprints
63
In the Vaulted Way
65
In the Mind’s Eye
66
The End of the Episode
67
The Sigh
68
“In the Night She Came”
70
The Conformers
72
The Dawn after the Dance
74
The Sun on the Letter
76
The Night of the Dance
77
Misconception
78
The Voice of the Thorn
80
From Her in the Country
82
Her Confession
83
To an Impersonator of Rosalind
84
To an Actress
85
The Minute before Meeting
86
He abjures Love
87
A Set of Country Songs—
Let me Enjoy
91
At Casterbridge Fair:
I.
The Ballad-Singer
93
II.
Former Beauties
94
III.
After the Club Dance
95
IV.
The Market-Girl
95
V.
The Inquiry
96
VI.
A Wife Waits
97
VII.
After the Fair
98
The Dark-eyed Gentleman
100
To Carrey Clavel
102
The Orphaned Old Maid
103
The Spring Call
104
Julie-Jane
106
News for Her Mother
108
The Fiddler
110
The Husband’s View
111
Rose-Ann
113
The Homecoming
115
Pieces Occasional and Various—
A Church Romance
121
The Rash Bride
122
The Dead Quire
128
The Christening
135
A Dream Question
137
By the Barrows
139
A Wife and Another
140
The Roman Road
144
The Vampirine Fair
145
The Reminder
150
The Rambler
151
Night in the Old Home
152
After the Last Breath
154
In Childbed
156
The Pine Planters
158
The Dear
161
One We Knew
163
She Hears the Storm
166
A Wet Night
167
Before Life and After
168
New Year’s Eve
169
God’s Education
171
To Sincerity
172
Panthera
173
The Unborn
184
The Man He Killed
186
Geographical Knowledge
187
One Ralph Blossom Soliloquizes
189
The Noble Lady’s Tale
191
Unrealized
201
Wagtail and Baby
203
Aberdeen: 1905
204
George Meredith, 1828–1909
205
Yell’ham-wood’s Story
207
A Young Man’s Epigram on Existence
208
AsI lay awake at night-timeIn an ancient country barrack known to ancient cannoneers,And recalled the hopes that heralded each seeming brave and bright timeOf my primal purple years,
Much it haunted me that, nigh there,I had borne my bitterest loss—when One who went, came not again;In a joyless hour of discord, in a joyless-hued July there—A July just such as then.
And as thus I brooded longer,With my faint eyes on the feeble square of wan-lit window frame,A quick conviction sprung within me, grew, and grew yet stronger,That the month-night was the same,
Too, as that which saw her leave meOn the rugged ridge of Waterstone, the peewits plaining round;And a lapsing twenty years had ruled that—as it were to grieve me—I should near the once-loved ground.
Though but now a war-worn strangerChance had quartered here, I rose up and descended to the yard.All was soundless, save the troopers’ horses tossing at the manger,And the sentry keeping guard.
Through the gateway I betook meDown the High Street and beyond the lamps, across the battered bridge,Till the country darkness clasped me and the friendly shine forsook me,And I bore towards the Ridge,
With a dim unowned emotionSaying softly: “Small my reason, now at midnight, to be here . . .Yet a sleepless swain of fifty with a brief romantic notionMay retrace a track so dear.”
Thus I walked with thoughts half-utteredUp the lane I knew so well, the grey, gaunt, lonely Lane of Slyre;And at whiles behind me, far at sea, a sullen thunder mutteredAs I mounted high and higher.
Till, the upper roadway quitting,I adventured on the open drouthy downland thinly grassed,While the spry white scuts of conies flashed before me, earthward flitting,And an arid wind went past.
Round about me bulged the barrowsAs before, in antique silence—immemorial funeral piles—Where the sleek herds trampled daily the remains of flint-tipt arrowsMid the thyme and chamomiles;
And the Sarsen stone there, dateless,On whose breast we had sat and told the zephyrs many a tender vow,Held the heat of yester sun, as sank thereon one fated matelessFrom those far fond hours till now.
Maybe flustered by my presenceRose the peewits, just as all those years back, wailing soft and loud,And revealing their pale pinions like a fitful phosphorescenceUp against the cope of cloud,
Where their dolesome exclamationsSeemed the voicings of the self-same throats I had heard when life was green,Though since that day uncounted frail forgotten generationsOf their kind had flecked the scene.—
And so, living long and longerIn a past that lived no more, my eyes discerned there, suddenly,That a figure broke the skyline—first in vague contour, then stronger,And was crossing near to me.
