This could not last always, and the days as they passed, after a while, brought their usual soothing.
The quiet routine of the early spring began to come in again. Mrs. Candy was looking for a girl, she said, but had not found one yet; Maria and Matilda were not ready to go to school; they were better getting the breakfast and washing up the dishes than doing nothing. No doubt that was true.
"Tilly," said Maria, one of these days, when the coffee cups were getting put in order, going out of Maria's tub of hot water into Matilda's hands and napkin,—"Tilly! you know next Sunday there is to be a baptism in the church?"
"Yes," said Matilda.
It was weeks after that other Sunday, when the rite had not been administered. Spring had come forward rapidly since then. Trees were in full leaf; dandelions in the grass; flowers were in the woods, though the two sisters had not gone to see them this year; the apple orchards around Shadywalk were in a cloud of pink blossoms; and the sun was warm upon flower and leaf everywhere.
"Who is going to be baptized?" Maria went on.
"I don't know. At least, I don't know all."
"Ailie Swan is," remarked Maria.
"Yes, I know Ailie Swan is."
"And Frances Barth."
Matilda was silent.
"And Esther Trembleton, and George Rice, and Mary and Willie Edwards."
"I suppose so," said Matilda.
"You are not, are you?"
"You know Iwasgoing to be," said Matilda. "I am now."
"Tilly, it would be no harm if you waited till another time."
"Why should I wait?"
"Iam going to wait," said Maria.
"Why?"
"Why, because I don't feel like it. Not now."
"I do not want to wait," said Matilda. And probably she was going to say more, but her lip trembled and she stopped.
"It would be no harm, Tilly, if you waited. Nobody would expect it of us now.Nobodywould expect it, Tilly."
"I think One would," said Matilda.
"Who?"
"Jesus."
"But, Tilly," said Maria, uneasily, "I don't think so. It could not be pleasant for you and me, you know, to go forward and be baptizednow. We might wait till another time; and then it would be more easy, wouldn't it?"
"It is not hard now," said Matilda. "It is pleasant now. I do not wish to put it off."
"Pleasant?" repeated Maria.
"Yes," said her little sister, quietly, lifting her eyes to Maria's face so steadily and gravely that the other changed her ground.
"But at least it is not duty, Matilda."
Matilda had dried all the cups, and she threw her napkin down and covered her face.
"Oh yes!" she said; "it is duty and pleasure too. I'll do what I can."
"But what does it signify, your doing it?" said Maria. "It isn't anything. And it will look so odd if you do and I don't."
Matilda took up her napkin again, and went to work at the plates.
"Matilda, I wish you would wait. I am not ready to go now."
"But I am ready, Maria."
"If I was to tell Aunt Candy, I believe she would put a stop to it," said Maria, sulkily. "I know she does not think much of such young people doing such things."
"But Jesus said, Let them come."
Maria tossed her head. However she did not speak to Mrs. Candy.
So it was with no notion of Matilda's intention that her aunt that Sunday took her seat in Mr. Richmond's church. She had heard that a number of people, most of them young people, were to be baptized in the evening; she had been to her own church duly in the morning, and thought she might gratify her curiosity now in seeing how these things are managed in a different communion. She and Clarissa went alone, not supposing that the younger ones of the family were at that same moment getting ready to follow.
"How are you going to dress yourself, Matilda?" her sister inquired.
"To dress myself!" said Matilda, turning her eyes upon her sister in astonished fashion.
"Why, yes, child! you will go out there in sight of everybody, you know. Aren't you going to put on a white frock? Clarissa says they always do in 'her church.'"
Matilda looked down at her own black dress and burst into tears; only by a vigorous effort she kept the tears from falling, after the first one or two, and hurriedly and silently began to get herself ready.
"But, Matilda! why don't you speak?" said her sister. "Are you going just so? and why don't you speak to me? There is no harm in a white frock."
"I don't want a white frock," said Matilda. "Doyoumean to stay at home?"
"I suppose I am going," said Maria, beginning slowly her own preparations. "People would think odd if I didn't go. Where are you going to sit?"
"What do you mean?"
"Why, you are very stupid. I mean, where are you going to sit?"
"Where we always do, I suppose."
"But then you would have so far to walk."
"To walk?" Matilda repeated, bewildered.
"Why, yes, child! When you are called to go up with the rest, you know; you would have so far to go."
"Oh!" said Matilda. "What of it?"
"Don't you care?"
"Why, no. It don't make any difference."
"Well, I'd have a white frock if I were you," said Maria. "Being in black is no objection to that; for people do just the same, Matilda, for a baptism."
"You will be late, Maria," was all the answer her little sister made.
And they were late. Matilda was ready and waiting, before Maria's slow preparations were made. They walked quick; but service had begun in the church before they got there. They paused in the vestibule till a prayer should be ended. And here Matilda was seized upon.
"I thought you were not coming," said an earnest whisper. "What made you come so late?" It was Norton Laval.
"I couldn't help it," said Matilda.
"And when you came, I all but missed you. They said all of you—you know—would be in white dresses; and I was looking out for white. Aren't you going to be baptized, after all?"
"Oh yes, Norton."
"Well, here's some flowers for you," said the boy, putting a bunch of white heath and lilies into Matilda's hand. "Mamma is here; up in the Dawsons' pew; it was sold with the place, so we've got it. Come there, Matilda, it will be a good place for you; yours is farther back, you know. Mamma told me to bring you."