Some long-missed familiar gesture,Something wonted, struck me in the figure’s pause to list and heed,Till I fancied from its handling of its loosely wrapping vestureThat it might be She indeed.
’Twas not reasonless: below thereIn the vale, had been her home; the nook might hold her even yet,And the downlands were her father’s fief; she still might come and go there;—So I rose, and said, “Agnette!”
With a little leap, half-frightened,She withdrew some steps; then letting intuition smother fearIn a place so long-accustomed, and as one whom thought enlightened,She replied: “What—thatvoice?—here!”
“Yes, Agnette!—And did the occasionOf our marching hither make you think Imightwalk where we two—”“O, I often come,” she murmured with a moment’s coy evasion,“(’Tis not far),—and—think of you.”
Then I took her hand, and led herTo the ancient people’s stone whereon I had sat. There now sat we;And together talked, until the first reluctant shyness fled her,And she spoke confidingly.
“It isjustas ere we parted!”Said she, brimming high with joy.—“And when, then, came you here, and why?”“—Dear, I could not sleep for thinking of our trystings when twin-hearted.”She responded, “Nor could I.
“There are few things I would ratherThan be wandering at this spirit-hour—lone-lived, my kindred dead—On this wold of well-known feature I inherit from my father:Night or day, I have no dread . . .
“O I wonder, wonder whetherAny heartstring bore a signal-thrill between us twain or no?—Some such influence can, at times, they say, draw severed souls together.”I said, “Dear, we’ll dream it so.”
Each one’s hand the other’s grasping,And a mutual forgiveness won, we sank to silent thought,A large content in us that seemed our rended lives reclasping,And contracting years to nought.
Till I, maybe overwearyFrom the lateness, and a wayfaring so full of strain and stressFor one no longer buoyant, to a peak so steep and eery,Sank to slow unconsciousness . . .
How long I slept I knew not,But the brief warm summer night had slid when, to my swift surprise,A red upedging sun, of glory chambered mortals view not,Was blazing on my eyes,
From the Milton Woods to Dole-HillAll the spacious landscape lighting, and around about my feetFlinging tall thin tapering shadows from the meanest mound and mole-hill,And on trails the ewes had beat.
She was sitting still beside me,Dozing likewise; and I turned to her, to take her hanging hand;When, the more regarding, that which like a spectre shook and tried meIn her image then I scanned;
That which Time’s transforming chiselHad been tooling night and day for twenty years, and tooled too well,In its rendering of crease where curve was, where was raven, grizzle—Pits, where peonies once did dwell.
She had wakened, and perceiving(I surmise) my sigh and shock, my quite involuntary dismay,Up she started, and—her wasted figure all throughout it heaving—Said, “Ah, yes: I amthusby day!
“Can you really wince and wonderThat the sunlight should reveal you such a thing of skin and bone,As if unaware a Death’s-head must of need lie not far underFlesh whose years out-count your own?
“Yes: that movement was a warningOf the worth of man’s devotion!—Yes, Sir, I amold,” said she,“And the thing which should increase love turns it quickly into scorning—And your new-won heart from me!”
Then she went, ere I could call her,With the too proud temper ruling that had parted us before,And I saw her form descend the slopes, and smaller grow and smaller,Till I caught its course no more . . .
True; I might have dogged her downward;—But itmaybe (though I know not) that this trick on us of TimeDisconcerted and confused me.—Soon I bent my footsteps townward,Like to one who had watched a crime.
Well I knew my native weakness,Well I know it still. I cherished her reproach like physic-wine,For I saw in that emaciate shape of bitterness and bleaknessA nobler soul than mine.
Did I not return, then, ever?—Did we meet again?—mend all?—Alas, what greyhead perseveres!—Soon I got the Route elsewhither.—Since that hour I have seen her never:Love is lame at fifty years.
I
FromWynyard’s Gap the livelong day,The livelong day,We beat afoot the northward wayWe had travelled times before.The sun-blaze burning on our backs,Our shoulders sticking to our packs,By fosseway, fields, and turnpike tracksWe skirted sad Sedge-Moor.
II
Full twenty miles we jaunted on,We jaunted on,—My fancy-man, and jeering John,And Mother Lee, and I.And, as the sun drew down to west,We climbed the toilsome Poldon crest,And saw, of landskip sights the best,The inn that beamed thereby.
III
For months we had padded side by side,Ay, side by sideThrough the Great Forest, Blackmoor wide,And where the Parret ran.We’d faced the gusts on Mendip ridge,Had crossed the Yeo unhelped by bridge,Been stung by every Marshwood midge,I and my fancy-man.
IV
Lone inns we loved, my man and I,My man and I;“King’s Stag,” “Windwhistle” high and dry,“The Horse” on Hintock Green,The cosy house at Wynyard’s Gap,“The Hut” renowned on Bredy Knap,And many another wayside tapWhere folk might sit unseen.
V
Now as we trudged—O deadly day,O deadly day!—I teased my fancy-man in playAnd wanton idleness.I walked alongside jeering John,I laid his hand my waist upon;I would not bend my glances onMy lover’s dark distress.
VI
Thus Poldon top at last we won,At last we won,And gained the inn at sink of sunFar-famed as “Marshal’s Elm.”Beneath us figured tor and lea,From Mendip to the western sea—I doubt if finer sight there beWithin this royal realm.
VII
Inside the settle all a-row—All four a-rowWe sat, I next to John, to showThat he had wooed and won.And then he took me on his knee,And swore it was his turn to beMy favoured mate, and Mother LeePassed to my former one.
VIII
Then in a voice I had never heard,I had never heard,My only Love to me: “One word,My lady, if you please!Whose is the child you are like to bear?—His? After all my months o’ care?”God knows ’twas not! But, O despair!I nodded—still to tease.
IX
Then up he sprung, and with his knife—And with his knifeHe let out jeering Johnny’s life,Yes; there, at set of sun.The slant ray through the window nighGilded John’s blood and glazing eye,Ere scarcely Mother Lee and IKnew that the deed was done.
X
The taverns tell the gloomy tale,The gloomy tale,How that at Ivel-chester jailMy Love, my sweetheart swung;Though stained till now by no misdeedSave one horse ta’en in time o’ need;(Blue Jimmy stole right many a steedEre his last fling he flung.)
XI
Thereaft I walked the world alone,Alone, alone!On his death-day I gave my groanAnd dropt his dead-born child.’Twas nigh the jail, beneath a tree,None tending me; for Mother LeeHad died at Glaston, leaving meUnfriended on the wild.
XII
And in the night as I lay weak,As I lay weak,The leaves a-falling on my cheek,The red moon low declined—The ghost of him I’d die to kissRose up and said: “Ah, tell me this!Was the child mine, or was it his?Speak, that I rest may find!”
XIII
O doubt not but I told him then,I told him then,That I had kept me from all menSince we joined lips and swore.Whereat he smiled, and thinned awayAs the wind stirred to call up day . . .—’Tis past! And here alone I strayHaunting the Western Moor.
Notes.—“Windwhistle” (Stanza iv.). The highness and dryness of Windwhistle Inn was impressed upon the writer two or three years ago, when, after climbing on a hot afternoon to the beautiful spot near which it stands and entering the inn for tea, he was informed by the landlady that none could be had, unless he would fetch water from a valley half a mile off, the house containing not a drop, owing to its situation. However, a tantalizing row of full barrels behind her back testified to a wetness of a certain sort, which was not at that time desired.
“Marshal’s Elm” (Stanza vi.) so picturesquelysituated, is no longer an inn, though the house, or part of it, still remains. It used to exhibit a fine old swinging sign.
“Blue Jimmy” (Stanza x.) was a notorious horse-stealer of Wessex in those days, who appropriated more than a hundred horses before he was caught, among others one belonging to a neighbour of the writer’s grandfather. He was hanged at the now demolished Ivel-chester or Ilchester jail above mentioned—that building formerly of so many sinister associations in the minds of the local peasantry, and the continual haunt of fever, which at last led to its condemnation. Its site is now an innocent-looking green meadow.
April1902.
I
Thedubious daylight ended,And I walked the Town alone, unminding whither bound and why,As from each gaunt street and gaping square a mist of light ascendedAnd dispersed upon the sky.
II
Files of evanescent facesPassed each other without heeding, in their travail, teen, or joy,Some in void unvisioned listlessness inwrought with pallid tracesOf keen penury’s annoy.