Maria had gone in, after an impatient whisper to her sister. And Matilda yielded to a secret inclination, and followed Norton.
The service of baptism was not entered into until the close of the evening. During one of the intervals of the usual service, which preceded the other, Matilda questioned with herself if she really would have done better to put on a white dress? Everybody seemed to expect it. She could not, from the Daweon pew, which was a corner front one, see how her companions were dressed. But she presently recollected that the "fine linen," which Mr. Richmond had talked to them about, "is the righteousness of saints;" and she quieted herself with the assurance that the real attire of fitness is inward and not outward. And when the candidates for baptism were called to come forward, she quietly left her bunch of lilies with her hat on the cushion of the pew.
"Is that Matilda!" whispered Clarissa to her mother.
"I never heard a word of it!" said Mrs. Candy.
"You cannot stop her now."
"No; if I could I would," answered Mrs. Candy. "This ought not to be. Such a child!—does not know what she is doing. What a way!"
But Matilda knew what she was doing; and when the candidates were asked respecting their faith and profession, there was no voice among them all that answered more clear and free; none that promised with more calm distinctness to "keep God's holy will and commandments, and walk in the same all the days of her life." And it was a meek little face, without a cloud or a doubt upon it, that was raised towards Mr. Richmond when her turn came.
There was a long line of candidates for baptism, reaching nearly from one end to the other of the communion rails. Mr. Richmond stood near one end, by the font, and did not change his place; so each one, as he or she received the rite, passed to one side, while the place was filled by another. Without breaking the rank this was done; one set slowly edging along from left to right, while from right to left, one by one, the others came to take their turn. It was a pretty sight. So some thought; but there were varieties of opinion.
One variety Matilda had to encounter that night before she slept. Going back to Mrs. Laval's pew to get her hat and flowers, naturally she walked home with her and Norton, and had no annoyance until she got there. As she went through the hall the parlour door opened and she was called in.
"I want to speak to you, Matilda," said Mrs. Candy; "and I think it is proper to do it at once. I want to know about this. How long have you been preparing for this step you have taken to-night?"
"Ma'am?" said Matilda.
"How long have you been thinking of doing this?"
"Oh, a long while, Aunt Candy."
"Why did you not consult me?"
Her mother would have been the one to speak to about it, and her mother had been too ill. Remembering this, Matilda stood silent and her eyes filled.
"You have been intending it for these two months past?"
"Yes, Aunt Candy; and before."
"Well, then, why did you not speak to me?"
"I spoke to Mr. Richmond."
"Mr. Richmond might have had the courtesy, himself." (Which Mr. Richmond had meant to do, but various pressing matters had prevented.) "Butyouought to have spoken to me, Matilda. You are too young a child to take such responsibility."
Matilda did not think of anything to say to this.
"I do not think you understand what you have been doing."
"I think I do, Aunt Candy."
"What did you want to be baptized for?"
"Because Jesus says we must."
"Yes, properly; but not improperly, without knowing what you do. What do you think it means, Matilda?"
"To be baptized, Aunt Erminia?"
"Yes."
"It means," said the child steadily, and with the clear utterance of pleasure, "that I belong to the Lord Jesus Christ."
"There!" said Clarissa, appealing to her mother.
"I thought so," said Mrs. Candy. "That is not what it means, Matilda."
"It is what I mean, Aunt Candy."
"It means a great deal more, my dear, which you cannot understand. And you ought to have had a white dress on."
"I don't think God cares," said Matilda.
"Did you ever hear such dreadful teaching as these people have?" said the mother, appealing to the daughter. "My dear, there is a propriety in things. And not one of the candidates this evening was dressed in white."
"But the water means a clean heart," said Matilda; "and if we have that, God will think we are dressed in white."
"So you think you have a clean heart?"
"I think Jesus has begun to make it clean."
"And what does it mean to renounce the devil and all his works?"
"It means," said Matilda, sighing, "to have nothing to do with anything that is wrong."
"How is such a child as you to know what is wrong?"
"Why, the Bible, Aunt Candy."
"What is the vain pomp and glory of the world?"
"I don't know," said Matilda. "Allthe glory, I suppose, except what God gives."
"What doesHegive, child?" said Mrs. Candy, with an odd expression on her face.
"Why, you know, Aunt Erminia," said Matilda, a little wearily.
"I should like to hear you tell."
"I can't tell," said Matilda. "I think it was glory, when He said of that poor woman, 'She hath done what she could.'"
"My dear," said Mrs. Candy, after a pause, "I am very sorry you have taken this step without consulting me. Your answers show that you have not the discrimination necessary for making such vows. However, it is too late now. You may go to bed."
Which Matilda did, and speedily forgot all that had troubled her in her aunt's words. For she went to sleep making a pillow to her head of those other words—
"And white robes were given to every one of them."
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Chapter 3: =than other folks= replaced by =than other folks'=
Chapter 5: =Richmond?'"= replaced by =Richmond'?"=
Chapter 6: =But?—what 'but?'"= replaced by =But?—what 'but'?"=
Chapter 7: =one to 'carry the message?'"= replaced by =one to 'carry the message'?"=
Chapter 8: =spend it somehow= replaced by =spend it, somehow=
Chapter 8: =Only one day= replaced by =Only, one day=
Chapter 8: =Well what?= replaced by =Well, what?=
Chapter 9: =band of workers= replaced by =Band of workers=
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