III
Nebulous flames in crystal cagesLeered as if with discontent at city movement, murk, and grime,And as waiting some procession of great ghosts from bygone agesTo exalt the ignoble time.
IV
In a colonnade high-lighted,By a thoroughfare where stern utilitarian traffic dinned,On a red and white emblazonment of players and parts, I sightedThe name of “Rosalind,”
V
And her famous mates of “Arden,”Who observed no stricter customs than “the seasons’ difference” bade,Who lived with running brooks for books in Nature’s wildwood garden,And called idleness their trade . . .
VI
Now the poster stirred an emberStill remaining from my ardours of some forty years before,When the selfsame portal on an eve it thrilled me to rememberA like announcement bore;
VII
And expectantly I had entered,And had first beheld in human mould a Rosalind woo and plead,On whose transcendent figuring my speedy soul had centredAs it had been she indeed . . .
VIII
So; all other plans discarding,I resolved on entrance, bent on seeing what I once had seen,And approached the gangway of my earlier knowledge, disregardingThe tract of time between.
IX
“The words, sir?” cried a creatureHovering mid the shine and shade as ’twixt the live world and the tomb;But the well-known numbers needed not for me a text or teacherTo revive and re-illume.
X
Then the play . . . But how unfittedWasthisRosalind!—a mammet quite to me, in memories nurst,And with chilling disappointment soon I sought the street I had quitted,To re-ponder on the first.
XI
The hag still hawked,—I met herJust without the colonnade. “So you don’t like her, sir?” said she.“Ah—Iwas once that Rosalind!—I acted her—none better—Yes—in eighteen sixty-three.
XII
“Thus I won Orlando to meIn my then triumphant days when I had charm and maidenhood,Now some forty years ago.—I used to say,Come woo me,woo me!”And she struck the attitude.
XIII
It was when I had gone there nightly;And the voice—though raucous now—was yet the old one.—Clear as noonMy Rosalind was here . . . Thereon the band withinside lightlyBeat up a merry tune.
Iborea daughter flower-fair,In Pydel Vale, alas for me;I joyed to mother one so rare,But dead and gone I now would be.
Men looked and loved her as she grew,And she was won, alas for me;She told me nothing, but I knew,And saw that sorrow was to be.
I knew that one had made her thrall,A thrall to him, alas for me;And then, at last, she told me all,And wondered what her end would be.
She owned that she had loved too well,Had loved too well, unhappy she,And bore a secret time would tell,Though in her shroud she’d sooner be.
I plodded to her sweetheart’s doorIn Pydel Vale, alas for me:I pleaded with him, pleaded sore,To save her from her misery.
He frowned, and swore he could not wed,Seven times he swore it could not be;“Poverty’s worse than shame,” he said,Till all my hope went out of me.
“I’ve packed my traps to sail the main”—Roughly he spake, alas did he—“Wessex beholds me not again,’Tis worse than any jail would be!”
—There was a shepherd whom I knew,A subtle man, alas for me:I sought him all the pastures through,Though better I had ceased to be.
I traced him by his lantern light,And gave him hint, alas for me,Of how she found her in the plightThat is so scorned in Christendie.
“Is there an herb . . . ?” I asked. “Or none?”Yes, thus I asked him desperately.“—There is,” he said; “a certain one . . . ”Would he had sworn that none knew he!
“To-morrow I will walk your way,”He hinted low, alas for me.—Fieldwards I gazed throughout next day;Now fields I never more would see!
The sunset-shine, as curfew strook,As curfew strook beyond the lea,Lit his white smock and gleaming crook,While slowly he drew near to me.
He pulled from underneath his smockThe herb I sought, my curse to be—“At times I use it in my flock,”He said, and hope waxed strong in me.
“’Tis meant to balk ill-motherings”—(Ill-motherings! Why should they be?)—“If not, would God have sent such things?”So spoke the shepherd unto me.
That night I watched the poppling brew,With bended back and hand on knee:I stirred it till the dawnlight grew,And the wind whiffled wailfully.
“This scandal shall be slain,” said I,“That lours upon her innocency:I’ll give all whispering tongues the lie;”—But worse than whispers was to be.
“Here’s physic for untimely fruit,”I said to her, alas for me,Early that morn in fond salute;And in my grave I now would be.
—Next Sunday came, with sweet church chimesIn Pydel Vale, alas for me:I went into her room betimes;No more may such a Sunday be!
“Mother, instead of rescue nigh,”She faintly breathed, alas for me,“I feel as I were like to die,And underground soon, soon should be.”
From church that noon the people walkedIn twos and threes, alas for me,Showed their new raiment—smiled and talked,Though sackcloth-clad I longed to be.
Came to my door her lover’s friends,And cheerly cried, alas for me,“Right glad are we he makes amends,For never a sweeter bride can be.”
My mouth dried, as ’twere scorched within,Dried at their words, alas for me:More and more neighbours crowded in,(O why should mothers ever be!)
“Ha-ha! Such well-kept news!” laughed they,Yes—so they laughed, alas for me.“Whose banns were called in church to-day?”—Christ, how I wished my soul could flee!
“Where is she? O the stealthy miss,”Still bantered they, alas for me,“To keep a wedding close as this . . .”Ay, Fortune worked thus wantonly!
“But you are pale—you did not know?”They archly asked, alas for me,I stammered, “Yes—some days-ago,”While coffined clay I wished to be.
“’Twas done to please her, we surmise?”(They spoke quite lightly in their glee)“Done by him as a fond surprise?”I thought their words would madden me.
Her lover entered. “Where’s my bird?—My bird—my flower—my picotee?First time of asking, soon the third!”Ah, in my grave I well may be.
To me he whispered: “Since your call—”So spoke he then, alas for me—“I’ve felt for her, and righted all.”—I think of it to agony.
“She’s faint to-day—tired—nothing more—”Thus did I lie, alas for me . . .I called her at her chamber doorAs one who scarce had strength to be.
No voice replied. I went within—O women! scourged the worst are we . . .I shrieked. The others hastened inAnd saw the stroke there dealt on me.
There she lay—silent, breathless, dead,Stone dead she lay—wronged, sinless she!—Ghost-white the cheeks once rosy-red:Death had took her. Death took not me.
I kissed her colding face and hair,I kissed her corpse—the bride to be!—My punishment I cannot bear,But pray Godnotto pity me.
January1904.
Herewe broached the Christmas barrel,Pushed up the charred log-ends;Here we sang the Christmas carol,And called in friends.
Time has tired me since we met hereWhen the folk now dead were young,Since the viands were outset hereAnd quaint songs sung.
And the worm has bored the violThat used to lead the tune,Rust eaten out the dialThat struck night’s noon.
Now no Christmas brings in neighbours,And the New Year comes unlit;Where we sang the mole now labours,And spiders knit.
Yet at midnight if here walking,When the moon sheets wall and tree,I see forms of old time talking,Who smile on me.
Inthe black winter morningNo light will be struck near my eyesWhile the clock in the stairway is warningFor five, when he used to rise.Leave the door unbarred,The clock unwound,Make my lone bed hard—Would ’twere underground!
When the summer dawns clearly,And the appletree-tops seem alight,Who will undraw the curtain and cheerlyCall out that the morning is bright?
When I tarry at marketNo form will cross Durnover LeaIn the gathering darkness, to hark atGrey’s Bridge for the pit-pat o’ me.
When the supper crock’s steaming,And the time is the time of his tread,I shall sit by the fire and wait dreamingIn a silence as of the dead.Leave the door unbarred,The clock unwound,Make my lone bed hard—Would ’twere underground!
1901.
I
Hesees the world as a boisterous placeWhere all things bear a laughing face,And humorous scenes go hourly on,Does John.
II
They find the world a pleasant placeWhere all is ecstasy and grace,Where a light has risen that cannot wane,Do John and Jane.
III
They see as a palace their cottage-place,Containing a pearl of the human race,A hero, maybe, hereafter styled,Do John and Jane with a baby-child.
IV
They rate the world as a gruesome place,Where fair looks fade to a skull’s grimace,—As a pilgrimage they would fain get done—Do John and Jane with their worthless son.
I
Ithoughtthey’d be strangers aroun’ me,But she’s to be there!Let me jump out o’ waggon and go back and drown meAt Pummery or Ten-Hatches Weir.
II
I thought: “Well, I’ve come to the Union—The workhouse at last—After honest hard work all the week, and CommunionO’ Zundays, these fifty years past.
III
“’Tis hard; but,” I thought, “never mind it:There’s gain in the end:And when I get used to the place I shall find itA home, and may find there a friend.
IV
“Life there will be better than t’other.For peace is assured.The men in one wing and their wives in anotherIs strictly the rule of the Board.”
V
Just then one young Pa’son arrivingSteps up out of breathTo the side o’ the waggon wherein we were drivingTo Union; and calls out and saith:
VI
“Old folks, that harsh order is altered,Be not sick of heart!The Guardians they poohed and they pished and they palteredWhen urged not to keep you apart.
VII
“‘It is wrong,’ I maintained, ‘to divide them,Near forty years wed.’‘Very well, sir. We promise, then, they shall abide themIn one wing together,’ they said.”
VIII
Then I sank—knew ’twas quite a foredone thingThat misery should beTo the end! . . . To get freed of her there was the one thingHad made the change welcome to me.
IX
To go there was ending but badly;’Twas shame and ’twas pain;“But anyhow,” thought I, “thereby I shall gladlyGet free of this forty years’ chain.”
X
I thought they’d be strangers aroun’ me,But she’s to be there!Let me jump out o’ waggon and go back and drown meAt Pummery or Ten-Hatches Weir.
Herealone by the logs in my chamber,Deserted, decrepit—Spent flames limning ghosts on the wainscotOf friends I once knew—
My drama and hers begins weirdlyIts dumb re-enactment,Each scene, sigh, and circumstance passingIn spectral review.
—Wealth was mine beyond wish when I met her—The pride of the lowland—Embowered in Tintinhull ValleyBy laurel and yew;
And love lit my soul, notwithstandingMy features’ ill favour,Too obvious beside her perfectionsOf line and of hue.
But it pleased her to play on my passion,And whet me to pleadingsThat won from her mirthful negationsAnd scornings undue.
Then I fled her disdains and derisionsTo cities of pleasure,And made me the crony of idlersIn every purlieu.
Of those who lent ear to my story,A needy AdonisGave hint how to grizzle her gardenFrom roses to rue,
Could his price but be paid for so purgingMy scorner of scornings:Thus tempted, the lust to avenge meGermed inly and grew.
I clothed him in sumptuous apparel,Consigned to him coursers,Meet equipage, liveried attendantsIn full retinue.
So dowered, with letters of creditHe wayfared to England,And spied out the manor she goddessed,And handy thereto,
Set to hire him a tenantless mansionAs coign-stone of vantageFor testing what gross adulationOf beauty could do.
He laboured through mornings and evens,On new moons and sabbaths,By wiles to enmesh her attentionIn park, path, and pew;
And having afar played upon her,Advanced his lines nearer,And boldly outleaping conventions,Bent briskly to woo.
His gay godlike face, his rare seemingAnon worked to win her,And later, at noontides and night-tidesThey held rendezvous.
His tarriance full spent, he departedAnd met me in Venice,And lines from her told that my jilterWas stooping to sue.
Not long could be further concealment,She pled to him humbly:“By our love and our sin, O protect me;I fly unto you!”
A mighty remorse overgat me,I heard her low anguish,And there in the gloom of thecalleMy steel ran him through.
A swift push engulphed his hot carrionWithin the canal there—That still street of waters dividingThe city in two.
—I wandered awhile all unableTo smother my torment,My brain racked by yells as from TophetOf Satan’s whole crew.
A month of unrest brought me hoveringAt home in her precincts,To whose hiding-hole local storyAfforded a clue.
Exposed, and expelled by her people,Afar off in LondonI found her alone, in a sombreAnd soul-stifling mew.
Still burning to make reparationI pleaded to wive her,And father her child, and thus faintlyMy mischief undo.
She yielded, and spells of calm weatherSucceeded the tempest;And one sprung of him stood as scionOf my bone and thew . . .
But Time unveils sorrows and secrets,And so it befell now:By inches the curtain was twitched at,And slowly undrew.
As we lay, she and I, in the night-time,We heard the boy moaning:“O misery mine! My false fatherHas murdered my true!”
She gasped: yea, she heard; understood it.Next day the child fled us;And nevermore sighted was evenA print of his shoe.
Thenceforward she shunned me, and languished;Till one day the park-poolEmbraced her fair form, and extinguishedHer eyes’ living blue.
—So; ask not what blast may account forThis aspect of pallor,These bones that just prison within themLife’s poor residue;
But pass by, and leave unregardedA Cain to his suffering,For vengeance too dark on the womanWhose lover he slew.